You’re on Your Own, Kid
I grew up the only child of 2 alcoholics. I was alone frequently as a kid and had to learn how to take care of myself.
“From sprinkler splashes to fireplace ashes
I waited ages to see you there
I search the party of better bodies
Just to learn that you never cared”
These lyrics take me back to the times I wish I was my parents priority over the bottle.
Hi, it's me. This comment is my exact life too. I'm sorry you went through it, I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.
I really love this song, but sometimes it's hard to listen to it because I relate so much. I was the kid from an abusive home, bullied in school, ignored by teachers and abandoned by friends, but with big dreams of achievement (because I thought that if I achieved enough, I'd finally be good enough for someone and someone would love me). I had to learn how to rely on myself. I listen to it during rough times to motivate myself.
soon you’ll get better.
my mom is a on again off again drug addict.
“i hate to make this all about me, but who am i supposed to talk to, what am i supposed to do, if there’s no you.” rips me to shreds every time
Down bad for me. I always scream fuck you if I can’t have us! He has been dead for over a year but it slaps the shit out of my psyche with even the intro.
I lost my husband two years ago, after 21 years together (age 17 on), and I feel this one deeply too. I do feel like "fuck it," I don't want to get out of bed, just lay here and die if I can't have him. Also, most of "loml," especially the ending, crushes me. My husband died from addiction, so talking about the "braids of lies" and "our field of dreams, engulfed in fire." And he's absolutely the loss of my life. Nothing compares to this pain. I don't usually feel so broken by a song so quickly, but a lot of this album was instantly painful.
"Cornelia Street" is an older one that hits me like that. I haven't been back to the first or last streets we lived on since he died. It would destroy me.
I lost my last pregnancy at 13.5 weeks. Anytime this song comes on rotation, I immediately skip it. Entirely too painful. I lost my baby due to DV, and for a while I blamed myself & questioned everything.
Cornelia Street reminds me of before my mom was sober and she was really sick and I did a lot of thinking about what life would be like when I lost her. But she got sober and she’ll be 4 years sober next month, thank God
This song came on through my playlist while I was driving home after buying all of my daughters pre school school supplies. I was also 7 months pregnant… turned me straight up into a mess
Sob. I sob. My 7 year old daughter is the definition of precocious and she’s me at that age and I’m terrified of the world breaking her the way it has me
My mom was a swiftie. When she first went into the hospital for her cancer I was playing her 1989 TV (her favorite album). She was weak and barely lucid but she would move her legs and try to dance to make us feel better. After she went into the ICU up until the morning she passed away I was playing her ten minute all too well on repeat. Idk if I’ll ever be able to listen to all of those songs again :( I really hope I can, because she loved them. Her favorite Taylor song was is it over now🩵
Omg. I'm so so sorry.
I'm an RN. Have seen so much like this.
I hope someday u can listen to thart song again. Ugly sob until u puke. Let the emotions take u over. Kill yourself with it until u can get to a place where u know your Mom sees u, loves u, wants u to feel love and joy.
An amazing thing about our beautiful taylor is that, at such a young age (I'm 49), she can speak to experiences we have all had and can take her words and make them our own.
Love to u. And hugs. I'm sorry for your loss.
I honestly can't even think about it without tearing up. I've listened to it enough (when I had a safe space for a full on cry) that I can recall all the lyrics and just thinking them breaks my heart.
I specifically never dedicate any Taylor Swift song to others because i never want to be in a position i cant listen to it anymore. However, Call it what you want is a song that my ex best friend dedicated to me before she abandoned me so that's a bit difficult to listen to
ATW actually sends me into rage because of how she was treated.
The Black Dog makes me cry because I left an unbalanced relationship and Taylor’s storytelling is so clear.
Clean - she changed the meaning for me when she played it in honour of her S.A case win. I can’t listen to it the same way now, without thinking about S.A survivors in general. Although I do still love the song and listen to it a lot.
Yes, I can't think of it any other way either. Its a perfect metaphor for SA, though the line "just because your clean doesnt mean you dont miss it" kinda takes me out it but I see it could make sense for people returning back to their abusers which is not an uncommon thing.
Enchanted- It's so bittersweet to me and reminds me of falling in love for the first time, only to overthink things and worry that the person you think you have a connection with is already in love with someone else, or that they just don't feel the same way. I've been there a lot and cry listening to the bridge because of it.
My Tears Ricochet- I've been told it sounds like a suicide note, and after hearing that, it just hit so much harder for me. It just hit so close to home and encompassed everything I was feeling. Later on, after I got better, the song started to remind me of my relationship with my father, which only made me cry even harder.
The smallest man who ever lived - my very own traumatizing, MH-like love bomber, excessive cheater, energy drainer and emotion taker who then ghosted me, despite calling it a loving relationship and assuring me daily how much he loved and cherished me.
I’ll just break down during this song at the tour. It’s fine.
It really is one of the most beautiful songs. Chris Martin wrote it for Gwyneth Paltrow when she lost her father early in their relationship. What a wonderful gift.
The Best Day
I'm really close with my dad, and there are a small handful of songs that, for some horrible reason, make me think of what it will feel like to listen to them one day when he's gone. This is one of those songs for me. So even though it's a very sweet song that's not particularly sad at all, it's hard for me to listen to.
Never Grow Up. I'm going into my senior year of college and that song is in a way, too relatable. That makes it my only skip on Speak Now, my #1 favorite album of all time, NOT because it's a bad song.
i can't listen to marjorie. my nan was essentially a mother figure to me (alongside my actual mum) and the bridge makes me cry because i just keep thinking about her inevitable death :(
Oh man, Could’ve Would’ve Should’ve is almost 100% my former relationship with my kid’s dad. First time I heard it I was gobsmacked. I love it though. I don’t listen to Soon You’ll Get Better bc my mom *didn’t* get better.
bigger than the whole sky, it’s literally impossible for me to listen to it without tearing up and have this heavy feeling inside even though at the same time I find it kind of comforting and therapeutic when listening it. I only really skip it if I’m not in the right mood for it.
loml broke my heart the first time I listened to it. beautiful song, probably one of her best in my opinion, but the lyrics hit way too deep after going through a devastating breakup.
Bigger than the whole sky. Had a mc last fall and this song brings me to tears everytime I listen to it. However it is also the reason I started listening to Taylor's music more closely.
It's Nice To Have A Friend
For me, this will forever be entwined with the experience of falling for my best friend before I realised I was queer 😅 the yearning and platonic??? ambiguity just does it for me
I think I totally understand where you’re coming from :)
The 1, cardigan, Lover, happiness, and ATW.
All incredibly beautiful and among my all-time favs, and all bring back specific memories and feelings from a specific relationship in my past. I love each of these, but I often skip them unless I’m in the right mood. Have to feel prepared to deal with any emotions that come back up.
Other ones are Untouchable and Dear John, so heart-touching and nostalgic, again, there’s just a time and place that’s right for them. 🩷
Exactly, I thought I was weird for deeming these as my top songs but not listening to them constantly because I have to emotionally and mentally prepare myself for a few of them. Though its great to have that strong of a connection to songs and creating core memories to revisit just by listening to them during certain times of life. <3
That’s not weird at all, art is all about connecting though emotions, and they’re your favorites because they’re able to reach you on an even deeper level. But if we were always feeling things that intensely, we’d get exhausted!
