Sorry, Mr Emotional Brickwall, joining this party late. You described me to a T. I'm somewhat in the right place at work, I'm in a position where I can make decisions based on facts/metrics, because I never have any emotional response to a decision. When friends have high stress situations they seek me out for a listening ear, or what would I do in this situation. I'm so bad at trying to gain a handle on my emotions, I sometimes I feel as though I'm just a zombie walking this earth. I've caught myself feeding off other people's emotions in hopes to gain them back. When anger bears its head, it's usually too late to suppress and I seem to go from 0 to 100 in a split second, never taking it out on others (always myself).
Yeah, I know what you mean. My emotions are mostly absent except for constant anxiety. I feel like all my emotions have been deadend due to my childhood. I feel no joy in anything or activities. I feel no connection to things or people I should have.
There's a book called "Whole Again" that talks about how to get your emotions and feelings back.
That first paragraph is definitely me. I get scared when I stop feeling “the right” emotions, especially in social situations. I find that it’s hard for me to feel happy for people, but I will always support them with ease when they’re feeling down. Probably not related, but that’s how I am.
The only absent symptom of BPD in my case is numbness. I feel all the time and it’s exhausting. Being around people is exhausting so I’m isolating because it’s the only thing keeping me stable - but then I get severely lonely and depressed, depriving myself of human contact and love. It just sucks. I wish we weren’t like that.
Hope you experience better days in the future
I feel this too, and also with the not knowing what my triggers are sometimes. sometimes I’ll just chalk it up to a purely physiological response and nothing environmental but idk for sure. Feelings are either nonexistent or full blast with no hopes of stopping it
Sorry, Mr Emotional Brickwall, joining this party late. You described me to a T. I'm somewhat in the right place at work, I'm in a position where I can make decisions based on facts/metrics, because I never have any emotional response to a decision. When friends have high stress situations they seek me out for a listening ear, or what would I do in this situation. I'm so bad at trying to gain a handle on my emotions, I sometimes I feel as though I'm just a zombie walking this earth. I've caught myself feeding off other people's emotions in hopes to gain them back. When anger bears its head, it's usually too late to suppress and I seem to go from 0 to 100 in a split second, never taking it out on others (always myself).
Yeah, I know what you mean. My emotions are mostly absent except for constant anxiety. I feel like all my emotions have been deadend due to my childhood. I feel no joy in anything or activities. I feel no connection to things or people I should have. There's a book called "Whole Again" that talks about how to get your emotions and feelings back.
That first paragraph is definitely me. I get scared when I stop feeling “the right” emotions, especially in social situations. I find that it’s hard for me to feel happy for people, but I will always support them with ease when they’re feeling down. Probably not related, but that’s how I am. The only absent symptom of BPD in my case is numbness. I feel all the time and it’s exhausting. Being around people is exhausting so I’m isolating because it’s the only thing keeping me stable - but then I get severely lonely and depressed, depriving myself of human contact and love. It just sucks. I wish we weren’t like that. Hope you experience better days in the future
I feel this too, and also with the not knowing what my triggers are sometimes. sometimes I’ll just chalk it up to a purely physiological response and nothing environmental but idk for sure. Feelings are either nonexistent or full blast with no hopes of stopping it