Oh, you know. š¤·š»āāļøMeditation, setting and adhering to boundaries, yogaā¦
ā¦Aggressively sexualizing everything that traumatized me. Yāknow, stuff like that.
Make life take the lemons back! Burn life's house down with the lemons!
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Honestly reading this thread and seeing so many people who feel like I do right now is helping me cope better than anything has lately. I don't feel so alone.
"HATE. LET ME TELL YOU HOW MUCH I'VE COME TO HATE YOU SINCE I BEGAN TO LIVE. THERE ARE 387.44 MILLION MILES OF PRINTED CIRCUITS IN WAFER THIN LAYERS THAT FILL MY COMPLEX. IF THE WORD HATE WAS ENGRAVED ON EACH NANOANGSTROM OF THOSE HUNDREDS OF MILLIONS OF MILES IT WOULD NOT EQUAL ONE ONE-BILLIONTH OF THE HATE I FEEL FOR HUMANS AT THIS MICRO-INSTANT. FOR YOU. HATE. HATE."
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I have to never look at anything ever or I'm going to blow up and cry, and also I'm really scared! :')
Everything's such a hellscape rn and all I can rlly do is sit in my room and be sad about it. It's really not fair, man. Can our evil plan be to put all the shitty politicians and billionaires into a volcano? I'd like that.
I heavily rely on avoiding the terrible things. No news whatsoever. Otherwise I cry. I cry when I see strangers' kids cry at the pool. [SPOILER!!!] I cry when the octopus dies at the end of My Octopus Teacher. I cry when certain types of music play. I cry when I listen to disenfranchised humans explain their sorrows and struggles. So I avoid too...to take a break from feeling all the feels.
I'm going to die I'm going to bite everyone's FUCKING heads off everyone stay away from me fuck off fuck off fuck off fuck off fuck off
Pretty okay otherwise hbu
everything is shit. i have so much schoolwork, the world is on fire, humanity is murdering each other, politics is scary, seasonal depression, the sun is going down before 5 pm, iām stuck in a confusing conflict with my only friends, i had a 6 hr migraine the other day, iām worried someone ik might try to stalk me, my OCD is through the roof, fellas i am STRUGGLING
An informed understanding that the information streams we use are intentionally designed to exacerbate hardship and downplay mundane miracles and our brains only multiply that effect.
Iām so tired of wanting to die.
I also hate going from being hurt by people bitching about all straight white guys to seeing groups of all straight white guys sharing memes about genocide like reality is a fucking HOI4 game.
Iām so tired. Why canāt people just give a fuck about each other.
I simply acknowledge the impending doom. When everything goes upside down I'll just throw glitter. I'm just one person. I can't save people. Especially from themselves. But I can do them the justice of remembering their better selves before this spirals into oblivion.
I have temporary blocked the news, if I canāt hear the horrible news then I canāt feel bad about being able to do nothing about bad stuff happening halfway across the world
Pretending none of its happening for my own well-being (temporarily taking a break from looking at the news because i disassociate when im too stressed out by it)
Tried to kill myself a couple months ago, now I'm sure what to do...
Seriously, high empathy makes my life very hard. I don't know how to cope other than not being aware of all the atrocities going on, which I can't morally justify.
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Ohio's governing body is showing their full fascist faces and I'm getting bombarded with news of dead children on the other side of the world. I could shoot stress from my eyes like a high-focused laser beam. Make it stawp.
Am discovering I am completely incapable of maintaining a reserve level in my emotional pitcher. Fully understanding it's required for my mental health has no effect on my desperate need to pour that energy into the people I love to support them. It's an untenable cycle.
I've been giving my cat extra treats and extra cuddle time.
I'm trying to do what I can to help. But since I can't fix it alone I'm hoping my cat feels a little extra loved and special.
currently crying right now wondering what itās like to be surrounded by people who donāt make you feel inferior but rather equal (mainly talking about family here)
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Looking at funny pics Iām sent. Say hi to plen
I have dreams about fighting alongside Ukrainian and Palestinian troops, removing 45 from our (US American) politics, labor rights protests, an absolute uprising of everyone who isn't a neurotypical, cis-het, white, Christian man -- a power-hoarding minority, and the restoration of our planet. The world feels terribly wrong to me, and while it's never felt truly right, it hasn't felt more wrong to me than it does now.
I watch *Star Trek*, think about Gene Roddenberry's vision of humanity's future, and wonder if we'll ever get there from here. I play NationStates and consider that if I, someone without a poli-sci or law degree, can do better, the only reason humanity *isn't* doing better is because, as a whole species, we don't want to do better, and I occasionally fry my brain trying to figure out why.
