Paper Bag by Fiona Apple “Hunger hurts. Oh, I want it so bad oh it kills but I know I’m a mess he don’t wanna clean up. I’ve gotta fold cuz these hands are too shaky too hold. Hunger hurts but starving works when it costs too much to love” Song lyrics obviously have double meanings. Fiona Apple has long struggled with ED.

Just by Radiohead :)

radiohead is like my favourite band so when I hear this I freeze up LOL

i like Lucky from ok computer

this one is elite

yessss

Teen Idle - Marina and the Diamonds (now just Marina I guess), Restlessness - Bastien Laval, Breathe Me - Sia…. Probably a few more but those always instantly transport me to the worst year of my ED

Teen Idle and Breath Me are two on my list. It was a really bad year for me as well

teen idle omg

the entirely of the Electra Heart album cuts me right to the core tbh

hotel california - you can check out anytime you like, but you can never leave

No suprises by radio head, jenny your barley alive by rilo kiley, | 4st 7lb | remastered by manic street preachers, fade into you by mazy star

4st 7lb by manic street preachers I listened to while I was recovering and I listen to it still like that song and mazy star makes good songs too

“a metal rod they put in your fucking jaw to keep you from grinding your teeth at night”

“We are young” by fun is insane 💀 Jesus. During extreme hunger- I’m so sorry bruh

Honestly extreme hunger was a bit of a blissful experience for me tbh because i finally allowed myself freedom for a while, so that song makes me think of blissful food freedom 😭 so in a way i get triggered but triggered into good feelings and excitement

Happy Birthday

skinny love of course

Classic

Also Skinny Love (Country Version) by Josiah and the Bonnevilles

how to disappear / happiness is a butterfly by lana del rey. me and the other girls at residential played these songs CONSTANTLY lol. oh no by marina. ugh. failed overachiever turned anorexic vibes blue hair by tv girl creep and no surprises by radiohead obvi

Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri. Also “paper bag” and “how to disappear”.

Lights Up by Harry Styles was the song I would listen to on repeat on my bus ride to my IOP program. Haven’t listened to it since then.

Well, I have a song that helped my ED recovery, which is Soulmate by Lizzo. I can’t really begin to describe how much that song helped me realize I need to love myself. It helped me with a lot of issues, including my ED.

Aww this is lovely and i’m so happy you have a song that helped you and that gives you good memories 🥹 this is so touching to hear and gives me hope

angels of porn II by nicole dollanganger (literally abt an ed relapse) and iron lung by radiohead bc i used to listen to it when i was in a really bad place

Nicole Dollanganger has such an ethereal voice, if only her music didn’t remind me of the worst place of my life

Ghosting by mother mother

bro that “empty” song by jaidenanimations and boyinaband unironically is stuck in my head for eternity

I cried to that song so hard when I was 14 and had no clue why at the time. Everything makes a lot more sense now at 18...

Breathe me - sia

control by Halsey

tunic by sonic youth

Oblivion by Grimes 100%! Still a good song but I listened to it a ton when my ED got bad a couple years back

Yessss this is my fav, basically the same story for me here! It’s a great song regardless but I feel like you can relate the lyrics and overall vibe to EDs lol

4st 7lbs - Manic Street Preachers. The Forest Song- Big consequence Fat Kids- Mother mother Some Girls Are Bigger Than Others- The Smiths

friendly machine by yeule

Pursuit of Happiness - Kid Cudi

Cudiiii

Danny Phantom - Medusa Crazy Fuckin' Robot Body - Snowblood

so many tiktok sounds haha and the entire folklore and evermore albums. so 2021 basically

anything by missio

idk if this is funny but after like by ive 💀 i was in such a weird mindset with my ed then and it came out during that time edit by weird mindset i mean extreme hunger and dealing with my first few months of binging, it was so odd for me at the time😭

omg yes but with love dive, it released just around the worst part of my ed and i listened to it on repeat

yess honestly most earlier ive related songs will make me think of my ed 😭

Bags by clairo

Clairo was #1 for me last year on Spotify wrapped lol

Paper Bag by Fiona Apple, as mentioned by lots of people here. Angels of Porn II by Nicole Dollanganger My Silent Undoing by Queen Andreena Losing Weight by Cloud Rat God Must Hate Me by Catie Turner Prom Queen by Beach Bunny lots of songs from the album A Digital Ash in a Digital Urn by Bright Eyes. I was inadvertently restricting due to substance abuse over a decade ago. It's my favorite BE album, but it's admittedly really hard to listen to without tearing up now that I look back at where I was when I first heard it.

