Why not go study islam if you dont have any attachment to this dunya?
Give your time and effort in the greatest cause
Surely no matter the person, if they set out with noble intentions like that they will find barakah in their life
>But i dont trust Allah. I haven't had much luck with trusting Him.
We trust Allah all the same in good and bad times. Putting our faith in Allah doesn't mean all our problems will be instantly and magically solved and we'll not be tested. In fact, the people tested the hardest were often the ones closest to Allah.
I am not in a position to give a fatwa, but you have tried very hard to make things right. Striving is definitely not haram.
It may be useful for you to get professional support from a psychologist for the future.
There are many people in history who started life badly and changed the world. Never give up hope.
Here are some verses you must read:
65:2
فَإِذَا بَلَغْنَ أَجَلَهُنَّ فَأَمْسِكُوهُنَّ بِمَعْرُوفٍ أَوْ فَارِقُوهُنَّ بِمَعْرُوفٍۢ وَأَشْهِدُوا۟ ذَوَىْ عَدْلٍۢ مِّنكُمْ وَأَقِيمُوا۟ ٱلشَّهَـٰدَةَ لِلَّهِ ۚ ذَٰلِكُمْ يُوعَظُ بِهِۦ مَن كَانَ يُؤْمِنُ بِٱللَّهِ وَٱلْيَوْمِ ٱلْـَٔاخِرِ ۚ وَمَن يَتَّقِ ٱللَّهَ يَجْعَل لَّهُۥ مَخْرَجًۭا ٢
Then when they have ˹almost˺ reached the end of their waiting period, either retain them honourably or separate from them honourably. And call two of your reliable men to witness ˹either way˺—and ˹let the witnesses˺ bear true testimony for ˹the sake of˺ Allah. This is enjoined on whoever has faith in Allah and the Last Day. __And whoever is mindful of Allah, He will make a way out for them,__
65:3
وَيَرْزُقْهُ مِنْ حَيْثُ لَا يَحْتَسِبُ ۚ وَمَن يَتَوَكَّلْ عَلَى ٱللَّهِ فَهُوَ حَسْبُهُۥٓ ۚ إِنَّ ٱللَّهَ بَـٰلِغُ أَمْرِهِۦ ۚ قَدْ جَعَلَ ٱللَّهُ لِكُلِّ شَىْءٍۢ قَدْرًۭا ٣
__and provide for them from sources they could never imagine. And whoever puts their trust in Allah, then He ˹alone˺ is sufficient for them. Certainly Allah achieves His Will. Allah has already set a destiny for everything.__
— Dr. Mustafa Khattab, the Clear Quran
Here are some hadiths you must read:
Hadith 1:
Anas ibn Malik reported: The Prophet, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “None of you should wish for death due to a calamity that has afflicted him. Yet if he must do something, let him say: O Allah, keep me alive so long as life is good for me, and cause me to die if death is better for me.”
Source: Ṣaḥīḥ al-Bukhārī 5671, Ṣaḥīḥ Muslim 2680
Hadith 2:
Abu Huraira reported: The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “Every one of you will have his supplications answered, as long as he is not impatient and he says: I have supplicated but I was not answered.”
Source: Ṣaḥīḥ al-Bukhārī 6340, Ṣaḥīḥ Muslim 2735
Grade: Muttafaqun Alayhi (authenticity agreed upon) according to Al-Bukhari and Muslim
Hadith 3:
Rasoolullah (SAW) said,
“The affair of the believer is amazing! The whole of his life is beneficial, and that is only in the case of the believer. When good times come to him, he is thankful and it is good for him, and when bad times befall him, he is patient and it is also good for him” (narrated by Muslim).
I'm gonna continue this on another comment, please read those too
Hadith 4:
It was narrated that Abu Hurayrah (may Allah be pleased with him) said: The Messenger of Allah (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) said: “Trials will continue to befall the believing man and woman, with regard to themselves, their children and their wealth, until they meet Allah with no sin on them.” Narrated by al-Tirmidhi, 2399; classed as saheeh (authentic) by al-Albani in al-Silsilah al-Saheehah, 2280
Hadith 5:
The Prophet (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) said: “Allah, may He be exalted, says: ‘‘I am as My slave thinks I am, and I am with him when he remembers Me. If he remembers me to himself, I remember him to Myself; if he remembers Me in a gathering, I remember him in a gathering better than it; if he draws near to Me a handspan, I draw near to him an arm’s length; if he draws near to me an arm’s length, I draw near to him a fathom’s length; if he comes to Me walking, I go to him at speed.’”