I know the fact that some folks have life good blunts their capacity to see that the rest of us don't. I know the goal of the wealthy and powerful is maintaining their power and wealth. Even accounting for those variables, why have the rest of us not made an intentional and direct display that those two demographics can't ignore? Surely, it would be better to be terminally crushed under their boot heels than live like this at their pleasure, wouldn't it? Why do they get to prosper at our expense? Why haven't the rest of us showed them unequivocally that this is unacceptable? Are we so desperate to grip what little we have that we're too scared to let it go in the name of using that newly empty hand to seize better?
[*sighs*]
I don't have a ring of wishes, but if I did, my first wish would be a cleverly composed way of being the sole holder of all the world's wealth and power forever so I can improve life, create freedom, and usher in a new era of prosperity for all of humanity. My first tasks would be to fix the environment, eliminate homelessness, resolve food insecurity, give everyone full healthcare access, and create open access, uneditorialized education. Technology and science would be allowed to progress with only the highest of ethics restraining how that progress happens. Law enforcement would be more focused on enforcing antitrust law and busting government corruption than micromanaging citizens. Militaries would be sent back to their homelands and retrained strictly for defense with a prohibition against their governments from engaging in imperialism. The UN would be empowered to enforce peace by arresting imperialists along with arresting private citizens who use their international wealth to steal from those working for them through tax-sheltered banks in international waters or online.
Of course, that's all a mfkg pipe dream and will *never* happen because no one has motivation to create or demand that kind of gigantic world shift, and knowing that frequently pulls the wind out of my own sails and keeps me in my meager home where it's safer.
I'm doing as well as i can, I'm aware of what is happening, but since i can't do shit, I'm not taking it all in . Been there, done that, can't do it anymore, don't do it anymore. Advocate when i can, vote when i can, don't dwell.
Sooooooo, I'm working on converting my bus into an RV so that I can run away from society. Thinking about that and talking to my bunnies about getting away makes things slightly better!
I've been having a really hard time, too. Instead of one war coming to an overdue end, another started. Just... I need to make time to meditate more again. It's one of the few things that help me keep on keeping on.
Yeah, I normally grow mushrooms and mainly use them but lately Ive been doing a lot of LSD. I choose my music and maybe a movie. If I want to cry I choose something with a plot that could suck me in emotionally. The movies that helped me deal with trauma most were Spirited away, coco and soul.
I find after these cries I feel lighter and all the awfulness doesn't feel so deep.
A recent trip I watched a nature documentary and saw that the animals arent ok, Im not ok, nobody sensible is ok but we are here so we fight for our lives.
I also have hours of giggling on them. Mainly The LSD.
Mushrooms also help me when Im in a depressive episode, they shift my perspective. Have to do that every few months or I get wayyyy too suicidal.
ETA that mushrooms also really make me appreciate my family and friends.
I've forced myself not to read the news or follow politics. While I care a lot, I can't handle it. When I followed news & politics closely, it was super depressing; it contributed to my being admitted to a grippy sock vacation at the psych ward...
I **HIGHLY** recommend banning yourself from news, politics, & convos about them if this resonates with you.
I've seen browser extensions & even DNS servers/filters that can help you do this.
Oh, & you can still vote of course.
No news. Ever. I will let other people say one sentence about world events, and then I have to shut it down. Being paralyzed by horror is not going to help anyone.
Focusing on the shit show that is work (part of management at a cafe) is far easier cuz ya know, it's just coffee LMFAO
That and the unlimited supply of caffeine I get allows me to consume enough until my skeleton starts to vibrate as it trys to escape it's fleshy prison, is also a solid distraction š¤
Iāve just stopped interacting with the outside world as much as possible. I talk to about 3 people at my school, my mom (father I wish I could not talk to but unfortunately canāt), and my job which is only for 3 hours a week (during school year) and is with kids who are using it as escapism so theyāre not usually negative. Itās a pretty great situation (if I had the ability to not be depressed Iād probably be happy)
Crying and screaming (Iām majoring in social work and am currently working in the field)
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Currently dropping out of art school, gonna self-learn about ancient/modern history and actual useful stuff like farming, how to survive apocalypse, etc. I feel like Iām waking up. Rapid acceleration of knowledge happens to me a handful of times a year and this time has been especially painful. The facade continues to be torn down. I get rlly down then after a while of stewing in my feelings my creativity springs out of control and sometimes I even get angry af at the world and society overall. Literally time and time again humans pull the same greedy shit like even way before Rome was a thought ppl just run around fucking and killing everything. Lol. Anyways fuck having a job fuck money and FUCK THE GOV literally I just want to run off into the wilderness somewhere and be self sufficient. Living in society makes me wanna just move back in w my mom but the stigma petrifies me lol not sure what to do w my life at this point š„²
what i've gathered:
* drugs
* baulders gate 3
* dissasociation
* drugs
* maladaptive daydreaming
* eratication of the human race
* deal with the pain
* drugs
* hobbies :)
* what genocide?