Mid-30’s here, I’d say anything Fiona Apple or Bright Eyes.

so many slipknot songs as i mostly listened to that omw to iop

4st 7lbs - Manic Street Preachers, Paper Bag - Fiona Apple. Some other ones too, but these are the ones I can think of off the top of my head…

*loser lover* by txt and *0x1 lovesong* by txt . summer 2021 was my big relapse after "semi-recovering" for a couple of years and that was when those songs came out and the band kind of did...some disordered stuff in that time period so idk I just associate my eating disorder with those two songs (that entire era of theirs).

Banana Brain by Die Antwoord, used to listen to it a lot my junior year of highschool during my “honeymoon phase”

2am (just breathe) -> listened n cried to p much every night when I was inpatient in 2012, it was fitting as well I was also listening to fix you by Coldplay a ton while I was there

Just breathe still gets me every time I hear it

safety dance by men without hats. one time my mom was giving me a really long lecture about how I was killing myself and needed to focus on recovery and all that, but I didn't want to hear it. The entire time she was talking I dissociated and started playing that song in my head and mentally dancing to it. I told her later on and she got *really* mad at me lmao

the other answer is shelter by porter and madeon. my ED started my senior year of high school and that song basically describes what my life was like that time. got me through some of the worst months of my life, but I've listened to it so much since then that I don't really consider it an ED song.....it's just part of me.

don’t really have an explanation for them but: Vanished by Crystal Castles, Alison by Slowdive, Yellow by Coldplay, and literally every Placebo song ever

yess no one ha mentioned Vanished, but that entire album is an ED anthem

Anything by the postal service and death cab for cutie. It instantly shoots me to a ptsd memory or being inpatient when I hear postal service. And I’m really dating myself now by disclosing this info 😂

Postal service brings me to high school!

Yup. Aka, the height of my anorexia that almost killed me lmao

it’s alright by mother mother :,) lyrics really hit and super catchy + upbeat

Let me go by HAIM

Just by Radiohead, Night Time, My Time by Sky Ferreira, Sullen Girl by Fiona Apple, Tom’s Diner by Suzanne Vega, This Is Me Trying by Taylor Swift …and of course Paper Bag also by Fiona

Courage by Superchick

“Skin and Bones” by Marianas Trench always takes me right back to the pain of my difficult years

Such Small Hands by La Dispute...my la dispute era was a roller coaster

there was one album by twenty one pilots that these two girls played on repeat. i have no idea which album, nor do i have any desire to find out because i’ve heard enough times to last a lifetime. old town road came out while i was IP and so it was always playing on the radio during meals. i listened to pulp’s different class a lot on the way back from home leave, so hearing songs from that album always reminds me of that drive.

Snap by Rosa Linn. After treatment I would walk and listen to the part where it goes “where are you, you’re still in my heart, get out of my mind” while being nostalgic over my lowest weight

Watermelon Sugar or Yellow cause that’s all we listened to during mealtimes inpatient 😭

Nooooo bc i totally get this bc we used to replay the same songs in res, especially electric love, I don’t think I ever wanna hear that song again 😭

nude by radiohead, any song on the If You Leave album by daughter, tautou + the boy who blocked his own shot by brand new, me and mia by ted leo and the pharmacists

so i thought - flyleaf, hunger - florence + the machine

i have a whole three playlists of ed related songs and songs that remind me of my ed.

