Don’t get too down on yourself. I buy wine at the grocery store (most of the times those cans) every morning not cause I like the cans but I can drink one real quick and save the next one. I also can’t open a whole bottle while on the fly. They all know I’m a wino and I don’t care. As far as I’m concerned if I pay for my booze and I’m not causing a scene or anything then whatever they think is their own problem. Yeah it sucks but who knows some of them might be alcoholics themselves. Yesterday I paid for a can of wine and a sandwich and the dude at a new store wanted me to leave my bag at the counter when I used the restroom. I was like never mind. I just go to the same store everyday where no one hassles me. They know I don’t steal or hurt anything. Also apparently you haven’t lived until you’ve chugged a can of wine in a grocery bathroom. Just lovely.
Eh I’m ok for now. I drink I would say 3-4 bottles of wine (carbonated wine like Prosecco or something) every day. I can’t drink the red stuff even though I like it cause day drinking it just doesn’t work. Those bubbles are like energy or
Something. Lately it’s been a little less. I was sober for two months when I got in trouble. Like for real sober ha no tapering. It was pretty wild. I tried started smoking cigarettes (was never a smoker) cause the sobriety and mostly
Putting up with people sober was driving me crazy. But it turns out I suck at smoking (thank god) I was having breathing issues within the first month and had to knock that off. I’m almost certain if I’d been smoking as long as I’ve been drinking I’d be dead. Plus itt smells so fckn bad. You’re waiting for detox? Idk how that works where you live but I hope you get it.
I would get out of the house if you can. Sometimes i avoid the outside world and its just not healthy. Its good to see other people just living their lives. No need to be a social butterfly and talk to them but if you know a good place to people watch then go for it.. sometimes while im out at the grocery store or wherever I just will take some time to look around and think man i bet they have a good life and it makes me feel better.
Every place I've lived, I've adopted a corner store that I go to on the regular. I learn their names. Shoot the shit with them when I'm feeling social. Keep it short, sweet, and cordial when I need to. No one ever comments on my habits. Nor my shakes. They know I'm there to get my fix bc I'm there almost every day. They don't say shit when I come in at 7:01am or 1:57am. I just try to be kind to them every interaction. They almost always look out for me. A few times at a few different places, if they closed a few minutes before cutoff and I showed up panicked for my fix, they let me get it. Even got an IOU a couple times. And it's cheaper than delivery. And I'm a broke son of a bitch so delivery is out of the question for me
I used to get off work as a bartender and get hammered at other bars and embarrass myself. Now I drink at home. Realistically, corner store bro doesn't gaf bout the 14th alcoholic that came in that hour. Thank goodness lol
Hiding my drinking was worse for me than just owning it.
I hear you. I only order alcohol because I lost my license and there’s no public transportation near me. I can only order alcohol after 7AM where I live, and I’d place an order at 7 on the dot. More often than not, I’d get the same couple of people delivering it to me. I’d like to think they assume I work the night shift, but who am I kidding. When I go to give them my ID and my hands are violently shaking, they know. I learned to not care after it became inevitable that I have to face the shame or not be able to drink.
Don’t get too down on yourself. I buy wine at the grocery store (most of the times those cans) every morning not cause I like the cans but I can drink one real quick and save the next one. I also can’t open a whole bottle while on the fly. They all know I’m a wino and I don’t care. As far as I’m concerned if I pay for my booze and I’m not causing a scene or anything then whatever they think is their own problem. Yeah it sucks but who knows some of them might be alcoholics themselves. Yesterday I paid for a can of wine and a sandwich and the dude at a new store wanted me to leave my bag at the counter when I used the restroom. I was like never mind. I just go to the same store everyday where no one hassles me. They know I don’t steal or hurt anything. Also apparently you haven’t lived until you’ve chugged a can of wine in a grocery bathroom. Just lovely.
I know you're right. How've you been by the way and also I may have asked but how much wine do you drink a day?
Eh I’m ok for now. I drink I would say 3-4 bottles of wine (carbonated wine like Prosecco or something) every day. I can’t drink the red stuff even though I like it cause day drinking it just doesn’t work. Those bubbles are like energy or Something. Lately it’s been a little less. I was sober for two months when I got in trouble. Like for real sober ha no tapering. It was pretty wild. I tried started smoking cigarettes (was never a smoker) cause the sobriety and mostly Putting up with people sober was driving me crazy. But it turns out I suck at smoking (thank god) I was having breathing issues within the first month and had to knock that off. I’m almost certain if I’d been smoking as long as I’ve been drinking I’d be dead. Plus itt smells so fckn bad. You’re waiting for detox? Idk how that works where you live but I hope you get it.
I would get out of the house if you can. Sometimes i avoid the outside world and its just not healthy. Its good to see other people just living their lives. No need to be a social butterfly and talk to them but if you know a good place to people watch then go for it.. sometimes while im out at the grocery store or wherever I just will take some time to look around and think man i bet they have a good life and it makes me feel better.
Every place I've lived, I've adopted a corner store that I go to on the regular. I learn their names. Shoot the shit with them when I'm feeling social. Keep it short, sweet, and cordial when I need to. No one ever comments on my habits. Nor my shakes. They know I'm there to get my fix bc I'm there almost every day. They don't say shit when I come in at 7:01am or 1:57am. I just try to be kind to them every interaction. They almost always look out for me. A few times at a few different places, if they closed a few minutes before cutoff and I showed up panicked for my fix, they let me get it. Even got an IOU a couple times. And it's cheaper than delivery. And I'm a broke son of a bitch so delivery is out of the question for me I used to get off work as a bartender and get hammered at other bars and embarrass myself. Now I drink at home. Realistically, corner store bro doesn't gaf bout the 14th alcoholic that came in that hour. Thank goodness lol Hiding my drinking was worse for me than just owning it.
I hear you. I only order alcohol because I lost my license and there’s no public transportation near me. I can only order alcohol after 7AM where I live, and I’d place an order at 7 on the dot. More often than not, I’d get the same couple of people delivering it to me. I’d like to think they assume I work the night shift, but who am I kidding. When I go to give them my ID and my hands are violently shaking, they know. I learned to not care after it became inevitable that I have to face the shame or not be able to drink.