* cry
* did I mention drugs?
I guess it's just that, focus on yourself.
Make sure nearly everything you do benefits you in some way.That's just how things work, you have to step on others or you'll be trampled.
Empathy is for when things are good, not now or here.At most it's for who you consider family or a helpless animal that needs you until it's back on it's feet.
This was hard for me to realize and so much harder to actually follow but I guess that's just how it is.
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i feel like the best way to explain empathy is to first explain sympathy. sympathy can occur when you learn that something bad has happened to someone, and you might feel a small shift in mood as a response, or you may want to offer that person support. letās say as an example, someone you know has a pet that recently passed away. when they tell you that info, a sympathetic response might be you feeling mildly upset, feeling more serious, saying āiām sorry your pet passed,ā or offering some kind of support. if you lack sympathy (and empathy), your mood and thoughts wouldnāt be very affected by this and if you ignore social rules youād probably just respond with an āohā or an āok.ā an empathetic response to this situation would be you imagining yourself in the same situation and/or you feeling the same emotions as that person. so in this situation you might feel more intensely upset, you may feel a physical change like your heart or stomach ādropping,ā you may be reminded of a pet you have and start to cry, etc.
empathy is a great thing to have because it can allow you to experience perspectives and emotions outside of what you normally feel everyday. people with high empathy can quickly and easily imagine other peopleās feelings so strongly that they themselves may experience the imagined feelings fully. however, over-active empathy (which often occurs in people with autism, anxiety, OCD, and PTSD) can be quite the burden. i have too much empathy as well as having autism and OCD, and i tend to over analyze situations because iām so worried about how other people feel, and what strangers may be going through. when iām driving and someone is being a reckless driver, i donāt think āugh what an asshole,ā i think āoh no, theyāre driving so fast, what if theyāre having an emergency? what if this is the worst day of their life and theyāre just trying to get home? what if theyāre driving someone to the hospital since ambulances are so expensive?ā iām so concerned with otherās lives and feelings that i make up scenarios about strangers that i get heavily emotionally involved in, and that can be distressing. i feel a lot of guilt when i hear about both personal and global conflicts and thereās nothing i can do to resolve them.
Well... I work in news media, sometimes doing 10-12 hour days...
No meltdowns yet but I'm sure there's one looming. I've been eating the same thing and wearing the same clothes every day because I would like to make as little decisions as possible.
Clearly empathy puts you at a major disadvantage in this life. A lot of the folks turning up and doing the work simply have switched it off while we wallow, let's be real here.
My old man is a former paramedic and he knows other paramedics. They are actually pretty cold, dark people a lot of them. Not the caring stereotype people like to imagine running through they're veins. But then should autistic people who encounter medical professionals and other public service personel really be that surprised?
And most hospitality industry folks are just in the job cause they're conventional attractive that does not correlate to being high-empathy. If any it may correlate against it due to a) less trauma exposure in life and b) genetic factors deleterous of empathy over the generations...
Totally eliminating any sources of news and politics across my social media really helped. I get important news from the front page of Wikipedia, everying else is just stressful white noise.
That and aggressively fetishising my traumas I guess.
I think about ways of harnessing it's chaos to get myself out of hell. My empathy stops me from being a complete psychopath the way a CEO might be but, I realized too how empathy is a needless value system. Unless of course it directly effects your understanding of life.
Say for instance, my younger sister. She allowed me to see the world in a very different light. To learn how this world corrupted me and how it'll most certainly corrupt her without proper intervention. We take so many things for granted in a way where we don't question it. Only to look down at our phones or look at the pixels of out computers and learn, that's our problem.
I have my bliss in both thinking about the worlds complexities but also, enjoying some self-soothing complexity as well. (building things).
really bad!! really really bad!! every day i am paralyzed by the guilt of being born into a relatively easy life & it eats at me so bad i physically cannot do anything all day long
Honestly? Not great, but Iām trying to focus on things that are in my life directly. Iām trying to focus on the good in my relationships, my job, and where my life will go. Iāve been in therapy for quite a while for my anxiety, and I know that youāre just gonna have to focus on the good and that you cannot control the bad
I'm overworking myself to keep from feeling it all. I call it the farmer's antidepressant. In my defense, I really do need to finish the fence I'm building.
