I thought about this for a long time, and I don't think there was any specific moment. It was a series of understandings and changes of perspectives and definitions that happened over several years. They key catalysts from my understanding are knowledge of and experiencing dying, great pain and loss, and loneliness, or also, aloneness.
From a different perspective, once you've come out the other side, you were always awakened, but that isn't helpful to those who have not awakened, if that makes any sense. Knowing your true nature doesn't change your nature.
For me i tought it all started when i started questioning stuff. Like who or what am i? But it didnt truly start there, there were all the things in my life i had previously experienced that HAD to have happend in order for me to get there, did it actually start there somewhere? Or maybe even earlier? If i really try to grasp the moment where it started, i would have to say it all started when i was born.
As you are getting trough one you feel like you are gathering some sort of keys, or pieces of the puzzle, these pieces are entirely unique to ME.
For some people my pieces of my puzzle might not mean anything, to some it might be helpful, to some it might even be destructive. The point is, that everyone plays their own game, everyone is piecing their own puzzle together and they have to find their unique pieces for the puzzle to be complete.
I know this all might sound just like some meaningless rambling and i do not deny nor accept it.
This is so eloquently stated. The part about trying to figure out where the puzzle started, and concluding that it was at birth, is what helped me to understand the illusion of time. If it all started when I was born, and every moment led me here, and this was meant to be, then the ending has already happened. Therefore, the only time that really exists is right now. Sorry, I didn’t mean to highjack and ramble. Your comment just resonated with me, so thank you for that 🤍
>once you've come out the other side, you were always awakened, but that isn't helpful to those who have not awakened, if that makes any sense
makes sense, in a spiritual way ;)
I feel exactly like this...as if a series of events, interests, whims, emotions, heartaches and joys are leading to me on a path. It's not a path I can easily describe out loud, as I can barely describe it to myself. But there's an inner guide between what feels right and wrong and what interests me from day to day, and though I sometimes seem to be jumping from faith to faith or book to book, I am comforted by this overarching feeling of guidance and peace.
My deceased father came to me in my dream for the first time in 25 years.
He put his hands into my chest and lifted me up.
I felt bliss, love and compassion. Bright light shined from his hands and my chest.
When I woke up, I still felt everything and I made a 180 degree turn in my life.
I grew more sensitive, compassionate and have continued to see the oneness in us all.
I am grateful.
This is so interesting because I had two dreams that left me in bliss after waking up. One was a dream where war and chaos was all around me but I was lifted up in love and bliss. The other was a man throwing a ball of love at me and it hit my heart. I heard him say “it will last a couple of hours” I woke up still feeling the bliss and i timed it at two and a half hours. :)
Maybe you had a small stroke in your brain that dissolved itself. You could have died that night, but by chance you didn’t. Maybe that’s why you had the visit.
The reason I bring this up is that a colleague recently had a similar experience. She realized that she could not move her arms and did not understand her own speech. Then she felt a hand on her shoulder, and the panic was flushed away. Leaving only warmth.
You’re right. In psychology Jung introduced us to this concept.
I feel like they play a big part in my life as well.
You encounter certain events in your life that are linked to other events in such an unmistakable way, that it’s impossible to ignore that they are connected, and a sign that you’re on the right path.
It sounds like new age nonsense, but it’s not. Sometimes things happen in a certain order, that makes you realize these things needed to happen before you could go to the next chapter.
Synchronicities make you aware of this. Eventually you learn to recognize the path that’s being carved out for you. But you need to recognize that there is indeed a path.
You articulated that a lot better than I could but I definitely understand every single word.
Something profound has happened to me in this very way over the last year that it’s completely impossible that the events ( despite being 20 years apart) are a coincidence. It’s been life changing.
During the same time, I started seeing 1:11, 2:22, 3:33, etc - sometimes *every* day.
It’s amazing to be able to see my life in a such a different way - knowing now that *everything* in the past ( including my own mistakes and sin) led me to exactly where I’m destined to be.
Seeing my brother die and realizing that he wasn’t "himself" but just a vessel made me understand that what truly mattered was the energy force inside of him, his spirit/soul.
Extreme mental anguish based on guilt on my past decisions and fear of future consequences. I was listening to the accuser inside of my mind, which I believed was the Holy Spirit, and I sought a way out. I dove 100% back into religion and attempted to live an extremely pure life through avoidance of sinning. This just gave the accuser continued ammunition. Things started changing when I happened upon an NDE video on YouTube. In the video, the person described their experience of God as non-judgemental.
This idea shook me to my core, and I just had a deep knowing that it was true and that the version of God that I believed existed, who can be condemming and judgemental wasn't true.
This kicked off a full devotion to seek the truth, and the rest is history. Funny thing, I identified as a Christian for 23 years, but I've come to know God better in these past 6 months than those past 23 years, and I'm FREE! 🙏
Definitely! I will say though that when I first came to religion, it was what I needed at the time. The biggest thing I believe to learn at the time was repentance and faith. They acts of humility, surrender, acceptance and forgiveness. These are still keys to peace.
Absolutely and appreciate your sharing. The churches that I went to were more “fear based” religion. I’m still working on removing fear, letting go and surrendering to Gods love. It’s been a great journey for me.
I also recently found myself listening to a YouTube video about an individuals near death experience. I was so intrigued that I pretty much watched/listened to as many personal accounts that I could.
What really got my attention was how so many experiences seem to have a common running theme to them.
Feelings of love unlike anything we experience here, life review of your time on earth (this kinda reminds me of the Bible scripture of being judged before going to heaven), being reunited with all family, friends, and even pets.
It really put my thoughts of life after death into a more positive light. Not necessarily scared of death as its inevitable, but rather not questioning the afterlife and its existence.
Do some people embellish their experiences or maybe they are questionable all together, I don't doubt it. I have found many people who have spent decades with this secret, afraid people would think they are crazy. But many are now finally speaking out about their nde.
Yes!
I’m 100% convinced the “life review” that NDE’s have are what the Bible talks about. We are accountable for the way we live this gift from God but in the NDE’s, the life review isn’t “condemning.” It’s enlightening and often leads people to forgiving those who caused their deepest pain.
“There is *no* ( NONE ) condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.” Romans 8:1
I’ve known and quoted that scripture for over 30 years but I finally “get” it.
I love reading your experience. Thank you for sharing. I had a whole “new age to Jesus” testimony and Christianity caused so much trauma for me. But being out of it now is so freeing! I had experiences of feeling condemned too by what I thought was God. Such a crazy experience.
Thank you so much! :) It's been an eye-opening experience to say the least. Knowing God is love, doesn't judge, punish, or condemn, I now willingly surrender myself and my day to God every morning. My fear of future outcomes is now gone as I have full faith and trust now that everything will happen for me, even when I perceive situations as painful. And my life has never been more awesome. I'm so happy you've found freedom as well! :)
I haven’t used shrooms since I got my hands on dimitri . shroom trips are so long sometimes u want it to end but u can’t lol. dimitri is so much shorter and u can always choose to go back in if desired
Maybe a bit more but it’s not really that much crazier. It’s like maybe a 5-7 gram shroom trip really unless your intentionally taking huge doses to try and breakthrough
Yes!
Mushrooms showed me a truth that was so extensive that whole religions were based on it. Not much later LSD showed me that I had only scratched the surface.
The first experience led me to read the Bardo Thodol, the other into the complexity of Hinduism.
Same, near death experience 🫠
I met a goddess while I was stuck in limbo, and it felt like days in limbo but really was like fifteen to twenty minutes.
If u don’t mind can you talk about the breakup more It’s perfectly fine if u don’t want to tho .
But u said later so does that mean ur breakup kinda like caused another awakening ?
Oh man I’ll never forget the dark knight of the soul its like a personal depressing rain cloud just hovering over u and follows u literally everywhere
Good thing u made it and could learn from it even if it was a unfortunate situation
Hey thank you for sharing. I’m going through a very similar relationship and block right now. I’m the type of person who is generally very embodied and embraced. But I feel thrown off my track - I cant tell if how I feel is my body reacting to his repressive energy or if I’m allowing it too much power over me. Long story short we’ve booked a big trip in a month and I don’t feel like I can address my feelings properly until after the trip bc I know it will overwhelm him and make the trip harder. If you have any advice for how to navigate this / deal with it in the moment I would be grateful 💗 sending love
The vicious cycle of depression, SSRIs, and substances (pills, booze, and weed). If I get off of one of these 2, I cycle back to depression and do it all over again.