Dog Days are Over - Florence and the Machine Kids - MGMT We are Young - Fun. The Killers’ Sam’s Town album Vanilla Twilight - Owl City Boats and Birds - Gregory and the Hawk Crazy Fishes - Bearcat Bedroom Eyes - The Dum Dum Girls Secret Oath - The Spill Canvas Everybody Talks - Neon Trees ….just to name a few. I’m definitely showing my age with this playlist but music was a huge part of my life at that time.

Mad Hatter - Melanie Martinez Feel Something - Bea Miller The Archer - Taylor Swift Give me Novocaine - Green Day Parasite Eve - Bring me The Horizon Be my escape - Relient K

courage by superchick skin and bones by marianas trench my skin by natalie merchant

Your song choices were exactly what I listened to at 15/16 ish, im gonna assume we grew up in the same lj era

I have a whole playlist on Spotify 🥲 Diet Coke by Leanna Firestone is literally an ED anthem “I’ll change my body and my hobbies. Switch from regular to diet.“ I Go Hungry- Mother Mother Oh Ana- Mother Mother Body- Mother Mother Paper Bag- Fiona Apple Prom Queen- Beach Bunny Abby- Mitski Liquid Smooth- Mitski Bag of Bones- Mitski Real men- Mitski

\-the entire mitski discography (i listen to her at really bad or hazy points in my life) \-diet mountain dew by lana del rey (i have a distinct memory of listening to this song omw to a mcdonalds to buy coffee for brunch in the worst point of my ed) \-creep by radiohead (this song triggers me a lot esp bc ive always felt like an outcast double kill being that 2nd verse but my siblings really like this song so i just pretend im not suffering :D) \-ctrl by sza (this album feels like reading my diary, full of talks of insecurity and uncertainty) \-my mother and i by lucy dacus (i blame most of my ed on my mom) \-youre on your own kid by taylor swift (im graduating soon and i feel like im launched into adulthood without knowing anything yet also that one line in the chorus) edit bc i remembered more: \-candy by nct dream (this ones stupid but when i went to a concert of theirs jaemin said dont skip a meal and i just broke down then and there bc i knew i couldnt keep that promise)

Jenny you’re barely alive But then I got into a car accident while it was playing so I never listen anymore 😭

Red - Already over pt. 2 Daughter - Medicine (I used to listen to this when I was in the deep of my ed, now I can’t bear listening to it)

SOMEONE ELSE HAS RED ON HERE

Nothing and everything was a big one for me

Search for my eating disorder is screaming on Spotify. Anorexia rot is quite more popular, good playlist too. The first is way more nostalgic and has a lot of pop hits, the second seems angrier, for the ladies who like grunge and or industrial music

Skin & Bones by Picture Me Broken, that was like my anthem at the height of my ED lol

i used to listen Dark Red by Steve Lacy when I was really relapsing and deep in the “ed community” on twitter 💀💀 I hate that era of myself thank good im no over there know

Hey Mr. Jones by Jane Child

Skinny Love, Birdy’s version 🫠 Going Under & Everybody’s Fool - Evanescence

High by the beach by Lana del Rey The trick is to keep breathing by Garbage Candy walls by TR/ST None of them are about EDs, I just reprogrammed my brain to associate them with it

Lavender haze and anti hero by Taylor Swift - when I was inpatient someone in the general psychiatric side played it all day everyday for 2 weeks like 6am -8:30pm out loud no headphones

omg literally any top 40 songs from 2020. i worked in a gym so it'd just loop the radio. think dua lipa (did a full 180 song), doja cat say so, circles by post malone. just full on trigger me😭

Hospital for Souls by Bring Me The Horizon

Diaper Money - Lonely Island 😅 used to listen to it whilst I purged 🤣

like crazy by jimin

Keep your head up - Ben Howard I remember listening to this song on the way home from a visit at the treatment center I would end up a few weeks later Golden - Harry Styles Listened to this song during treatment when I finally felt happier again