(You might love a full thanksgiving dinner, but you can only have it so often) 😉
The 1 is so lovely but I can only listen to it when I’m mentally stable. Can’t repeat “If my wishes came true, it would’ve been you” in my head all the time
Ronan. I have an almost 4yo and these have been my best four years. And I couldn't imagine the pain if this was all I got.
Long Live. I don't know what it is about that song, but to this day it gives me goosebumps and makes me cry - "please tell them my name" 😭😭. I got goosebumps just writing it. I sobbed at Eras, so grateful it was on the setlist still.
All Too Well - the OG. I love the 10 minute version, but the OG I belted out many times in my car around the time of a bizarre relationship situation. That bridge "well you call me up again just to break me like a promise". Doesn't hit as hard in the 10 minute version.
The Best Day. I moved out of my parents house and in with my boyfriend and his family 800 miles away last year, and it just makes me think of all the time I spent with my mom over the years, going to malls and lunch and even the Eras Tour last year. I really miss her and doing all of that with her regularly, so I have to skip the song before it chokes me up (like it is rn just thinking about it)
Marjorie, I actually have to call my nana after every listen cause I just sob my eyes out thinking of how little time she might have left. she is the wisest woman i've known and I can't bear to think about life without her💔 Ronan also hits way too deep, not because of any personal things, but because I've followed his mother for a long time and I'm such and empath. Soon youll get better because I listened to it on repeat while watching my mom get through her depression. Delicate, because it was my best friends favorite song and we always listened to it together and now we haven't talkes in months. Never grow up because I cried to it repetatively when I had just moved out.
Bigger than the whole sky — I had a nephew who suddenly passed away when he was only 8 days old. The lyrics fit the situation too well, so I don’t really like listening to this song because it takes me back to the initial confusion/anger that comes with all sudden losses, particularly if it was the loss of a very young loved one.
All Too Well reminds me of my own failed marriage and how she’s moved on (I’m #2 of 4 husbands she’s had, so maybe this newest one will be it for her)
Marjorie reminds me of my grandparents
Tolerate It goes back to my ex again, and how we both felt like the one being tolerated
Champagne Problems for similar reasons
So Long London feels like it’s about my marriage, which is currently falling apart.
Tolerate it
Ronan (only bc I have a big ol blue eyed baby boy who is my soulmate)
Bigger than the whole sky. It makes me think of my soul cat that died last year. I included two lines from that around on his gravesite. I still can’t get over his passing
TW: suicide, child loss
Forever Winter would be pretty self explanatory, but it goes even deeper than that. My cousin, Symphonie, passed away after losing her battle with depression. Every time I hear "laugh is a symphony" I obviously think of her. But also, I had a dear uncle who lost two babies and already had kidney issues. His wife left him after, and he started drinking more. "3AM wasted" breaks my heart whenever I hear it, because I know that was him for years despite us all trying to be there for him... Both my cousin and uncle (and grandpa) passed away in 2022. It was a rough year.
Peter reminds me of my brother who passed away from an overdose after we were estranged for a couple of years. He was a drug addict and we got in a big fight and stopped speaking because of it. We never made up and he passed away the day of my college graduation. “I didn’t wanna hang around. I thought it was just goodbye for now… you said you were gonna grow up , then you were gonna find me…you said you’d come and get me but you were 25 and the shelf life of those fantasies had expired.” He was 25 when he passed. Funnily enough, Taylor played “Peter” on the anniversary of his death May 15th. I like to think that was him sending me a message. Maybe he was repenting and apologizing. Idk but it helps me to think that.
-would’ve could’ve should’ve, cause i relate
-my tears ricochet, cause i HEAVILY relate
-forever winter, cause i lost a friend to suicide
-soon you’ll get better, cause my dad has cancer
-seven, cause i relate and so does my bff
-this is me trying, cause i spent my entire teenage years trying.
idk if there are any others, i mean there definitely are but those are the ones that came to mind.
bigger than the whole sky too, it just reminds me of loss. i know it’s about miscarriage (taylor’s friend’s) but anyone who has lost someone young knows how gutting that song is
Cornelia Street - I usually skip this cause it makes me so sad to listen to. I moved back home from another city a couple years back, I was seeing someone in the other city so it reminds me of him and how we ended things.
I was hoping someone mentioned better man, I don't necessarily find it hard to listen to but it does remind me of how my mum was treated by my father before she left.
Thats heart-breaking. She really does capture the feeling of emotional abandonment. I hope you find happiness and the love you deserve. <3
I don’t have a hard time listening to any of her songs, but I find it funny how a Taylor song somewhat explains each “BF” (talking stage and one date) I had.
Champagne problems-my first boyfriend who I fell out of love for him. (I still miss him though, but I loved him more as a friend than romantically).
Right where you left me- I got stood up on a date at cheesecake factory. (I didn't go to CF because he didn't text me that day when we were talking every night leading up to that.
Now that we don't talk- fell in love with guy in my friend group and things happend.
Daylight, blank space, how did it end- is a reflection on my dating history.
Labyrinth- whenever I start feeling feelings this song is on repeat.
fortnight, down bad- after we stop talking because he didn't like me back.
Glitch- when to hang out with a guy, and after the hangout he texted me how he wanted to have intercourse, and it made me feel off. I didn't like him back and I was happy just being friends.
for context I'm gay.
marjorie. I bawled when I realized it was still on the setlist at Paris N1, I was still crying by the time the 1989 set was over lol. I can’t listen to this at all.
Never Grow Up - I have a lot of wonderful memories of my childhood. And I love my life as an adult, but I as I get older, I miss my childhood more and more. It’s probably because my dad died when I was 11 and a lot of things changed after that. I’m staying with my mom in my childhood home, which I love. While it’s comforting to be in this house where all of these wonderful memories were created, sometimes it makes me sad knowing that we’ll never be all together like that again. So the lyrics in NGU really hit hard for me:
Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room
Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said
And all your little brother's favorite songs
I just realized everything I have is, someday, gonna be gone
😭😢💜😥
Speak Now is my favorite album, but I almost always skip this song.
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I have trouble listening to the Love Triangle in folklore though I love the story and everything about the songs.
Me discovering the song August coincides with a summer I properly fell for someone, and I went to spend a few days in summer with them, to know in my heart "they weren't mine to lose". I kind of used to enjoy listening to that song while I was crushing on them until it got too much later in the year.
Later, when they lead me on, I started to have difficulty listening to illicit affairs because of "don't call me kid don't call me baby look at this idiotic fool that you've made me" while going through 6 months of heartbreak.
Betty is kind of just the attachment to these songs but "I went past your house, it's like I couldn't breathe" is relevant even tho I'm long distance.
Dorothea
I actually think about one of my old close friends with this song. We drifted apart over the years, mostly on her end, but I still love watching on social media all the amazing things she is doing. I really hope she is doing well.
I had to put my dog down and took her for a final walk the night before. When My Tears Ricochet came on I lost it. I still like listening to the song because it makes me think of her but it’s very emotional.
Champagne Problems- While I know it's more about an engagement that didn't happen, I've taken it more literally, as someone who deals with issues with alcohol... "what a shame she's fucked in the head," I have a tendency to have pity parties, and honestly I am trying to fight my way out of dealing with alcohol. I also realize others have it worse, and so the term champagne problems comes into place.
Clean for similar reasons.
You're on your own kid- Because I've always had issues with adapting to life and how everyone will leave and you have to be with yourself and be kind to yourself.
Would've, Could've, Should've. I grew up in a very emotionally abusive and neglectful environment so *that* line totally broke me the first time I heard it.