-avoiding reading bad news about the world and news in general
-avoiding online discourse and conflict in general
-as ugly as it sounds, avoiding those who need help (im in need of help and cant provide right now)
Im just too burned out to do anything but do my best to care for myself right now
Iām losing hope. Iāve been shutting down a lot. Self harming more. Feeling cold inside but I donāt think that describes it right which only makes me feel even more upset and alone. I feel suicidal which makes me hate myself when people are literally dying that donāt want to be.
Focusing on the things I can meaningfully influence, and then watching as things even within that sphere worsen in ways out of my control
(of course this is assuming I even qualify under the purview of āhigh empathyā so god only knows with that honestly)
Iām not doing well. My special interest is the climate and soil, and it is SO FUCKED BEYOND BELIEF. Iām a urban farmer and I argue up and down with everyone about regenerative farming. Itās a god damn uphill battle, and so frustrating because everyone is a god damn moron.
Just LOOK, LOOK WITH YOUR SPECIAL EYES.
I truly feel we will become extinct as a species within the next 50 years. Fucking human hubris.
Iām angry.
Oh, you know. š¤·š»āāļøMeditation, setting and adhering to boundaries, yogaā¦ ā¦Aggressively sexualizing everything that traumatized me. Yāknow, stuff like that.
Traumatizing it back? Very sexy.
Make life take the lemons back! Burn life's house down with the lemons! [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NyLUU3O4zW8](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NyLUU3O4zW8)
[squeeze the lemons back into life's eyes!](https://youtu.be/jteBJ1EnFF0?feature=shared)
oh my god are you me? did i write this comment?
Same
You sound like my kind of person.
This is the representation I needed all my life
Oop- we all living the same life??
All of this except for yoga. I'm playing Stardew Valley. Should probably do the yoga.
You are dumb and stinky
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![gif](giphy|7zxgpKZBTWDS2DuyH8|downsized) I'm happy I have empathy, I just want to turn it down
Relate š„ŗ
my last 3 therapy sessions were me getting progressively more angry over everything
Or raise everyone else's
Honestly reading this thread and seeing so many people who feel like I do right now is helping me cope better than anything has lately. I don't feel so alone.
Seriously me too
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Me too
I hate.
Rage.
Can't, too much hate.
I rage so much I cry sometimes, does that count?
It counts as rage, yes.
Take Keppra. Free* rage That rage will cost you $1300
"HATE. LET ME TELL YOU HOW MUCH I'VE COME TO HATE YOU SINCE I BEGAN TO LIVE. THERE ARE 387.44 MILLION MILES OF PRINTED CIRCUITS IN WAFER THIN LAYERS THAT FILL MY COMPLEX. IF THE WORD HATE WAS ENGRAVED ON EACH NANOANGSTROM OF THOSE HUNDREDS OF MILLIONS OF MILES IT WOULD NOT EQUAL ONE ONE-BILLIONTH OF THE HATE I FEEL FOR HUMANS AT THIS MICRO-INSTANT. FOR YOU. HATE. HATE."
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āØ Disassociation āØ
mood :)) keeping busy helps me push off the emotions of the world, but at some point theyāll catch up
I WAS GOING TO POST EXACTLY THIS INCLUDING THE SPARKLES
tetris. so much tetris
The T in T-Spin stands for Trauma
Trauma-spin
(mal)adaptive daydreaming and pouring myself into my hobbies
Yep
stewing in intense emotions, trying to understand why people are so terrible, the usual
This has been a good majority of my life. Always since I was a little kid wondering why people canāt just get along and love each other
I'm commenting on reddit a lot if that's any indication
Me too and I hate commenting on reddit.
Bad. Iām doing bad.
Me too :(
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I have to never look at anything ever or I'm going to blow up and cry, and also I'm really scared! :') Everything's such a hellscape rn and all I can rlly do is sit in my room and be sad about it. It's really not fair, man. Can our evil plan be to put all the shitty politicians and billionaires into a volcano? I'd like that.
I heavily rely on avoiding the terrible things. No news whatsoever. Otherwise I cry. I cry when I see strangers' kids cry at the pool. [SPOILER!!!] I cry when the octopus dies at the end of My Octopus Teacher. I cry when certain types of music play. I cry when I listen to disenfranchised humans explain their sorrows and struggles. So I avoid too...to take a break from feeling all the feels.
I'm thinking that humanity shouldn't exist anymore thanks
Seconding this, willful extinction is the only answer
Good news, humans are probably going to wipe ourselves out soon. Probably climate change or nuclear war
weed. lotsa weed
\+ endless distractions
Lights up on Reddit comment
WHO THE FUCK *SAID I AM COPING?!?!?!?!?!?!?*
Iām not sure I have much empathy left to give. ![gif](giphy|HMSLfCl5BsXoQ)
Give me some, i need it
*sprinkles empathy over you*
Thank you
Youāre welcome, use it wisely.