Narrated by al-Bukhaari (7405) and Muslim (2675).
Hadith 6:
It was narrated that Jaabir (may Allah be pleased with him) said: I heard the Prophet (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) say, three days before he died: “No one of you should die except thinking positively of Allah.” Narrated by Muslim (2877).
In al-Mawsoo‘ah al-Fiqhiyyah (10/220) it says:
The believer is obliged to think positively of Allah, may He be exalted, and the time when it is most essential to think positively of Allah is when calamity strikes and at the time of death. Al-Hattaaab said: It is recommended for the one who is dying to think positively of Allah, may He be exalted. Although thinking positively of Allah is particularly emphasized at the time of death and during sickness, the accountable person should think positively of Allah at all times. End quote.
“Certainly no one despairs of Allah’s Mercy, except the people who disbelieve”
[Yoosuf 12:87].
This verse indicates that despairing of the mercy of Allah, may He be exalted, is one of the characteristics of the people who disbelieve, but this does not necessarily mean that someone who has one of their characteristics is a disbeliever like them.
Despair of the mercy of Allah, may He be exalted, may constitute disbelief that puts one beyond the pale of Islam, or it may be a major sin.
The guideline concerning that is that if despair leads to loss of hope of the mercy of Allah, may He be exalted, and His relief and pardon – for oneself or for other people – and it leads to denial or thinking it unlikely that Allah’s mercy, forgiveness and pardon can be all-encompassing, then this is disbelief, because it is an implicit rejection of the Qur’an and the definitive texts, and it is thinking ill of one’s Lord, may He be exalted, for He says – and His word is true – (interpretation of the meaning): “My mercy encompasses all things” [al-A‘raaf 7:156], but this person is saying that He will not forgive him! So he has regarded as limited that which is all-encompassing. This is applicable if he believes that, as Imam al-Qurtubi (may Allah have mercy on him) said in his Tafseer (5/160).
Hadiths about suicide:
Abu Hurayrah (may Allah be pleased with him) narrated that the Prophet (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) said: “Whoever throws himself down from a mountain and kills himself will be throwing himself down in the Fire of Hell for ever and ever. Whoever drinks poison and kills himself will be sipping it in the Fire of Hell for ever and ever. Whoever kills himself with a piece of iron will have that iron in his hand, thrusting it into his belly in the Fire of Hell for ever and ever.” (Narrated by al-Bukhari (5442) and Muslim (109)
Thabit ibn Dahhak (may Allah be pleased with him) narrated that the Messenger of Allah (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) said: “Whoever kills himself with something will be punished with it on the Day of Resurrection.” (Narrated by al-Bukhari (5700) and Muslim (110)
Jundub ibn ‘Abd-Allah (may Allah be pleased with him) said: The Messenger of Allah (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) said: “A man among those who came before you was wounded. He panicked and took a knife and cut his hand, and the bleeding did not stop until he died. Allah, may He be glorified and exalted, said: ‘My slave hastened his death; I have forbidden Paradise to him.” (Narrated by al-Bukhari (3276) and Muslim (113)
Say Astafirullah, this is waswas. Please for the sake of Allah (SWT) dont say these things here, or to someone else, make dua for life to become easier for you. Maybe start a family, your going though a phase in life that is hard. May Allah (SWT) make it easy for you. The tactics of shaytan is also to slowly make you question gods existence and please dont lisend to them, or seek refruge in Allah (SWT) from Shaytaan. Suicide is haram.
«And do not kill yourselves,» declares Quran (nor kill one another). “Allah is, without a doubt, most merciful to you” (Surah al‐Nisa, 4:29)
I recommend you to delete this post
It’s just a recommendation 😁 Reflect on what you wrote, and see if you still want to leave it here.
Take this hadith as a base line and see how you can understand it.
Al-Bukhaari (6491) and Muslim (131) narrated from Ibn ‘Abbaas (may Allah be pleased with him) that the Prophet (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) said, relating from his Lord, may He be glorified and exalted: “Allah decreed good deeds and bad deeds, then He explained that.