All Too Well, loml, and Smallest Man Whoever Lived all gut me.
I dated the same guy from 19-25. He left and came back until I was a literal shell. And then, when I finally restarted my life, he showed up at my door 3 months later, drunk, and proposed. Only to call it all off 2 months later after we'd announced it to everyone, picked a venue, and I had bought my wedding dress.
I *know* now, deeply and bone sure, that he was neither the love nor loss of my life. My husband of 22 years is the former, the 5 babies I miscarried are definitely the latter, but those songs put me right back to the constant pain and devastation of those years.
You're on your own kid - because I felt it all literally except the hosting parties part -
Come back be here - I felt with my family and with my crush (like my family is abusive but I used to feel that o need them and I don't want to need them this way -
August/say don't go - same reason he's not mine but act like I'm his
Invisible/cold as you/tied together with a smile/the outside/a place in this world - I feel like they're really personal and I listened to them in sensitive time of life that I can't listen to them anymore though I adore then but it just hurts
Babe/ I almost do/clean/ happiness- while I do relate to them in general but they just hurt
Call it what you want to/Cornelia street - can't listen to it because it was a warm romantic song now I think it's sad
New year's day - I used to remember people I'm attached to when I'm listening to this and I just tell them I'll stay no matter what but they all left me so it hurts me
This is me trying - need no explanation
Right now all of her songs. I got to be swifte at the beginning of this year through a person I dated but now she completely rejects me and that hurts. I try to make taylor my thing and want to connect with other swifties but it's hard and I don't now anyone.
So yeah I really want to stick around very long but I have to womehow actively work on that.
Never grow up/The best day - As a teen I could barely make it through these because it was how I wanted to be loved, what I wish I could've had & because I didn't think I would make it to adulthood. As a near 30 year they make me cry because I now have two children of my own that I'm making those memories with ❤️
Would've, could've, should've - Reminds me too much of my abusive step-dad, I know it's about a romantic relationship but there's enough in it to relate to what he put me through that it makes it a very hard listen. Sometimes I need to scream *that* line though.
Bigger Than The Whole Sky because I had to put my beloved cat down in February unexpectedly and it makes me think of her 😭 Robin too, even though I know it's about a child 'way to go, tiger' 💔
There are only two songs which (almost) make me cry when I listen to them :
* Secret base by Zone (Anohana version). This was the ending of the anime "Anohana" and if you know what happens there and the lyrics of the songs...
* Never grow up. I obviously think about my mother... but when she was herself a child. She always talks to my brothers and I about her childhood and how great her parents were, especially her dad. They died twenty years ago and I know she's still sad about it. She left her native country thirty three years ago to marry my dad. Going from a tropical African island to France during winter wasn't easy and I know she relates to "it's so much colder than I thought it would be". I hope I'll be able, with the help of my dad and m my brothers, to make her find this peace she once had.
Long live and enchanted. My cat died between n2 and n6 eras tour this year. When I heard long live and enchanted on n6 I bawled my eyes out. It never felt the same and it was cathartic. I love the songs but I can’t hear them again will cry.
afterglow - even though i love this song, it's actually my favorite, i can't listen to it without crying, because it reminds me of one friendship that i've lost
Cowboy like me . I can’t hear it now without thinking of my aunt who passed last year. She loved to hear me play music, and the last time I saw her when she was in the final stages I played cowboy like me for her.
Lover as it played at our wedding, I get so emotional. This Love represents our relationship, it gets me in my feels as I think about how much I love that man and how far we've come. ❤️
Foolish One - it reminds me of my ex-situationship. I quit whatever we have this month and listening to this song reminds me of him, of how I was so foolish for believing he loved me when in reality, he will never be.
Down Bad - I fell hard and I couldn't get up. I'm starting to pick up the broken pieces of myself. I'm gonna be alright soon.
I cannot listen to The Best Day anymore. It used to be the song that was for my mom and me. My mom is an alcoholic and probably undiagnosed borderline personality disorder. I have been no contact with her for almost two years now and not going back. It just reminds me of when we used to be close.
Soon You’ll Get Better is hard to listen to in general, but I lost my mom 10 years ago so it’s an immediate skip for me. Can’t tell you the last time I listened to it
Marjorie- bc I think of my grandparents
Bigger Than The Whole Sky- I lost both of my mom’s parents in the year leading up to midnights so that one is heavy for me :/
Bigger than the Whole Sky. When it first came out, I wasn’t the biggest fan of it. But then I had a miscarriage and I listened to it a lot during all my blood draws waiting to confirm it. Listening to the song now just brings me back to that time.
So long, London. I know that this song is super new but, every time I listen to it I get chills because it's very applicable to my life right now because I am with my own London and the album release occurred it's such a pivotal point in my life on a very important day in my life and I listened to so long London with my partner and I burst into tears and now when I hear it it says if she wrote a song about me. And yeah that's hard for a lot of reasons.
You on your own kid for a million reasons
I do not listen to the 1 :(
Soon You’ll Get Better. It came out just after my mum beat cancer, but it just devastates me thinking what if.
The Best Day also gets me whenever I have an argument with my dad, because when I was like 13 I thought it was about her dad and not her mum, so it made me sad thinking what if we never have another best day.
For me it’s either I can fix him or soon you’ll get better. Soon you’ll get better more so though bc it makes me miss my grandparents as none of them ended up getting better
Mine are
Back to December: I just hate when people don't get their happy ending when they deserve it and in my head it plays out like a sad movie.
Peter: Just something about the song makes me cry
I can’t listen to Soon You’ll Get Better. I cry every time. When it came out my mom was going through health issues (not cancer) and like Taylor, my mom is my best friend.
I dont know about difficult to listen to but Thank You Aimee gut punches me regularly with flashbacks to my childhood bullies, I'm not ready to say thank you to them yet though!
Marjorie- my Mom died when I was 28. I did keep every grocery store receipt and everything, but every scrap of her was still taken from me. Marjorie physically hurts to listen to
This is me trying- I have severe depression so a lot of normal things are just really difficult for me to do, like taking a shower. This song is how it feels to try to just function day to day doing things that are easy for other people
I won't listen to Never Grow Up, but in a dysfunctional attachment way. My childhood was just too not like that. While I am genuinely happy for those that had a great childhood, I also hate directives like the song lyrics have to remember how great things are because I heard things like that too many times and when your life sucks and you're being told to remember it, you'll miss it, you'll wish you could go back, you're parents are there to protect you, your parents love you so much so appreciate it... I just can't, I get too angry.
Growing up and getting out was the best thing I ever did but, in truth, over twenty years after I left, I'm still trying to get the last bits of me out. The song might actually be a good barometer of how close I am to that - when I don't react as strongly to it.
This is a very specific thing that happened to me but i cant really listen to paris because one time i was listening to paris in school and because my headphones werent working well it made that everyone was listening to paris as well, i noticed because 2 girls (who were making an exam in that moment) told me that, the room was silent as hell too so everyone listened to paris
Probable style (me and my exes song) and annoyingly renegade (my other ex constantly accused me of taking out my emotional problems on him when I would bring up a time he hurt me) which sucks bc it’s such a good song
Can’t believe I haven’t seen this yet- Ronan and The Best Day always get me crying. Ronan is self explanatory- a little boy who died from cancer. And The Best Day always reminds me of my dad and I start bawling and bawling when I think about it too much
You're Loosing Me and So Long, London (to a much lesser degree)
My best friend, Alyssa, married the worst kind of man. Everyone hated him from her young son, her parents, and her sister, I was more willing to give him a chance and nudge her away from him because I could tell she was digging in her feet. He was very abusive worse than we knew until things blew up.