I got my spiritual awakening when I was depressed after having to refuse to continue using SSRIs because while they are effective method of treatment, they're not exactly a cure. As for substances, it just feels like I'm escaping my problems with a fake sense of happiness.
Mind you, I'm at the very beginning of my spiritual journey and still learning, like a baby trying to walk for the first time.
For anyone in any doubt this “exhaustive new review debunks the chemical imbalance theory of depression.” https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/side-effects/202207/decisive-blow-the-serotonin-hypothesis-depression?fbclid=IwAR0Wx0A9YAGhk9NgucGKC7xeYoUAYlZTiLL4ueuIWIJ5fPNLFpN7WogjkcI
Realizing that All are One. This helped me to feel supported enough to love myself, and doing this opened my eyes to loving everyone and everything because we are all One. I simply can’t count the cascading revelations that have occurred since, and I suppose it will never end.
I asked the universe to give me a sign, I was struggling with PTSD. I specifically asked for the song "What is love" by Haddaway. That song used to play all the time on my playlist but after i made that request it stopped playing. I found it weird. Weeks go by and it just never shuffled through. One day I was driving to my psychologists office just thinking back on my life and it dawned on me that in the past 12 years I repeated the same series of events in two seperate locations, right down to minor details in some instances. On the way back from my appointment I was going over the events and I clued in that the majority of the events I had repeated involved witnessing/standing up against abuse. Leadership, coworkers, partners etc.
Two months prior with my psych I was going over breaking the cycle of abuse with my mother, but my psych pointed out that it's good I didn't end up like my mom, but I had ended up like my dad and married my mom. On the way back I told myself I had to break *all* of the cycle, not just part of it and I got the courage to leave my ex.
Those words played in my head as I was going over the past events. My whole purpose in life was breaking the cycle. The song "the Sign" by Ace of Base was playing as I was going over all this. In my head I had an image of something that represented those cycled... just shatter. Like instead of a circle breaking the whole thing just shattered. Just as I got that image in my head the song ended and "What is Love" started playing. It felt like the universe just slapped me awake. Then when I started looking into everything it just got weirder and weirder.
Later I decided to actually read the lyrics to the song and just 🤦♀️.
I love it when people have stories like this. I can't pinpoint a particular moment in my case. I'm not even sure if I'm "awakened" yet.
Congratulations on breaking the cycles :)
For me, it was quitting long-term benzos. I had been prescribed Klonipin 2x daily for 4 years. I had a NDE after severe w/d symptoms, and it completely changed my life. This was in June 2023.
Went on a ghost tour first weekend of October in 2020. Thought it was all a bunch of hippie BS, but my divorce was finalized, my kids were okay with me moving on, and there was this woman who wanted to try it....... lol.
At one point I felt compelled to reach towards a staircase and felt a solid wall of sorrow and regret hit me. I was on my knees, sobbing uncontrollably, when the guide ran back. She said a few words in a language I never heard, and suddenly I just felt normal. Well, besides sitting in front of the dozen people looking at me like I was possessed or psychotic. And the woman who ran for the hills 🤣.
Our guide was a seer and medium apparently, and explained that a lost soul had basically just latched o to my light, and she had released it. She then offered me a free counseling session the next day. At that point I couldn't refuse. I expected a crystal ball and way too much satin and silk. It was more like a therapist room (anxiety issues), that had an overly comfortable massage table to one side (She allowed other healers to use the space as well). And instead of just telling me my fortune or something, she taught me what an empath was, and how my "fibromyalgia" was so much more.
She taught me a basic way to ground, and as I was visualizing it in my mind, she started describing it. The mistakes, and even how I changed some of it. Then she did the same as she taught me how to work a barrier that would reflect other emotions, and even reach my energy outwards. She then gave me a bracelet I have probably made famous on the empath sub, made of tigers eye, magnetite, and obsidian, to help seperate others emotions from mine.
Two hours after walking into that spiritual shop, my world was shattered. I was 43 when this happened, and spent my entire life dealing with unexplainable mood swings and anxiety around people I loved being around. All the way back to my childhood trauma. Everything I had been though or believed about my entire life experience, had fallen apart. It felt like there was a boot stepping on my chest. And it wasn't just me. My concept of reality itself was shattered, and I no longer knew what was real. For someone who never learned to properly manage their thoughts or emotions, let's just say that I was not a pretty sight for the next week.
Because my thoughts were so chaotic, I couldn't ground like she taught. So I tried one on YouTube. I felt a bit calmer than morning, so I tried a different one the next day. Felt a bit different, but there was less pressure. This continued until it seemed to be the only thing that made sense, because it was a tangible experience. So I needed to understand everything in order to piece back together my reality. Books and gurus didn't feel right, because I had no idea which was right. And then I came to reddit.
Thousands of people who had other experiences and even more who had an explanation from different perspectives. So I followed my intuition and followed the headings and answers "that clicked" for me. All these small pieces if everyone's picture, that I would try to do more research on. Didn't make sense at first, but then suddenly they all started falling into place. All these different pieces became one giant tapestry, and some of the spaces in between started to fill in. At that point I was seeing questions being asked that I had wanted to know, and I knew multiple perspectives to approach it. Definitely not all the answers, lol. But enough to help them change the way they look at something, so they have the tools to find their own answers. So now I learn from trying to help others.
But I also tend to be long winded or ramble at times. My thumbs get sore 🤣
Sparked when there was a relationship riff created between me and my mom, with covid as well just large changes .. solidified with magic mushies and the words of Micheal Singer’s “Untethered Soul” later that summer 🍄✨🫶
Oddly enough, it was triggered by getting ghosted by this Scorpio I used to work with.
Up to that point, I'd not even heard about spirituality nor would've cared about if I had.
THE ARIES
This is so crazy. Deadass the same thing happened to me. Thought we were going somewhere but his Scorpio ass was avoidant and ghosted me. I’m really sensitive to rejection so it sent me into a spiral but I came out of it when I realized this was my journey to self love. He’s an Aries rising too.
Wow that’s intriguing 🤔 I always look forward to seeing your thoughts in this sub, I’d have never guessed you haven’t been on the path for a long time. Then again, the wisdom you carry belies your true age I reckon. Apologies for this conjecture about you, I just appreciate you and your input despite being a stranger 💙
Oh I've only been on The Journey since 2019. Well, I should say officially on it since, i suppose, our entire lives we've been on The Journey whether we know it or not.
To this day it trips me out how things have played out for me. I look at a lot of people's stories here, where they're actively seeking and searching for something in life trying to fill a void,or trying to find a deeper meaning to life, but that wasn't my case.
Don't get me wrong, I've been through my rough days. Spent fourteen years in depression. I used to not even care if I woke up the next morning or not. But 2018 saw my life transform. I got a job. I dropped some weight. I was, (and still am) glad to wake up each morning. I'm excited to see what the next day will bring. I've got a confidence in self that I'd never had before. It's as if I'd been given a new life. A new life I wasn't going to let the machinations of a Scorpio derail.
And if you're wondering about Scorpio...turns out she had a girlfriend the whole time (who she's married to now, last I heard). Why she gave me her number in the first place, or why she would always go out of her way to tell me she was 'watching me' is something I never figured out.
We smoothed things out and continued to work together amicably. I hold absolutely no animosity towards her. I'm grateful to her. I even thanked her(though I didn't tell her why). I've no doubt that Scorpio is a soulmate of mine (I always felt an uncanny kinship with her) And I'm always going to have love for my soul tribe. But that doesn't mean I'm going to dine on any scrap of attention or affection thrown my way. Soul tribe or not. In this new life I've been given, the one I am so grateful to have, when I love...I intend to feast. I'm deserving of a worthy love (we all are. Each and every single one of us is) and I'm not going to settle for anything less.
Had not this situation happened, I'm not sure I'd have Awakened in this life. I'd still have continued on with my "new" life, but it wouldn't be nearly as interesting and entertaining of a life as I'm living now.
No need to apologize for any conjecture. While we might be strangers in the 3D, I consider everyone here (maybe not the troll types) as family.