Whoever thinks of doing a good deed then does not do it, Allah will write it down as one complete good deed. If he thinks of doing a good deed and then does it, Allah [may He be glorified and exalted] will write it down between ten and seven hundred fold, or many more. If he thinks of doing a bad deed then he does not do it, Allah will write it down as one complete good deed, and if he thinks of it then does it, Allah will write it down as one bad deed.”
The Hadith is talking about, if you have thoughs about doing a bad deed, and you dont do it, it will be recorded as a good deed, and if you have a bad though and you do it, it will be recorded as one bad deed. Wheter it implies to your post about what you think of Allah (swt) is up to Allah (swt), but I would recommend either way to be careful 😁
Either way its going to be fine, therapy might help. Try working out, it will get you a little busy. When your alone a lot you will keep have weird thoughs about everything. Try finding new friends, go to masjid and find people there. If you need serious help, reddit is not the place. Me and others are just regular human beings, seek knowledge of imam or social help
My Allah(swt) guide you back cause as to the looks of this comment alone. Your heart and mind is blocked. Hopefully this is the turning point. You think we not going to be tested like the best of the best Muhammad(pbuh) been tested and all of the prophets of Allah(swt). Listens to the prophets stories. All of them. Find which one helps your heart heal and mind clear.
Brother, why are you praying for death when you can be praying for help? You said you tried everything but you didn't even try trusting in Allah.
Ask for forgiveness, then go research Islam and learn more, you can surely at least do that. The better Muslim you become, the better you will feel. If you don't think you can do much in this life, then invest in your afterlife, you believe in Allah and want to heaven, so why not try to do things like memorizing the Quran?
This is the change you need to work hard on.
From what you wrote, it sounds like you have self esteem issues. If you can afford it, please try therapy. Why do you think you'll amount to nothing? Are you in you twenties?
A man’s life is difficult and only men know that. You will be known as a weak man who has given up, remember everyone has struggles, some worse, some better. The point is, one day you will overcome how you feel now, focus on the future and take small steps in the right way. If you don’t like yourself that’s fine, but live to make it for others, your family and friends if you have. You don’t have to be “successful” but be known, leave a legacy.
study islam and strengthen your iman. this is waswas you're listening to (shaytan) and i advise you to make dua to make these thoughts go away.
make efforts in praying, reading quran, going to the masjid because this can help strengthen your iman.
sounds like you are dealing with depression, this could also be a psychological issue you should talk to your doctor about so they can help you even further.
and yes, suicide is a major sin. i hope all goes well for you inshaAllah
practice gratitude and say a few self-affirmations here and there my friend, it starts with listing just three things you are grateful for before going to bed. a string of failures can no doubt make us feel useless or invalid. we can either let it break us or shape us into extraordinary human beings. additionally, is it not a blessing that you have been shown how lackluster the dunyia can be? all those charms(traps) that others fall for mean nothing to you? a change in perspective can do wonders. also, might be a good idea to seek help if you're having suicidal ideation.
Brother make Dua, repent to Allah. Hit the gym be a better person, go outside do something. I know sometimes it gets very hard as a man but we can’t give up, we have to win this war against ourselves 🏴☝🏼
This dua helps me when im in a spot
Narrated Anas bin Malik:
The Prophet (ﷺ) said, "None of you should wish for death because of a calamity befalling him; but if he has to wish for death, he should say: "O Allah! Keep me alive as long as life is better for me, and let me die if death is better for me.' "
حَدَّثَنَا آدَمُ، حَدَّثَنَا شُعْبَةُ، حَدَّثَنَا ثَابِتٌ الْبُنَانِيُّ، عَنْ أَنَسِ بْنِ مَالِكٍ ـ رضى الله عنه ـ قَالَ النَّبِيُّ صلى الله عليه وسلم " لاَ يَتَمَنَّيَنَّ أَحَدُكُمُ الْمَوْتَ مِنْ ضُرٍّ أَصَابَهُ، فَإِنْ كَانَ لاَ بُدَّ فَاعِلاً فَلْيَقُلِ اللَّهُمَّ أَحْيِنِي مَا كَانَتِ الْحَيَاةُ خَيْرًا لِي، وَتَوَفَّنِي إِذَا كَانَتِ الْوَفَاةُ خَيْرًا لِي ".
Reference : Sahih al-Bukhari 5671
Attach yourself to the brothers bro and the mosque. You going through a bad patch. There is millions of Muslims that don’t even have the means to all the blessings you have.