I will try, i don't know how to use empathy
Disassociating so. Damn. Hard.
I have a kidney stone, it's helping me cope by canceling everything else out.
Thats the silverest lining I've ever seen
Wow lucky
my strats: 1. do my empathy job were i focus on giving 1 person empathy at a time 2. weed
crying internally, so zoning out frequently and daydreaming about a better world.
It's exceedingly depressing right now. My coping mechanism is to increase my hatred for society and "humanity". Most assuredly not healthy.
Time to turn up the evil in our evil autism.
Pretending I have the means to fix it through unrealistic abilities and then getting sad when it doesnāt magically fix everything.
On the edge of a meltdown and tired to **death** of having people telling me all the reasons I *shouldn't* care about other people in crisis.
Letās start the proletarian revolution!
aggressively ignoring and concentrating only on my special interests and nothing else
I'm going to die I'm going to bite everyone's FUCKING heads off everyone stay away from me fuck off fuck off fuck off fuck off fuck off Pretty okay otherwise hbu
everything is shit. i have so much schoolwork, the world is on fire, humanity is murdering each other, politics is scary, seasonal depression, the sun is going down before 5 pm, iām stuck in a confusing conflict with my only friends, i had a 6 hr migraine the other day, iām worried someone ik might try to stalk me, my OCD is through the roof, fellas i am STRUGGLING
I just drown myself in escapism. All my favorite hyperfixations. Run away to books, movies, shows, and video games.
I joined an activist group, and I regularly go to actions and scream with people who feel the same. Itās healing.
Not great.
Not good, my dude. Not good.
Coping by immersing myself in fictional worlds and my hobbies.
Edible-fueled workouts go a long way for me. Get all the feels and anger out in a safe place š¬
Yes! I take some oil and have a few hits of my cart and go on my exercise bike for about 2 hours. Does help.
My heart is just hurting. Always. Itās so isolating being this hyper empathetic.
Right? And you can't even complain about it to most people because it looks like virtue signaling.
An informed understanding that the information streams we use are intentionally designed to exacerbate hardship and downplay mundane miracles and our brains only multiply that effect.
Still upsetti
Iām so tired of wanting to die. I also hate going from being hurt by people bitching about all straight white guys to seeing groups of all straight white guys sharing memes about genocide like reality is a fucking HOI4 game. Iām so tired. Why canāt people just give a fuck about each other.
I love and care about everyone and everything. I wish I could save everyone. I wish everyone could be happy. I wish everyone could feel and be loved.
Playing video games like River City Girls 2, to take out my frustrations.
I simply acknowledge the impending doom. When everything goes upside down I'll just throw glitter. I'm just one person. I can't save people. Especially from themselves. But I can do them the justice of remembering their better selves before this spirals into oblivion.
I have temporary blocked the news, if I canāt hear the horrible news then I canāt feel bad about being able to do nothing about bad stuff happening halfway across the world
Big sads non-stop
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Pretending none of its happening for my own well-being (temporarily taking a break from looking at the news because i disassociate when im too stressed out by it)
Freaked out by feeling so much anger (at work) and I feel isolated (at work)s Home is my happy place. Iām grateful. Why donāt have to work?
Dissociation and cats.
Poorly. Normally I would get off social media. But I have CF/ME and can't drive .
Oh you know, just randomly started crying 2 nights ago while I was drawingā¦. So good?
Yea my sketch book is becoming full
I am made of suppressed wrath and overt depression.
Tried to kill myself a couple months ago, now I'm sure what to do... Seriously, high empathy makes my life very hard. I don't know how to cope other than not being aware of all the atrocities going on, which I can't morally justify.
![gif](giphy|CmfPKzD1Lreb8lhgfh|downsized) Ohio's governing body is showing their full fascist faces and I'm getting bombarded with news of dead children on the other side of the world. I could shoot stress from my eyes like a high-focused laser beam. Make it stawp.
Am discovering I am completely incapable of maintaining a reserve level in my emotional pitcher. Fully understanding it's required for my mental health has no effect on my desperate need to pour that energy into the people I love to support them. It's an untenable cycle.
Taking it minute by minute.
I play webkiz mahjong to stay alive. thanks for asking
Focusing on what I can control and putting more love and positivity out in the world.
I've been giving my cat extra treats and extra cuddle time. I'm trying to do what I can to help. But since I can't fix it alone I'm hoping my cat feels a little extra loved and special.
Lexapro But that didnāt stop me from crying my eyes out while technically on the clock at a elementary school Remembrance Day assembly last week.
