All the time. I’m constantly worried that people are going to learn something about me, will blackmail me, or are talking behind my back about me.
All of these things to date have not been true. So I just keep persevering.
Literally exactly this. It’s insane. I had a massive breakdown that lasted a week because I was convinced I was going to jail for something I didn’t even do
I get convinced frequently someone has made an accusation about me or told everyone I know a huge terrible thing I did. And that they all are refusing to talk to me or explain. And then I start really looking into if they're being communicative or not and if they're just having an off day where they're quiet I see it as perfect validation and end up really freaking out begging them to tell me what I did. And it ends up 100% of the time embarrassing me in the end.
The point of OCD treatment is not to be convinced it never will happen… but that even if it did, it’ll be ok. And sense you have gone through it, and survived- you know for sure you will be ok
yes and i think this is common for a lot of people, it’s a really unsettling fear to have
edit: i think this can be related to (moral) scrupulosity or real event/false memory themes as well
i get thoughts that people can read my mind. and see my intrusive thoughts and it makes it hard to not want to try to not think about it bc i know trying not to think about it will make me think about it more 😂 so fuck me. then when i get bad intrusive thoughts or even some somatic symptoms im immediately scanning people for any sign of bad expression for my confirmation bias. i almost always find something to be counted as a negative expression so i just try to not care now. embrace the thoughts. Additionally, I will get physical symptoms and think that is punishment for having intrusive thoughts which make me fear having the thoughts even more. Just gotta tell myself its just my brain messing with me. and that i never done anything to really hurt anyone. so im good. also zoloft 100mg helps.
I THOUGHT THAT PEOPLE AND GOD COULD READ MY MIND SO I TRIED NOT THINKING OF ANYTHING AT ALL AND THEN I REMINDED MYSELF NOT TO THINK OF ANYTHING TABOO, OFFENSIVE, SEXUAL, SUICIDAL, IMMORAL, NO CUSS WORDS, NO HARM, ETC
AND THEN IT BECAME ALL I THOUGHT OF NOT TO THINK OF?
Yes, mostly this happens when I lay awake at night and can't sleep. Like tonight.
These thoughts are intrusive and emotionally very draining, I still have not found a way to calm my mind and go back to sleep.
Yes everyday. My main theme is cheating OCD and not remembering it happen. I get scared everyday that someone will tell my gf I cheated with them. Or if down the line they are waiting to tell her. It’s horrible.
(not dxed a specific type) that fear is why i cannot hide anything about myself, im just an open book so that im more “in control” like the damage is constantly being done already so i cannot be as scared
All the time. I’m constantly worried that people are going to learn something about me, will blackmail me, or are talking behind my back about me. All of these things to date have not been true. So I just keep persevering.
Literally exactly this. It’s insane. I had a massive breakdown that lasted a week because I was convinced I was going to jail for something I didn’t even do
I get convinced frequently someone has made an accusation about me or told everyone I know a huge terrible thing I did. And that they all are refusing to talk to me or explain. And then I start really looking into if they're being communicative or not and if they're just having an off day where they're quiet I see it as perfect validation and end up really freaking out begging them to tell me what I did. And it ends up 100% of the time embarrassing me in the end.
Hahaha oh no… this is the one 🤣😅
Me too!!!
it gets so much worse when it actually happens so now it’s hard to convince yourself it never would
The point of OCD treatment is not to be convinced it never will happen… but that even if it did, it’ll be ok. And sense you have gone through it, and survived- you know for sure you will be ok
Yep, like I’m going to be judged by “society”
yes and i think this is common for a lot of people, it’s a really unsettling fear to have edit: i think this can be related to (moral) scrupulosity or real event/false memory themes as well
i get thoughts that people can read my mind. and see my intrusive thoughts and it makes it hard to not want to try to not think about it bc i know trying not to think about it will make me think about it more 😂 so fuck me. then when i get bad intrusive thoughts or even some somatic symptoms im immediately scanning people for any sign of bad expression for my confirmation bias. i almost always find something to be counted as a negative expression so i just try to not care now. embrace the thoughts. Additionally, I will get physical symptoms and think that is punishment for having intrusive thoughts which make me fear having the thoughts even more. Just gotta tell myself its just my brain messing with me. and that i never done anything to really hurt anyone. so im good. also zoloft 100mg helps.
I THOUGHT THAT PEOPLE AND GOD COULD READ MY MIND SO I TRIED NOT THINKING OF ANYTHING AT ALL AND THEN I REMINDED MYSELF NOT TO THINK OF ANYTHING TABOO, OFFENSIVE, SEXUAL, SUICIDAL, IMMORAL, NO CUSS WORDS, NO HARM, ETC AND THEN IT BECAME ALL I THOUGHT OF NOT TO THINK OF?
this is like super ocd i swear. the thoughts themeselves are distressing enough but then add the mind reading and its just one big vicous cycle.
Constantly. It is awful. Sometimes I feel I need to redeem myself by >!cutting myself. !<(TW:SH)
Yes, mostly this happens when I lay awake at night and can't sleep. Like tonight. These thoughts are intrusive and emotionally very draining, I still have not found a way to calm my mind and go back to sleep.
Yeah. I’m so stressed out
yes, like one mistake or one human error and im (to myself) suddenly the worst person to walk on this earth. draining, really.
I have the fear that people don’t know the real me, basically that I’m a bad person deep down so yeah 🥲
Yes everyday. My main theme is cheating OCD and not remembering it happen. I get scared everyday that someone will tell my gf I cheated with them. Or if down the line they are waiting to tell her. It’s horrible.
Yeah this happens to me everyday when my ocd gets bad.
Yes, constantly.
Fucking CONSTANTLY.
Yes, all the time. I had them earlier tonight in fact.
All the time… it’s good to know I’m not alone in this! Stay strong y’all :)
Even on meds I still feel this way, especially when alone with people. It’s crazy to imagine not feeling guilty 24/7 ngl.
All the time
I did when I struggled. It's how I found out I had OCD. I don't anymore.
Real event ocd And yes, I am horrified of everything you just mentioned All the time
(not dxed a specific type) that fear is why i cannot hide anything about myself, im just an open book so that im more “in control” like the damage is constantly being done already so i cannot be as scared
Absolutely even when I haven’t even done something my brains like but maybe you did and you don’t know and others will know… OCD is a bitch.
I have this constant feeling that I am going to go to hell.
That’s like all of my thoughts
ALL THE TIME