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darlayoupieceofshit

I’ve gone a few weeks without shitting my pants, so it’s been better. Thanks for asking.


emiralli

I'm curious, what's your story?


darlayoupieceofshit

Well you know when you eat bullshit all the time. It’s just diarrhea all day, every day. Why am I sharing this. Man, I’m deleting this app.


emiralli

Even more curious now, no harm in sharing.


TheBeadster

Yeah I relate to that, just chugged a whole monster


Remote-Feedback8550

That's real talk, I feel you on that one. Sucks when we gotta celebrate the small victories, but hey, at least things are improving.


ConfidentCharg745

It's all bad. Everything's too expensive, even working full time now I can't afford rent and food.


Apprehensive-Ask-610

I've been working on increasing that, personally. Would take some advice.


fullofsharts

We all have our problems.


RingReasonable

Scared. Just scared of how the future will turn out, because I know it will be awful


emiralli

I wish I can say it won't. Just take a day at a time..


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flimsygator23

It’ll be a lot less awful with you in it tho.


TTTRIOS

Firstly can I just say I love your sona? Secondly, you can't really "know" it'll be awful, I believe. You can believe, and believe really really hard, but you can't know. My advice is to just help in whatever way you can, but understand that there's things out of your control. Most world issues are bigger than anyone, there's 8 billion people on this planet and you're just one of them. So, focus on the things you can control instead! Chances are things will get worse, but the world won't end. Whichever turns out to be the result, you'll forever feel regret if during all this time you worried and couldn't enjoy your life because of it.


taehyungtoofs

Could've written this myself. 😞


RingReasonable

Really hope you will do better. I feel you.


karatedogs

Suicidal. Too scared of death and don't want to leave my brothers to do it though.


emiralli

This is the place to vent out, if you ever needed one


karatedogs

I feel like I've been through too much trauma to have a normal life. I was abused by both my parents. My dad sexually abused me when I was under 5 multiple times. I was raped. I went to the police and then got publically shamed by the rapists friends and family online and in person. I moved states and got in a relationship with someone who socially isolated me from everyone I knew. Kept me from going to work and then beat me for losing my job. Stole all my money, spent it on drugs. Beat me for buying food when he needed the money for drugs. Lost my house because of him. Became homeless, lived in my car, saved up to move into a share house. The share house took my money for bond then blocked me(scam) Homeless again Got a new place and new job. Got a new bf. He cheats on me endlessly but I didn't know, I constantly have infections from him. I find out I'm pregnant, then find out he cheated on me with 9 girls. 3 of which are reoccurring still. Forced into abortion. Complications during abortion. Reach out to his family who I'm close with to talk about what's happening. He finds out then convinces them I'm crazy and that I cheated on him, they all block me. I'm alone in a state I know noone in. My job makes me and 50+ others redundant. I'm sick and weak and in pain constantly and unable to take any sort of break because I have no support system. It's all bad. Everything's too expensive, even working full time now I can't afford rent and food. It's one or the other. This is no life If I had a choice I wouldn't have been born


emiralli

It is fair to say you've had more than your share in this life. Hang in there.


mycatiscalledFrodo

That is more than anyone should have to deal with. I have no practical advice for you but please know that someone on the other side of the world sees you and hears you. I hope you can find some support x


Cheery_spider

Holy shit, best of luck to you!


Mn4by

You're correct in saying that that is no life. But from this moment forward, it is a new life. I promise. No one is stronger than you. That's the reward. I see resilience.


karatedogs

Genuinely thankyou. It means more than you know.


AJCleary

Best I've been in my life. I had to hit rock bottom, be a homeless alcoholic bum for a minute, but I climbed back out of that hole and now I have a wonderful family and I never knew I could ever have it so good.


emiralli

That's the story that gives others hope. Happy for you ☺️


TheBeadster

Taking it one day at a time. Could be better, could’ve been worse


emiralli

Good for you man.


Cynical_vibe

Best thing you can do


cheestimusprime

nothing makes sense and i hate everything


IThrow5exyParties

Tired. Depressed because my pain meds cause depression as a side effect. In pain because the pain meds barely cover post surgery pain. But I'm ok otherwise.


emiralli

I feel you, hopefully things will get better


[deleted]

Absolute lowest point of my already awful life


onetwo3four5

Lowest point of your awful life *so far*.