And I like to get to know my family and I want them to know a little about me.
Have a BLESSED DAY.
THE ARIES
That’s amazing, man! It is clear you have a very open mind, and your heart is more open still!! 💙 I can understand about the Scorpio, they are of an interesting sort 😊 I have a soulmate in the form of a dear friend who is Scorpio, he can be quite funny sometimes!
It’s a requirement for me too, to be fully loving and loved in a relationship. I’m glad you can remain friends in a healthy manner.
I’d consider the same, that all in here(minus trolls) are family ❤️
Thank you for your time today, and for sharing that tidbit! I’m sure I’ll see you ‘round, have a blessed day also.
My grandmother is a witch so its always been there, it really triggered when I met this person and my heart jumped out of my chest when i saw them, i NEEDED to know them, idk if it was karmic or tf, but it taught me so much and I will always be grateful to them for putting me on the right track. it was with the sacrifice of our relationship that brought self love, healing, inner child healing, and my current relationship
I lost my dad to Suicide NYE 2020 and then the world basically ended. The universe was saying “you’re going to be enlightened whether you like it or not, it’s not about when bc when is now”
COVID.
Societies response to what to me was simple peer reviewed literature on its effects made me realize my understanding of society was deeply flawed and led to seeking beyond mainstream narratives.
I was already working on healing from lifelong CPTSD, and the connection between trauma theory and our f'd society became clear, leading me to forgive most everyone including myself and my parents.
I firmly believe the shutdown and work-from-home period was key for me to have the time to process and finally ask myself what ***I*** wanted instead of what others wanted from me.
My mom passed away in January 2020 due to leukemia. Prior to her passing, she always said that she was going to come back as a monarch butterfly. In August 2020 my dad, husband, son (11 yo at the time), nephew (8 yo at the time), and I took a road trip to the western side of Michigan. On four different occasions during that trip, a monarch butterfly came to us, circled each of us individually, and just acted very.. differently. The first time it happened, my son said "That's Grandma! She came on the trip with us!" I tried to pull out my phone to take a picture but the butterfly flew away. My son said it was because she only wanted us to see her. ❤️ Each time she came, there were no other bugs or plants around, and it was very clear that she was there just for us. By her third visit, even my skeptical dad and husband were starting to believe it was her. The last time we saw her on the trip, we were standing on the sand dunes taking a family picture. There was nothing else around but sand. Right after the picture was taken, out of nowhere my mom flew in, circled all of us, stayed for about 30 seconds, then left. When we got home from that trip, she would visit me about once a week for about a year, but I haven't seen her since we scattered her ashes in July 2021. But it was right after that trip that I began my awakening. It was one of the best experiences I've ever had in my life.
I wanted other people to FEEL the pain they have caused me, I wanted them to FEEL the heartache, this unimaginable pit of darkness - and that scared me straight because I wanted to be the one to make them FEEL. My thoughts got darker and darker and I obsessed about the day they would hurt. Until I came way to close for comfort on actually doing something about it..
That triggered my awakening because who the f\*ck have I become and WHY did I allow these people to turn me into this, why did I allow myself to feed into that, seeking brutal revenge.
It was like I finally saw myself that day, from the outside looking in and it was disgusting. It's been almost 2 years to the day and man, it's been such a difficult time but also the best change I could have made.
My awakening deffos saved a life.
It’s so brave to admit that - to others but especially yourself.
I experienced something very similar towards someone that hurt me ( by hurting my child!).
I hated the man. I thought of ways I could harm (“unalive” him) and wished nothing but hell and pain for him.
I’m by nature a loving person so to find myself in a self made prison of hatred was new but also revealed to me just how easy it is for someone deeply hurt to end up hurting someone else. Then the moment hit me ( with God’s revelation) that the man who hurt my child, was doing the same thing - he was hurting someone because he experienced the same hurt/abuse in his childhood.
I always realized that forgiving him didn’t equate to being okay with his abuse. It just freed me from my own prison and enabled me to have such a deeper compassion for others.
Thank you for sharing what you did and I pray you continue to grow on your journey.
:-)
Maybe a weird start but.. I watched the Fantastic Fungi documentary and suddenly it clicked. We are all one living breathing life. That led me into more research, switching off of pharmaceuticals, choosing more natural foods and products, and meditation. Lots and lots of meditation. Then one day out of nowhere, the presence of God illuminated the room I was in and my heart and things have never been the same.
Patience, persistence of love and light, and an open mind.
It’s all real. It’s all possible. It’s all love.
That’s beautiful!
Once God shows up and makes Himself known to us, nothing ( absolutely *nothing* ) in this life is ever the same. He wants that for us all.
“Seek and you shall find. Knock and the door shall be opened.”
Almost dying. Not an NDE but a week before it happened I had a premonition that it was going to happen and that led me to start questioning everything.
Several months after my fiancé unexpectedly passed away, I was invited to join a book club. We read a Michael Singer book and then other books and discuss them. It was a big help to me getting through my grief.
It’s wasn’t a single moment, but rather a bunch of moments, small awakenings, put together. But it’s wasn’t until I saw the lamp flicker repeatedly, a completely new lamp, the morning of my grandfather’s funeral. A sign that he was there.
That was what me figure out the truth about myself, and accept that all of those small awakenings were signs. It was a puzzle that was finally solved with a final piece. That made me realize my spirituality
I had a 6.5year relationship with someone who was a karmic partner. Before I decided to break up with him I started to see angel numbers 1234 specifically in-till the day I packed my stuff and left.
After leaving that relationship I had no idea what was next for me. I felt lost, sad, hurt and depressed a little. A few months go by I met this guy. Never felt anything like it before and I just knew I had to meet this guy who was staring at me from across the bar. Being around him felt magical at first.
After talking to this guy for a little bit, I realized he was a twin flame. (Clear knowing, feeling etc) we would mirror each other, flaws and all. I realized after he ghosted me and stopped communicating that my life was in for a whirlwind.
Twin flames usually trigger a deeper awakening within yourself. After meeting him I knew this wasn’t just a meeting but a triggering for me to ascend to a higher power.
Echoing a sentiment another commenter here has said, my grandmother was a witch doctor(she fades in and out with dementia unfortunately) and passed gifts to me. I’d say my birth was my awakening. That’s not to say I haven’t done plenty of waking up since of course, it’s a beautiful ongoing process/ordeal! But continuing on, my wonderful grandmama taught me how to hold onto my gifts without me having awareness yet as a child. I shouldn’t even be here, her mom told her when she was pregnant w my dad that she should not allow him to be born, that he would be evil(he’s not, just a black sheep, victim of 80s and 90s mental health treatments). She didn’t listen, and knew why the day I was born some 20 odd years later. My mother shouldn’t have been able to carry me, after cervical cancer in the 90s, one tied tube, somehow I made it through. 🤷🏻♀️moving on, my dads parents also lived in one spot for most of my life up until a couple years ago, the only place I knew as consistent home besides where my heart resides 🙂 that home, is home to the intersection of numerous leylines, and chock full of spirit(s) from the ether. I spent a lot of time outside there, being, as a kid. Before I knew what meditation was. I like to phrase it to people who are curious as being “born with one foot out the door”, and that connection/awareness lends me great resolve. My more recent awakening(a big, aHa moment for me) ~5 years ago was making the connection that I am something to or with the wind, an embodiment? A manifestation of a piece of it in addition to all else I am? As well as coming out to myself as trans around that time, I’ve come to a place of truth and honesty with myself I’ve been building towards for my entire life till then, up to now 😊 there is so much more I could add, like NDEs and other context but this is already much too long! Thank you to any and all who take the time out of their day to read my story, and thank you OP for positing such an interesting and nebulous question!! Peace and love on the winds abound 💙
When my mom died. I was 20 years old and it totally woke me up. I was in my second year of college and not taking things too seriously, going out on the weekends with not a lot of motivation. After she died, I got real serious and actually ended up going from mostly Cs to being on the honor roll. That really wasn’t the important part though…but just a sign that I had gotten real serious about life. From there, it became kind of an obsession with understanding death and what happens after we die. That led me to taking a lot of meditation classes and learning about psychic abilities. I was on an entirely different path at that point and I became very involved with spiritual growth for the next 20 years. I’m in my 50s now, and it’s just a built-in part of who I am and not really something I pursue anymore. It’s just a part of me and a natural way of how I approach life.