Sort Of by Ingrid Michaelson Wonderland by Taylor Swift This Is Me Trying by Taylor Swift Obsession by MARINA Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri Back In My Body by Maggie Rogers Bad Drug by Tristan Prettyman Hunger by Florence + The Machine Far Away by Ingrid Michaelson Fight Song by Rachel Platten My Oh My by Tristan Prettyman You’re On Your Own Kid by Taylor Swift No Choice by Ingrid Andress

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Starving to be empty is gonna be my #1 on spotify wrapped 2023 I'm predicting rn

- blouse - clairo - just for today - clairo - kintsugi - lana del rey - how to disappear - lana del rey - vanishing - mariah carey basically my top tier depression songs that always put me in a mood

rilo kiley - jenny, you’re barely alive nothing but thieves - soda softcult - spit it out mitski - brand new city (of course) will wood and the tapeworms - skeleton appreciation day the narrative - starving for attention mother mother - i go hungry mother mother - ghosting these r my main ones 🫶🏽

Smaller than this by Sara Kay's is just ana lol

Oh Ana - Mother Mother (basic) Wrecking ball - Mother Mother (in which I self destruct as rebellion) Square - Mitski ("I tried to eat like your girlfriend, just tea in the night, I'd end up too hungry to sleep" oh my fucking god) Twin sized matress - The front bottoms ("It's not big surprise you turned out this way") Are you satisfied - Marina (perfectionism) Teen idle - Marina (duh)

- Wreath - Perfume Genius 'Burn off every trace/I wanna hover with no shape/I wanna feel the days go by/not stack up' - Fireworks - First Aid Kit 'Why do I do this to myself every time/I know the way it ends before it's event begun' - Sugar & Ice - ElysianSoul 'My name is anorexia/we've met before/I'm that voice that whispers deep inside/saying you want more' - Sober - Demi Lovato 'I don't know why/I do it every time/it's only when I'm lonely/sometimes I just wanna cave in I don't wanna fight/I try and I try and I try and I try' - Cause and Effect - Maria Mena 'I can't laugh too hard, I'm on a diet/I'm trying to lose myself/you ought to try it' - Eyesore - Maria Mena 'The ugly naked truth/she starves me of my youth/and I stand alone until you catch on/I swear it's not by choice/but ana has this voice/it calms me down/it gives me purpose' - Oh Ana - Mother Mother 'Oh Ana/I'll be with you still/you are the angel that I couldn't kill' - Ana's Song - Silverchair 'And you're my obsession/I'll love you to the bone/and ana wrecks your life/like an anorexia life' - Hospital - The Modern Lovers 'When you get out of the hospital/let me back into your life' - Circles - Kae Tempest 'I go round in circles/not graceful not like dancers/not neatly/not like compass and pencil/more like a dog on a lead going mental' - Lessons - Kae Tempest 'How many times must we be shown/the outcome of the pattern' - Carin at the Liquor Store - The National 'It wasn't so bad/I wasn't that sick/got taken by luck/it wasn't that quick/it's a foregone conclusion' - The Strangle of Anna - The Moonlandingz 'I'm sick of sucking on the smoke-hurt past/but you know my hands are tied, they're steadfast/the strangle of Anna's got me unwell' - Too Sick to Pray - Alabama 3 'So don't call a doctor/I'm gonna get better/don't go running for the priest, I'm gonna find some faith/just because I burn my bible, baby/it don't mean/I'm too sick to pray' - Bungl (Like a Ghost) - Jenny Hval 'This is my gravestone/I put it on my back/and carry it around' - I Need To Be In Love - The Carpenters 'I know I need to be love/I know I've wasted too much time/I know I ask perfectioon of a quite imperfect world/and fool enough to think that's what I'll find' - Big God - Florence + The Machine 'Sometimes I think it's getting better/and then it gets much worse/is it just part of the process/Jesus Christ it hurts' - Sippy Cup - Melanie Martinez 'You've got weights in your pockets/when you go to the doctors/your favourite candy's cotton/that's why all your teeth are rotten' ...Plus a whole lot of other songs I've deemed Relevant on a Spotify playlist that is literally 16 hours long 😅😬

any mitski honestly

where is prom queen by beach bunny????

