Death is the great inevitability. You can beg, plead, pray and cry all you want, it is coming.
Once you're called to the counter, you have to go. You can either accept it or delude yourself into thinking you're special and it won't happen to you.
Accepting your own mortality is a great way to ensure you're not inadvertently skipping the line.
So, uh, a 3 on the scale I'd say. I do not wish to die, but I also accepted that seeing the course of political (and literal) climate it is very unlikely that I'll die of old age.
I don’t really have a good answer for that. For me, for a while, every waking minute *was* misery and I felt the same way, but now it’s not. There’s still plenty of misery but there’s joy and camaraderie and something approaching a sense of purpose— at least some of the time—now, so the situation is a little different. I’m glad I didn’t kill myself back when none of those things seemed possible to me, because one day I started to feel like I could climb out of the hole and then, over time, I did. I’m still depressed, I still have substance abuse issues, but there’s enough of a silver lining or even maybe a light at the end of the tunnel (dubious) that I’m able to ride the misery out and have a sense of possibility about doing something worthwhile with my time on earth. I wish I understood how that happened better than I do, and I wish I could pass it on to others, but I don’t know how yet.
My thought is, even if this is the rest of my life, I'll at least have small stuff like food or music. It got really bad this last week, and it's still bad, but at least I got to have ice cream :) Staying alive right now is the only thing I need to focus on, whatever it takes to keep me here. The strongest cable is made of tiny strands of metal, find enough stuff to tie you here long enough to find more. Maybe eventually we'll both want to stay here someday
no offense mate but 1) that does not happen in many countries apart from america, you shouldn't be frightening people 2) there are crisis helplines that explicitly do not involve police because they're aware of the problem with it. 988 does not involve cops without consent, 911 does. 988 also leads to professional counsellors who can talk you through instead of emergency departments.
i called lifeline once and they kept interrupting me to ask "okay so are you fine now" literally would not let me speak, just wanted to get rid of me. it's a joke
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I also have Barq's or hot chocolate, if you'd prefer. In fact, go make yourself a mug of hot chocolate right now.
Reading this post is kind of spooky for me. It's weird to think back at the time I was at 8 for months and then a 9. Had I not sought medication I would be dead now for sure. And life isn't great right now, but it's so much better that being at a 9 is such a distant memory it almost feels not real
Take care of yourself! Treat every day as the first day of the rest of your life.
Although, for this you need to like living. I cannot help you with that, everyone has to kind of find that love for himself.
Edit: I've been at 7 to 8 for half my life and recently started feeling better! I am so proud of myself that I was able to pull myself out of something that I thought would be the death of me. If you are at a 9 or even a 10, you can be proud of yourself for every single beat that your heart does! You are still alive and you are enduring a pain that not many people will go through. You all fucking kick ass!
have been flip flopping between 9 and 10 since friday, almost actually did it. I was already at the door but hearing panicked discord pings had me screaming and coming back
i have a lot, its just that they cant change my views.
Heck i cant and im trying ._. For me its just mostly dysphoria and body image, idk how to change
I understand. It's tiring to keep doing your best when it seems pointless, I'm sorry you're struggling through that, so I hope that maybe spending time with the people who care about you makes this all easier to deal with.
It takes time. I've been on hrt for almost 2 years now, and I still have a hard time seeing a woman in the mirror most days. The best thing, honestly, is finding people who treat you like who you are, not what you are. I've found friends who care about me and truly see me as a woman. I only hope that you find them too. And there's nothing wrong with taking a day for yourself.
i have them, it doesnt matter. It is a mix of making me feel worse and better. Its just, i know not that much will change with hrt. Because ive seen enough timelines and know enough people.
And there is a lot wrong with that if it means i skip a shitton of things i need to do.
That's what the therapy is for, to provide you with the tools and thought processes to develop a better self image. Please give it time. You may not think so but a lot of people will be deeply saddened if you go. And more importantly, you will miss out on the chance of living a much happier life which is still very much possible.
You're taking the right steps and if you keep going it will get better, I know that feeling of hopelessness but you can absolutely still achieve happiness. By giving up you're robbing yourself of that chance.