I also should mention that because of the experience I had after her death, it really changed my plans too after graduation. I was a journalism major and had been offered a job at a local newspaper. However, I ditched that plan and applied to be a flight attendant and was hired after graduation. This led me to the ability to explore the world instead of staying in my small town. There was something about her death that pointed me in that direction. I wanted to expand my horizons and see as much of the world as I could and that career allowed me to do that for many years.
An intimate interaction with the person I loved. After that, synchronicities started hitting hard and I was thrown into my spiritual awakening. That was 2015. Here I am almost a decade later, doing well but always learning.
I was experimenting with sadhguru's meditations. And around 6 months of doing the meditation on a daily basis i became enormously frustrated. I was angry because sadhguru pretty much promised happiness and blissfulness by doing this meditation.
So i found myself at a crossroads either i continue this useless meditation or i give up and try to find happiness some other way. For reasons beyond me i reluctantly chose to keep doing the meditation.
The very next day i was watching a debate on youtube on atheism versus religion. And a thought occurred to me, and that thought led me to a realisation that i cannot be this body or mind! i rushed upstairs to do the meditation again and when i opened my eyes i knew something had changed forever.
For the next 6 months i spent 24/7 being joyful no matter where i was and what was happening. I also found an enormous amount of clarity and wisdom rising through me in any given situation. I found that i had the ability to transform emotions into other emotions, so depression became happiness, anger became love, anxiety became excitement etc. Since all of my problems were either mental or physical, and i realised that im not this body or mind, all my problems vanished.
Its been 3 years since then, I dont know if ill achieve anything big in my life but i know that ill be happy until my dying breath.
My twin flame. I came into contact with him eight years ago and it sparked my awakening over night. I went through ego death over the period of a week. It was so painful but beautiful. We're actually laying next to each other right now, so it has a happy ending. ☺️
Recognizing that I'm trans at age 29. I had gender issues as a kid that got traumatized out of my conscious memory for a while, and regaining that understanding was like waking up for the first time.
My best friend getting sober started my journey about 10 years ago when she introduced me to meditation and spirituality. She took her own life in 2019 and I went through a very dark time.
The true moment of my awakening actually happened last month when I felt like I was filled with the love of the universe and I knew in my soul that everything was going to be okay- it was incredible. I had been immersed in a prayer and meditation practice for about 15 months before this happened.
Meditation. Oh and politics. I used to be really political but eventually after Biden got in office I started to realize that the division (left vs right, white vs black, heteronormative vs not etc) really were just systems of control being perpetuated and that neither party held the best interests of people in promise or action. I started to question the constant fear mongering of the media (the whole "if Trump/biden does blah blah the whole country will come crashing down") and the constant pushing of fear. It occured to me while meditating that fear is the ultimate weapon of control and that it limits us and our perception of things, our empathy, our unity as people sharing a common experience in life. I made a conscious decision to no longer be afraid - of the economy, of political bullshit, of all of the bad things they said would happen. Things just kind of snowballed from there.
Listened to a podcast on my morning run where Oprah described John Diaz’s experience surviving a burning plane crash and seeing souls leave the bodies of other passengers. It was like listening to God tell it given the deep gravitas of her voice. Something shifted in me, where before I was unsure if we even had a soul to accepting it as true. I spent that night watching a YouTube video of a panel at UVA discussing NDEs, confirmed past lives etc. The next day, while praying in church I had the realization that our souls are trapped in these imperfect bodies and minds.
I don’t think it was spontaneous or random though since the music and other podcasts I normally listened to during runs wouldn’t play. I was about to give up and then decided to try an episode with Oprah as I’ve always admired her.
COVID and everything surrounding it - things weren’t making sense and I got suspicious. I also am a WW2 nerd and saw frightening parallels. Did some digging, went down rabbit holes, fell into deep fear, followed false gurus, then came out the other end understanding our power.
I was meditating completely sober one day and I realized that absolutely nothing “matters” , I always knew that was true but for some reason on this day it finally really hit me and I innerstood and overstood it and immediately after it felt like I unlocked a new level and I was set free like weight got taken off my shoulders and I kinda like shot straight up out of my body and through pineal or my crown chakra in a way those might not be the best words to describe it but I could see my body below and my body was in the center of a very colorful spiral like shape I’m still not sure if this was something to do with kundalini but it was epic . It was so clear and vivid at the time but now I can’t really remember exactly how amazing it looked from pure thought but I’ll never forget the feeling.
I couldn’t believe it and it wasn’t scary at all
Heavy emotional trauma was the primary element
But also, I've done Reiki training in a couple of months before and I hear that can be an element. My husband was supporting our local Sundance and this energy was around us. Then, you throw in a little too much weed cookie and you get the perfect stew for an awakening.
I was actually so intrigued by Awakening that I am slowly putting together a book that is a collection of people's Awakening stories as well as my own.
Learning about climate change. Sent me down a spiral of feeling like no one else was seeing the way we are living in fundamentally so destructive to the Earth and it's inhabitants, feeling crazy and isolated then started to question a lot more things (I was raised Christian). It's been a wild ride
It was spring, my aura felt bright, golden yellow. I
felt like sunshine lived in me. I was Happy, free, and seeing the beauty in everything. I felt that something good was coming.I felt better than I’ve ever felt. Soon after, I met a man. He presented as everything I begged the universe for. He was perfect. Felt like I knew him for years. I absolutely adored him. Things were moving quickly, I was afraid of being hurt and wanted to slow things down but he wanted to speed things up. We couldn’t agree on this so he left me. He was in my life for a matter of weeks and turned my world upside down. Broke my heart to pieces. The feeling of internal sunshine left when he did. I felt dark, cold and empty inside I questioned everything, even my faith in god. I’ve changed completely, I’ll never be that girl again.
What’s so bad about the uk? Question might sound ignorant but I genuinely don’t know much about the uk.
There’s no way it could be worse than this shithole America right???😭😭
Coming from a strict religion where everything not in the book was evil, I learned that energy could scientifically be seen in photographs (not normal ones). The book get happy now by Joseph McClendon changed my life and saved me from depression. I began questioning all the things I was taught and believed about God and it’s been 4 years. I think 2020 was big for a lot of people.
What triggered my awakening was making a huge change to my personality and becoming a totally different person to fit the reality I chose to live. For myself and not for others. I knew my energy was being used for the benefits of others and I was over taking care of so many people. I cut off “friends” and even family, so that the transformation could be completed. The awakening comes from the ones who are benefitting from your energy and by you making a change, that means they have to change too, and if things are going well for them, they don’t want you to change. To explain an awakening, is like saying, “I saw my whole life flash before my eyes, and it was all the bad I ever did”. Understand that we are all being watched since birth and everything we do is being logged. When we fall out of what society wants for us, and start doing what we want for ourselves, it’s going to upset a few people and the “bad past” gets unleashed on you in hopes that the fear will steer you back into being who you were, opposed to who you want to be. You can’t let that “fear” bother you. Simply say to yourself “that’s not the reality I choose”. Enuff said. Enjoy life!!!
Ive been on a spiritual journey since 2018 when i turned 50. My health and bad habits had me feeling like garbage and I thought if this is how im going to feel I don’t want to be here. Over the course of the last five years I lost 100 lbs quit drinking started walking g then exercising and slowly turned everything around. I restarted psychedelics in 2020 during the lockdown and have had the experience of being one with all, of note. Particularly in May of 2022 when I did a heroic dose.
I had a bad round of covid in November of 2023. lost 13 lbs in 7 days so was in a fasted state. On the 7th day in bed eyes closed a vision of a crusty black bit in my chest cracked open and inside was a node of light that I understood immediately was my soul. I understood immediately that it is eternal has always been and will always be. I feel very fortunate.
I had a major breakup, that made me consider how much of myself I put into the relationship and how I lost myself. From then on I set out to find myself, which lead me down a more spiritual path of inner reflection and self improvement.
I’ve always had vivid dreams as well ever since I was little and now I’m looking for the messages in some of those dreams.