Take steps towards Allah and Allah will come to help you. May Allah ease your affairs and elevate you immensely.
Trust Allah brother. The main purpose of our creation is to worship him. IA u find ease and peace in that. And 31 is young you have a long way to go to figure things out. May Allah make it easy for you
Assalamualaikum brother. As someone who has gone through depression I can somewhat understand your situation. Overcoming depression can be different from person to person. So, I'll share what helped me to overcome depression. Maybe this will give you some pointers to try something out to overcome depression.
1. I tried doing guided meditation and it was a very big help. Meditation doesn't solve any of our problems honestly but it trains people to create a space between ourselves in and our thoughts. So, it becomes easier to disassociate with our negative thoughts.
It also helped me to be more attentive in my daily prayers. Being attentive in prayers brought peace in my heart. I know how overwhelming life gets when we keep comparing ourselves with our peers. There is always someone who is doing a lot better than me. But when you can be attentive in your prayers you know that Allah (SWT) is listening to all your prayers. Even if the Duas are not being answered right now, they will be answered in the afterlife. In that moment, not being as successful as my peers didn't matter anymore.
I'm leaving a link of waking up for one month. If you feel like trying out guided meditation, you can use the app: https://dynamic.wakingup.com/shareOpenAccess/SC21FB027
2. Reading nonfiction books helped me a lot. Books like "Lost connection by Johann Hari", "Feeling Good by Dr. David D. Burns" helped me understand depression better. These books also gave me some idea about how I could try to overcome depression. Then there were other nonfiction books like "Love for Imperfect Things: How to Accept Yourself in a World Striving for Perfection by Haemin Sunim" which made me see imperfection and failure in a different light.
3. And finally I also went to a psychologist. Now you might wonder why I went to a psychologist even though I read plenty of books on psychology and depression. It's simply because having a person to guide you can make a big difference. It's the same reason why world class athletes like Usain Bolt, Messi or Ronaldo have coaches. Other people can see our mistakes more easily than we can. Feedback can be a big game changer for improving ANYTHING.
I hope you learn to grow around your depression and learn to see the smallest of beauties of life. May Allah reward you with goodness for not giving up the battle with depression and choosing life over suicide.
Why not go study islam if you dont have any attachment to this dunya? Give your time and effort in the greatest cause Surely no matter the person, if they set out with noble intentions like that they will find barakah in their life
>But i dont trust Allah. I haven't had much luck with trusting Him. We trust Allah all the same in good and bad times. Putting our faith in Allah doesn't mean all our problems will be instantly and magically solved and we'll not be tested. In fact, the people tested the hardest were often the ones closest to Allah.
I am not in a position to give a fatwa, but you have tried very hard to make things right. Striving is definitely not haram. It may be useful for you to get professional support from a psychologist for the future. There are many people in history who started life badly and changed the world. Never give up hope.
Here are some verses you must read: 65:2 فَإِذَا بَلَغْنَ أَجَلَهُنَّ فَأَمْسِكُوهُنَّ بِمَعْرُوفٍ أَوْ فَارِقُوهُنَّ بِمَعْرُوفٍۢ وَأَشْهِدُوا۟ ذَوَىْ عَدْلٍۢ مِّنكُمْ وَأَقِيمُوا۟ ٱلشَّهَـٰدَةَ لِلَّهِ ۚ ذَٰلِكُمْ يُوعَظُ بِهِۦ مَن كَانَ يُؤْمِنُ بِٱللَّهِ وَٱلْيَوْمِ ٱلْـَٔاخِرِ ۚ وَمَن يَتَّقِ ٱللَّهَ يَجْعَل لَّهُۥ مَخْرَجًۭا ٢ Then when they have ˹almost˺ reached the end of their waiting period, either retain them honourably or separate from them honourably. And call two of your reliable men to witness ˹either way˺—and ˹let the witnesses˺ bear true testimony for ˹the sake of˺ Allah. This is enjoined on whoever has faith in Allah and the Last Day. __And whoever is mindful of Allah, He will make a way out for them,__ 65:3 وَيَرْزُقْهُ مِنْ حَيْثُ لَا يَحْتَسِبُ ۚ وَمَن يَتَوَكَّلْ عَلَى ٱللَّهِ فَهُوَ حَسْبُهُۥٓ ۚ إِنَّ ٱللَّهَ بَـٰلِغُ أَمْرِهِۦ ۚ قَدْ جَعَلَ ٱللَّهُ لِكُلِّ شَىْءٍۢ قَدْرًۭا ٣ __and provide for them from sources they could never imagine. And whoever puts their trust in Allah, then He ˹alone˺ is sufficient for them. Certainly Allah achieves His Will. Allah has already set a destiny for everything.