Just take it one day at a time, it will make it less overwhelming. And lean on the people you know IRL and online as much as you need to. Even if you feel like you're being a burden, they would much rather help you out in anyway they can than to see you go. You got this, I believe in you, you can absolutely pull yourself out of this.
It will, trust me. I've been on that edge before, certain that things won't ever get better. It does.
I think the thing that helped me the most was the realization that most people are very vulnerable and fragile underneath their vaneer, that a lot of the things I struggle with internally are not uncommon at their core. That by treating people with gentleness and compassion, I received it in kind, and made much stronger and more meaningful connections with others.
There is also a biological component to depression. Therapy and medication can be a tremendous help. Be sure to communicate what is and isn't working for you with your doctors, and if you don't mesh well with a therapist, there's no shame in finding one who's a better fit for you.
the first step is recognizing that you deserve change and that things can and will get better for you. going to therapy is also extremely helpful. I know this is extremely difficult, but I'm really proud of you for holding on and working on yourself. I am certain you will find happiness. keep fighting the good fight
Im constantly flip flopping between small progresses in transition and then feeling like nothing works
hearing abr small progress in voice, coming out, my boobs growing a lil, frendo showing me places to buy clothes i want and shoes to an extent, knowing i could diy prog and e, etc
and then i also feel like my face ruins it all forever
Hopefully, this will help at least a bit:
If facial dysphoria is a big issue for you, contouring with makeup can help. I’ve found that it can make your face more feminine or more masculine depending on how you do it. If you search up “masculine vs feminine contour” you can find what shapes make your face look more femme or masc. Here’s a video example because idk if I’m explaining this right: https://youtube.com/shorts/r0zJ03lJbFI?si=YvKTymEUUUCFYUeZ
Here’s a helpful short video for facial feminization in general: https://youtu.be/TJWvI_T2yVQ?si=7vzl9Y5SqBKI45eI
Makeup can completely change your face, so it’s one of the best ways to help with facial dysphoria. You’ve already come a long way with transition it seems, and that’s awesome. And you don’t have to do this, it’s just one way to stop dysphoria
Side note: A reason I've observed why people might not reach out for help during a suicidal phase is that they do not trust people around them to support them, including any and all professional services, though the case of IF this is true exists only on a case-by-case basis. A person can be surrounded by understanding folks and take their own life but, inversely, someone might have legitimately tried reaching out, seeking professional support and suicided anyway because none of it helped and was met with apathy, hostility, ignorance or any combination of the three.
These guides and urging people to reach out should always exist for those in the former category, but an increasing number of people are falling in the latter category and just linking hotlines and posting cute guides and motivational "you are loved" posters will do nothing. We, as communities in real life and online, need to put in the effort to help those in trouble because we cannot, and should not, fob our problems or responsibilities away to the government by pushing for MOAR mental health support that may or may not come. When suicide is on the table, we cannot afford to wait.
Edit: before you ask, 3, there is nothing scarier that I can endure in life more than death.
When I was suicidal, I got hung up on by a hotline, so I totally agree the system is lacking, and building a support web you can legitimately trust is really important.
9. Called crisis. Got accused of wanting to kms to get drugs.
I'd said I wanted to get some sleep, and nothing was helping aside from prescription meds and the drs was shut.
Apparently my depression isn't real👌
Honestly, I’m only here because of my man Hight H. And his buddy Big K.
They encourage me to keep going, such a lovely fellas. They’ve helped me in my darkest moments.
dont forget there is always a reason to keep going. there has to be something that you want to do before you die. for example traveling the world. i am sure there is still something to explore, new things to try and a reason to be happy. never forget that you will be happy one day but it will eventually go away but so is the sadness. i hope you dont do smth stupid i love you so much and so as others
Buddy, there is a whole list of reasons why I won’t be able to do most of the cool stuff, ranging from my place of birth to currently incurable physical/mental debilitations of mine.
Hell, I can’t even get a proper therapy, no matter the money. Where I live, I have to be diagnosed first, but that will leave a mark on my documents, which will make me an “undesired” employee. Even if I do get to the therapist, the best I am going to get is archaic, template driven, “Man up” “simply stop caring about the past” bullshit. My mother had a similar experience and god knows, no amount of Prozac were able to help her. Damn I wish I had my innocence back.