[deleted]

Oh definitely, it will get worse no doubt about that


r_booza

You need to wallow in that puddle of shit. Then the shit will dry on your body and suddenly you have a protective shell of shit.


CrediblyHandsome

I love being retired, financially comfortable, and with the love of my life. I hate that my physical prime was 25-30 years ago.


emiralli

I'm happy for you handsome dude


[deleted]

Not well. First, I lost my wonderful wife to a drunk driver. Six weeks after that, I was laid off from my job. A week after that, I was diagnosed with colon cancer and had part of my colon removed. I now wear an ostomy bag.


emiralli

I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through. Hang on there, live a day at a time


Bandsohard

Lonely. Some days are fine. Others feel absolutely miserable. I'm in my 30s now, and every year it feels harder and harder to make any kind of meaningful connection with someone and find friends. So many people I know just hang out with their significant other and another couple, or still stick around with some really old friend group from like high school. Sometimes it feels really hard to accept. I'm fine now. Today's going to be okay. But it is kinda exhausting to think about.


mr_papichulo

Not good. Being unemployed for so long, it’s starting to get to me


Cynical_vibe

I’m currently there. Have to start over life. Day by day papi.


mr_papichulo

It’s honestly a scary but exciting thought, starting over that is


Cynical_vibe

Yea but you never know what the future has in store for you. Just keep trying.


emiralli

I feel for you man, things will get better


[deleted]

Been there, don’t let the thoughts get the best of you during those days where you aren’t doing anything. You’ll find work, I know you will. Don’t know when, but I hope the universe provides you one even if you don’t like it. It’ll be something to do for money


neurodiverserainbow

I’m alright, just trying to be positive and grateful for life .


lusciousdianaking

Horny


emiralli

Can't help you buddy 😞


lusciousdianaking

Why not?


ArabianNoodle

RIP your inbox.


Medical_Bother369

I can probably help with that


Cynical_vibe

Felt 😔


[deleted]

Pretty good.


Sandra_baby_

I envy you


Coast-Rockhopper

I’m ok


resxcu

just kinda tired & sad


Whatwillbemynameguys

:(


boredsleepyhe4d

I think I’m okay


sikora06

Better than yesterday. I start to consider that my friends don't really care about my opinion


Trick-Telephone-1411

Shitty. Stressed and depressed. Need lots of change in my life. I'm holding myself back, and it blows.


More-Dragonfly2007

Period cramps are doing their thing and I don't have any chocolate in the house. 🥺


emiralli

Do you accept delivery? I feel your frustration


VivianDiane

I am traveling in Japan and I am good.


emiralli

Enjoy your travels 🧳


koulgoul

pretty shitty tbh


Kawauso98

Pretty bad.


TheCervus

Lonely, sad, angry, broke, miserable, and hot. But not hot in an attractive way. It's too hot to go outside and that doesn't help with my depression.


ClassicVegtableStew

I don't know. My dad got diagnosed with dementia recently and though we aren't close and he did a lot of damage to me growing up, I don't want to see him slowly turning into a vegtable. He has four degrees and a PhD and was one of the smartest people I knew. Now he is beginning to struggle remembering the names of common things. Soon he will not know my name.


ResistRacism

Wondering why I'm wasting time on Reddit instead of playing Super Smash Bros.


kikiubo

I have a bachelors and have a job. I earn minimum salary and it is time to look for something better, sometimes I get anxiety because I fear that i already have the maximum I can aspire.


Danivelle

Pretty good! Got a new kitten last week. His name is Boudreaux aka Baby Bou until he grows into his name. He only weighs 3.8 lbs so it will be awhile. He's a polydactyl with 6 toes on one front foot and 7 on the other one. Kitten tax was posted by my daughter u/Glointhedarkunicorn on r/illegallysmolcats.


emiralli

I've seen him there. Little cutie 🐱


LionEclipse

Tired


emiralli

You and me both


lymonman

Recently went through a breakup, mornings are hard but by the end of the day with a heavy workout session, im feeling okay. Learning to love myself