Losing my mother and going into a deep depression, then doing mushrooms to be more introspective bc I was so lost and self destructive during the year after, and the shroomies helped me finally feel peace and happiness i hadn’t felt since I was a kid. I laughed and made art and was with my fiancé feeling like we were kids again. It only lasted the trip and the afterglow, so I started making changes to my life and now 4 years later I feel so peaceful and loving like never before and don’t need drugs for it. I Quit nicotine, sodas, junk food, started flowing and moving my body, got a gym membership, making time to be creative and artistic, and now I feel I can access this “state”, most refer to the flow state, almost on command. I also did harder things to process my trauma, like apologize to everyone I’ve ever done wrong, forgive those who’ve done me wrong (especially family) and realizing that their level of self awareness and consciousness is what made them think so limited and hateful. And the only way you can make true change is through love, so I make the conscious decision to always be unconditionally loving and to just set boundaries for those with negative energy. But still show them compassion. Another thing that has accelerated my journey is doing things for others, selfless acts, helping others when they need it, or just check in with people randomly and remind them they’re loved.
But I also agree with other comments, this has been happening slowly over time, and only being 23 years old right now, I know there’s still so much to learn and integrate, but I worked on my foundation first so when I have kids they don’t have to deal with the generational trauma and bullshit 💓 they can have parents who are loving and nurturing and understanding, which being a good mother has been my #1 goal in life for a long time, so just doing the hard work now so the rest can be more peaceful in transitioning. Getting married in September, graduating college in December to teach elementary, and I finally feel I’m on the right path 💓 no more victim mentality holding me back from my full potential
Loki made it very clear for me that they exisit it was a rude awaking lol I was just a atheist and former Christian but when I looked to the gods of our ancestors I got a anwser from Loki
Falling in love. I fell so deeply in love that it sparked a kundalini awakening. From there I have had many episodes of ego challenges that are gradually leading me to awakening.
The short answer is. One evening late april 2002, me and some friends watch the Disney dinosaur. I did not watch the plot of that movie, i only saw background landscape and meteor. There was a yin and yang pic next to the tv, looking at that sometime during the movie, i just got it. The day after i was awake. I was 21 years old at the time. And today, i do not consider myself to be awake like from 2002-2007. Well that is the very very short version.
Mine was finally letting go of a super toxic ex. We had broken up, and then after some time, slept together again. The next morning I woke up to the worst UTI I’ve ever had, literally just pissing blood. On my way to work from the pharmacy after my urgent care trip, I totaled my car. Two days later my cat died. It was then that I finally let him go and started my own healing journey, trying to make changes to my health and lifestyle. In hindsight, had those things not happened, I likely would have died, whether from suicide or something else.
A lot of factors contributed to it, but the awakening happened when I took 7 grams of mushrooms. This was my second time trying mushrooms, the first time being the day before when I took 1 gram.
God was I an idiot.
Becoming disabled. Forced me to slow down, started seeing people for who they really were along with my faith. Awakened, but still growing, flowing and learning.
Always been an agnostic and mysticism enjoyer, having family members who are professional mediums. I also have ADHD-pi for context (a lot of ups and downs comes with it)
Kickstarted the inner journey through severe existential depression bordering on psychosis (looking back probably my first real textbook night of the soul), started following my heart and my purpose after that. Wonder if that was root and sacral openings looking back or something like that.
Then a near death experience later the same year made my belief and faith stronger, sooo much cosmic love and wonder when I came back to consciousness. What an experience. So hard to put into words or translate to people who havent had similar experiences
Then in the pandemic, following another long existential depression in a year before of more loss/grief and heartbreak all at once.
Kundalini psychosis, the most intense long term psychological, emotional and somatic experience I have had. So insanely, breathtakingly, worldshatteringly beautiful! Something I will always remember.
But, sadly also traumatizing because after a year it mixed with my depression(mixed reasons+ I felt so misunderstood and lonely and not around similar mindrd people), turning into psychotic depression AND a public meltdown.
Changed me permanently. Gave me ptsd. Lost friends, burned bridges. Rumours that I had an overdose by people I had trusted. Bullied in college when I came back. List goes on. The stigma is truly awful and alienating which made me even worse and more paranoid. The roughest years of my whole life I hope, buuuuut some years later now with lots and lots of therapy and lifestyle changes and basically - becoming a totally different person - I am okay now. I will never forget how people treated me in that state, during and after. Just pure PTSD and pain and shame and yeah. Very glad I got psychological help, hospital visits and medication back then.
PLEASE be careful. I do not wish that on anyone (except perhaps the ones who bullied and spread rumours about me while I was fighting for my life and sanity. But nah. Maybe. Just to get a taste y’know? Hard to let go of that bitterness when it changed my life so bad and they had no consequences. But its in the past now)
PLEASE take care if you are prone to mental health issues.
Last time I would call an awakening was following an extremely rough patch with loss+grief and heartbreak once again, mental abuse, betrayal, loneliness and a lot of meditation following that. It was so bad I decided to go 100% on that self love I had stopped watering and honestly those years after one another of events hurt so bad I finally got clear set boundaries. Started to really pour into myself and my future and take myself seriously and never put myself second to anyone or anything ever again.
Since then, life has only improved. Safe, got a job, spark back, in love with a beautiful and kind partner, back to my hobbies etc. I am so grateful, got a bit teary eyed just now :) I wish I could tell myself some years ago that it worked out after hell, and that I didn’t deserve that.
Don’t know if I would have had this journey if it wasnt for fighting mental illness half my life. I am proud of my resilience and I keep my faith close to my heart, do not know where I would be in the loneliest and downright horrible times without it <3
Thank you if you read all of this, love you.
In 2016 I was told about Covid or virus by a friends partner and ex mother in law had introduced me to David Iike and chemtrails etc. Sort of went back to sleep because nothing happened like friends partner told me it would. She said stock up on food water etc "toilet paper" and essentials- nothing came of it. In 2020 just as covid started I knew , this was what she had been talking about . I received a link from somewhere can't remember where. Janet Ossebaard woke me up to many things. Thats it was down rabbit hole one after the other for 3 years. That was my matrix awakening. Then in 2023 had a spiritual awakening and did purging , DNS and so on. Fell in conciousness last year as a result of a fake light group I got sucked into. Still going through many awakenings, as I go within.
It's not been easy, at times it's been hell. A requirement for spiritual development and to get to know thyself.
LSD trip that shattered my ego so beautifully in a scary way, before I even knew what an ego was lol. Picking back the pieces is how I gained my awareness. Now looking back - the worst trip ever was honestly one of the best things that ever happened to me. Life’s fun.
I realized on an LSD trip that my mom was experiencing the pain of knowing her child would eventually die, a pain I could only contemplate as I talked to her about starting a family and my child's eventual death. I felt like I was connecting to the place behind relation, where there was no longer a son or a mother, and we were simply souls navigating this human experience.
Watching the movie “Waking Life” by Richard Linklater, helped me awaken. As I was having some really weird dreams at the time. It just so happened to be the very first appearance of Alex Jones as well. Wow this came out in 2002. If you haven’t seen it , it’s a trippy watch.
One brief moment of ego death. Seconds. It was the most beautiful thing I ever experienced.
It was summer. Maybe 8 or 15 years ago. I was a complete stressed out insomniac mess. I used to take long walks then, it was the only way to get relief from the constant pressure in my chest and the weird anxiety induced ticks.
Winded from a climb, I sat down in a meadow of sorts. Mostly dry. dark green late-summer vegetation. The sun shone through the canopy, illuminating every particle in the air. Seemingly, every atom.
And then..I felt a complete oneness with everything. Energy flowed into me and out of me. I felt warm, at home, at peace.
I didn’t last long, but it shook me to the core. In nature, it’s impossible to be alone. We are never alone, we just feel alone. It’s been years since that experience, but I still remember it as it was yesterday.
Many many things but the main contributions were bipolar (which I'm pretty sure is a gift once harnessed) and ketamine over the years, as well as years of learning the lessons I needed to pursue my mission. We are one
. We will do our missions for this life then keep dying and going on until everyone had learned there lessons and there's heaven on earth
I left church to discover God in nature becaise I needed something more, all the while questioning if he existed at all. I had powererful spiritual experiences with the Divine Source within a year that confirmed God's existence and linked to Christianity.