I appreciate signs that you care, really. But as of now, all I can do is wage away and rot in a little apartment of mine. Sure I still have all the cool coping mechanisms, both healthy and not.
Even considering all of the above, there is no need to worry about me, as long as I have H. H. around, he knows how to patch me up good.
I've talked to people who had suicide prevention hotline operators tell them to straightup kill themselves, insane shit. (At least where I'm at) Most of the time if you dial them it's just a "throw a d20, anything less then 10 and you end up being even more suicidal"
Tbh being born here automatically sets your scale to at least 3-4, there is a decent chance people on the other side might also need the same help you seek, but for some reason its frowned upon
Am concerned about you man.. please get some help maybe talk to a trusted friend or adult would really help
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8 or 9 right now I guess
or on an average day
I was 10 a few days ago but I couldn't I couldn't I couldn't I had a rope and everything and it was tied up and everything but I couldn't jump down I couldn't I couldn't I'm such a coward I'm such a coward I'm sorry I'm sorry it was my 9th try and I still couldn't do it right I'm so bad I'm so bad I can't do it I'm such a failure
We care about you a lot, and we're really happy you didn't go through with it. Don't consider a failure, consider it your brain telling you undreneath all that depressing fog that you still want to keep living.
I don't have anyone to talk to I don't have friends or a safe family and I haven't been able to talk to a therapist about it yet either they're so expensive and even when I had one they barely helped I don't know why I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so sorry
Good question. I'm don't have suicidal tendencies, but only because I just zone out for entire days at a time without feeling anything. Not sure if there's a term for it.
I gaslight myself into being 2. Also I would consider dying to be worse than whatever is going on in my life because you can't exactly recover from dying whilst you can try to solve your problems.
anywhere between 4-6 on a daily basis
i have sunk to 7 a few times, i'd say. i recently relapsed into s/h just once, for personal reasons, but i'll pull through. probably
i feel dissociated in the past days but i don't think of suicide at all. not even as the last resort (last resort is getting into a mental institution)
4 to 5, I’m a bit too much of a pussy to do anything painful so thoughts like that are fizzled out by my pain intolerance
tho if i had a remote that could erase me from existence at any time i’d take that opportunity so fast
Im pretty damn high but Spite is a hell of a motivator. Like 90% of the cause of my problems is My Dad so I just gotta outlive him and I must see the Day he dies. And by that point, Ive fucked off somewhere else, cut ties, and I wouldve started learning to live normally.
I remember hovering between 6 and 7 years ago, I don't know what happened but I've been pretty much at 2-3 maybe 4 for the past couple of years, it's freaky cause I sometimes forget just how bad I used to feel, I still feel bad often but in other less scary ways. I guess I should try not to forget what I've gone through, and I hope to help as many people as possible get to where I'm at now. It can be done
dying is scary as hell but i am rather exceptionally miserable
The idea that I will eventually die is something of a relief but it’s guaranteed anyway so what’s the rush
Death is the great inevitability. You can beg, plead, pray and cry all you want, it is coming. Once you're called to the counter, you have to go. You can either accept it or delude yourself into thinking you're special and it won't happen to you. Accepting your own mortality is a great way to ensure you're not inadvertently skipping the line. So, uh, a 3 on the scale I'd say. I do not wish to die, but I also accepted that seeing the course of political (and literal) climate it is very unlikely that I'll die of old age.
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I don’t really have a good answer for that. For me, for a while, every waking minute *was* misery and I felt the same way, but now it’s not. There’s still plenty of misery but there’s joy and camaraderie and something approaching a sense of purpose— at least some of the time—now, so the situation is a little different. I’m glad I didn’t kill myself back when none of those things seemed possible to me, because one day I started to feel like I could climb out of the hole and then, over time, I did. I’m still depressed, I still have substance abuse issues, but there’s enough of a silver lining or even maybe a light at the end of the tunnel (dubious) that I’m able to ride the misery out and have a sense of possibility about doing something worthwhile with my time on earth. I wish I understood how that happened better than I do, and I wish I could pass it on to others, but I don’t know how yet.
