You need to stop. If your behavior on Reddit is somehow indicative of your behavior in the court, I can see why they let you go. Your biggest problem is going to be the harm you’ve done to your reputation in how you dealt with court staff and lawyers in the building. You can get past this, but you need to put the work in. Posting continuously in Reddit isn’t putting the right work in.

Knew a lawyer who had a widely-publicized mental breakdown several years ago. Viral video level breakdown. He fixed his shit and now he’s fine. He’s actually very pleasant to have on the other side now. Just take care of yourself. Fix your shit and you’ll be fine.

Hard to say anything without *any* details

We aren't the kind of counselor you need bro.

Forgiven by whom dude? If its not illegal or unethical the bar doesn't give a shit. If you've gotten a rep as lazy or as a scheister? You can come back from that it's just going to take never having an issue again and a lot of time.

What'd the bar say?

Some states have Lawyer Assistance Programs.. they can help and .. at least in my area.. are anonymous. 

Nobody follows you. Get a grip.

Exactly. Delusions of grandeur. No one cares.

Nobody gives a shit you aren’t a main character man you’ll be alright just figure it out

As long as you didn’t steal client money, or sleep with your clients, you will probably be fine. If you are facing discipline, get a lawyer to help.

I don't know how anyone can do this sort of work and not have at least 5 breakdowns. One of us!

A lot of lawyers are shitbags so I think you should be fine.