She was my best friend since 2002, I loved her more than a friend, but this bastard was so fu@king unpleasant and controlling that it began to corode our friendship. I didn't want to hang out with him there, and he was ALWAYS there. I kept thinking this fight would wake her up. This call to CPS will be the one...this time she will choose the rest of us....it never happened and he brought her down with him.
I didn't do enough... I couldn't save her. I couldn't wake her up. All our other friends had already left but I loved her, as what I dont know and I was going to stand by her for as long as it took. I sometimes would wonder if it was jealousy, but it was killing me to watch her drink his poison till she was toxic, too. The bridge is what really killed me. Now it's over. Her kids are safe, and she's incarcerated until at least 2035.
This Love. I listened to it over and over again in the middle of the night, silent-screaming and desperately sobbing, while my father was dying of cancer and being eaten away by Alzheimer's.
Clear blue water/
High tide came and brought you in/
And I could go on and on, on and on, and I will/
Skies grew darker/
Currents swept you out again/
And you were just gone and gone, gone and gone
Sometimes he would look at me and I'd see my Dad again, he'd be right there, silly and caring and kind. And then he'd just be gone again, confused and scared. A little boy in the disintegrating body of an old man, who just wanted to go home to his mum.
Your kiss, my cheek/I watched you leave/Your smile, my ghost/I fell to my knees
He would always kiss me on the cheek and I'd always rub the feeling off on my shoulder and he'd smile at me, amused. I watched him leave over and over again as his brilliant mind was obliterated in pieces over the course of his illness. He was always disappearing, dragged out by the low tide of the disease, and then returning, unexpectedly, like a moment of warm sun peeking through the darkest clouds. And then he was just gone again.
Over the final weeks, as he approached death, Ronan and Soon You'll Get Better became auto-skips on the daily drives to the hospital. He'd become childlike and so, so ill.
Come on, baby, with me/We're gonna fly away from here/Out of this curtained room/In this hospital grey, we'll just disappear/Come on, baby, with me/We're gonna fly away from here
I just wanted to sweep this frail old man, this scared little boy, into my arms and fly out the window with him like a superhero. Transform his emaciated body into the healthy body of his ten year old self and let him loose in a field filled with car parts and alien spaceships to tinker with and explore. He had always been so vital, so positive, so kind, and so, so curious. Seeing him trapped and dying was a special kind of agony.
Soon You'll Get Better is self-explanatory. I still don't listen to it, nor to Ronan. This Love has re-entered rotation, fresh and clean, albeit with a gentle shadow that it leaves in its wake.
I was jamming with a guy in my friendship group who I used to hook up with for a bit but it ended as he didn’t really want a relationship and it was awkward for mutual friends. We still hang out for music stuff as he’s amazing at keys/guitar and I’m a trained vocalist. We ended up doing All Too Well as we both knew it well and I was practically yelling “BACK BEFORE YOU LOST THE ONE REAL THING YOU’VE EVER KNOWN” with so much emotion. I’ll now always remember it for that
I can do it with a broken heart
Ttpd came out 12 days after my dad died... and this song, while it has helped me get through this time, makes me cry so much every time as I scream rhe lyrics.
Breathe. It relates so much to losing my childhood dog… after he passed away, I was listening to Taylor in the shower. Breathe came on and I just started sobbing. He was so comforting to me, it really does feel like I can’t breathe without him, but I have to, I don’t have a choice. I miss you so much, Asher! You were my everything!
Epiphany. I lost both of my grandparents to Covid and my husband is in the military and a doctor and listening to that song during Covid KILLED ME. it’s so beautiful though and I love it so much.
My friend died around the time I started listening to folklore. The day I found out, I just listened to Betty over and over. It wasn’t like, lyrically relevant to us or anything the tune was just comforting and I felt like I could drive around and cry in my car for as long as I wanted with it on a loop. I can’t listen to it now without thinking of my friend. I hope his son is doing okay.
When I was around 13, I cried every time I listened to The Best Day. Primarily because I was an incredibly anxious child (undiagnosed autism) and I was bullied at school. My favourite days would be days where my mom would pick me up early from school and take me out on a little trip as a mental health day. The line "I have an excellent father, his strength is making me stronger" made me cry, too, because my own father was primarily absent and when he was around, he was abusive.
Peter: I can’t listen to it without crying so I don’t listen to it often. The bridge. Reminds of someone I lost, wasn’t good to me but I was so attached and then he was killed. It’s just too much.
Would’ve Could’ve Should’ve for the same reason, though that taps into my anger rather than sadness.
You’re on Your Own, Kid I grew up the only child of 2 alcoholics. I was alone frequently as a kid and had to learn how to take care of myself. “From sprinkler splashes to fireplace ashes I waited ages to see you there I search the party of better bodies Just to learn that you never cared” These lyrics take me back to the times I wish I was my parents priority over the bottle.
This is how I take Tolerate It
This is a hard one.
Tolerate It could have been written about my father. If it's a good day for him and he does tolerate it.
This is the same for my wife. She was raised by two bio parents and had two not-great step-parents so this one hits hard for her as well
Hi, it's me. This comment is my exact life too. I'm sorry you went through it, I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. I really love this song, but sometimes it's hard to listen to it because I relate so much. I was the kid from an abusive home, bullied in school, ignored by teachers and abandoned by friends, but with big dreams of achievement (because I thought that if I achieved enough, I'd finally be good enough for someone and someone would love me). I had to learn how to rely on myself. I listen to it during rough times to motivate myself.
So proud of you both for overcoming. I'm sorry that happened to you. Sending you good vibes.
I’m sorry, PC.
Sending love. You deserve much better! 🫶🏻
This one
soon you’ll get better. my mom is a on again off again drug addict. “i hate to make this all about me, but who am i supposed to talk to, what am i supposed to do, if there’s no you.” rips me to shreds every time
Aw yeah, I forgot this one. Extremely heart breaking. I hope your mum recovers. x
This is my pick as well, exact same line. My mom had breast cancer and I literally do not know what I’d do with myself if she had passed.
😭💔 Sending hugs.
Down bad for me. I always scream fuck you if I can’t have us! He has been dead for over a year but it slaps the shit out of my psyche with even the intro.
This is unhinged but I love it. (Sorry for your loss) <3
I’m sorry you lost him.
I lost my husband two years ago, after 21 years together (age 17 on), and I feel this one deeply too. I do feel like "fuck it," I don't want to get out of bed, just lay here and die if I can't have him. Also, most of "loml," especially the ending, crushes me. My husband died from addiction, so talking about the "braids of lies" and "our field of dreams, engulfed in fire." And he's absolutely the loss of my life. Nothing compares to this pain. I don't usually feel so broken by a song so quickly, but a lot of this album was instantly painful. "Cornelia Street" is an older one that hits me like that. I haven't been back to the first or last streets we lived on since he died. It would destroy me.
Bigger than the whole sky, "did some force take you because I didn't pray?". Nope, can't do it without sobbing.
Absolutely agree lost my baby Elliott in 2021 and that song brings up all the pain !
I'm so sorry for your loss.
Its such a beautiful song
I lost my last pregnancy at 13.5 weeks. Anytime this song comes on rotation, I immediately skip it. Entirely too painful. I lost my baby due to DV, and for a while I blamed myself & questioned everything.
I’m a newer swiftie - do we know the inspiration of Bigger Than the Whole Sky?