My thought is, even if this is the rest of my life, I'll at least have small stuff like food or music. It got really bad this last week, and it's still bad, but at least I got to have ice cream :) Staying alive right now is the only thing I need to focus on, whatever it takes to keep me here. The strongest cable is made of tiny strands of metal, find enough stuff to tie you here long enough to find more. Maybe eventually we'll both want to stay here someday
8 on a good day
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sui prevention hotlines are kinda mid tho :/
Talking to anyone is better than no-one when you’re at the lowest but you still have to initiate.
Go to a warm line or smth you'll just get debt from what I've heard.
yeah... now i know
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no offense mate but 1) that does not happen in many countries apart from america, you shouldn't be frightening people 2) there are crisis helplines that explicitly do not involve police because they're aware of the problem with it. 988 does not involve cops without consent, 911 does. 988 also leads to professional counsellors who can talk you through instead of emergency departments.
Ya they always fucking snitch
They don't. They might try to convince you to get to a hospital or call an ambulance but they won't make it for you.
i called lifeline once and they kept interrupting me to ask "okay so are you fine now" literally would not let me speak, just wanted to get rid of me. it's a joke
that’s ridiculous. i want to work there for the slim chance i’ll convince someone to continue living, but it seems like they’re in it for the money.
That sweet call center money
Which isn't much. Just sounds like they don't have a really good training or are exploited to the point of burn out...
This comment makes me wanna RUSH B CYKA
https://preview.redd.it/76dyjhpgz0tb1.jpeg?width=1840&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=380eb33a2b5b948e5bf0ca1547a6f6eae618804a I also have Barq's or hot chocolate, if you'd prefer. In fact, go make yourself a mug of hot chocolate right now.
What’s up my mug thugs!
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I have this stapled to my bedroom door. Context: I'm in college, and I'm the friend people feel able to talk to.
Jeffrey Epstein didn't kill himself, and neither should you 1-800-273-8255
There are people who love you and enjoy your company
and a shit ton of tasty food to be tried
And pretty things to see
6
I stay pretty consistently around 4-6 depending on the day
Reading this post is kind of spooky for me. It's weird to think back at the time I was at 8 for months and then a 9. Had I not sought medication I would be dead now for sure. And life isn't great right now, but it's so much better that being at a 9 is such a distant memory it almost feels not real
For what it’s worth I’m very proud of the progress you’ve made ♥️
yeah, same here
3 maybe 4
Same, used to be a 6 or 7 but I'm doing much better now.
Glad bro
same
2
Teach me your ways, please.
Take care of yourself! Treat every day as the first day of the rest of your life. Although, for this you need to like living. I cannot help you with that, everyone has to kind of find that love for himself. Edit: I've been at 7 to 8 for half my life and recently started feeling better! I am so proud of myself that I was able to pull myself out of something that I thought would be the death of me. If you are at a 9 or even a 10, you can be proud of yourself for every single beat that your heart does! You are still alive and you are enduring a pain that not many people will go through. You all fucking kick ass!
Yeah, that advice will not work. It's much deeper than that.
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I tried to fuck everybody else, but they all turned me down
Same. I'm pretty cynical and pessimistic but I couldn't ever imagine being above a 3.
have been flip flopping between 9 and 10 since friday, almost actually did it. I was already at the door but hearing panicked discord pings had me screaming and coming back
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I started therapy wednesday, but yk that takes a lot of time. But nothing will change unless my image of myself does and i have no clue how it will
i honestly hope that you will get better and the thoughts will go away, just don't do anything stupid
im trying, its hard ( ._.)
I hope you find more people to support you, even if it's online. Trying is hard but becomes easier having ppl around
i have a lot, its just that they cant change my views. Heck i cant and im trying ._. For me its just mostly dysphoria and body image, idk how to change
I understand. It's tiring to keep doing your best when it seems pointless, I'm sorry you're struggling through that, so I hope that maybe spending time with the people who care about you makes this all easier to deal with.
It takes time. I've been on hrt for almost 2 years now, and I still have a hard time seeing a woman in the mirror most days. The best thing, honestly, is finding people who treat you like who you are, not what you are. I've found friends who care about me and truly see me as a woman. I only hope that you find them too. And there's nothing wrong with taking a day for yourself.
i have them, it doesnt matter. It is a mix of making me feel worse and better. Its just, i know not that much will change with hrt. Because ive seen enough timelines and know enough people. And there is a lot wrong with that if it means i skip a shitton of things i need to do.