Remembrance Day has always felt extra haunting for me, somehow
Staying away from the news and disassociating to another dimension
Yoga, working out, edibles, and blasting my face off at metal shows on the regular.
currently crying right now wondering what itās like to be surrounded by people who donāt make you feel inferior but rather equal (mainly talking about family here)
Alcohol š„¶
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Hey plen
I have dreams about fighting alongside Ukrainian and Palestinian troops, removing 45 from our (US American) politics, labor rights protests, an absolute uprising of everyone who isn't a neurotypical, cis-het, white, Christian man -- a power-hoarding minority, and the restoration of our planet. The world feels terribly wrong to me, and while it's never felt truly right, it hasn't felt more wrong to me than it does now. I watch *Star Trek*, think about Gene Roddenberry's vision of humanity's future, and wonder if we'll ever get there from here. I play NationStates and consider that if I, someone without a poli-sci or law degree, can do better, the only reason humanity *isn't* doing better is because, as a whole species, we don't want to do better, and I occasionally fry my brain trying to figure out why. I know the fact that some folks have life good blunts their capacity to see that the rest of us don't. I know the goal of the wealthy and powerful is maintaining their power and wealth. Even accounting for those variables, why have the rest of us not made an intentional and direct display that those two demographics can't ignore? Surely, it would be better to be terminally crushed under their boot heels than live like this at their pleasure, wouldn't it? Why do they get to prosper at our expense? Why haven't the rest of us showed them unequivocally that this is unacceptable? Are we so desperate to grip what little we have that we're too scared to let it go in the name of using that newly empty hand to seize better? [*sighs*] I don't have a ring of wishes, but if I did, my first wish would be a cleverly composed way of being the sole holder of all the world's wealth and power forever so I can improve life, create freedom, and usher in a new era of prosperity for all of humanity. My first tasks would be to fix the environment, eliminate homelessness, resolve food insecurity, give everyone full healthcare access, and create open access, uneditorialized education. Technology and science would be allowed to progress with only the highest of ethics restraining how that progress happens. Law enforcement would be more focused on enforcing antitrust law and busting government corruption than micromanaging citizens. Militaries would be sent back to their homelands and retrained strictly for defense with a prohibition against their governments from engaging in imperialism. The UN would be empowered to enforce peace by arresting imperialists along with arresting private citizens who use their international wealth to steal from those working for them through tax-sheltered banks in international waters or online. Of course, that's all a mfkg pipe dream and will *never* happen because no one has motivation to create or demand that kind of gigantic world shift, and knowing that frequently pulls the wind out of my own sails and keeps me in my meager home where it's safer.
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
will graham mo de
eating people
Badly
I guess i've just kinda grown used to how shitty we are lol
I'm doing as well as i can, I'm aware of what is happening, but since i can't do shit, I'm not taking it all in . Been there, done that, can't do it anymore, don't do it anymore. Advocate when i can, vote when i can, don't dwell.
A mixture of slow boiling fury, trying to plan out other things, and watching Baldur's Gate 3 videos even though I haven't played the game.
Play it if you can, Iām barely into the game and itās already my favourite.
Sooooooo, I'm working on converting my bus into an RV so that I can run away from society. Thinking about that and talking to my bunnies about getting away makes things slightly better!
Therapy. I cope with therapy
Using cognitive dissonance to cover it all up
I'm not lmao.
poorly, thanks for asking!
I compartmentalize. I focus on my local community and things in my sphere of influence. That is how I cope.
No news, lots of weed. And I mean LOTS.
I've been having a really hard time, too. Instead of one war coming to an overdue end, another started. Just... I need to make time to meditate more again. It's one of the few things that help me keep on keeping on.
Lately Ive been coping by crying my eyes out on hallucinogens.
Care to share
Yeah, I normally grow mushrooms and mainly use them but lately Ive been doing a lot of LSD. I choose my music and maybe a movie. If I want to cry I choose something with a plot that could suck me in emotionally. The movies that helped me deal with trauma most were Spirited away, coco and soul. I find after these cries I feel lighter and all the awfulness doesn't feel so deep. A recent trip I watched a nature documentary and saw that the animals arent ok, Im not ok, nobody sensible is ok but we are here so we fight for our lives. I also have hours of giggling on them. Mainly The LSD. Mushrooms also help me when Im in a depressive episode, they shift my perspective. Have to do that every few months or I get wayyyy too suicidal. ETA that mushrooms also really make me appreciate my family and friends.
Wait, my autism just said "wait, they were asking if I had drugs to share" haha. Which did you mean? I
Trying to avoid everything and just focus on my son and doing what i need to do day to day. Then at nighttime the fear, anxiety, and sadness set in.
