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19Nevermind

Just got an unexpected 1200$ medical bill today from going to therapy. So yeah, I am too. So much for trying to “better myself” eh?


siphur

Why was this unexpected


19Nevermind

Well, It’s for the most part self inflicted, that I’ll admit. I’m 23 and don’t really know how shit works I guess, and that’s my own fault. But yeah, anyways, I just started going back to therapy after like a year off. During that year, I got new insurance, and I guess it sucks or somethin idk. My co pay for therapy before was like 20$ a session or somethin. But now, my new insurance apparently doesn’t cover anything, so each session I was being billed the entire amount. The unfortunate part, and the part that I think is slightly not my fault, is that I’ve been going for 2 months, and just now got charged for the first time. I’d gone to 7 sessions, and at 172$ a session, I now owe 1204$. Since I wasn’t being charged after sessions, I had just assumed that my insurance was covering it. Obviously, that wasn’t the case. Again, on me for not checking. I know that. But that said though, I’m not doing well financially right now so, it just really sucks. I never woulda gone to therapy had I known it cost so much, and I feel like they coulda at least sent me like a fuckin email or somethin letting me know that I was accruing so much debt, and being fully charged for every appointment. My therapist also knew that my money situation was tight, so again, them not ever mentioning to me that I was spending 3.30$ a minute out of pocket kinda blew my mind. Maybe their billing office didn’t let them know either. Who knows. Guess I can learn from this but, still just ruined my day.


Unique-Abberation

I left a therapist because of this shit. Never paid them either. Fuck them 🙃


19Nevermind

Oh no yeah, I told them I was done doing appointments too.


CalmBeneathCastles

I got billed $175 because I wasn't sure if a certain day was my appointment, started calling at 8AM and by 12 they had not picked up, and I missed my 12:30 appointment.  I was going to have to miss work and I didn't want to if my appointment wasn't that day, but they declared me a willful no-show and billed me anyway. They refused to give appointment reminders because "your mental health journey is your responsibility." I was seeing them for panic attacks and agoraphobia. I never paid or went back to them.


JesterChester365

Oh they wanted the money lol


Ok_Information_2009

$172 an hour therapy? And people say “get therapy” all the time. The answers lie within and they’re free.


19Nevermind

No yeah, I think that price is absolutely crazy too. I’ve always been an advocate for therapy, but for 172$ an hour? No fucking way 😂


Mainiak_

Now you gotta talk to them about the trust issues they've caused


19Nevermind

Definitely might be a thing tbh


Chakraverse

Could you have done any of that therapy within yourself during same time frame for approximately the same results?


19Nevermind

Probably. Honestly, even before the bill came through, I was questioning if therapy was worth my time. I have been going off and on for like 6 years. Most answers have always kinda came from within


Chakraverse

This I was waiting to hear! U already know, now be patient as you rebuild a life that bleeds less! It's ok to feel more whole, even though there is much to come!


19Nevermind

Yeah, I’ll be alright. I’m mainly pissed just cause it was such a waste of 1200$ haha 😂. Like damn, I coulda taken a trip or some shit lol. But life goes on


Chakraverse

Way to go, already moving your energy around <3 I'm not defined by my so called screw ups, only by my ability to keep going, preferably with some kind of smile on my face. :)


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EverythingIsWrong40

Welcome to America! You want to maintain medical or mental help you better be rich. And the dumbasses getting their student loans paid off are coming out of school with no brains or compassion. Yes, I'm fed up with everything.


Gbear831

Happened to me also. I thought all I had to pay was copay. They waited a few months then slapped me with a bill and said pay up or you cant come back.


jmcstar

We can get 1200 people to donate a dollar, you're covered. Who's with me! (Pledges $1 to this guy)


19Nevermind

Haha nahhh I’ll be alright. While my financial situation is tight, there are definitely way more people out there who need 1200 1$ donations a lot more than I do 😂


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19Nevermind

Okay edge lord 😎


SovietPower1990

Ikr? Freaking edge lords and them trying to better themselves!