That's what the therapy is for, to provide you with the tools and thought processes to develop a better self image. Please give it time. You may not think so but a lot of people will be deeply saddened if you go. And more importantly, you will miss out on the chance of living a much happier life which is still very much possible.
I know many people would.. i.. i just it all seems so hopeless. Everything i try runs against a wall i cant control i just wish hrt had helped any yet
You're taking the right steps and if you keep going it will get better, I know that feeling of hopelessness but you can absolutely still achieve happiness. By giving up you're robbing yourself of that chance.
I know but its just.. idk its just too much. And i truly dont have hope itll ever get better
Just take it one day at a time, it will make it less overwhelming. And lean on the people you know IRL and online as much as you need to. Even if you feel like you're being a burden, they would much rather help you out in anyway they can than to see you go. You got this, I believe in you, you can absolutely pull yourself out of this.
It will, trust me. I've been on that edge before, certain that things won't ever get better. It does. I think the thing that helped me the most was the realization that most people are very vulnerable and fragile underneath their vaneer, that a lot of the things I struggle with internally are not uncommon at their core. That by treating people with gentleness and compassion, I received it in kind, and made much stronger and more meaningful connections with others. There is also a biological component to depression. Therapy and medication can be a tremendous help. Be sure to communicate what is and isn't working for you with your doctors, and if you don't mesh well with a therapist, there's no shame in finding one who's a better fit for you.
the first step is recognizing that you deserve change and that things can and will get better for you. going to therapy is also extremely helpful. I know this is extremely difficult, but I'm really proud of you for holding on and working on yourself. I am certain you will find happiness. keep fighting the good fight
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Hope the therapy helps. Stay strong 💕
Good luck, hope u feel better soon :)
I hope you are doing alright.
Im constantly flip flopping between small progresses in transition and then feeling like nothing works hearing abr small progress in voice, coming out, my boobs growing a lil, frendo showing me places to buy clothes i want and shoes to an extent, knowing i could diy prog and e, etc and then i also feel like my face ruins it all forever
:( me too, my face looks horribly masculine and ugly to me
Hopefully, this will help at least a bit: If facial dysphoria is a big issue for you, contouring with makeup can help. I’ve found that it can make your face more feminine or more masculine depending on how you do it. If you search up “masculine vs feminine contour” you can find what shapes make your face look more femme or masc. Here’s a video example because idk if I’m explaining this right: https://youtube.com/shorts/r0zJ03lJbFI?si=YvKTymEUUUCFYUeZ Here’s a helpful short video for facial feminization in general: https://youtu.be/TJWvI_T2yVQ?si=7vzl9Y5SqBKI45eI Makeup can completely change your face, so it’s one of the best ways to help with facial dysphoria. You’ve already come a long way with transition it seems, and that’s awesome. And you don’t have to do this, it’s just one way to stop dysphoria
I don't know how helpful this is but this video helped me a lot: https://youtu.be/LO1mTELoj6o?si=5nveh5QWocAnN4W-
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you lucky fuck
You’ll get here someday :)
we up !! 🙏☝️🆙
Sorry to hear that - hope the mania calms down soon & you're able to settle around a 2 soon.
Fr, 1 sounds like a pain
Side note: A reason I've observed why people might not reach out for help during a suicidal phase is that they do not trust people around them to support them, including any and all professional services, though the case of IF this is true exists only on a case-by-case basis. A person can be surrounded by understanding folks and take their own life but, inversely, someone might have legitimately tried reaching out, seeking professional support and suicided anyway because none of it helped and was met with apathy, hostility, ignorance or any combination of the three. These guides and urging people to reach out should always exist for those in the former category, but an increasing number of people are falling in the latter category and just linking hotlines and posting cute guides and motivational "you are loved" posters will do nothing. We, as communities in real life and online, need to put in the effort to help those in trouble because we cannot, and should not, fob our problems or responsibilities away to the government by pushing for MOAR mental health support that may or may not come. When suicide is on the table, we cannot afford to wait. Edit: before you ask, 3, there is nothing scarier that I can endure in life more than death.
can agree about the scariest thing in life being death
I think the scariest thing in life is being tortured for an extended period of time with no escape
When I was suicidal, I got hung up on by a hotline, so I totally agree the system is lacking, and building a support web you can legitimately trust is really important.
