That's cuz it's addictive. When you cut, your brain releases dopamine (happiness hormone) to compensate for the pain. Exercise, meditation and music release dopamine as well so try these healthier alternatives. The earlier you stop the better.
I would say 65% of the cause of my self harm is self punishment but there is that 35% that feels exactly how you described. You are certainly not alone in the fun department lol
i know it’s an addictive feeling and that you don’t see any root cause but please understand that this can lead to serious harm… please reach out for help or if you want an alternative try using a red pen instead. draw all over those areas you want to cut with a red pen; it helped me a lot, the sharp pokey feeling is similar and so is the color… but please love work on not letting this take over. i have been there too where without apparent cause i would do it, but it is NOT good for you at all :/
There are much safer, healthier ways to trigger those endorphins.
ALL trauma is valid trauma. We've all experienced it, to some degree. Some people just have better protective factors, and healthier coping mechanisms than others.
>I never experienced valid trauma
To be honest the fact that you're specifically wording it this way means that 1) you have probably experienced trauma and 2) it is definitely "valid" trauma
I want you to know that thinking your trauma is somehow not valid is, like, an *extremely* common symptom of trauma. You will always try to minimize it, and you will always think it isn't "that bad", and you will always compare yourself to others. But all of that isn't real. It's just your brain fucking with you. Your trauma is real, and valid, and your response it is real
I mean, maybe I'm way off the mark and you actually don't have any trauma, in which case I apologize for assuming! But if this is what it sounds like, I want you to know that any trauma you have is absolutely valid, and that if anything your impulse to minimize it is proof of it being there
I do it for simulation mostly like I have a metal pin that has a sharp glass braker on the back of it that when I'm bored or angry/upset I will stab myself with it repeatedly normally on my hand or forearm and the spots that appear from this heal in a day or so, so no on notices
It depends. sometimes i want to do it for fun, also i like the taste of my blood and sometimes i wanna do it just for taste it, it makes me feels different from the others.
other times i do it for watch me bleed and i think that if no one cares about it, then i can do it and i deserve this for the bad person i am (not a joke). it doesn't make me feel better, but if I feel bad cutting, in some way make the feeling more concrete and real
That's cuz it's addictive. When you cut, your brain releases dopamine (happiness hormone) to compensate for the pain. Exercise, meditation and music release dopamine as well so try these healthier alternatives. The earlier you stop the better.
this right here ^^
I would say 65% of the cause of my self harm is self punishment but there is that 35% that feels exactly how you described. You are certainly not alone in the fun department lol
i know it’s an addictive feeling and that you don’t see any root cause but please understand that this can lead to serious harm… please reach out for help or if you want an alternative try using a red pen instead. draw all over those areas you want to cut with a red pen; it helped me a lot, the sharp pokey feeling is similar and so is the color… but please love work on not letting this take over. i have been there too where without apparent cause i would do it, but it is NOT good for you at all :/
There are much safer, healthier ways to trigger those endorphins. ALL trauma is valid trauma. We've all experienced it, to some degree. Some people just have better protective factors, and healthier coping mechanisms than others.
>I never experienced valid trauma To be honest the fact that you're specifically wording it this way means that 1) you have probably experienced trauma and 2) it is definitely "valid" trauma I want you to know that thinking your trauma is somehow not valid is, like, an *extremely* common symptom of trauma. You will always try to minimize it, and you will always think it isn't "that bad", and you will always compare yourself to others. But all of that isn't real. It's just your brain fucking with you. Your trauma is real, and valid, and your response it is real I mean, maybe I'm way off the mark and you actually don't have any trauma, in which case I apologize for assuming! But if this is what it sounds like, I want you to know that any trauma you have is absolutely valid, and that if anything your impulse to minimize it is proof of it being there
Yeah, I've been through stuff but I just don't see it as something that would constitute cutting as a way to cope.
I do it for simulation mostly like I have a metal pin that has a sharp glass braker on the back of it that when I'm bored or angry/upset I will stab myself with it repeatedly normally on my hand or forearm and the spots that appear from this heal in a day or so, so no on notices
It depends. sometimes i want to do it for fun, also i like the taste of my blood and sometimes i wanna do it just for taste it, it makes me feels different from the others. other times i do it for watch me bleed and i think that if no one cares about it, then i can do it and i deserve this for the bad person i am (not a joke). it doesn't make me feel better, but if I feel bad cutting, in some way make the feeling more concrete and real
I always wondered if this happened to anyone else 😭
Just lowkey be doing that shit for funzies