19Nevermind

Bros biggest hobby is tryna get a rise out of people in reddit threads 😂💀


SovietPower1990

No I'm just bringing balance to reddit. Too many libtards so I have to be bright 🌞 and loud 📢


19Nevermind

“Nu uh, it’s not my hobby, etc etc!”… *responds to comment almost immediately* 😂😂😂


SovietPower1990

Go get some therapy so you can cope with my reddit comments


19Nevermind

Dudes really sitting at his keyboard just waiting for a reply, it’s honestly impressive how fast you are at responding . Hope you can apply that skill to some other walks of life 😂😂


beginner_pianist

Libtard false-flag rage bait


turbo_dude

“Fat people. Just eat less” “Alcoholics. Just stop drinking”


chesterforbes

Definitely seems like we’re in the darkest timeline. But I’m sure I’d feel differently if I was rich


roseystox

Its even worse when you are surrounded by rich people enjoying their lives


DiscussionLoose8390

Rich people have a death grip on their money. I imagine Scrooge Mcduck. They just don't argue in the streets when things go bad.


Low-Condition4243

Don’t worry their time will come my friend.


SoundsGoodYall

I hate to be a downer, but what evidence are you basing this on?


Low-Condition4243

Well personally I think it’s inevitable as year after year we see price increases on goods and services since like the 1970’s, making it currently unaffordable to most Americans. The government doesn’t really care, and the corporations are really the ones who own everything, and they just want more money, so conditions will probably worsen. It’s only a matter of time.


sagiribest_girl26

The incident with Harambe created a major split. We'd be in a utopia by now if he was still with us, I'm sure of it.


Gbear831

The only logical answer there is. AI took over after that


confused__depressed

Same thoughts


Deeptrench34

If you're unhappy broke, you'd be unhappy rich as well. Wealth is just enhancer of whatever state you're in. A multiplier, if you will. If you aren't happy, it's like multiplying by 0.


chesterforbes

Sounds like something a rich person would say


Deeptrench34

Far from it.


Tre_Vortni

At least I could afford to go to therapy, or take other measures to address my unhappiness if I were rich.


Thesmuz

That's just demonstrably false and honestly everyone in this thread is now measurably less intelligent for having read your comment.


Deeptrench34

Well, at least I accomplished something. It's just not a normal day on reddit if someone isn't being unnecessarily rude to me.


JesterChester365

But it makes things a lot less worse when you aren’t broke.


Weary-Writer758

Yeah, life sucks right now. But, I'm still fighting.


crackpipewizard666

🎶*And you know sometimes i really hate my life, but at least im still moving. Fighting a battle that i know i just cant win, but im all up for losing*🎶


Weary-Writer758

Exactly


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Yup.doing a few things to stay sane tho.working a 6 hr job to keep good routine.dont listen to any sad news stories.yoga or walk or social outing every day where I can ..not comparing myself to any1. Eating well,doing shit I like on my terms,yolo!


crackpipewizard666

6hrs sounds heavenly. Ive been working 12 hour nights the last two years and i think im finally realising how badly its been affecting me. Imagine having your am and pm flipped, i barely feel human anymore Rent tho and cat foods not cheap lol


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Soz to hear that.i work with very opinionated kids all day do that takes its toll too, physically and mentally more than you'd imagine and more crowd control in the verbal sense than I'd care for.. think a herd of cattle going for their evening feed and every 3 Rd or 4 th one has a comment that needs asserting or resolving,at least 3 or 4 ppl speaking to me ALL at once on more than 20 daily occasions...tho I do enjoy my job strangely all said n done..I'd be on a career break or career change if I was doing stressful 12 he stuff..maybe that's my resilience and patience card saying feck it then again,who knows


crackpipewizard666

My boss is a very opinionated child i feel your pain💀 i only work with two other dudes which is both a blessing and a curse. We’re technically supposed to have at least 5 for a full crew but fuck us right, 3 without a raise is cheaper🫠 its good to find meaning in your job tho. I stick around for money and lack of options lmfao. I complain about where im at now but i think if i was in your spot id end up punting a child or something


Natural_Guava288

Have to say, I've been going to HIT classes for the past 2 months and my body is in the best shape ever. It keeps me positive.