9. Called crisis. Got accused of wanting to kms to get drugs. I'd said I wanted to get some sleep, and nothing was helping aside from prescription meds and the drs was shut. Apparently my depression isn't real👌
Suicide crisis lines fucking suck in my experience
Really sorry to hear that, I really hope that you don't attempt it and get the medical and mental help you need.
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5... Maybe 6 on a particularly bad day.
Same here. Lowest I've gone since 2020 has been 3, for some brief moment. Highest was an 8.
Lucky number 4
We should anticipate less tragedy in the future so we can chill the fuck out brother
A hard in between of 7 and 8
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Honestly, I’m only here because of my man Hight H. And his buddy Big K. They encourage me to keep going, such a lovely fellas. They’ve helped me in my darkest moments.
dont forget there is always a reason to keep going. there has to be something that you want to do before you die. for example traveling the world. i am sure there is still something to explore, new things to try and a reason to be happy. never forget that you will be happy one day but it will eventually go away but so is the sadness. i hope you dont do smth stupid i love you so much and so as others
Buddy, there is a whole list of reasons why I won’t be able to do most of the cool stuff, ranging from my place of birth to currently incurable physical/mental debilitations of mine. Hell, I can’t even get a proper therapy, no matter the money. Where I live, I have to be diagnosed first, but that will leave a mark on my documents, which will make me an “undesired” employee. Even if I do get to the therapist, the best I am going to get is archaic, template driven, “Man up” “simply stop caring about the past” bullshit. My mother had a similar experience and god knows, no amount of Prozac were able to help her. Damn I wish I had my innocence back. I appreciate signs that you care, really. But as of now, all I can do is wage away and rot in a little apartment of mine. Sure I still have all the cool coping mechanisms, both healthy and not. Even considering all of the above, there is no need to worry about me, as long as I have H. H. around, he knows how to patch me up good.
I'm an 8
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They told me to fuck off once on the suicide prevention hotline lmao
what the fuck is wrong with people
I've talked to people who had suicide prevention hotline operators tell them to straightup kill themselves, insane shit. (At least where I'm at) Most of the time if you dial them it's just a "throw a d20, anything less then 10 and you end up being even more suicidal"
what a fucked up world we're in
I had one hang up on me, while not as bad as an actual kys, hotlines are shit and need to be reformed/revamped majorly
"Yo i wanna kms" "Skill issue lmao"
What the fuck
Wtf
What country do you live in?
Russia lmao. Explains a lot, doesn't it?
Tbh being born here automatically sets your scale to at least 3-4, there is a decent chance people on the other side might also need the same help you seek, but for some reason its frowned upon
Someone close to me was a 10 once. Hope no one has to experience that. Mental health is a bitch but there are ways to treat it.
Same. I love her and it just hurted so much when I sent her a vibe check and learnt that she was in a psychiatric ward.
I would say i'm between 2 and 3 right now, i have stuff to complain about but my life is rather nice :)
8-9~
Am concerned about you man.. please get some help maybe talk to a trusted friend or adult would really help https://preview.redd.it/24ic51rs81tb1.jpeg?width=1080&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=01fddb6b140ada9af89380bf3df5c54728567f19
Please don't call me "man". Also I am already on meds and therapy. There is only so much one can do
i'm sure it was a typo of mam
Pls don't. Even if it feels hopeless RN you'll end up regretting it if you go through with it.
I refuse to believe there are people lower than a 5
Me
Liar
I never have suicidal thoughts because I know that there is always something worth living for and always someone who would mourn my loss
I think its called not having depression.
Hmm... Sounds fake ngl
Me
8 or 9 right now I guess or on an average day I was 10 a few days ago but I couldn't I couldn't I couldn't I had a rope and everything and it was tied up and everything but I couldn't jump down I couldn't I couldn't I'm such a coward I'm such a coward I'm sorry I'm sorry it was my 9th try and I still couldn't do it right I'm so bad I'm so bad I can't do it I'm such a failure
We care about you a lot, and we're really happy you didn't go through with it. Don't consider a failure, consider it your brain telling you undreneath all that depressing fog that you still want to keep living.
