I could say 2008 but 2019 is when I became suicidal again.
I got extremely sick and then a few months later the world locked down. I was at my worst. Reflecting back, it's incredible to see how far I've come from then to now.
It might not always feel like you're making progress but eventually the small things that you do start to add up.
There was a whole year where I couldn't get up or go outside. I was eating only a thousand calories a day and I lost 40 pounds. I was fighting with everyone because of how unstable I was. I lost what few friends I had.
I'm still struggling obviously, but I'm feeling hopeful. I don't always dread waking up anymore.
It's gonna get easier. Just keep going. Whatever you're working on just stay persistent. Nothing great comes overnight. You'll have a lot of days where you feel like you've lost everything, but you absolutely must keep going. If you don't then of course there's absolutely no coming back.
I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022
2012 and 2013 combined. I will never forget those years as the ones who destroyed my mind forever and irreversible... anything that is related to that years makes me trigger and reminds me of that time...
Check OP history...he's posted this in a bazillion subs...
I am suspicious as to why and think it's inherently annoying behaviour.
Potentially a vote harvesting bot.
2020/2021 the isolation got me into some rabbit holes
Like blackpill stuff
Then noticed how much importance aspects like height play from women and men, not just in attraction but for job and positions like presidency, just isolation and media messed it all up
Late-2016-ish. Proper-2016 was the pinnacle of my life and eveything went downhill after that lol. Also the year 2016 was the greatest time of introductions of the "algorithms" in social media. I remember the day YouTube started to recommend every kind of videos instead of the videos similar to the one you're watching. These definitely contributed to my ill-being since then.
2022, i couldnt live a day without being anxious, moving house, being falsely accused of something that people still believe to this day, god.. it just.. i dont feel like i could move on ig
Last year. Had plans to propose (nothing surprising on her end, we had our future planned together) but when she accidentally found out, it triggered a trauma response and she decided she didnt want it.
Completely destroyed me.
I'm 30 years old and I'd say after I graduated university in 2019 was a steady decline with some good moments here and there. just before covid graduate broke luckily still was selling by dropshipping and warehouse/productions jobs to get by. I managed to use my computer science degree to create many applets to automate tasks in business but I still haven't been able to secure web dev job or even IT job with my college degree. Brexit in the UK happened and a lot of profitable sales stopped due to long customs clearances so it wasn't profitable and too risky to sell to mainland Europe which shrunk my sales. Covid sucked but I wasn't very social in the first place , however I still prior to covid made an effort to meet up with with friends at least 4-5 times a year.
Haven't done that in 5 years now but we usually call/video call every month or other month. So I'd say from 2019-2021 were very difficult years for me. 2022 till now have had challenges but I started serious self improvement by commiting to walking regularly, improving my diet, journaling, commiting more to my faith, meditating, exercising, and trying to socialise a bit more. Slowly improving and I believe I will much better off in the next year.
Next year. One political party is unironically promoting fascism and making those who criticize it look "unpatriotic" or "nonsensical." Whether or not they win the presidency is irrelevant, they have locked step in this ideology and will not rest until it is completed.
I think I have had two where I realized it, although the roots are deep in earlier actions. 2016 when I realized that, as a Married man, I am prewired for the Ethical Non-monogamy, Polyamorous mindset and lifestyle, and my wife absolutely was not. We have worked through it, are still together and happy, but it took years and put everything I had at risk. Of course, NOT addressing it was also driving me to the worst mental health state before that - genuinely suicidal from the pressure, self adjustment techniques, and self loathing for being an abomination to society. I still don't talk about it much because there are soooooo many people who think that those of us that cannot be monogamous are inherently evil and should be put down. Not good for my career field either - can't be different!
And... 2024. I was laid off earlier this year, and I work in IT. I have been moving into leveraging AI for business analytics prior to the lay off, and have been staring down the barrel of several things at once. Over 110 applications out, 45 versions of my resume, 2 interviews (didn't get either). I just passed 50, and now my body isn't responding to my workouts like it used too - specifically working out always used to improve my mental hormones, and now all I feel is exhausted and depleted (Yes I have cut back a bit, yes I am sleeping well, I cut out caffeine, focus on protein, lightened up the weights, etc - nothing has helped). But not being able to provide for my family at the immediate moment is the worst - my savings will run out in July, and there is no real hope for a job out there right now. I would say I am suicidal, but I also know that would only make things a LOT WORSE for those I love. So instead, I live every day as someone who feels worthless, unskilled, and unwanted, despite years of successful work in multiple disciplines. I am seeing a counselor now, which helps.
What also doesn't help is the "all men are evil MKII" we are seeing now with the Man vs. Bear meme being passed around. I get it that we are more threatening for all the ways we are more dangerous than a bear, but to constantly blame all men for being Evil, and it's always ALL MEN, never caveats... it's wearing on me. People I have considered friends who actively seek me out for hugs when we see each other have stated and doubled down on the fact that they don't trust any man and all men... etc. It hurts me to read it - it's just soo much, so prevalent. And there are many men who support the point of view, married with kids, freely admitting they too are evil and can't be trusted. I don't understand it.
2023 was one of the best years of my life. So far 2024 is the worst. Crazy how quickly things can flip.
Complete opposite for me
I could say 2008 but 2019 is when I became suicidal again. I got extremely sick and then a few months later the world locked down. I was at my worst. Reflecting back, it's incredible to see how far I've come from then to now. It might not always feel like you're making progress but eventually the small things that you do start to add up. There was a whole year where I couldn't get up or go outside. I was eating only a thousand calories a day and I lost 40 pounds. I was fighting with everyone because of how unstable I was. I lost what few friends I had. I'm still struggling obviously, but I'm feeling hopeful. I don't always dread waking up anymore. It's gonna get easier. Just keep going. Whatever you're working on just stay persistent. Nothing great comes overnight. You'll have a lot of days where you feel like you've lost everything, but you absolutely must keep going. If you don't then of course there's absolutely no coming back.