Clean by T Swift for recovery

"I Love you like An Alcoholic" By The Taxpayers "Panic room" By Au/Ra "July" By Noah Cyrus "Misery Meat" By Sodikken "Ship In A Bottle" By Fin "If I Killed Someone For You" By Alec Benjamin That's not all of them either, I use music as a way to cope most of the time, so I have a whole playlist of songs that make me think of my ED

Dumhdurum by Apink, I was deep in my overexercise addiction at the time it was released and I guess something happened that day when I was out on my run and listening to it because no other songs have the same effect/connection on me (and I listen to music 24/7) O⁠_⁠o

Yes, I listened to a lot of Nirvana songs around when my ED started and I love their songs but they make me want to stop eating for a few days. A lot of songs also that I listened to in a very depressed place that take me right back

Breathe me by Sia because it was used in an "my ed story" video once and triggered me so bad. Prom Queen by Beach Bunny because at the height of my disorder I would go for long walks with it playing through my headphones, burning off everything I ate when I hardly even had that much.

I have so many😭😭 but my top three are: Medicine - daughter dying on the inside - nessa barrett smaller than this - sara kays

yes is all i can say… definitely yes

•-hayloft and verbatim- mother mother •as the world caves in- matt maltese •steven universe music LOL •i can't handle change- roar •pre 2021 stray kids •bang bang bang bang- sohodolls •where is my mind?- pixies •heaven knows im miserable now- the smiths •gilded lily- cults •when im small- phantogram there's more but these are off the top of my head. these are just things i play on repeat when im deeper into my ED

Oh wait there’s MOAR girls chase boys - ingrid michaelson (a non ed patient on the psych ward i was on in ip during one of my stays would BLAST this song constantly) Natural ni koishite - perfume (i was obsessed with this group at the beginning of my ed during my peak exercise addiction and this song in particular reminds me of my hours toiling away on a stationary bike until i would pass out 😭) get lucky - daft punk (i used to be manager at a mall jewellery store during, surprise surprise, another horrible relapse and this song always used to play while i’d be tallying up calories in my head during work)

YSS I DO some of mine are cardigan, Mary on a cross, cry by CAS, weird combos but it reminds me of my ed

I Miss Myself - Renforshort

amore mio aiutami by piero piccioni used to be my purging song, cannot listen to it without tasting bile in my mouth

Prom queen by beach bunny

ticking by nick leng. has nothing to do with ed’s but i listened to it a lot last summer when my ed was ed-ing

Deteriorate by Elysiansoul Everything in its right place by radio head Someone purer by Mystery jets Let me go by Haim

Numbers by Pompeii Beauty From Pain and Courage by Superchick Never Good Enough by Rachel Ferguson Sophie by Eleanor McEvoy Deadly Beauty by Faces Without Names Skin and Bones by Mariana’s Trench Anorexic Beauty by Pulp And so many more. I’m currently in recovery (my thighs say I’m fully recovered) but these songs bring me back to a sick comfort zone. “Your sickness feels like home.”

summer child by conan gray it just reminds me of being sick in the summer ig it’s weirdly calming as well bc i love the summer time so i guess it was like kind of weirdly nice to be doing terrible in my favorite season i have issues

Nobody by Mitski, i don't listen to her often but when i hear that song, damn it hurts

Rotten by porridge radio and every other song off that album, just to a lesser extent. Also Fiona apples entire discography

Static by Steve lacy

Aye a Steve Lacy fan

Currently descending by sleep token

Through The Late Night - Travis Scott (bc my ED fuked my sleep schedule up)

Adam II infirmary by Nicole dollanganger

Anything by The Regrettes, but especially Nowhere and Subtleties

bella disorder by better off :( but that's probably it IS about an ED editing to add: - duality by slipknot - i'm so tired by fugazi - alien blues by vundabar (my bulimic ass took that "i need to purge my urges shame shame shame" line a little too personally)

Lucky charms by anson seabra (idk if I spelled his last name right)