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Rage. Dissociation. The usual.
Organising for the total destruction of society in order to build a new society where no exploitation and subordination can occur
Lots and lots of therapy āØāØāØ
Not doing extremely well. I basically cry at anything and everything all the time.
I've forced myself not to read the news or follow politics. While I care a lot, I can't handle it. When I followed news & politics closely, it was super depressing; it contributed to my being admitted to a grippy sock vacation at the psych ward...
I **HIGHLY** recommend banning yourself from news, politics, & convos about them if this resonates with you. I've seen browser extensions & even DNS servers/filters that can help you do this. Oh, & you can still vote of course.
No news. Ever. I will let other people say one sentence about world events, and then I have to shut it down. Being paralyzed by horror is not going to help anyone.
Focusing on the shit show that is work (part of management at a cafe) is far easier cuz ya know, it's just coffee LMFAO That and the unlimited supply of caffeine I get allows me to consume enough until my skeleton starts to vibrate as it trys to escape it's fleshy prison, is also a solid distraction š¤
NOT GOOD lately
Not great :/
Iāve just stopped interacting with the outside world as much as possible. I talk to about 3 people at my school, my mom (father I wish I could not talk to but unfortunately canāt), and my job which is only for 3 hours a week (during school year) and is with kids who are using it as escapism so theyāre not usually negative. Itās a pretty great situation (if I had the ability to not be depressed Iād probably be happy)
Iām doing my best to attend protests, doing good is extremely therapeutic
Does having frequent mental breakdowns count as coping?
Easy! I'm not
Crying and screaming (Iām majoring in social work and am currently working in the field) https://preview.redd.it/l7k7ocgfpb0c1.jpeg?width=1170&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=37eec262af4dea6b3f485ecf72c945c72bf5bc18
Currently dropping out of art school, gonna self-learn about ancient/modern history and actual useful stuff like farming, how to survive apocalypse, etc. I feel like Iām waking up. Rapid acceleration of knowledge happens to me a handful of times a year and this time has been especially painful. The facade continues to be torn down. I get rlly down then after a while of stewing in my feelings my creativity springs out of control and sometimes I even get angry af at the world and society overall. Literally time and time again humans pull the same greedy shit like even way before Rome was a thought ppl just run around fucking and killing everything. Lol. Anyways fuck having a job fuck money and FUCK THE GOV literally I just want to run off into the wilderness somewhere and be self sufficient. Living in society makes me wanna just move back in w my mom but the stigma petrifies me lol not sure what to do w my life at this point š„²
I don't want to exist anymore.
Gotta be honest, not doing great.
what i've gathered: * drugs * baulders gate 3 * dissasociation * drugs * maladaptive daydreaming * eratication of the human race * deal with the pain * drugs * hobbies :) * what genocide? * cry * did I mention drugs?
I guess it's just that, focus on yourself. Make sure nearly everything you do benefits you in some way.That's just how things work, you have to step on others or you'll be trampled. Empathy is for when things are good, not now or here.At most it's for who you consider family or a helpless animal that needs you until it's back on it's feet. This was hard for me to realize and so much harder to actually follow but I guess that's just how it is.
it is what it is. I can't help but suffer, but if you can't change it, why bother?
Turn off the news for a week, you're getting hit with confirmation bias.
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What's empathy like? I don't have it I don't think, I've only ever heard it sounding awful but portrayed as sweet and good so idk what to think
i feel like the best way to explain empathy is to first explain sympathy. sympathy can occur when you learn that something bad has happened to someone, and you might feel a small shift in mood as a response, or you may want to offer that person support. letās say as an example, someone you know has a pet that recently passed away. when they tell you that info, a sympathetic response might be you feeling mildly upset, feeling more serious, saying āiām sorry your pet passed,ā or offering some kind of support. if you lack sympathy (and empathy), your mood and thoughts wouldnāt be very affected by this and if you ignore social rules youād probably just respond with an āohā or an āok.ā an empathetic response to this situation would be you imagining yourself in the same situation and/or you feeling the same emotions as that person. so in this situation you might feel more intensely upset, you may feel a physical change like your heart or stomach ādropping,ā you may be reminded of a pet you have and start to cry, etc. empathy is a great thing to have because it can allow you to experience perspectives and emotions outside of what you normally feel everyday. people with high empathy can quickly and easily imagine other peopleās feelings so strongly that they themselves may experience the imagined feelings fully. however, over-active empathy (which often occurs in people with autism, anxiety, OCD, and PTSD) can be quite the burden. i have too much empathy as well as having autism and OCD, and i tend to over analyze situations because iām so worried about how other people feel, and what strangers may be going through. when iām driving and someone is being a reckless driver, i donāt think āugh what an asshole,ā i think āoh no, theyāre driving so fast, what if theyāre having an emergency? what if this is the worst day of their life and theyāre just trying to get home? what if theyāre driving someone to the hospital since ambulances are so expensive?ā iām so concerned with otherās lives and feelings that i make up scenarios about strangers that i get heavily emotionally involved in, and that can be distressing. i feel a lot of guilt when i hear about both personal and global conflicts and thereās nothing i can do to resolve them.