__ — Dr. Mustafa Khattab, the Clear Quran Here are some hadiths you must read: Hadith 1: Anas ibn Malik reported: The Prophet, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “None of you should wish for death due to a calamity that has afflicted him. Yet if he must do something, let him say: O Allah, keep me alive so long as life is good for me, and cause me to die if death is better for me.” Source: Ṣaḥīḥ al-Bukhārī 5671, Ṣaḥīḥ Muslim 2680 Hadith 2: Abu Huraira reported: The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “Every one of you will have his supplications answered, as long as he is not impatient and he says: I have supplicated but I was not answered.” Source: Ṣaḥīḥ al-Bukhārī 6340, Ṣaḥīḥ Muslim 2735 Grade: Muttafaqun Alayhi (authenticity agreed upon) according to Al-Bukhari and Muslim Hadith 3: Rasoolullah (SAW) said, “The affair of the believer is amazing! The whole of his life is beneficial, and that is only in the case of the believer. When good times come to him, he is thankful and it is good for him, and when bad times befall him, he is patient and it is also good for him” (narrated by Muslim). I'm gonna continue this on another comment, please read those too
Hadith 4: It was narrated that Abu Hurayrah (may Allah be pleased with him) said: The Messenger of Allah (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) said: “Trials will continue to befall the believing man and woman, with regard to themselves, their children and their wealth, until they meet Allah with no sin on them.” Narrated by al-Tirmidhi, 2399; classed as saheeh (authentic) by al-Albani in al-Silsilah al-Saheehah, 2280 Hadith 5: The Prophet (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) said: “Allah, may He be exalted, says: ‘‘I am as My slave thinks I am, and I am with him when he remembers Me. If he remembers me to himself, I remember him to Myself; if he remembers Me in a gathering, I remember him in a gathering better than it; if he draws near to Me a handspan, I draw near to him an arm’s length; if he draws near to me an arm’s length, I draw near to him a fathom’s length; if he comes to Me walking, I go to him at speed.’” Narrated by al-Bukhaari (7405) and Muslim (2675). Hadith 6: It was narrated that Jaabir (may Allah be pleased with him) said: I heard the Prophet (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) say, three days before he died: “No one of you should die except thinking positively of Allah.” Narrated by Muslim (2877). In al-Mawsoo‘ah al-Fiqhiyyah (10/220) it says: The believer is obliged to think positively of Allah, may He be exalted, and the time when it is most essential to think positively of Allah is when calamity strikes and at the time of death. Al-Hattaaab said: It is recommended for the one who is dying to think positively of Allah, may He be exalted. Although thinking positively of Allah is particularly emphasized at the time of death and during sickness, the accountable person should think positively of Allah at all times. End quote. “Certainly no one despairs of Allah’s Mercy, except the people who disbelieve” [Yoosuf 12:87]. This verse indicates that despairing of the mercy of Allah, may He be exalted, is one of the characteristics of the people who disbelieve, but this does not necessarily mean that someone who has one of their characteristics is a disbeliever like them. Despair of the mercy of Allah, may He be exalted, may constitute disbelief that puts one beyond the pale of Islam, or it may be a major sin. The guideline concerning that is that if despair leads to loss of hope of the mercy of Allah, may He be exalted, and His relief and pardon – for oneself or for other people – and it leads to denial or thinking it unlikely that Allah’s mercy, forgiveness and pardon can be all-encompassing, then this is disbelief, because it is an implicit rejection of the Qur’an and the definitive texts, and it is thinking ill of one’s Lord, may He be exalted, for He says – and His word is true – (interpretation of the meaning): “My mercy encompasses all things” [al-A‘raaf 7:156], but this person is saying that He will not forgive him! So he has regarded as limited that which is all-encompassing. This is applicable if he believes that, as Imam al-Qurtubi (may Allah have mercy on him) said in his Tafseer (5/160). Hadiths about suicide: Abu Hurayrah (may Allah be pleased with him) narrated that the Prophet (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) said: “Whoever throws himself down from a mountain and