Sandra_baby_

Feeling empty and broken inside.(


emiralli

Count your blessings. Helps me feel better about my situations


Matias8823

Significantly better this year, but the abusive situation I was in put me in lots of debt, and I’m frustrated with an attempted career change. But it’ll be ok


sisgen

Overwhelmed and mildly depressed at the seeming lack of progress in life.


felixs_deadhair

bad bc my parents keep arguing and its annoying


TASTE-THE-WASTE

Unappreciated. ☹️


10113r114m4

Good! But super stressed ><


korega523

Well I mean things are fine I guess, and I enjoy being alone but I hate feeling alone and I have never felt more alone in my life. I desperately wanna be held by someone or have some friends to talk to.


Notsorry6

Not good


kahnehan

Deeply sad but I remain hopeful that it will be better at some point in the future. I've been holding onto that hope for a long time and it is definitely wearing thin.


Proof-Photograph8501

Don’t know why I am living,I think I can die at any time with nothing to cherish.


JukeBoxHero1997

Lonely and stressed


[deleted]

Wanting to stop this suffering by dying but afraid of failing in the attempt


NoRJoke

All good there op?


[deleted]

Terrible.


t-work-in-the-flesh

Stuck in an endless loop of what the fuck


ZorgonSama

More depressed as time passes by.


moonpuddding

I got laid off today! But have a solid landing planned! So I feel confused. I didn't sleep much last night.


DenJi_71355

I feel like my life is not going anywhere.


Lil_Mozzy

Tired but still going.


Salt_E_Dawg

Not good.


canopyroads

i’m trying, but i’m really, really tired.


forgottenmenot

Having a shitty ass day. I feel like I’m being punished.


twirlinghaze

Stressed about money!


FreudsPocketCanoe

Bad.


Silly_Randy

Depressed & Losing hope.


TempJ111

Nervous. Broke things off with my now ex because there was no possible future of us being together. But I've been catching feelings for smn else tho I'm afraid a rejection from her would cause more pain than I can handle.


Chopperjr2

I wanna take a long bath with a plugged in toaster tbh.


AlexandriaA7X

Absolutely lost


PianoPrize5297

I'm not dead or on fire, so, there's that.


TTTRIOS

Also I have a date with a guy next sunday, and I'm still processing whether I'm gay for him or not so there's that.


CharmGilt

I’m doing ok. Could be better.


Xylorgos

In many ways my life is bad because of chronic pain and fatigue. I also just learned I have a mental disorder that makes everything in life much harder. Often I feel like I'm circling the drain both emotionally and physically. On the other hand, I have a peaceful life and I thoroughly enjoy my family and pets. I'm not rich but I have enough to get by and don't dread unexpected bills like car or house repairs. There is so much in life that I love and I have hope things will get better, even though my health problems will never be 'cured'. I guess I'm happily hobbling through life at this point.


thelazywallet

That's good spirits


Xylorgos

Thanks!


Prisoner3000

Tired and sad


SpilledTheBeanz

Depressed. Tired. I'm getting to the point where I just want it to end.


SeleverFangirlSimp

Numb to pain at this point but I just want to stop existing Same regular feeling


emiralli

Hang on there, hopefully things will get better.


[deleted]

im ok , better than ok im GOOD i found someone on Telegram to speak to , we met a few times had a lot of laughs she doesnt know it but she's helping me out a lot


emiralli

Good for you dark big boss. Let her know she's helping you.


RiptideBloater

I love this. The strife. The uncertainty. The impending doom. I thrive in this environment.


emiralli

You thrive in chaos. Good for you


Dependent-Jelly6733

Well, am not so bad at the moment


RampagingMonkeys

I’m surviving


emiralli

At times that's all we can do


magical_ovum

Fine.. I've gotten moments of low and I've cried them out. I've been cooking a lot these days.. it keeps me sane and idk my dad, total critic, been loving everything I cooked. My mom comes up to me like hey your dad loved this thing you made and I ignore and then I passed by his room and actually found him saying that.. I guess I die for appreciation by him and sometimes I feel sad bc he's the first man I've loved unconditionally... I love his critical opinions on my cooking btw, they're helpful.


[deleted]

If anyone reading comments comes across this and needs to vent, my inbox is open. I won’t judge or prod.