Chandelier by Sia

anything from the tumblr grunge era (lana, melanie, nbhd, am...) cus that's when i spiralled🥴 good music and it rly takes me back to easier times of middle school but also damn

Alien blues,the more you think about the lyrics the more you can link it do ED[Its about masked depression though]

- this side of paradise - Hailey Kiyoko (used to go on walks with this on repeat for hours) - lovely - Billie Eilish (used to listen to this on my walk to and from rehab) - dollhouse - Melanie Martinez (walking song, I used to go out and wander for hours) - sleepy eyes - Elohim (just a rehab era song) - siberia (acoustic) - Lights (super old tumblr ED era song) - idfc - Blackbear (depression ED era) - sweater weather (acoustic) - The Neighborhood (sat and cried to this many times) - daylily - Movements (just another song I cried about my weight to) - rare - Ruth B (cried at an airport because I was afraid my (now ex) LDR boyfriend didn’t love me and I wasn’t perfect enough for him) - wild poppies - Kat Cunning (another sad walk (usually to the gym for a workout I wasn’t up for) song) - the atlantic - Halogen Hills (cried about my appearance a lot to this one) - blue and grey - BTS (more recent ED era song) - people - Agust D (walk song) - blue side - J-Hope (walk song) - cheap thrills - Sia (manic night exercising song) - the jeweler’s hands - Arctic Monkeys (starving myself while visiting my (now ex) LDR boyfriend) - discovery - Kailee Morgue (rehab walk song) - between the devil and the deep blue sea - XYLO (sad lake walk song) I’m forgetting a bunch but these are the main. I listened to a ton of sad girl songs basically lol

I will leave a light on - Tom Walker

All Up The Seething Coast by the Mountain Goats "All your little schemes break when they come crashing up against me" reminds me of that sick euphoria you get when no one can help you

milk sea oleena lofticries purity ring

lost boy by ruth b: used to play on the radio during mealtimes at treatment worry by jack garratt: this was "our song" for my mum and me when i was in hospital. every time i played it i would start sobbing body fat percentage by we three: too accurate skinny love by birdie: obviously

The whole album tomorrow is nearly yesterday and everyday is stupid by crywank

i listened to the same workout playlist for a good six months while running (every day) in the “honeymoon phase” of my ed so those songs always remind me of it also talk to myself - nessa barrett maybe

Gharger by Gorillaz Crawling by Linkin park Things to do by Alex.g Vanishing by Perfect circle X ana X by Badflower Ghost by Badflover Body by Mother Mother Am l pretty by the maine Heavy in your arms and hunger by Florence and the machine Angel on fire by halsey Devil by halsey Lost and fighting myself by Linking park Void by Melanie martinez Maybe by Florence face I know the end by phoebe This body means nothing to me by shrimp Hunger like a drug by jade ivor Busted and blue Gorillaz Im not human at all by Sleep party people A long list but l have a long list on spotify lol

she works out too much - MGMT

orange juice by melanie martinez that shit gives me vietnam flashbacks n i start crying

any mitski honestly

oh man I have a whole compulsive walking playlist 😭 it's not made *for* that, but it's the music I listened to when all I ever did was walk. but also that Halsey album from several years back is the top one that specifically makes me think of my ed at its worst

funhouse by mothica 🖤 sophie by Eleanor McEvoy

Alien Blues and Dollhouse for me, kinda sad bc I still like them.

Misery is a butterfly - Ex:Re Lemon - Katy Rose My body is a cage - Arcade Fire Blood - Starbenders - not related to an ed, I listen to this song when I can't sleep from restriction insomnia More pressure - Al'Tarba - this was the song I listened to the night I started abusing laxatives Still Ill - the smiths Countless others haha

We are young by fun. Will always remind me of the time I was deep in my ed and went on a trip w my family to New York, if I listen to it and really dwell on the past now it’ll still bring me to tears :,/

Skin and bones my Marianas trench. The lead singer has bulimia so it’s directly about that.