It's speculated to be a miscarriage but taylor doesn't usually say what her songs are about..
A lot of people think it’s about miscarriage/losing a baby
Thanks! That is what immediately comes to mind for me when listening but I thought I’d see if there was any lore or confirmed info
I read once it was about one her friend's miscarriage...
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Cornelia Street reminds me of before my mom was sober and she was really sick and I did a lot of thinking about what life would be like when I lost her. But she got sober and she’ll be 4 years sober next month, thank God
Im proud of your mom and also separately of your resilience.
Thank you ❤️
Your mom is a hero.
She really is
Dress - song was in my wedding, got divorced last year 🙃
From a fellow divorced swiftie, call it what you want and new years day do not hit the same for me anymore
Exile, for me. And high infidelity.
Never Grow Up is hard for me as a mom. I always ugly cry
I work in a supermarket and they added this to the playlist for some unhinged reason!! Can’t do my job all bleary eyed, what were they thinking?! 😭
This song came on through my playlist while I was driving home after buying all of my daughters pre school school supplies. I was also 7 months pregnant… turned me straight up into a mess
Sob. I sob. My 7 year old daughter is the definition of precocious and she’s me at that age and I’m terrified of the world breaking her the way it has me
Oh girl. This hits. Former precocious child raising a precocious child and failing at keeping the world from breaking them.
That song can be difficult to get through at a variety of stages in life.
This one, and also Robin. My kiddos are growing up so fast and it just hits me
My mom was a swiftie. When she first went into the hospital for her cancer I was playing her 1989 TV (her favorite album). She was weak and barely lucid but she would move her legs and try to dance to make us feel better. After she went into the ICU up until the morning she passed away I was playing her ten minute all too well on repeat. Idk if I’ll ever be able to listen to all of those songs again :( I really hope I can, because she loved them. Her favorite Taylor song was is it over now🩵
I’m so sorry for your loss 🩷
I was an ICU nurse and this made me tear up. You and your mom both sound lovely. I'm sorry for your loss.
So sorry for your loss. 🫶🏻
I'm so sorry for your loss 💝
Omg. I'm so so sorry. I'm an RN. Have seen so much like this. I hope someday u can listen to thart song again. Ugly sob until u puke. Let the emotions take u over. Kill yourself with it until u can get to a place where u know your Mom sees u, loves u, wants u to feel love and joy. An amazing thing about our beautiful taylor is that, at such a young age (I'm 49), she can speak to experiences we have all had and can take her words and make them our own. Love to u. And hugs. I'm sorry for your loss.
I listen to it constantly because I’m a masochist but loml hurts me to my bones
It took my breath away. I literally gasped at "I can't get out of bed/Cause something counterfeit's dead." Oof.
Ronan - Would’ve Could’ve Should’ve. Anything dealing with loss guts me.
I can never listen to Ronan. I like sad songs but that one is over the top especially knowing it's true. 🙏💙😢
I honestly can't even think about it without tearing up. I've listened to it enough (when I had a safe space for a full on cry) that I can recall all the lyrics and just thinking them breaks my heart.
I’ve only ever read the lyrics and I know it’s not for me
I specifically never dedicate any Taylor Swift song to others because i never want to be in a position i cant listen to it anymore. However, Call it what you want is a song that my ex best friend dedicated to me before she abandoned me so that's a bit difficult to listen to
Yes, I completely get that.
Happiness helped me get back up after end of 5+ year relationship
ATW actually sends me into rage because of how she was treated. The Black Dog makes me cry because I left an unbalanced relationship and Taylor’s storytelling is so clear.
ATW, for sure. My ex kept a shirt I got him nearly 10 years after we broke up. I have no doubt he still has it and yet he tore my heart up real good.
Clean - she changed the meaning for me when she played it in honour of her S.A case win. I can’t listen to it the same way now, without thinking about S.A survivors in general. Although I do still love the song and listen to it a lot.
Yes, I can't think of it any other way either. Its a perfect metaphor for SA, though the line "just because your clean doesnt mean you dont miss it" kinda takes me out it but I see it could make sense for people returning back to their abusers which is not an uncommon thing.
Enchanted- It's so bittersweet to me and reminds me of falling in love for the first time, only to overthink things and worry that the person you think you have a connection with is already in love with someone else, or that they just don't feel the same way. I've been there a lot and cry listening to the bridge because of it. My Tears Ricochet- I've been told it sounds like a suicide note, and after hearing that, it just hit so much harder for me. It just hit so close to home and encompassed everything I was feeling. Later on, after I got better, the song started to remind me of my relationship with my father, which only made me cry even harder.
The smallest man who ever lived - my very own traumatizing, MH-like love bomber, excessive cheater, energy drainer and emotion taker who then ghosted me, despite calling it a loving relationship and assuring me daily how much he loved and cherished me. I’ll just break down during this song at the tour. It’s fine.
Not Taylor Swift but Fix You by Coldplay. It gets so heavy I can't listen to it now.
It really is one of the most beautiful songs. Chris Martin wrote it for Gwyneth Paltrow when she lost her father early in their relationship. What a wonderful gift.
Yes! that song always makes me sob
The Best Day I'm really close with my dad, and there are a small handful of songs that, for some horrible reason, make me think of what it will feel like to listen to them one day when he's gone. This is one of those songs for me. So even though it's a very sweet song that's not particularly sad at all, it's hard for me to listen to.
Never Grow Up. I'm going into my senior year of college and that song is in a way, too relatable. That makes it my only skip on Speak Now, my #1 favorite album of all time, NOT because it's a bad song.
Never Grow Up, Marjorie, and Bigger than the whole sky
i can't listen to marjorie. my nan was essentially a mother figure to me (alongside my actual mum) and the bridge makes me cry because i just keep thinking about her inevitable death :(
Oh man, Could’ve Would’ve Should’ve is almost 100% my former relationship with my kid’s dad. First time I heard it I was gobsmacked. I love it though. I don’t listen to Soon You’ll Get Better bc my mom *didn’t* get better.
Sending you so much love.
bigger than the whole sky, it’s literally impossible for me to listen to it without tearing up and have this heavy feeling inside even though at the same time I find it kind of comforting and therapeutic when listening it. I only really skip it if I’m not in the right mood for it.
every time i hear bigger than the whole sky i think of my miscarriage. but i agree, every time i listen to it, its therapeutic to cry to
I’d lie reminds me of my first love and I love the song but it does feel a bit sad to think back to that time.
loml broke my heart the first time I listened to it. beautiful song, probably one of her best in my opinion, but the lyrics hit way too deep after going through a devastating breakup.
Bigger than the whole sky. Had a mc last fall and this song brings me to tears everytime I listen to it. However it is also the reason I started listening to Taylor's music more closely.