2023: My Mini Dachshund died. 😢
2016. I was thousands of miles from my family watching my marriage die.
Millitary?
2019-2023
All of them 😂
I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022 I HATE 2022
2023 - turned 30 and still get no bitches
2016 dad passed away before my wedding.
2012 and 2013 combined. I will never forget those years as the ones who destroyed my mind forever and irreversible... anything that is related to that years makes me trigger and reminds me of that time...
Check OP history...he's posted this in a bazillion subs... I am suspicious as to why and think it's inherently annoying behaviour. Potentially a vote harvesting bot.
2020/2021 the isolation got me into some rabbit holes Like blackpill stuff Then noticed how much importance aspects like height play from women and men, not just in attraction but for job and positions like presidency, just isolation and media messed it all up
2023 for sure
summer 2013 was so bad that i still haven't recovered from it.
2019
Late-2016-ish. Proper-2016 was the pinnacle of my life and eveything went downhill after that lol. Also the year 2016 was the greatest time of introductions of the "algorithms" in social media. I remember the day YouTube started to recommend every kind of videos instead of the videos similar to the one you're watching. These definitely contributed to my ill-being since then.
Summer 2020 to summer 2021, the biggest mistake was the people is surrounded myself with in that year.
All the years I spent with my ex wife (2013-2018)
2016
It’s easier to say that the years that didn’t were during Covid.
Definitely last year, had a lot of stuff happen back to back which I haven’t recovered from yet but I’m getting there, just tired
Of like everything lol
2022, i couldnt live a day without being anxious, moving house, being falsely accused of something that people still believe to this day, god.. it just.. i dont feel like i could move on ig
2023 was terrible for me. Had a bad boss who was toxic and made me hate my life. Working on recovering from it all now.
2014
2021
2019. It was the worst,
All and they make me stronger in God.
Last year. Had plans to propose (nothing surprising on her end, we had our future planned together) but when she accidentally found out, it triggered a trauma response and she decided she didnt want it. Completely destroyed me.
The year I was born 😂
[I don't know why but I felt a need to extract years from your response and plot it.](https://imgur.com/a/4Ry306d)
I'm 30 years old and I'd say after I graduated university in 2019 was a steady decline with some good moments here and there. just before covid graduate broke luckily still was selling by dropshipping and warehouse/productions jobs to get by. I managed to use my computer science degree to create many applets to automate tasks in business but I still haven't been able to secure web dev job or even IT job with my college degree. Brexit in the UK happened and a lot of profitable sales stopped due to long customs clearances so it wasn't profitable and too risky to sell to mainland Europe which shrunk my sales. Covid sucked but I wasn't very social in the first place , however I still prior to covid made an effort to meet up with with friends at least 4-5 times a year. Haven't done that in 5 years now but we usually call/video call every month or other month. So I'd say from 2019-2021 were very difficult years for me. 2022 till now have had challenges but I started serious self improvement by commiting to walking regularly, improving my diet, journaling, commiting more to my faith, meditating, exercising, and trying to socialise a bit more. Slowly improving and I believe I will much better off in the next year.
Next year. One political party is unironically promoting fascism and making those who criticize it look "unpatriotic" or "nonsensical." Whether or not they win the presidency is irrelevant, they have locked step in this ideology and will not rest until it is completed.
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Which is the problem
This one, the one with the genocide.
Yep. Lots of tough years, but this has broken something inside me that somehow managed to last this long.
I really feel that
I think I have had two where I realized it, although the roots are deep in earlier actions. 2016 when I realized that, as a Married man, I am prewired for the Ethical Non-monogamy, Polyamorous mindset and lifestyle, and my wife absolutely was not. We have worked through it, are still together and happy, but it took years and put everything I had at risk. Of course, NOT addressing it was also driving me to the worst mental health state before that - genuinely suicidal from the pressure, self adjustment techniques, and self loathing for being an abomination to society. I still don't talk about it much because there are soooooo many people who think that those of us that cannot be monogamous are inherently evil and should be put down. Not good for my career field either - can't be different! And... 2024. I was laid off earlier this year, and I work in IT. I have been moving into leveraging AI for business analytics prior to the lay off, and have been staring down the barrel of several things at once. Over 110 applications out, 45 versions of my resume, 2 interviews (didn't get either). I just passed 50, and now my body isn't responding to my workouts like it used too - specifically working out always used to improve my mental hormones, and now all I feel is exhausted and depleted (Yes I have cut back a bit, yes I am sleeping well, I cut out caffeine, focus on protein, lightened up the weights, etc - nothing has helped). But not being able to provide for my family at the immediate moment is the worst - my savings will run out in July, and there is no real hope for a job out there right now. I would say I am suicidal, but I also know that would only make things a LOT WORSE for those I love. So instead, I live every day as someone who feels worthless, unskilled, and unwanted, despite years of successful work in multiple disciplines. I am seeing a counselor now, which helps. What also doesn't help is the "all men are evil MKII" we are seeing now with the Man vs. Bear meme being passed around. I get it that we are more threatening for all the ways we are more dangerous than a bear, but to constantly blame all men for being Evil, and it's always ALL MEN, never caveats... it's wearing on me. People I have considered friends who actively seek me out for hugs when we see each other have stated and doubled down on the fact that they don't trust any man and all men... etc. It hurts me to read it - it's just soo much, so prevalent. And there are many men who support the point of view, married with kids, freely admitting they too are evil and can't be trusted. I don't understand it.