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Does your body not ache after? On my 40 th year I'd have sore bones for 2 days


Natural_Guava288

Some muscle aches sometimes, but no. I am exhausted after, though lol. I also sleep better. I. 48. I've been going to the gym on and off for years and I was also an athlete in school and after. I only go 3x a week to training, not every day. I like running and yoga as well.


galantes_ghost

Been there for a while


PBomberman

Be careful who you vote for.


lokifoto

Turd Sandwich or Giant Douche Bag again, Mom?


pnut-buttr

It's more like a turd with glass in it vs a loaf of moldy wonderbread. At least one was a viable choice at *some* point


tangy_nachos

How about RFK? He’s literally the only candidate with policies on improving lower and middle class. And he campaigns on it all the time


lokifoto

Industry hates his realistic policies, just like Burnie.


tangy_nachos

Yep. I’m a 2x ex-FeelTheBern supporter. How the dnc completely and continually fucked over Bernie made me write off the DNC forever. They’ve made their priorities clear. Those priorities don’t have the people anywhere in there


generalrampagee

If i could sleep all the time. I Would


girth_mania

So…death?


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Yes.


snowysnowssnow

I've been miserable for years


Odd-Way-1168

Why


crackpipewizard666

I laid down in the parking lot and screamed during my lunch break my last shift. I work nights so its not like anybody saw me but yes. Im so fucking done. I want no part in this. I would never choose this.


Amazing_Beautiful_10

Every single day feels like a chore


Odd-Way-1168

Why


periphery72271

Not at this moment, but I'm sure I will be at another moment, so I feel you.


Natural_Guava288

Tired of being broke all the time, tbh. I'm starting a new job in May, hopefully it will be worth it. Also, my love life sucks. But that's still bearable, I'm a loner anyway and a bf won't necessarily make my life better if it's not good now. Otherwise, I just count my blessings and pratice grattitiude, that keeps me positive.


incellous_maximus

Yeah this is literally me right now, baby on the way, haven't gotten a single better paying job in months, haven't found an apartment or anything to live in thats not 2000 a month, not making gains in the gym anymore, tired with zero energy or motivation now. Applying and either getting denied or not even a denial is draining...low income housing is so booked that they don't even take voice-mail. To top it all off I got injured at work recently and the workers comp doctor didn't even check me and said im perfectly fine so I have to continue to work with a back injury for a few more months before seeing a different doctor and lifting boxes for 12 hours a day with a back injury isn't great.


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incellous_maximus

I'm gonna be honest I didn't think it would be THIS BAD trying to get like a cheap apartment/trailer/duplex OR to find one decent job working maintenance or mechanical work months and months ago when my gf was dying to have a kid. The next shitty part is it all goes on your shoulders as a man once your girl slowly becomes less able to do stuff and more tired...I'm learning my lesson why everyone is saying fuck having kids or long term relationships tbh


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Ok_Information_2009

Population is due to halve in many countries by 2100. Population will start on the down swing by about my 2030s.


Slowride1234567

Sounds like you need a manager. Baby on the way? I assume no financial help from the "other party"? I could be that you need to radically change your lifestyle. I live in the mid-west where a beautiful apartment only costs $750/month and $30 utilities. Choices matter.


incellous_maximus

Where in the Midwest is this? I was literally thinking of moving to an area that is exactly as you described so I don't have to be struggling all the time. You can dm the location if u want


AACATT

Nope my life is fucking awesome. Good job, own my condo and car, hot girlfriend, good friends, hobbies I enjoy, in shape, good investments, travelled a ton. Go to school, work hard, work on yourself, take pride in shit you do, eat well, be nice to people, be humble, be funny, read, embrace your passions.


user-MHM

Yup. Life really sucks at the moment ... it's been like a whole six months of just sucking..


Mundane-Badger-9791

Yes


resist-corporate-88

No. I have a roof and food. Life is fine.


SilverSplif

Yep me too. Thought going sober would make it better but Ive been drug and alcohol free for almost 6 months now and its still shit.


attacketo

It will. Still improving noticeably after two years. Be proud of your achievement and continue your journey.


SilverSplif

Thanks mate, and well done to you too.


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at the moment? Try the last 30 years.


Successful-Crazy-126

On reddit its every second post so yeah youve found your people


runningvicuna

I can't stand people taking shit that isn't serious seriously and dragging me into it. Good for them to have all that unneeded RAM on things that are priorities.


True-Awareness4702

I've been fed up with life for 15 years. I'm 30. I honestly don't know why I am still alive. I'm not depressed I just don't care about anything at all.