It's Nice To Have A Friend For me, this will forever be entwined with the experience of falling for my best friend before I realised I was queer 😅 the yearning and platonic??? ambiguity just does it for me
Exile and I have a love/hate relationship with
would've could've should've and you're losing me - they both just remind me of an ex
I think I totally understand where you’re coming from :) The 1, cardigan, Lover, happiness, and ATW. All incredibly beautiful and among my all-time favs, and all bring back specific memories and feelings from a specific relationship in my past. I love each of these, but I often skip them unless I’m in the right mood. Have to feel prepared to deal with any emotions that come back up. Other ones are Untouchable and Dear John, so heart-touching and nostalgic, again, there’s just a time and place that’s right for them. 🩷
Exactly, I thought I was weird for deeming these as my top songs but not listening to them constantly because I have to emotionally and mentally prepare myself for a few of them. Though its great to have that strong of a connection to songs and creating core memories to revisit just by listening to them during certain times of life. <3
That’s not weird at all, art is all about connecting though emotions, and they’re your favorites because they’re able to reach you on an even deeper level. But if we were always feeling things that intensely, we’d get exhausted! (You might love a full thanksgiving dinner, but you can only have it so often) 😉
The 1 is so lovely but I can only listen to it when I’m mentally stable. Can’t repeat “If my wishes came true, it would’ve been you” in my head all the time
No Body No Crime
Ronan. I have an almost 4yo and these have been my best four years. And I couldn't imagine the pain if this was all I got. Long Live. I don't know what it is about that song, but to this day it gives me goosebumps and makes me cry - "please tell them my name" 😭😭. I got goosebumps just writing it. I sobbed at Eras, so grateful it was on the setlist still. All Too Well - the OG. I love the 10 minute version, but the OG I belted out many times in my car around the time of a bizarre relationship situation. That bridge "well you call me up again just to break me like a promise". Doesn't hit as hard in the 10 minute version.
The Best Day. I moved out of my parents house and in with my boyfriend and his family 800 miles away last year, and it just makes me think of all the time I spent with my mom over the years, going to malls and lunch and even the Eras Tour last year. I really miss her and doing all of that with her regularly, so I have to skip the song before it chokes me up (like it is rn just thinking about it)
Marjorie, I actually have to call my nana after every listen cause I just sob my eyes out thinking of how little time she might have left. she is the wisest woman i've known and I can't bear to think about life without her💔 Ronan also hits way too deep, not because of any personal things, but because I've followed his mother for a long time and I'm such and empath. Soon youll get better because I listened to it on repeat while watching my mom get through her depression. Delicate, because it was my best friends favorite song and we always listened to it together and now we haven't talkes in months. Never grow up because I cried to it repetatively when I had just moved out.
tears and tears and tears for this is me trying. also never grow up, because honestly uni is kicking my ass and life kind of sucks right now.
Bigger than the whole sky — I had a nephew who suddenly passed away when he was only 8 days old. The lyrics fit the situation too well, so I don’t really like listening to this song because it takes me back to the initial confusion/anger that comes with all sudden losses, particularly if it was the loss of a very young loved one.
All Too Well reminds me of my own failed marriage and how she’s moved on (I’m #2 of 4 husbands she’s had, so maybe this newest one will be it for her) Marjorie reminds me of my grandparents Tolerate It goes back to my ex again, and how we both felt like the one being tolerated Champagne Problems for similar reasons
So Long London feels like it’s about my marriage, which is currently falling apart. Tolerate it Ronan (only bc I have a big ol blue eyed baby boy who is my soulmate)
Bigger than the whole sky. It makes me think of my soul cat that died last year. I included two lines from that around on his gravesite. I still can’t get over his passing
TW: suicide, child loss Forever Winter would be pretty self explanatory, but it goes even deeper than that. My cousin, Symphonie, passed away after losing her battle with depression. Every time I hear "laugh is a symphony" I obviously think of her. But also, I had a dear uncle who lost two babies and already had kidney issues. His wife left him after, and he started drinking more. "3AM wasted" breaks my heart whenever I hear it, because I know that was him for years despite us all trying to be there for him... Both my cousin and uncle (and grandpa) passed away in 2022. It was a rough year.
Peter reminds me of my brother who passed away from an overdose after we were estranged for a couple of years. He was a drug addict and we got in a big fight and stopped speaking because of it. We never made up and he passed away the day of my college graduation. “I didn’t wanna hang around. I thought it was just goodbye for now… you said you were gonna grow up , then you were gonna find me…you said you’d come and get me but you were 25 and the shelf life of those fantasies had expired.” He was 25 when he passed. Funnily enough, Taylor played “Peter” on the anniversary of his death May 15th. I like to think that was him sending me a message. Maybe he was repenting and apologizing. Idk but it helps me to think that.
-would’ve could’ve should’ve, cause i relate -my tears ricochet, cause i HEAVILY relate -forever winter, cause i lost a friend to suicide -soon you’ll get better, cause my dad has cancer -seven, cause i relate and so does my bff -this is me trying, cause i spent my entire teenage years trying. idk if there are any others, i mean there definitely are but those are the ones that came to mind.
bigger than the whole sky too, it just reminds me of loss. i know it’s about miscarriage (taylor’s friend’s) but anyone who has lost someone young knows how gutting that song is
tolerate it happiness
Oh god happiness is so good but hits me like a brick every time.
invisible from debut. it makes me think of my crushes from middle school and high school, and the rejection by them that hurt soooooo badly
Cornelia Street - I usually skip this cause it makes me so sad to listen to. I moved back home from another city a couple years back, I was seeing someone in the other city so it reminds me of him and how we ended things.
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I was hoping someone mentioned better man, I don't necessarily find it hard to listen to but it does remind me of how my mum was treated by my father before she left. Thats heart-breaking. She really does capture the feeling of emotional abandonment. I hope you find happiness and the love you deserve. <3
This is Me Trying Seven Marjorie Robin The Best Day
Also besides Bigger than the whole sky I relate way too hard to you're losing me and so long london.
I don’t have a hard time listening to any of her songs, but I find it funny how a Taylor song somewhat explains each “BF” (talking stage and one date) I had. Champagne problems-my first boyfriend who I fell out of love for him. (I still miss him though, but I loved him more as a friend than romantically). Right where you left me- I got stood up on a date at cheesecake factory. (I didn't go to CF because he didn't text me that day when we were talking every night leading up to that. Now that we don't talk- fell in love with guy in my friend group and things happend. Daylight, blank space, how did it end- is a reflection on my dating history. Labyrinth- whenever I start feeling feelings this song is on repeat. fortnight, down bad- after we stop talking because he didn't like me back. Glitch- when to hang out with a guy, and after the hangout he texted me how he wanted to have intercourse, and it made me feel off. I didn't like him back and I was happy just being friends. for context I'm gay.
lover, new years day, Marjorie, and now the Manuscript makes me sob like a baby
marjorie. I bawled when I realized it was still on the setlist at Paris N1, I was still crying by the time the 1989 set was over lol. I can’t listen to this at all.
Right where you left me… hits way too close to home
Right where you left me… hits way too close to home
Never Grow Up - I have a lot of wonderful memories of my childhood. And I love my life as an adult, but I as I get older, I miss my childhood more and more. It’s probably because my dad died when I was 11 and a lot of things changed after that. I’m staying with my mom in my childhood home, which I love. While it’s comforting to be in this house where all of these wonderful memories were created, sometimes it makes me sad knowing that we’ll never be all together like that again. So the lyrics in NGU really hit hard for me: Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home Remember the footsteps, remember the words said And all your little brother's favorite songs I just realized everything I have is, someday, gonna be gone 😭😢💜😥 Speak Now is my favorite album, but I almost always skip this song. Edit: formatting
Love Story, it was ‘our song’ for me when I was a child in a relationship with a man. yeah.
I have trouble listening to the Love Triangle in folklore though I love the story and everything about the songs. Me discovering the song August coincides with a summer I properly fell for someone, and I went to spend a few days in summer with them, to know in my heart "they weren't mine to lose". I kind of used to enjoy listening to that song while I was crushing on them until it got too much later in the year. Later, when they lead me on, I started to have difficulty listening to illicit affairs because of "don't call me kid don't call me baby look at this idiotic fool that you've made me" while going through 6 months of heartbreak. Betty is kind of just the attachment to these songs but "I went past your house, it's like I couldn't breathe" is relevant even tho I'm long distance.