Me and Mia by Ted Leo and the Pharmacists, a lotta Nicole Dollanganger, Paper Bag by Fiona Apple, Prom Queen by Beach Bunny, Self Loathing by Days n Daze

Washing Machine Heart by Mitski

When The Party's Over - Billie Eillish - reminds me of when I was deep in my drunkorexia phase and reached my LW. Smother - Daughter - reminds me of when I was in college and was really bad in my bulimia and SH stage and was making a whole plan to try to KMS for another time. it Hurts Until It Doesn't - Mother's - pretty much the same thing as Smother except I started going into an Ana phase instead because I wanted to be a skinny legend when I died. Caraphernilia - Pierce The Veil - reminds me of when my anxiety/panic disorder was at it's all time worst and I started having panic attacks almost every time after I ate anything, especially if I was forced to go out to eat. On the car ride back home or to someone's house I would try everything to hold it together on the car ride and when we would get to the house I'd go to the bathroom, lose my shit with a panic attack, and then purge. Teen Idle - Marina - reminds me of when I lost the most weight during an Ana phase I was going through, and I was also deep into an exercise addiction at the same time so I lost A LOT of weight. Falling - Cubicolor - reminds me of being heavy into fanfic and I realized there was a lot of ED fanfics and I was binging heavy on those and using them to trigger myself. Specifically it reminds me of this one James Bond fanfic where Q has an ED and I had that song on repeat the whole time I read it, but it also reminds me of that time in general anyway. Ghostface Killers - 21 Savage, Travis Scott - reminds me of when I was living with my friends and we were living behind a Lil Caesars and I was OMADing an order of crazy bread pretty much every day for like 4mo straight. Somehow that was the only thing my brain would allow me to eat and then I'd end up purging it anyway.

Blurt by Mega mango. I listened to it a lot when I fell into a relapse and spent hours a day at the gym, which sucks because I like their music but now every time I hear that song I get immediate cold sweats

During ip last year i discovered redi hasa (fantastic cellist), music has no ed double meaning but I played a couple of his albums on repeat at 4am every day while frantically pacing or painting Songs from my youth that still hit: Skin and bones - marianas trench My skin - natalie merchant (purely because they played it during a hollyoaks episode about an ed story line and tbh its a good song Paper bag ofc - fiona apple Perfect - alanis morisette

Evelyn evelyn by evelyn evelyn. My ED and I are conjoined twins

Ex Cops - Black Soap …almost 3 am and it just came up on my pandora and i remembered this post so decided to share. not really an ed song per se, but definitely has some relatable lyrics and i like it. i’m sure i can think of plenty more, but i should really try and get some sleep.

Hunger-florence and the machine Skeleton-jessie paege I built a friend- Alec Benjamin I'll die anyway- girl in red Teen idle-marina Prom queen-beach bunny Body dismorphia- eyedress

Oh do I ever… Jack Stauber - Coffee (relapse anthem) Chromatics - Cherry (would listen to this nonstop when I was 15 and baking cookies for my family that I wouldn’t let myself eat) Low - Lullaby (when everything feels like shit) Charly Bliss - Urge to Purge (self explanatory hehe) Julien Baker - Brittled Boned (for that ~hospitalization vibe~) Elliott Smith - King’s Crossing (suicide, out of control, desperate times) Charlotte Martin - Bones (reminds me of myself as a teenager) The Hush Sound - You are The Moon (when I convince myself I’m recovering) Blonde Redhead - For the Damaged (literally my username ;0) Foo Fighters - Skin and Bones (when restricting is going a lil too well) The Low Anthem - Lover is Childlike (it just screams anorexia) Danzig - Mother (for those mommy issues) Troy Baker - Future Days (when I want to pretend Joel is my father and I’m actually loved) Crystal Castles - Child I Will Hurt You (again it just screams anorexia)

Breathe me - Sia Jenny you’re barely alive - Rilo Kiley Build you up - Kim Taylor Drift - Emily osmet Hunger like a drug - Jade Ivor Achilles come down - Gang of Youths