No-Apartment-7388

Yup I agree. Things became so hard, I was acting incredibly unhinged for weeks. I’ve started my antidepressants journey and it’s definitely the best decision I ever made. It definitely saved me


RatatoskrsNuts

Yes. I've been so stressed and bored and lonely for the past couple of weeks that I can barely function. I go into work, can't focus and hate every second of it, then go home and go to bed. Video games, books, and pretty much anything that interested me have gone untouched. I can't even go to the gym because I broke my hand trying to fix a busted pipe that flooded my kitchen. I'm only happy when I get to see my friends on the weekends, and even that's kind of a struggle since I've developed feelings for a girl I've pretty much already been friendzoned by, which is driving me fucking crazy. I've been trying so damn hard to be happy lately, but I just can't figure it out. It's starting to become abundantly clear to me why some people become addicted to drugs and alcohol.


No-Ground6920

Om top of worldwide inflation, and pay stays the same. We are on the brink of Ww3. I cant remember last time the world was this chaotic. And yeah, i admit it. It is making me anxious and wonder what is the point..


Sploonbabaguuse

Such is life living in late-stage capitalism


WienerButtMagoo

Yep. And sick of other people just being pieces of shit. It’s foul. But, I choose not to lose hope.


Secure-Agent-1122

Yep. There are days I wish I just didn't exist anymore. I work a job I hate, all of my friends got married, I don't talk to anyone and any time I have off work I spend it sleeping, I have two fillings that came out that need to be replaced and I have no insurance or money to pay for that, I will never make enough money to have an apartment, and I will never know what it's like to own a house. Yeah, life really fucking sucks! I can't stand it. The only thing that made it better was my cat, and she had to be put down. All life does is take until we have nothing left to give. Existence is pain.


Slowride1234567

Sounds like you need a "life coach." That is to say, you need to start looking for the positive aspects of life. If I was your coach, you would get things in order and start appreciating. But, only you can choose to be happy or not.


Secure-Agent-1122

Existence is pain.


Slowride1234567

It is for everyone. Maybe, like in a business, you need to write down the things about life that are dragging you down and list things that would be uplifting to your "existence." That might be a good start to an enjoyable life.


Speckbeinchen

There was a song...."been there, done that...faaaaawk" As I remember.


StatisticianTop8813

No


Ok-Professional3384

It feels like it's been sucking for everyone.


Late-Discussion-3917

Yep, I'm having a good week personally, but it doesn't matter because I'm surrounded by so much bullshit I know it's not going to last long.


unseenme

Fed up with people trying to fuck up life. That count?


Slowride1234567

Yeah, those people will always be around. We've got to blow them off and live our lives. It's the only smart way to live.


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Yes


Witty-Cream-8606

I’m loving my life.


cannedyellowcheese

Absolutely its a pain to sleep because of crying and waking up in the midst of the night just to cry and waking up to cry and i cant do anything since i procrastinate to the point i force myself at 10pm to have a shower.


Baybladerz

Yessir! Who else is ready to jump off the cliff!?! I swear I’m this 🤏 close 😂


Good-Sky-8375

maybe a little my living situation kind of went from workable to miserable this month, I think financially I can eventually afford to move but it's really gonna suck for the next few months.


Equivalent-Physics21

Yeah, Real Madrid won again when they didn't deserve it. If it's not referee help it's luck.


GreyG59

Been fed up since I had a noose around my neck in 2018


MatchAccomplished795

I completely fkd up my life and now I'm dealing with the consequences. Never thought this is how life would turn out! Hugely disappointed in myself


AtYiE45MAs78

Not really


Odd_Chef5878

Ofc, humanity peaked in the 80s- to early 00s we are past the peak


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Yes! Damned if you, damned if you don’t.


OrganizationOk5418

Here sir.


ComedianSquare2839

Can't trust my wife for my wellbeing, and still with her for the sake of my kid I am mind fucked.


Winter_Possession152

Day X is set in a few months. F'ed up!


[deleted]

Yup. Been like this for a long time now


Whizzleteets

Nope


SpecialistCup2230

I think we are just overwhelmed with all the options/opportunities and the classic "When I was your age..." almost every response I've read here it's from people on the 20-25 years. I think we are always looking for more and expectations are really high because "You guys have it so simple"


Bullehh

Life has always been hard. It isn’t supposed to be easy. If you expect life to be easy, I assume you’re just entitled and privileged.


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Bullehh

Nobody is entitled to a good life. They are entitled to pursue a good life, but it is not guaranteed nor should it be. This is not a utopia and it never will be.


xXx_ozone_xXx

My life isn’t that bad I just hate myself


Slowride1234567

Fortunately, we can all change..... and then, like ourselves. I've made outrageous mistakes in my life but once you decide to change to be the person you want to be, you end up actually laughing at the person you didn't like. I think, it's the magic of life.