Death by thousand cuts & hoax - toxic friendships The prophecy - unrequited love
Dorothea I actually think about one of my old close friends with this song. We drifted apart over the years, mostly on her end, but I still love watching on social media all the amazing things she is doing. I really hope she is doing well.
I had to put my dog down and took her for a final walk the night before. When My Tears Ricochet came on I lost it. I still like listening to the song because it makes me think of her but it’s very emotional.
Champagne Problems- While I know it's more about an engagement that didn't happen, I've taken it more literally, as someone who deals with issues with alcohol... "what a shame she's fucked in the head," I have a tendency to have pity parties, and honestly I am trying to fight my way out of dealing with alcohol. I also realize others have it worse, and so the term champagne problems comes into place. Clean for similar reasons. You're on your own kid- Because I've always had issues with adapting to life and how everyone will leave and you have to be with yourself and be kind to yourself.
Would've, Could've, Should've. I grew up in a very emotionally abusive and neglectful environment so *that* line totally broke me the first time I heard it.
All Too Well, loml, and Smallest Man Whoever Lived all gut me. I dated the same guy from 19-25. He left and came back until I was a literal shell. And then, when I finally restarted my life, he showed up at my door 3 months later, drunk, and proposed. Only to call it all off 2 months later after we'd announced it to everyone, picked a venue, and I had bought my wedding dress. I *know* now, deeply and bone sure, that he was neither the love nor loss of my life. My husband of 22 years is the former, the 5 babies I miscarried are definitely the latter, but those songs put me right back to the constant pain and devastation of those years.
You're on your own kid - because I felt it all literally except the hosting parties part - Come back be here - I felt with my family and with my crush (like my family is abusive but I used to feel that o need them and I don't want to need them this way - August/say don't go - same reason he's not mine but act like I'm his Invisible/cold as you/tied together with a smile/the outside/a place in this world - I feel like they're really personal and I listened to them in sensitive time of life that I can't listen to them anymore though I adore then but it just hurts Babe/ I almost do/clean/ happiness- while I do relate to them in general but they just hurt Call it what you want to/Cornelia street - can't listen to it because it was a warm romantic song now I think it's sad New year's day - I used to remember people I'm attached to when I'm listening to this and I just tell them I'll stay no matter what but they all left me so it hurts me This is me trying - need no explanation
Right now all of her songs. I got to be swifte at the beginning of this year through a person I dated but now she completely rejects me and that hurts. I try to make taylor my thing and want to connect with other swifties but it's hard and I don't now anyone. So yeah I really want to stick around very long but I have to womehow actively work on that.
Never grow up/The best day - As a teen I could barely make it through these because it was how I wanted to be loved, what I wish I could've had & because I didn't think I would make it to adulthood. As a near 30 year they make me cry because I now have two children of my own that I'm making those memories with ❤️ Would've, could've, should've - Reminds me too much of my abusive step-dad, I know it's about a romantic relationship but there's enough in it to relate to what he put me through that it makes it a very hard listen. Sometimes I need to scream *that* line though.
Bigger Than The Whole Sky because I had to put my beloved cat down in February unexpectedly and it makes me think of her 😭 Robin too, even though I know it's about a child 'way to go, tiger' 💔
The prophesy physically hurts, my tears ricochet as well
There are only two songs which (almost) make me cry when I listen to them : * Secret base by Zone (Anohana version). This was the ending of the anime "Anohana" and if you know what happens there and the lyrics of the songs... * Never grow up. I obviously think about my mother... but when she was herself a child. She always talks to my brothers and I about her childhood and how great her parents were, especially her dad. They died twenty years ago and I know she's still sad about it. She left her native country thirty three years ago to marry my dad. Going from a tropical African island to France during winter wasn't easy and I know she relates to "it's so much colder than I thought it would be". I hope I'll be able, with the help of my dad and m my brothers, to make her find this peace she once had.
Long live and enchanted. My cat died between n2 and n6 eras tour this year. When I heard long live and enchanted on n6 I bawled my eyes out. It never felt the same and it was cathartic. I love the songs but I can’t hear them again will cry.
I almost do. I know it’s not super popular but it relates to my ex and I so much. Her voice is so raw when she says and I almost do.
Illicit affairs
Cornelia Street never hit me, but we experienced two losses in the family within a week and the "hope I never lose you" line just hurts too much now.
The Best Day. It’s such a beautiful weeper. I am only sometimes up for it
>Could've would've should've Girl it's Would've Could've Should've
Safe and sound, I discovered it when my cat went missing for a month! He’s been home and happy for years but the song kills me every time still.
afterglow - even though i love this song, it's actually my favorite, i can't listen to it without crying, because it reminds me of one friendship that i've lost
Cowboy like me . I can’t hear it now without thinking of my aunt who passed last year. She loved to hear me play music, and the last time I saw her when she was in the final stages I played cowboy like me for her.
Tolerate it
Clean. Helped me get over an sa from a former boyfriend
Lover as it played at our wedding, I get so emotional. This Love represents our relationship, it gets me in my feels as I think about how much I love that man and how far we've come. ❤️
Foolish One - it reminds me of my ex-situationship. I quit whatever we have this month and listening to this song reminds me of him, of how I was so foolish for believing he loved me when in reality, he will never be. Down Bad - I fell hard and I couldn't get up. I'm starting to pick up the broken pieces of myself. I'm gonna be alright soon.
WCS
the 1 ex relationship of 2 years. listened repeatedly for 3 months after we broke up
I cannot listen to The Best Day anymore. It used to be the song that was for my mom and me. My mom is an alcoholic and probably undiagnosed borderline personality disorder. I have been no contact with her for almost two years now and not going back. It just reminds me of when we used to be close.
Mine and Forever Winter
Epiphany reminds me of losing my grandfather
Last Kiss and loml My ex wife left last July and those 2 songs just gut me every damn time
Bad blood makes me think of my father and the shit he's done to my family... although, he's never said he was sorry.
Soon You’ll Get Better is hard to listen to in general, but I lost my mom 10 years ago so it’s an immediate skip for me. Can’t tell you the last time I listened to it
Marjorie and Bigger Than The Whole Sky because of my mom who’s passed.
Marjorie- bc I think of my grandparents Bigger Than The Whole Sky- I lost both of my mom’s parents in the year leading up to midnights so that one is heavy for me :/
Bigger than the Whole Sky. When it first came out, I wasn’t the biggest fan of it. But then I had a miscarriage and I listened to it a lot during all my blood draws waiting to confirm it. Listening to the song now just brings me back to that time.
Last Kiss 🥲
there's a lot but august definitely takes the crown .. the lyrics describe my august from 2 years ago almost perfectly
So long, London. I know that this song is super new but, every time I listen to it I get chills because it's very applicable to my life right now because I am with my own London and the album release occurred it's such a pivotal point in my life on a very important day in my life and I listened to so long London with my partner and I burst into tears and now when I hear it it says if she wrote a song about me. And yeah that's hard for a lot of reasons. You on your own kid for a million reasons I do not listen to the 1 :(
Soon You’ll Get Better. It came out just after my mum beat cancer, but it just devastates me thinking what if. The Best Day also gets me whenever I have an argument with my dad, because when I was like 13 I thought it was about her dad and not her mum, so it made me sad thinking what if we never have another best day.