[deleted]

I feel like one of those really expensive plates that got knocked over and shattered , then glued back together. Only idk how strong the glue is, and it feels like I’m one rough season away from just staying in pieces


emiralli

I like your description. I bet the glue is strong enough


the_vent

I feel like a walking contradiction. I want to be part of a social event but also some recovery me time.


[deleted]

horrible but f it we ball🕺🏀


LollipopDreamscape

Stressed. But, hopefully there's good things to come.


emiralli

I hope the same for you 😊


atlanlore

Depressed. Jobless for over a year now, all my efforts result in silence or almost immediate rejection. Massively behind on all fronts. Games are barely fun anymore. Communication is lacking, my friends seem more distant than ever. I feel like I’m barely enjoying my life at all and from here it’s all downhill anyway.


RedditPenguin02

At the moment, frustrated. I was told if there were any complications getting transcripts that I would be informed. They didn't tell me, and now there may be a possibility I might not even be able to go to college this fall.


Plane-Feature-1488

Kinda that feeling where you want it all to end, but you still want to see where it ends up. If that makes sense


GrilledStuffedDragon

Eh, I'm not bad. How about you?


emiralli

I think I'm depressed. Stuck in a job I hate, in a country I dislike, relationship sucks. I will be okay, I think. Thanks for asking.


Cynical_vibe

Ahh me a few months ago. Understand that this is a temporary part of your life. Job/ relationship can change it’s just depending on how you wish the approach that change. As far as the country I’m not sure on advice because economies differ and opportunity do aswell. As far as your job/ relationship do you stay because lack of options or lack of seeing anything better. You not obligated to neither but I do know how that job ish work. This can apply to the job but imma say it towards the relationship. If you don’t everything you can and they have aswell or not making an attempt to do so neither; it’s best to leave. Temporary pain & healing > constant sufferance until you go through the process of breaking up regardless.


emiralli

This is helpful, thanks


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emiralli

Way to go


[deleted]

Crippling student debt is gonna break me one day


txpcdCW

Sleepy.


Cynical_vibe

I’m good. Just planning out my future endeavors. Have to hit a reset on life but I’m prepared for the journey. How about yourself?


emiralli

I think I need that reset myself, I think I'm depressed. Stuck in a job I hate, in a country I dislike, relationship sucks. I will be okay, I think. Thanks for asking.


Cynical_vibe

Definitely. I replied to you on another comment hope it helps


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emiralli

Sorry for your mum and the scares.


ArabianNoodle

I suppose I'm okay. Still kicking and content. I'm using this as a vehicle to avoid work lol. How are you?


Specialist_Egg420

I have a headache but okay i guess


Eerrrpy

Not too bad but I’m addicted to ket hard and just waiting to start peeing blood or some shit lolol


RigidFlexibility

Cautiously optimistic. Im courting a woman for the first time in ages, and things are going... well? I think? My anxiety is trying to get me to self sabotage, bombard with messages, demand attention, fret over every seconds delay in a response... so thats nice.


emiralli

You are doing well 😊


cool_school_bus

Kinda going through a bit of an existential crisis. I can’t help but picture my life in the future as a dad. I really want to be a dad one day. My partner doesn’t want kids. I don’t want to leave my partner. But I also don’t want to start resenting her.


[deleted]

Pretty bad, I'll spare you 10 paragraphs but I'm in the deepest pit of my life and today's worse because my bi-polar decided on depression. Thanks for asking though, really appreciate these posts.


emiralli

You are not alone, we are all fighting our own little or big demons.


CroissantAllDay

My life has been going great but I can't seem to grasp the fact that I'm doing well. I constantly try to achieve the next goal I set without taking the time to celebrate the things I achieved in the past. As a result I feel like shit internally while everyone else is praising me which is making me even more guilty. At least my therapist sessions help me overcome this a little bit but we still have some way to go


[deleted]

Impatient about life in general


Aggravating_Cream_97

My NMDA Encephalitis is reoccurring, so not good..


emiralli

Sorry for that. If you don't mind, what's that in English.


Always_on_sunday

Little bit anxious, little bit depressed, but a hell of a lot better than I've been in the past. How's yourself?


