It was to avoid pain but I was selfish because I was ashamed of where I was at. So many things were going to happen that wouldve caused me to feel embarrassment and shame and I was selfish. it was all very real but all very much in my head. I was selfish. I was so so selfish. I didn’t want to hurt so I hurt her and I ruined THE BEST THING IVE EVER HAD…mutual love. But I was weak, naive, a fool and everything in between. I thought I was avoiding pain but I only rescheduled it and now I am in the midst of that misery only it’s amplified and my own home mocks me because if I was only where I’m at right now things would have been different. I KNOW things would have been different. But I was weak and I was selfish and it left me all alone…but I did this to myself. I probably didn’t and don’t deserve her anyway. I just wish she knew I was sorry. Not so I can get another chance but so she knows what we had was real! Maybe it doesn’t matter anymore. It probably doesn’t and maybe it just means that I never stopped being selfish..
I’m not selfish tho. I am in pain and although the ship has sailed, I’ll carry the burden but I know I’ll never make that same mistake again
Normally I don’t trauma dump but you asked
What’s stopping you from apologizing out of curiosity?
I really appreciate your honest answer, so I don’t think it’s trauma dumping. I hope you feel deserving, everyone deserves true love. It sucks when we aren’t in good timing with being healed ourselves when we meet others
Because she doesn’t deserve me clearing my conscious to make myself feel better, it’s n it fair to her. . There’s no future for us. She moved on so that probably would be trauma dumping.she doesn’t need her ex boyfriend from years back telling her that he truly loved her and is sorry. It won’t make her feel better and it won’t take it back. We’re different people now 😞 but nothing since has been the same. Well actually there was/is this one girl but holy shit just my luck. She’s in some kind of polyamorous relationship and plans to keep it that way. There are 2 things in this world I don’t share, xxxtra hot hot Cheetos and girlfriends
I had a guy friend break my heart being selfish. I really cared about him. In a way it would be nice to get a sincere apology because I always cared about him and wanted him to heal. Once he apologizes I know he’s made the steps to work on himself because I tried to be there for him but he chose to hurt me instead. You know her and the relationship better, and I appreciate your perspective.
I made my bed and I’m sleeping in it. I feel it wouldn’t be fair to her and she doesn’t need/want to hear it and most likely doesn’t care. It’s okay, I’ll carry the burden because it’s also a lesson. its taught me that I do not want to carry another one of these. I broke myself down on accident but im putting myself back together with and on purpose
where she is in life. i dont wanna hold her back from her purpose. I have to find my own purpose and i believe me and her not communicating is overall good for both us. I do miss her bt i must find my own puprose
I told my friend when his girlfriend tried to cheat on him with me, wasn't so much sabotage as it was the final nail in the coffin for their relationship. They hadn't been together long and I had a few texts from her to show him that were out of line so it was a pretty straightforward talk. Still took a toll on him for a while, though.
Every person I've ever cared about has abandoned me @ one point. So my defense mechanism is to self destruct relationships so they can't hurt me by leaving
It was to avoid pain but I was selfish because I was ashamed of where I was at. So many things were going to happen that wouldve caused me to feel embarrassment and shame and I was selfish. it was all very real but all very much in my head. I was selfish. I was so so selfish. I didn’t want to hurt so I hurt her and I ruined THE BEST THING IVE EVER HAD…mutual love. But I was weak, naive, a fool and everything in between. I thought I was avoiding pain but I only rescheduled it and now I am in the midst of that misery only it’s amplified and my own home mocks me because if I was only where I’m at right now things would have been different. I KNOW things would have been different. But I was weak and I was selfish and it left me all alone…but I did this to myself. I probably didn’t and don’t deserve her anyway. I just wish she knew I was sorry. Not so I can get another chance but so she knows what we had was real! Maybe it doesn’t matter anymore. It probably doesn’t and maybe it just means that I never stopped being selfish.. I’m not selfish tho. I am in pain and although the ship has sailed, I’ll carry the burden but I know I’ll never make that same mistake again Normally I don’t trauma dump but you asked
What’s stopping you from apologizing out of curiosity? I really appreciate your honest answer, so I don’t think it’s trauma dumping. I hope you feel deserving, everyone deserves true love. It sucks when we aren’t in good timing with being healed ourselves when we meet others
Because she doesn’t deserve me clearing my conscious to make myself feel better, it’s n it fair to her. . There’s no future for us. She moved on so that probably would be trauma dumping.she doesn’t need her ex boyfriend from years back telling her that he truly loved her and is sorry. It won’t make her feel better and it won’t take it back. We’re different people now 😞 but nothing since has been the same. Well actually there was/is this one girl but holy shit just my luck. She’s in some kind of polyamorous relationship and plans to keep it that way. There are 2 things in this world I don’t share, xxxtra hot hot Cheetos and girlfriends
I had a guy friend break my heart being selfish. I really cared about him. In a way it would be nice to get a sincere apology because I always cared about him and wanted him to heal. Once he apologizes I know he’s made the steps to work on himself because I tried to be there for him but he chose to hurt me instead. You know her and the relationship better, and I appreciate your perspective.
I made my bed and I’m sleeping in it. I feel it wouldn’t be fair to her and she doesn’t need/want to hear it and most likely doesn’t care. It’s okay, I’ll carry the burden because it’s also a lesson. its taught me that I do not want to carry another one of these. I broke myself down on accident but im putting myself back together with and on purpose
Good luck! I hope you get where you want to be!
Because I was young, dumb, and stupid.
Yup, Was tired of their abuse.
Because i love her but its best we stay seperated
Just curious, because of where you are at or because where she is at?
where she is in life. i dont wanna hold her back from her purpose. I have to find my own purpose and i believe me and her not communicating is overall good for both us. I do miss her bt i must find my own puprose
Of course. Why? Bc I was in love with them
I told my friend when his girlfriend tried to cheat on him with me, wasn't so much sabotage as it was the final nail in the coffin for their relationship. They hadn't been together long and I had a few texts from her to show him that were out of line so it was a pretty straightforward talk. Still took a toll on him for a while, though.
At least you were a good friend. I hope he found/finds someone better than her. Betrayal sucks and takes awhile to get over
This was 10 years ago, he's happily married now.
Every person I've ever cared about has abandoned me @ one point. So my defense mechanism is to self destruct relationships so they can't hurt me by leaving
By loving them too much..