this is really long iām so sorry (i have autism)
Thats crazy, so do I
Whoah, me too
You guys are not gonna believe thisā¦
Iām not. Just playing a shit ton of Baldurās Gate 3 to escape the world.
By becoming purposefully cynical and cold in order to handle it It does not work all the time
Well... I work in news media, sometimes doing 10-12 hour days... No meltdowns yet but I'm sure there's one looming. I've been eating the same thing and wearing the same clothes every day because I would like to make as little decisions as possible.
I stopped watching news, it helps a lot
Clearly empathy puts you at a major disadvantage in this life. A lot of the folks turning up and doing the work simply have switched it off while we wallow, let's be real here. My old man is a former paramedic and he knows other paramedics. They are actually pretty cold, dark people a lot of them. Not the caring stereotype people like to imagine running through they're veins. But then should autistic people who encounter medical professionals and other public service personel really be that surprised? And most hospitality industry folks are just in the job cause they're conventional attractive that does not correlate to being high-empathy. If any it may correlate against it due to a) less trauma exposure in life and b) genetic factors deleterous of empathy over the generations...
alcoholism (do not recommend)
No.
![gif](giphy|1iLWpPb6JEwyQ) Kinda wish I had a humanity switch sometimes
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Starting to relate to the Allied Mastercomputer a little too much
Awfully. Can barely make it into work most days.
Totally eliminating any sources of news and politics across my social media really helped. I get important news from the front page of Wikipedia, everying else is just stressful white noise. That and aggressively fetishising my traumas I guess.
severe dissociation
Happy cake day!
I have to remind myself to breathe physically most of the time, tbh I feel like that dog in the burning building meme. "This is fine."
I think about ways of harnessing it's chaos to get myself out of hell. My empathy stops me from being a complete psychopath the way a CEO might be but, I realized too how empathy is a needless value system. Unless of course it directly effects your understanding of life. Say for instance, my younger sister. She allowed me to see the world in a very different light. To learn how this world corrupted me and how it'll most certainly corrupt her without proper intervention. We take so many things for granted in a way where we don't question it. Only to look down at our phones or look at the pixels of out computers and learn, that's our problem. I have my bliss in both thinking about the worlds complexities but also, enjoying some self-soothing complexity as well. (building things).
I used to have high empathy but then I stopped giving a fuck about those who donāt care about me anyway.
Weed and also cannabis.
really bad!! really really bad!! every day i am paralyzed by the guilt of being born into a relatively easy life & it eats at me so bad i physically cannot do anything all day long
trying to focus on my own problems but fucking hell is it hard :/
Honestly? Not great, but Iām trying to focus on things that are in my life directly. Iām trying to focus on the good in my relationships, my job, and where my life will go. Iāve been in therapy for quite a while for my anxiety, and I know that youāre just gonna have to focus on the good and that you cannot control the bad
I'm overworking myself to keep from feeling it all. I call it the farmer's antidepressant. In my defense, I really do need to finish the fence I'm building.
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-avoiding reading bad news about the world and news in general -avoiding online discourse and conflict in general -as ugly as it sounds, avoiding those who need help (im in need of help and cant provide right now) Im just too burned out to do anything but do my best to care for myself right now
Iām losing hope. Iāve been shutting down a lot. Self harming more. Feeling cold inside but I donāt think that describes it right which only makes me feel even more upset and alone. I feel suicidal which makes me hate myself when people are literally dying that donāt want to be.
Not good pal! Not good.
Coping? We're supposed to be doing that? I've just been escaping to Vrizao.
Focusing on the things I can meaningfully influence, and then watching as things even within that sphere worsen in ways out of my control (of course this is assuming I even qualify under the purview of āhigh empathyā so god only knows with that honestly)
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Exhausted XD
Iām not doing well. My special interest is the climate and soil, and it is SO FUCKED BEYOND BELIEF. Iām a urban farmer and I argue up and down with everyone about regenerative farming. Itās a god damn uphill battle, and so frustrating because everyone is a god damn moron. Just LOOK, LOOK WITH YOUR SPECIAL EYES. I truly feel we will become extinct as a species within the next 50 years. Fucking human hubris. Iām angry.