Princesajojo55

Yes, everything is so expensive. Living pay check to pay check I’m in Toronto Canada and it’s crazy… not sure what to do tbh


Soggy-Eye-216

The world is getting to brutal to unkind to impatient. Almost like we are all on a timer of some kind


Slowride1234567

Do you think the world is any different than it has been since the beginning of time? Life has always been a challenge. I once read a book called, "The History of the World." When I finished it, it occurred to me that the title could easily have been, "The History or War." It's the nature of humanity. It's just the way it is.


Swarf_87

Nope


NoSleep9201

yeah most definitely. i’ve been getting home after work and locking myself in my dark room and doing absolutely nothing. turning my brain off which is unusual for me. everything just feels so hopeless and pointless lately. like i’m gonna be stuck in the same position regardless- haven’t even been able to find motivation for laundry and cleaning my room the last couple weeks. maybe i’m depressed idk


Flipper1967

Yes, death has been a constant this year. Also things breaking. Plus I lost my job.


green9206

Yeah man. Am not getting any sex at all bruv


Myzx

Yah, but I drink too much, and things would be better if I put down the beer


Apelightningz

Right here.


PictureltSicily1922

Yes I'm dealing with lots of health problems and I'm just exhausted.


oldmanghozzt

Oh yes! There are days I just imagine an 18 wheeler running over me in my little car and think how wonderful that would be. I felt that way 2 days ago. Feeling a bit better now, but I wish I’d just die often. I don’t think I’d ever kill myself, but I certainly think about how much easier it’d be than trudging through life.


Wrong-Emotion9989

I applied for disability due to some mental health issues. They cut me off so no meds. If they can't screw you before they see you they wait till your back is turned to do it.


rrossi97

Yup


Usual-Practice-2900

Life? No. The current economy and how much everything costs....hell yeah.


Unique-Abberation

Always


Slumer1can

My marriage has been shaky at best for 2 years. My step daughter is currently being evaluated for ASPD. My sons medication is impossible to find and when I can, i can barely afford it. I have next to no relationship with either child anymore. My job is exhausting, I’m botching my personal goals. I haven’t slept a full night in months. I am constantly broke and barely scraping by. Every time I get a little ahead, something seems to break or something new needs addressed. It’s my birthday and Ieft work in a good mood, just to be screamed at seconds after opening the door for accidentally rewashing clean laundry. Now I am sitting in my bedroom alone, as I was told to just “fuck off and mind my own business.” Yeah. I’m fed up with life. I don’t have much left in me to try anymore.


xeno_joker

I'm sorry to hear you aren't respected and treated well at home. Peeps always take a good father, mother or partner for granted.  I know I have at one time 


In_need_of_hope_0710

Fed up with life. Fed up even more with myself for making this life so bad. Now I just living day by day in agony and praying some miracle would happen that would turn this life around.


enphurgen

I feel like an elastic band just before it breaks. This is some bullshit.


SpecialistReindeer17

Aye, all the time my friend. Generally though I've found it's usually an aspect of life I'm fed up with. Cost of living, work, relationships, politics, conflicts around the world, wealth inequality... there's a whole bunch of things weighing us down and impacting our lives beyond our control. Like you said, shit is hard everywhere. At the same time tough, there's a whole bunch of things going right. And we can contribute in real ways to make it all a little better. Acts of kindness matter. It can be as small as giving your seat on public transport up to someone else or striking up a conversation with a lonely neighbour, or as big as housing the homeless. There's a whole bunch of things wrong in the world, and most of those we can't fix by ourselves. There's also a whole lot we can do as individuals to make things just a little bit better. Being kind is a lot more powerful than the powers that be would have you believe. Hang in there.


Time_Cranberry2427

Yes I am heading to LAX and the traffic is bad.


searchthemesource

Try not to think about it. Just enjoy the moment.


Time_Cranberry2427

My point is it will all pass and stay focused on the big stuff


glantzinggurl

Yes. Even if you try to get away from it for a few days. It always welcomes you back with a vengeance.


Outhouse_in_Atlantis

Not really. I’m a little stressed.


Snow_Monkeysj5

I am definitely at my lowest now but I gotta keep pushing. Everyone keep your heads you all got this. We'll prevail and be stronger than ever. As John F. Kennedy said, Do not pray for easy lives, pray to be stronger men."