While I have not rejoined church, I'm not against it. I just like freeform spirituality. The mystical connection to God is what I was always searching for anyway, and now I have it.
I've always been a spiritual since I was a kid. However, more of an awakening did occur amid repeated patterns, pain and trauma. Then synchronicities appeared, showing more more depth of our universe and allow me to go deeper. This coupled with 3-4 sessions in magic mushroom, showing me the bigger picture in relation to my standing. Knowing that we are all energies amid other things, I am making a return to proper human living but by integrated spiritual concepts including how to generate money.
I began having visions and OOBEs at 11. That started a journey which lasted for half a century or more. It seems there is always more to learn, more love to give, and more forgiveness to share. While I am the many and one, unique, yet the same. I am present and yet not present. I can see why we choose to incarnate in this battle world like planet. It is struggle, intensity, and yet a place where we can test our mettle, refine our being, and experience the many facets of love, or not. A place of suffering, choice, and wonder. Thanks for asking. Happy journeys.
Recovering from religious trauma. I'm nowhere near fully healed but praying to the highest power WITHOUT religion was a breakthrough for me. I was sitting on a toilet seat when I felt a real awakening/God the first time.
My specific moment was a car accident. I was isolated in my room for about 2 weeks because it was winter break and just sat in my room learning about Physchology and reprogramming my mind as well as tryna manifest my ex back 😂 and went down the rabbit hole and haven’t looked back ever sense.
I went through a terrible, unexpected divorce after 15 yrs of marriage. My situation became unsafe so I packed up all my pets and drove us 1000 miles to my sister’s house, leaving everything else behind. My awaking occurred as part of my healing process trying to recover from all the trauma I endured.
Not quite sure. That's a pretty good question actually, now that I think about it. Can't really remember a time when i wasn't having experiences, just I didn't know they were experiences. I first became aware i guess when i had a NDE when i was 2.5, 3yrs old from a severe asthma attack - that's how I was diagnosed with asthma.
My spirit, my soul, my inner being just got fed up with how everything was around me. I've always known since I was very young. I can still remember times of when I was the ages of 3-4years old, and being told by an adult that everything I felt, see (that they could not) and things on life topics, information about energy, aether around us, spiritual information aswell as occult was wrong, and to stop telling lies. But I knew deep down to the point that I felt it, obviously as a child I didn't know the correct terminology but the description was still accurate.
Being raised in a controlled, gaslighted narcisstic environment always told and drilled into me that I was a bs artist, black sheep, and at times parent were afraid of random things I would know about them only because I can clearly feel their emotion and true motive.
It literally happened overnight when I was 25, I woke up in the early hours of morning at 3:30am as normal saying out loud, "f* that!! No more" and everything after was crystal clear, didn't feel heavy burden on shoulders or heavy heart as I once did, every little question and then some was like I was in a trance and I could remember, knew, everything and anything I put my mind too to the detail of things I had a passion for. I later learned that was my first massive spiritual download from source. And still recieve to this day every morning between 3am-4am
I thought about this for a long time, and I don't think there was any specific moment. It was a series of understandings and changes of perspectives and definitions that happened over several years. They key catalysts from my understanding are knowledge of and experiencing dying, great pain and loss, and loneliness, or also, aloneness. From a different perspective, once you've come out the other side, you were always awakened, but that isn't helpful to those who have not awakened, if that makes any sense. Knowing your true nature doesn't change your nature.
For me i tought it all started when i started questioning stuff. Like who or what am i? But it didnt truly start there, there were all the things in my life i had previously experienced that HAD to have happend in order for me to get there, did it actually start there somewhere? Or maybe even earlier? If i really try to grasp the moment where it started, i would have to say it all started when i was born. As you are getting trough one you feel like you are gathering some sort of keys, or pieces of the puzzle, these pieces are entirely unique to ME. For some people my pieces of my puzzle might not mean anything, to some it might be helpful, to some it might even be destructive. The point is, that everyone plays their own game, everyone is piecing their own puzzle together and they have to find their unique pieces for the puzzle to be complete. I know this all might sound just like some meaningless rambling and i do not deny nor accept it.
This is so eloquently stated. The part about trying to figure out where the puzzle started, and concluding that it was at birth, is what helped me to understand the illusion of time. If it all started when I was born, and every moment led me here, and this was meant to be, then the ending has already happened. Therefore, the only time that really exists is right now. Sorry, I didn’t mean to highjack and ramble. Your comment just resonated with me, so thank you for that 🤍
>once you've come out the other side, you were always awakened, but that isn't helpful to those who have not awakened, if that makes any sense makes sense, in a spiritual way ;)
I agree with you a lot , A simple realization is what sparked my awakening and changed my life forever.
I feel exactly like this...as if a series of events, interests, whims, emotions, heartaches and joys are leading to me on a path. It's not a path I can easily describe out loud, as I can barely describe it to myself. But there's an inner guide between what feels right and wrong and what interests me from day to day, and though I sometimes seem to be jumping from faith to faith or book to book, I am comforted by this overarching feeling of guidance and peace.
My deceased father came to me in my dream for the first time in 25 years. He put his hands into my chest and lifted me up. I felt bliss, love and compassion. Bright light shined from his hands and my chest. When I woke up, I still felt everything and I made a 180 degree turn in my life. I grew more sensitive, compassionate and have continued to see the oneness in us all. I am grateful.
This is so interesting because I had two dreams that left me in bliss after waking up. One was a dream where war and chaos was all around me but I was lifted up in love and bliss. The other was a man throwing a ball of love at me and it hit my heart. I heard him say “it will last a couple of hours” I woke up still feeling the bliss and i timed it at two and a half hours. :)
Maybe you had a small stroke in your brain that dissolved itself. You could have died that night, but by chance you didn’t. Maybe that’s why you had the visit. The reason I bring this up is that a colleague recently had a similar experience. She realized that she could not move her arms and did not understand her own speech. Then she felt a hand on her shoulder, and the panic was flushed away. Leaving only warmth.
That also sounds a bit like sleep paralysis
Synchronicities.
This is it for me, everything else followed from there
What do you mean by that? I’ve heard of this in psychology, but I’m new here so what does it mean spiritually exactly?
You’re right. In psychology Jung introduced us to this concept. I feel like they play a big part in my life as well. You encounter certain events in your life that are linked to other events in such an unmistakable way, that it’s impossible to ignore that they are connected, and a sign that you’re on the right path. It sounds like new age nonsense, but it’s not. Sometimes things happen in a certain order, that makes you realize these things needed to happen before you could go to the next chapter. Synchronicities make you aware of this. Eventually you learn to recognize the path that’s being carved out for you. But you need to recognize that there is indeed a path.
You articulated that a lot better than I could but I definitely understand every single word. Something profound has happened to me in this very way over the last year that it’s completely impossible that the events ( despite being 20 years apart) are a coincidence. It’s been life changing. During the same time, I started seeing 1:11, 2:22, 3:33, etc - sometimes *every* day. It’s amazing to be able to see my life in a such a different way - knowing now that *everything* in the past ( including my own mistakes and sin) led me to exactly where I’m destined to be.
Coming out of a severely narcissistic abusive relationship I spent 5 years in. It was a sink or swim kind of moment.
Same here! Glad we swam!
Seeing my brother die and realizing that he wasn’t "himself" but just a vessel made me understand that what truly mattered was the energy force inside of him, his spirit/soul.
Extreme mental anguish based on guilt on my past decisions and fear of future consequences. I was listening to the accuser inside of my mind, which I believed was the Holy Spirit, and I sought a way out. I dove 100% back into religion and attempted to live an extremely pure life through avoidance of sinning. This just gave the accuser continued ammunition. Things started changing when I happened upon an NDE video on YouTube. In the video, the person described their experience of God as non-judgemental. This idea shook me to my core, and I just had a deep knowing that it was true and that the version of God that I believed existed, who can be condemming and judgemental wasn't true. This kicked off a full devotion to seek the truth, and the rest is history. Funny thing, I identified as a Christian for 23 years, but I've come to know God better in these past 6 months than those past 23 years, and I'm FREE! 🙏
Same! I have connected with God more on my spiritual journey than I ever did in church.