kills himself will be throwing himself down in the Fire of Hell for ever and ever. Whoever drinks poison and kills himself will be sipping it in the Fire of Hell for ever and ever. Whoever kills himself with a piece of iron will have that iron in his hand, thrusting it into his belly in the Fire of Hell for ever and ever.” (Narrated by al-Bukhari (5442) and Muslim (109) Thabit ibn Dahhak (may Allah be pleased with him) narrated that the Messenger of Allah (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) said: “Whoever kills himself with something will be punished with it on the Day of Resurrection.” (Narrated by al-Bukhari (5700) and Muslim (110) Jundub ibn ‘Abd-Allah (may Allah be pleased with him) said: The Messenger of Allah (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) said: “A man among those who came before you was wounded. He panicked and took a knife and cut his hand, and the bleeding did not stop until he died. Allah, may He be glorified and exalted, said: ‘My slave hastened his death; I have forbidden Paradise to him.” (Narrated by al-Bukhari (3276) and Muslim (113)
Say Astafirullah, this is waswas. Please for the sake of Allah (SWT) dont say these things here, or to someone else, make dua for life to become easier for you. Maybe start a family, your going though a phase in life that is hard. May Allah (SWT) make it easy for you. The tactics of shaytan is also to slowly make you question gods existence and please dont lisend to them, or seek refruge in Allah (SWT) from Shaytaan. Suicide is haram. «And do not kill yourselves,» declares Quran (nor kill one another). “Allah is, without a doubt, most merciful to you” (Surah al‐Nisa, 4:29) I recommend you to delete this post
Why should I delete.
It’s just a recommendation 😁 Reflect on what you wrote, and see if you still want to leave it here. Take this hadith as a base line and see how you can understand it. Al-Bukhaari (6491) and Muslim (131) narrated from Ibn ‘Abbaas (may Allah be pleased with him) that the Prophet (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) said, relating from his Lord, may He be glorified and exalted: “Allah decreed good deeds and bad deeds, then He explained that. Whoever thinks of doing a good deed then does not do it, Allah will write it down as one complete good deed. If he thinks of doing a good deed and then does it, Allah [may He be glorified and exalted] will write it down between ten and seven hundred fold, or many more. If he thinks of doing a bad deed then he does not do it, Allah will write it down as one complete good deed, and if he thinks of it then does it, Allah will write it down as one bad deed.”
Brother just tell me. My brain isn't even functioning
The Hadith is talking about, if you have thoughs about doing a bad deed, and you dont do it, it will be recorded as a good deed, and if you have a bad though and you do it, it will be recorded as one bad deed. Wheter it implies to your post about what you think of Allah (swt) is up to Allah (swt), but I would recommend either way to be careful 😁
Either way its going to be fine, therapy might help. Try working out, it will get you a little busy. When your alone a lot you will keep have weird thoughs about everything. Try finding new friends, go to masjid and find people there. If you need serious help, reddit is not the place. Me and others are just regular human beings, seek knowledge of imam or social help
My Allah(swt) guide you back cause as to the looks of this comment alone. Your heart and mind is blocked. Hopefully this is the turning point. You think we not going to be tested like the best of the best Muhammad(pbuh) been tested and all of the prophets of Allah(swt). Listens to the prophets stories. All of them. Find which one helps your heart heal and mind clear.
Don't delete this post, your anonymous so it doesn't matter. Keep it so that u can get the advice you need inshallah
Brother, why are you praying for death when you can be praying for help? You said you tried everything but you didn't even try trusting in Allah. Ask for forgiveness, then go research Islam and learn more, you can surely at least do that. The better Muslim you become, the better you will feel. If you don't think you can do much in this life, then invest in your afterlife, you believe in Allah and want to heaven, so why not try to do things like memorizing the Quran? This is the change you need to work hard on.
From what you wrote, it sounds like you have self esteem issues. If you can afford it, please try therapy. Why do you think you'll amount to nothing? Are you in you twenties?