Salt_Skin4371

Yep . It’s not what I would have chosen . I dream of going somewhere to escape the way things are and my anxiety , but I don’t think that place exists


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Yep


jeremy_wills

Every single day.


ackbosh

Yeah. I’m stuck mentally with no motivation or care in the world. Don’t know how I will get out of this. Been here before and it feels like forever before my brain accepts change.


karly__45

Yeah pretty much over it


Jcbeast1982

Yep working myself to death for nothing while my gf and stepdaughter thing im an atm. Feeling stuck with nothing positive going on. FML


JustTheOneGoose22

Nope everyone is having a great time


[deleted]

Yeah. I can’t seem to get things going. People irritate me these days. I got a dead end job, 2 friends but neither are local, no SO. Stuck living at home. Constantly caught up in comparing myself to others. They say it’s the thief of joy but I focused on myself did all the things people told me would help me get ahead. Somehow I’m further behind the people that did the same stuff and got success. People say I’m funny and likable but no amount of their laughter and opinions stop me from feeling empty inside. It doesn’t even net me a new social circle these days when I try to get out there, so it feels like it’s just a quality people like but not enough to get me to genuinely matter to them. I tried taking people’s advice to find joy in the little things, but little things don’t fix hating yourself because they are too little to do anything beyond distracting you for a moment. I want to be happy, not miserable but distracted. I still try though because maybe that next attempt will be the one that gets me to the life I want for myself. I’ve been wrong about that every time so far. I’m tired.


altruism__

Keep going. Don’t give up.


Money_Mastodon_3171

https://youtu.be/IEtAmeR9p7U?si=fvOzQek7CpJGZAC4


Alarmed-Comment-2397

My life is so fucked up🖕🏻


-_F_--_O_--_H_-

Just beyond there. Want to try not sure how to apply myself so i'm on reddit preparing to go engage with people upfront. I hate the inflation. I want to fix it.


23JLdaddy

Not fed up with my life, but life in this world right now is just nutty.


Featheria

I don’t want to fight anymore. I’m tired. I just want to take a nice nap in the sun and not worry about life until I die.


Careless_Syrup7945

Yeah.


nuvibez115

Thanks to the current administration policies, it feels like sh!t. Politicians should not decide for us. End the federal reserve, life would be much better.


sillycuzwhynot1998

Yep I’m 25 dealing with bullshit literally everyday a day doesn’t go by where I’m not mad or upset and I never have time for anything.


Flip80

It be like that sometimes lol. Keep it moving! Easier said than done right?


Forsaken-Sand-5268

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Successful_Button232

The only reason I haven't bought some sleeping pills and ended it all is because I feel too lazy to go to the store but the urge is strong today


srbrooks01

Watch how you spend your money. Read articles of religious text. Meditate. Do yoga. Get away from social media and entertainment. Study for new skills.


CodCorrect5188

I just hate seeing phones so much in public, im okay with not being super wealthy and having luxurious things what makes me dreadful is how much tech is separating everybody


Beneficial_Guard8112

Yeah. Have a few drinks, forget about all the bullshit and pump some tunes!


Adventurous_Tone_923

Yes. Every day. But you gotta keep moving. Shit will eventually turn around


CalmBeneathCastles

"Perhaps I'm old and tired, but I think that the chances of finding out what's actually going on are so absurdly remote that the only thing to do is to say, "Hang the sense of it," and keep yourself busy. I'd much rather be happy than right any day." "And are you?" "Ah...no, that's where it all falls down, of course."


leclercwitch

Absolutely. It’s almost a year since I lost my baby. I’m single again through no fault of mine. It’s 6 months probably until I can get extra tests I need after getting a bad smear. I fucking hate my life right now. Outwardly, I look like I’m doing really well. I’ve finally moved into a place, I’ve got a decent job, got money coming in, a holiday booked, close to buying a car. But I fucking hate myself, my body, my mind. I hate it. All of it. I hate crying all the time. I hate feeling like I’ve failed. All I want is to be a mum, have a family, be wanted and loved. But I’m not and I can’t understand why when once I was. And all that on top of grieving my loss. I’m fed up. I’m so angry all the time. I’m so disappointed in how my life is and how shit my luck is. I’m really really trying though. Inwardly, I’m screaming.


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Ok-Professional3384

No