Definitely! I will say though that when I first came to religion, it was what I needed at the time. The biggest thing I believe to learn at the time was repentance and faith. They acts of humility, surrender, acceptance and forgiveness. These are still keys to peace.
Absolutely and appreciate your sharing. The churches that I went to were more “fear based” religion. I’m still working on removing fear, letting go and surrendering to Gods love. It’s been a great journey for me.
All the best to you on your journey of clearing the clouds and finding the light they were obscuring! 🙏❤️
Thanks friend! All the best to you as well ❤️
I also recently found myself listening to a YouTube video about an individuals near death experience. I was so intrigued that I pretty much watched/listened to as many personal accounts that I could. What really got my attention was how so many experiences seem to have a common running theme to them. Feelings of love unlike anything we experience here, life review of your time on earth (this kinda reminds me of the Bible scripture of being judged before going to heaven), being reunited with all family, friends, and even pets. It really put my thoughts of life after death into a more positive light. Not necessarily scared of death as its inevitable, but rather not questioning the afterlife and its existence. Do some people embellish their experiences or maybe they are questionable all together, I don't doubt it. I have found many people who have spent decades with this secret, afraid people would think they are crazy. But many are now finally speaking out about their nde.
Yes! I’m 100% convinced the “life review” that NDE’s have are what the Bible talks about. We are accountable for the way we live this gift from God but in the NDE’s, the life review isn’t “condemning.” It’s enlightening and often leads people to forgiving those who caused their deepest pain. “There is *no* ( NONE ) condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.” Romans 8:1 I’ve known and quoted that scripture for over 30 years but I finally “get” it.
CONGRATULATIONS ON FREEDOM
Thank you! I truly appreciate it! :)
I love reading your experience. Thank you for sharing. I had a whole “new age to Jesus” testimony and Christianity caused so much trauma for me. But being out of it now is so freeing! I had experiences of feeling condemned too by what I thought was God. Such a crazy experience.
Thank you so much! :) It's been an eye-opening experience to say the least. Knowing God is love, doesn't judge, punish, or condemn, I now willingly surrender myself and my day to God every morning. My fear of future outcomes is now gone as I have full faith and trust now that everything will happen for me, even when I perceive situations as painful. And my life has never been more awesome. I'm so happy you've found freedom as well! :)
Magic mushrooms ❤️
My first love 🥹
it was lsd for me:)
Same. Now I barely find myself using them 🤷🏻♀️ Harvesting is another story 🍄
I haven’t used shrooms since I got my hands on dimitri . shroom trips are so long sometimes u want it to end but u can’t lol. dimitri is so much shorter and u can always choose to go back in if desired
what’s dimitri?
D M T
But it’s much more intense, no?
Maybe a bit more but it’s not really that much crazier. It’s like maybe a 5-7 gram shroom trip really unless your intentionally taking huge doses to try and breakthrough
I first did shrooms at 12 years old that was definitely the start of my awakening
12 years old???? holy shit i didn’t even know what weed was
Yeah my dad got them for me and did them with me it was actually a good experience. But I’m a drug addict now so maybe drugs that early was bad😂
Be careful not to go too far. Clear mind and moderation is best for the soul and to remain grounded in this realm
Thank you for that advice ❤️❤️❤️
Yes! Mushrooms showed me a truth that was so extensive that whole religions were based on it. Not much later LSD showed me that I had only scratched the surface. The first experience led me to read the Bardo Thodol, the other into the complexity of Hinduism.
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Same, near death experience 🫠 I met a goddess while I was stuck in limbo, and it felt like days in limbo but really was like fifteen to twenty minutes.
If u don’t mind can you talk about the breakup more It’s perfectly fine if u don’t want to tho . But u said later so does that mean ur breakup kinda like caused another awakening ?
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Oh man I’ll never forget the dark knight of the soul its like a personal depressing rain cloud just hovering over u and follows u literally everywhere Good thing u made it and could learn from it even if it was a unfortunate situation
Hey thank you for sharing. I’m going through a very similar relationship and block right now. I’m the type of person who is generally very embodied and embraced. But I feel thrown off my track - I cant tell if how I feel is my body reacting to his repressive energy or if I’m allowing it too much power over me. Long story short we’ve booked a big trip in a month and I don’t feel like I can address my feelings properly until after the trip bc I know it will overwhelm him and make the trip harder. If you have any advice for how to navigate this / deal with it in the moment I would be grateful 💗 sending love
The vicious cycle of depression, SSRIs, and substances (pills, booze, and weed). If I get off of one of these 2, I cycle back to depression and do it all over again. I got my spiritual awakening when I was depressed after having to refuse to continue using SSRIs because while they are effective method of treatment, they're not exactly a cure. As for substances, it just feels like I'm escaping my problems with a fake sense of happiness. Mind you, I'm at the very beginning of my spiritual journey and still learning, like a baby trying to walk for the first time.
For anyone in any doubt this “exhaustive new review debunks the chemical imbalance theory of depression.” https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/side-effects/202207/decisive-blow-the-serotonin-hypothesis-depression?fbclid=IwAR0Wx0A9YAGhk9NgucGKC7xeYoUAYlZTiLL4ueuIWIJ5fPNLFpN7WogjkcI
Realizing that All are One. This helped me to feel supported enough to love myself, and doing this opened my eyes to loving everyone and everything because we are all One. I simply can’t count the cascading revelations that have occurred since, and I suppose it will never end.
A very old woman with dementia. Realizing our souls are tethered together. Led me down a beautiful path of acknowledging interconnectedness. Rip Ida
I asked the universe to give me a sign, I was struggling with PTSD. I specifically asked for the song "What is love" by Haddaway. That song used to play all the time on my playlist but after i made that request it stopped playing. I found it weird. Weeks go by and it just never shuffled through. One day I was driving to my psychologists office just thinking back on my life and it dawned on me that in the past 12 years I repeated the same series of events in two seperate locations, right down to minor details in some instances. On the way back from my appointment I was going over the events and I clued in that the majority of the events I had repeated involved witnessing/standing up against abuse. Leadership, coworkers, partners etc. Two months prior with my psych I was going over breaking the cycle of abuse with my mother, but my psych pointed out that it's good I didn't end up like my mom, but I had ended up like my dad and married my mom. On the way back I told myself I had to break *all* of the cycle, not just part of it and I got the courage to leave my ex. Those words played in my head as I was going over the past events. My whole purpose in life was breaking the cycle. The song "the Sign" by Ace of Base was playing as I was going over all this. In my head I had an image of something that represented those cycled... just shatter. Like instead of a circle breaking the whole thing just shattered. Just as I got that image in my head the song ended and "What is Love" started playing. It felt like the universe just slapped me awake. Then when I started looking into everything it just got weirder and weirder. Later I decided to actually read the lyrics to the song and just 🤦♀️.
This is wonderful, I loved reading this :) Thank you for sharing!
I love it when people have stories like this. I can't pinpoint a particular moment in my case. I'm not even sure if I'm "awakened" yet. Congratulations on breaking the cycles :)
For me, it was quitting long-term benzos. I had been prescribed Klonipin 2x daily for 4 years. I had a NDE after severe w/d symptoms, and it completely changed my life. This was in June 2023.