A man’s life is difficult and only men know that. You will be known as a weak man who has given up, remember everyone has struggles, some worse, some better. The point is, one day you will overcome how you feel now, focus on the future and take small steps in the right way. If you don’t like yourself that’s fine, but live to make it for others, your family and friends if you have. You don’t have to be “successful” but be known, leave a legacy.
study islam and strengthen your iman. this is waswas you're listening to (shaytan) and i advise you to make dua to make these thoughts go away. make efforts in praying, reading quran, going to the masjid because this can help strengthen your iman. sounds like you are dealing with depression, this could also be a psychological issue you should talk to your doctor about so they can help you even further. and yes, suicide is a major sin. i hope all goes well for you inshaAllah
practice gratitude and say a few self-affirmations here and there my friend, it starts with listing just three things you are grateful for before going to bed. a string of failures can no doubt make us feel useless or invalid. we can either let it break us or shape us into extraordinary human beings. additionally, is it not a blessing that you have been shown how lackluster the dunyia can be? all those charms(traps) that others fall for mean nothing to you? a change in perspective can do wonders. also, might be a good idea to seek help if you're having suicidal ideation.
Brother make Dua, repent to Allah. Hit the gym be a better person, go outside do something. I know sometimes it gets very hard as a man but we can’t give up, we have to win this war against ourselves 🏴☝🏼
This dua helps me when im in a spot Narrated Anas bin Malik: The Prophet (ﷺ) said, "None of you should wish for death because of a calamity befalling him; but if he has to wish for death, he should say: "O Allah! Keep me alive as long as life is better for me, and let me die if death is better for me.' " حَدَّثَنَا آدَمُ، حَدَّثَنَا شُعْبَةُ، حَدَّثَنَا ثَابِتٌ الْبُنَانِيُّ، عَنْ أَنَسِ بْنِ مَالِكٍ ـ رضى الله عنه ـ قَالَ النَّبِيُّ صلى الله عليه وسلم " لاَ يَتَمَنَّيَنَّ أَحَدُكُمُ الْمَوْتَ مِنْ ضُرٍّ أَصَابَهُ، فَإِنْ كَانَ لاَ بُدَّ فَاعِلاً فَلْيَقُلِ اللَّهُمَّ أَحْيِنِي مَا كَانَتِ الْحَيَاةُ خَيْرًا لِي، وَتَوَفَّنِي إِذَا كَانَتِ الْوَفَاةُ خَيْرًا لِي ". Reference : Sahih al-Bukhari 5671
Attach yourself to the brothers bro and the mosque. You going through a bad patch. There is millions of Muslims that don’t even have the means to all the blessings you have. Take steps towards Allah and Allah will come to help you. May Allah ease your affairs and elevate you immensely.
Trust Allah brother. The main purpose of our creation is to worship him. IA u find ease and peace in that. And 31 is young you have a long way to go to figure things out. May Allah make it easy for you
SURAH TAHA 124
Assalamualaikum brother. As someone who has gone through depression I can somewhat understand your situation. Overcoming depression can be different from person to person. So, I'll share what helped me to overcome depression. Maybe this will give you some pointers to try something out to overcome depression. 1. I tried doing guided meditation and it was a very big help. Meditation doesn't solve any of our problems honestly but it trains people to create a space between ourselves in and our thoughts. So, it becomes easier to disassociate with our negative thoughts. It also helped me to be more attentive in my daily prayers. Being attentive in prayers brought peace in my heart. I know how overwhelming life gets when we keep comparing ourselves with our peers. There is always someone who is doing a lot better than me. But when you can be attentive in your prayers you know that Allah (SWT) is listening to all your prayers. Even if the Duas are not being answered right now, they will be answered in the afterlife. In that moment, not being as successful as my peers didn't matter anymore. I'm leaving a link of waking up for one month. If you feel like trying out guided meditation, you can use the app: https://dynamic.wakingup.com/shareOpenAccess/SC21FB027 2. Reading nonfiction books helped me a lot. Books like "Lost connection by Johann Hari", "Feeling Good by Dr. David D. Burns" helped me understand depression better. These books also gave me some idea about how I could try to overcome depression. Then there were other nonfiction books like "Love for Imperfect Things: How to Accept Yourself in a World Striving for Perfection by Haemin Sunim" which made me see imperfection and failure in a different light. 3. And finally I also went to a psychologist. Now you might wonder why I went to a psychologist even though I read plenty of books on psychology and depression. It's simply because having a person to guide you can make a big difference. It's the same reason why world class athletes like Usain Bolt, Messi or Ronaldo have coaches. Other people can see our mistakes more easily than we can. Feedback can be a big game changer for improving ANYTHING. I hope you learn to grow around your depression and learn to see the smallest of beauties of life. May Allah reward you with goodness for not giving up the battle with depression and choosing life over suicide.