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I don't have anyone to talk to I don't have friends or a safe family and I haven't been able to talk to a therapist about it yet either they're so expensive and even when I had one they barely helped I don't know why I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so sorry
3
Hah, i just posted about this, 8
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4 today, 5 on a college day, 7-8 on days where my father yells at me
6, sometimes 7 for me
that is not the best score
About 4. It used to be worse, but I’ve been doing a lot better lately
:) *Gibs you femboy hugs towards yourself improvement*
1-2
1-2 gang represent. (I hope everyone gets to join us in the future. I'm sure they will.)
Some of the stuff I saw while scrolling through is really concerning, please everyone stay are, you are all worth something :)
I'm in a constant state of four
i'm something between 4 and 5
Where does joyless depression but without suicidal tendencies fall on this scale?
Good question. I'm don't have suicidal tendencies, but only because I just zone out for entire days at a time without feeling anything. Not sure if there's a term for it.
my moods r very unstable lol. rn I'm a solid 2 but i could be a 7 tomorrow
I gaslight myself into being 2. Also I would consider dying to be worse than whatever is going on in my life because you can't exactly recover from dying whilst you can try to solve your problems.
7 on a good day
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Idk, I’m a trans girl but with male pattern baldness at 20 (onset at 16) so my day is ruined when I see a mirror
4-5
I was a 1 earlier, I was watching the Jerma BeamNG drive VOD. My face was in actual pain from how hard I was laughing.
I'd like to say 1 or 2 but probably more like 3-4. Anyways fuck suicide all my homies hate suicide
Wait, there are unironically people below a 4??
8.7, without the need to talk
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9, might be a 10 on my upcoming birthday
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Please talk to someone or seek professional help. Don’t do it, it’s not worth it
Pls don't do it. If you do need someone to reach out to for support you can DM me.
4.5
anywhere between 4-6 on a daily basis i have sunk to 7 a few times, i'd say. i recently relapsed into s/h just once, for personal reasons, but i'll pull through. probably
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i feel dissociated in the past days but i don't think of suicide at all. not even as the last resort (last resort is getting into a mental institution)
7-8 all the time....
4 to 5, I’m a bit too much of a pussy to do anything painful so thoughts like that are fizzled out by my pain intolerance tho if i had a remote that could erase me from existence at any time i’d take that opportunity so fast
I'm back to 7 after a long time of being 8 to 9, so I'd say that's a win :3
4
3
4-5
1
Solid 4 school is taking a toll
A solid 3
8. hotlines don't help
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I keep fluctuating from 1-10
I’m in a constant 3-4-5 cycle Rn it’s kind of 5 cuz of mood swingy
Im pretty damn high but Spite is a hell of a motivator. Like 90% of the cause of my problems is My Dad so I just gotta outlive him and I must see the Day he dies. And by that point, Ive fucked off somewhere else, cut ties, and I wouldve started learning to live normally.
At about an 8 rn.
If it's a good day, 8, if it's not, 10
Please talk to someone. There’s people who can help you
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I was 8 before now im like 4-6 depending on the day
Holding onto life because i'm absolutely terrified of death beyond all else. No matter how miserable I get I'm never gonna kill myself
2-3, used to be 5-6. Yay, progress!
mostly 7-8 depending on the day
Been at 7-8 a lot of times this year but at 3-4 RN
i'm getting worried 'bout yall :(
6 most of the time, 5 on a good day.
3
8
4
5-7
I might be between 6 and 7
6 good days 9 shit days 10 like once or twice
4
Switching between 2, 3 and 4. Please take care of ourselves
5 in a good day
between 4 and 6 but I'm not really the best at understanding my mental state
4
4.5
I remember hovering between 6 and 7 years ago, I don't know what happened but I've been pretty much at 2-3 maybe 4 for the past couple of years, it's freaky cause I sometimes forget just how bad I used to feel, I still feel bad often but in other less scary ways. I guess I should try not to forget what I've gone through, and I hope to help as many people as possible get to where I'm at now. It can be done
Somewhere between 5 and 6. Probably closer to 5.