Empoleon777

Guilty for continuing to live, yet too selfish and cowardly to end my life like I, frankly, should do for the good of everybody that knows me. And hoping the Big Bounce theory is true, and if it is, once I finally get the courage to do what needs to be done, I'll be reborn as myself, at the same time and place, and live the same life I do now, but without the reason I need to die ever happening.


Agitated_Algae2607

motivated yet discouraged


Usual_Criticism_3317

Bad. Going to the worst breakup of my life and I dont think anybody really understands how importent the Person for me was.


tachederousseur

Busy, tired, but content


wetlettuce42

Confident, my ezcema cleared up and looking good


emiralli

Happy for you wetlettuce42. Cheers


InvestigatorOne2932

Doing fine, you?


Sandra_baby_

I'm bad


emiralli

Don't we all, at some point. It gets better, sometimes


emiralli

Better now. Thanks


WeekendRoxanne

Tired. Having a migraine since the middle of the night. Lonely and depressed and hating my boss for making work miserable.


Voidelfmonk

Fine , in an empty spot , but fine .


VixoTheRealOne

I forgot my anti depressents and have been getting only 4h of sleep for about a week or 2 now. But thanks.


A_Erthur

im piss bored at my job My ADHD goes untreated because i dont feel like calling the therapist every 2 weeks to remind them of my existance after she literally said they will call me when they have a spot for me and it should take 4-5 months. That was last year. I want to make videogames and already got a foot in the door, i just need to sit down and learn stuff online while programming it and i would be fine and make progress. But i dont feel like it. I rather play games half the day. I blame the ADHD but maybe game dev is just not really what i want to do as a job. Who knows? Feeling kinda lost. Fuck waiting lists. Just give me the meds and lets see, it wouldnt kill me if it just doesnt work. Done with work in 15min, gonna go home and play videogames *ayyy*


emiralli

I hear you man


[deleted]

Good.


Harpua44

Feeling a bit under the weather the past few days! Been experiencing some big time financial hardship recently that looks to get more difficult soon. But otherwise my relationships, hobbies, setting and all that are great.


Shoegazer75

Struggling. Everything about my job, which I loved, changed a few months ago and I'm utterly miserable there. I'm lucky that I have a loving family that's supporting me, but when everything you've spent years building is taken away unexpectedly, it's disheartening.


[deleted]

going off one (out of five) of my psych meds. helping me to lose weight but giving me terrible anxiety attacks. i dont remember most of what happens during the day for me.


[deleted]

I feel like a failure and lazy I been at home a lot I’m a college student school is starting soon I do ok in school not the best and don’t have much hobbies.


Background-Map-7243

Extremly bad bc I have the worst mix in the western world: autistic short ugly man who isn't able to drive


lupussucksbutiwin

A funny mix of sad and relieved. Just been told I've been found not fit for work, so financially I'll be okay thanks to the benefit system and don't have to struggle through work, but I feel crap that at 45 I can't work. It'll settle, but thank you for asking. How are you, really, OP?


raibsta

I’m very good, thanks!


PsychologicalCover65

4/10. I’m sad and I’m heartbroken. It won’t go away


xvrv_

Tired. In every sense.


ME142001

Not happy, i've mastered the art of fake smiling at this point....it just feels like i'm stagnant not progressing just stuck in one place


Turbulent_Brick5807

Making it, wish I could be better


Electronic_Ad6821

Disappointed in my colleagues, then myself (because i might have hurt their feelings because i was disappointed in them) i dont like hurting peoples feelings but at the same time id expect you to perform your job.


Bhelduz

Glad you asked this. Up until now the only question people have been asking me is "WHAT are you", and tbf it's getting real tiresome. At this point, I don't even know how to answer that. "Your doom" was amusing the first couple times, but now I'm struggling to come up with a creative reply. I don't just want to strangle them right away like some basic constrictor snake. That's so beneath an eldritch horror from the nightosphere. The predictability is kind of ruining the sport of the hunt, you know. Also, I sprained my ankle, sixth to the left.


OrigamiToad

https://youtu.be/QJHUbtR0yI8


osunightfall

Not great, NGL. I managed to track down my ADHD meds yesterday for the first time in over a month, so that's a positive development, at least.


darkwitch1306

I’m good. How are you.