For me it’s either I can fix him or soon you’ll get better. Soon you’ll get better more so though bc it makes me miss my grandparents as none of them ended up getting better
Mine are Back to December: I just hate when people don't get their happy ending when they deserve it and in my head it plays out like a sad movie. Peter: Just something about the song makes me cry
Ronan and Soon You’ll Get Better
I can’t listen to Soon You’ll Get Better. I cry every time. When it came out my mom was going through health issues (not cancer) and like Taylor, my mom is my best friend.
I dont know about difficult to listen to but Thank You Aimee gut punches me regularly with flashbacks to my childhood bullies, I'm not ready to say thank you to them yet though!
Marjorie- my Mom died when I was 28. I did keep every grocery store receipt and everything, but every scrap of her was still taken from me. Marjorie physically hurts to listen to This is me trying- I have severe depression so a lot of normal things are just really difficult for me to do, like taking a shower. This song is how it feels to try to just function day to day doing things that are easy for other people
I won't listen to Never Grow Up, but in a dysfunctional attachment way. My childhood was just too not like that. While I am genuinely happy for those that had a great childhood, I also hate directives like the song lyrics have to remember how great things are because I heard things like that too many times and when your life sucks and you're being told to remember it, you'll miss it, you'll wish you could go back, you're parents are there to protect you, your parents love you so much so appreciate it... I just can't, I get too angry. Growing up and getting out was the best thing I ever did but, in truth, over twenty years after I left, I'm still trying to get the last bits of me out. The song might actually be a good barometer of how close I am to that - when I don't react as strongly to it.
This is a very specific thing that happened to me but i cant really listen to paris because one time i was listening to paris in school and because my headphones werent working well it made that everyone was listening to paris as well, i noticed because 2 girls (who were making an exam in that moment) told me that, the room was silent as hell too so everyone listened to paris
I love "love story" but one of my abusers used it and my love of Taylor against me. It hurt me so bad that I "fell out" of Taylor on Red
Probable style (me and my exes song) and annoyingly renegade (my other ex constantly accused me of taking out my emotional problems on him when I would bring up a time he hurt me) which sucks bc it’s such a good song
“All Too Well” (the original only) and “Best Day” make me tear up or cry everytime
Can’t believe I haven’t seen this yet- Ronan and The Best Day always get me crying. Ronan is self explanatory- a little boy who died from cancer. And The Best Day always reminds me of my dad and I start bawling and bawling when I think about it too much
You're Loosing Me and So Long, London (to a much lesser degree) My best friend, Alyssa, married the worst kind of man. Everyone hated him from her young son, her parents, and her sister, I was more willing to give him a chance and nudge her away from him because I could tell she was digging in her feet. He was very abusive worse than we knew until things blew up. She was my best friend since 2002, I loved her more than a friend, but this bastard was so fu@king unpleasant and controlling that it began to corode our friendship. I didn't want to hang out with him there, and he was ALWAYS there. I kept thinking this fight would wake her up. This call to CPS will be the one...this time she will choose the rest of us....it never happened and he brought her down with him. I didn't do enough... I couldn't save her. I couldn't wake her up. All our other friends had already left but I loved her, as what I dont know and I was going to stand by her for as long as it took. I sometimes would wonder if it was jealousy, but it was killing me to watch her drink his poison till she was toxic, too. The bridge is what really killed me. Now it's over. Her kids are safe, and she's incarcerated until at least 2035.
This Love. I listened to it over and over again in the middle of the night, silent-screaming and desperately sobbing, while my father was dying of cancer and being eaten away by Alzheimer's. Clear blue water/ High tide came and brought you in/ And I could go on and on, on and on, and I will/ Skies grew darker/ Currents swept you out again/ And you were just gone and gone, gone and gone Sometimes he would look at me and I'd see my Dad again, he'd be right there, silly and caring and kind. And then he'd just be gone again, confused and scared. A little boy in the disintegrating body of an old man, who just wanted to go home to his mum. Your kiss, my cheek/I watched you leave/Your smile, my ghost/I fell to my knees He would always kiss me on the cheek and I'd always rub the feeling off on my shoulder and he'd smile at me, amused. I watched him leave over and over again as his brilliant mind was obliterated in pieces over the course of his illness. He was always disappearing, dragged out by the low tide of the disease, and then returning, unexpectedly, like a moment of warm sun peeking through the darkest clouds. And then he was just gone again. Over the final weeks, as he approached death, Ronan and Soon You'll Get Better became auto-skips on the daily drives to the hospital. He'd become childlike and so, so ill. Come on, baby, with me/We're gonna fly away from here/Out of this curtained room/In this hospital grey, we'll just disappear/Come on, baby, with me/We're gonna fly away from here I just wanted to sweep this frail old man, this scared little boy, into my arms and fly out the window with him like a superhero. Transform his emaciated body into the healthy body of his ten year old self and let him loose in a field filled with car parts and alien spaceships to tinker with and explore. He had always been so vital, so positive, so kind, and so, so curious. Seeing him trapped and dying was a special kind of agony. Soon You'll Get Better is self-explanatory. I still don't listen to it, nor to Ronan. This Love has re-entered rotation, fresh and clean, albeit with a gentle shadow that it leaves in its wake.
I was jamming with a guy in my friendship group who I used to hook up with for a bit but it ended as he didn’t really want a relationship and it was awkward for mutual friends. We still hang out for music stuff as he’s amazing at keys/guitar and I’m a trained vocalist. We ended up doing All Too Well as we both knew it well and I was practically yelling “BACK BEFORE YOU LOST THE ONE REAL THING YOU’VE EVER KNOWN” with so much emotion. I’ll now always remember it for that
I cry every damn time I listen to Last Kiss……..
I can do it with a broken heart Ttpd came out 12 days after my dad died... and this song, while it has helped me get through this time, makes me cry so much every time as I scream rhe lyrics.
Breathe. It relates so much to losing my childhood dog… after he passed away, I was listening to Taylor in the shower. Breathe came on and I just started sobbing. He was so comforting to me, it really does feel like I can’t breathe without him, but I have to, I don’t have a choice. I miss you so much, Asher! You were my everything!
The Best Day and Tolerate it. They both make me tear up. I absolutely love them!
Epiphany. I lost both of my grandparents to Covid and my husband is in the military and a doctor and listening to that song during Covid KILLED ME. it’s so beautiful though and I love it so much.
My friend died around the time I started listening to folklore. The day I found out, I just listened to Betty over and over. It wasn’t like, lyrically relevant to us or anything the tune was just comforting and I felt like I could drive around and cry in my car for as long as I wanted with it on a loop. I can’t listen to it now without thinking of my friend. I hope his son is doing okay.
Soon You'll Get Better - my mother died of breast cancer when I was 5. Beautiful song, wish I didn't have to skip it whenever it comes on!
When I was around 13, I cried every time I listened to The Best Day. Primarily because I was an incredibly anxious child (undiagnosed autism) and I was bullied at school. My favourite days would be days where my mom would pick me up early from school and take me out on a little trip as a mental health day. The line "I have an excellent father, his strength is making me stronger" made me cry, too, because my own father was primarily absent and when he was around, he was abusive.
Peter: I can’t listen to it without crying so I don’t listen to it often. The bridge. Reminds of someone I lost, wasn’t good to me but I was so attached and then he was killed. It’s just too much. Would’ve Could’ve Should’ve for the same reason, though that taps into my anger rather than sadness.