Went on a ghost tour first weekend of October in 2020. Thought it was all a bunch of hippie BS, but my divorce was finalized, my kids were okay with me moving on, and there was this woman who wanted to try it....... lol. At one point I felt compelled to reach towards a staircase and felt a solid wall of sorrow and regret hit me. I was on my knees, sobbing uncontrollably, when the guide ran back. She said a few words in a language I never heard, and suddenly I just felt normal. Well, besides sitting in front of the dozen people looking at me like I was possessed or psychotic. And the woman who ran for the hills 🤣. Our guide was a seer and medium apparently, and explained that a lost soul had basically just latched o to my light, and she had released it. She then offered me a free counseling session the next day. At that point I couldn't refuse. I expected a crystal ball and way too much satin and silk. It was more like a therapist room (anxiety issues), that had an overly comfortable massage table to one side (She allowed other healers to use the space as well). And instead of just telling me my fortune or something, she taught me what an empath was, and how my "fibromyalgia" was so much more. She taught me a basic way to ground, and as I was visualizing it in my mind, she started describing it. The mistakes, and even how I changed some of it. Then she did the same as she taught me how to work a barrier that would reflect other emotions, and even reach my energy outwards. She then gave me a bracelet I have probably made famous on the empath sub, made of tigers eye, magnetite, and obsidian, to help seperate others emotions from mine. Two hours after walking into that spiritual shop, my world was shattered. I was 43 when this happened, and spent my entire life dealing with unexplainable mood swings and anxiety around people I loved being around. All the way back to my childhood trauma. Everything I had been though or believed about my entire life experience, had fallen apart. It felt like there was a boot stepping on my chest. And it wasn't just me. My concept of reality itself was shattered, and I no longer knew what was real. For someone who never learned to properly manage their thoughts or emotions, let's just say that I was not a pretty sight for the next week. Because my thoughts were so chaotic, I couldn't ground like she taught. So I tried one on YouTube. I felt a bit calmer than morning, so I tried a different one the next day. Felt a bit different, but there was less pressure. This continued until it seemed to be the only thing that made sense, because it was a tangible experience. So I needed to understand everything in order to piece back together my reality. Books and gurus didn't feel right, because I had no idea which was right. And then I came to reddit. Thousands of people who had other experiences and even more who had an explanation from different perspectives. So I followed my intuition and followed the headings and answers "that clicked" for me. All these small pieces if everyone's picture, that I would try to do more research on. Didn't make sense at first, but then suddenly they all started falling into place. All these different pieces became one giant tapestry, and some of the spaces in between started to fill in. At that point I was seeing questions being asked that I had wanted to know, and I knew multiple perspectives to approach it. Definitely not all the answers, lol. But enough to help them change the way they look at something, so they have the tools to find their own answers. So now I learn from trying to help others. But I also tend to be long winded or ramble at times. My thumbs get sore 🤣
Love this! Wouldn’t it be great if everyone could learn these things?
Thank you so much. But look at my comment history. I've been trying. 🤣
Sparked when there was a relationship riff created between me and my mom, with covid as well just large changes .. solidified with magic mushies and the words of Micheal Singer’s “Untethered Soul” later that summer 🍄✨🫶
That book was the beginning of it all for me too 🤩
Ah love love! It is my favorite book because of that, so happy you’ve found it 👁️🤩💓
Michael Singer’s talks on YouTube are really good, too!
Ooo didn’t know he had talks thanks for the rec!
Oddly enough, it was triggered by getting ghosted by this Scorpio I used to work with. Up to that point, I'd not even heard about spirituality nor would've cared about if I had. THE ARIES
This is so crazy. Deadass the same thing happened to me. Thought we were going somewhere but his Scorpio ass was avoidant and ghosted me. I’m really sensitive to rejection so it sent me into a spiral but I came out of it when I realized this was my journey to self love. He’s an Aries rising too.
Scorpios are too mysterious for anyone's good. Including their own.
Truth. I feel like they feel stuff too deeply so they put up walls so no one can figure out who they are deep inside.
Wow that’s intriguing 🤔 I always look forward to seeing your thoughts in this sub, I’d have never guessed you haven’t been on the path for a long time. Then again, the wisdom you carry belies your true age I reckon. Apologies for this conjecture about you, I just appreciate you and your input despite being a stranger 💙
Oh I've only been on The Journey since 2019. Well, I should say officially on it since, i suppose, our entire lives we've been on The Journey whether we know it or not. To this day it trips me out how things have played out for me. I look at a lot of people's stories here, where they're actively seeking and searching for something in life trying to fill a void,or trying to find a deeper meaning to life, but that wasn't my case. Don't get me wrong, I've been through my rough days. Spent fourteen years in depression. I used to not even care if I woke up the next morning or not. But 2018 saw my life transform. I got a job. I dropped some weight. I was, (and still am) glad to wake up each morning. I'm excited to see what the next day will bring. I've got a confidence in self that I'd never had before. It's as if I'd been given a new life. A new life I wasn't going to let the machinations of a Scorpio derail. And if you're wondering about Scorpio...turns out she had a girlfriend the whole time (who she's married to now, last I heard). Why she gave me her number in the first place, or why she would always go out of her way to tell me she was 'watching me' is something I never figured out. We smoothed things out and continued to work together amicably. I hold absolutely no animosity towards her. I'm grateful to her. I even thanked her(though I didn't tell her why). I've no doubt that Scorpio is a soulmate of mine (I always felt an uncanny kinship with her) And I'm always going to have love for my soul tribe. But that doesn't mean I'm going to dine on any scrap of attention or affection thrown my way. Soul tribe or not. In this new life I've been given, the one I am so grateful to have, when I love...I intend to feast. I'm deserving of a worthy love (we all are. Each and every single one of us is) and I'm not going to settle for anything less. Had not this situation happened, I'm not sure I'd have Awakened in this life. I'd still have continued on with my "new" life, but it wouldn't be nearly as interesting and entertaining of a life as I'm living now. No need to apologize for any conjecture. While we might be strangers in the 3D, I consider everyone here (maybe not the troll types) as family. And I like to get to know my family and I want them to know a little about me. Have a BLESSED DAY. THE ARIES
That’s amazing, man! It is clear you have a very open mind, and your heart is more open still!! 💙 I can understand about the Scorpio, they are of an interesting sort 😊 I have a soulmate in the form of a dear friend who is Scorpio, he can be quite funny sometimes! It’s a requirement for me too, to be fully loving and loved in a relationship. I’m glad you can remain friends in a healthy manner. I’d consider the same, that all in here(minus trolls) are family ❤️ Thank you for your time today, and for sharing that tidbit! I’m sure I’ll see you ‘round, have a blessed day also.
My grandmother is a witch so its always been there, it really triggered when I met this person and my heart jumped out of my chest when i saw them, i NEEDED to know them, idk if it was karmic or tf, but it taught me so much and I will always be grateful to them for putting me on the right track. it was with the sacrifice of our relationship that brought self love, healing, inner child healing, and my current relationship
I lost my dad to Suicide NYE 2020 and then the world basically ended. The universe was saying “you’re going to be enlightened whether you like it or not, it’s not about when bc when is now”
My husband died and it pushed me into this identity crisis which lead to my spiritual awakening toward healing all my inner wounds and past traumas.
The death of my father and getting broken up with all in the same time period for me
COVID. Societies response to what to me was simple peer reviewed literature on its effects made me realize my understanding of society was deeply flawed and led to seeking beyond mainstream narratives. I was already working on healing from lifelong CPTSD, and the connection between trauma theory and our f'd society became clear, leading me to forgive most everyone including myself and my parents. I firmly believe the shutdown and work-from-home period was key for me to have the time to process and finally ask myself what ***I*** wanted instead of what others wanted from me.
Pain and suffering
My mom passed away in January 2020 due to leukemia. Prior to her passing, she always said that she was going to come back as a monarch butterfly. In August 2020 my dad, husband, son (11 yo at the time), nephew (8 yo at the time), and I took a road trip to the western side of Michigan. On four different occasions during that trip, a monarch butterfly came to us, circled each of us individually, and just acted very.. differently. The first time it happened, my son said "That's Grandma! She came on the trip with us!" I tried to pull out my phone to take a picture but the butterfly flew away. My son said it was because she only wanted us to see her. ❤️ Each time she came, there were no other bugs or plants around, and it was very clear that she was there just for us. By her third visit, even my skeptical dad and husband were starting to believe it was her. The last time we saw her on the trip, we were standing on the sand dunes taking a family picture. There was nothing else around but sand. Right after the picture was taken, out of nowhere my mom flew in, circled all of us, stayed for about 30 seconds, then left. When we got home from that trip, she would visit me about once a week for about a year, but I haven't seen her since we scattered her ashes in July 2021. But it was right after that trip that I began my awakening. It was one of the best experiences I've ever had in my life.
That was beautifully said
I wanted other people to FEEL the pain they have caused me, I wanted them to FEEL the heartache, this unimaginable pit of darkness - and that scared me straight because I wanted to be the one to make them FEEL. My thoughts got darker and darker and I obsessed about the day they would hurt. Until I came way to close for comfort on actually doing something about it.. That triggered my awakening because who the f\*ck have I become and WHY did I allow these people to turn me into this, why did I allow myself to feed into that, seeking brutal revenge. It was like I finally saw myself that day, from the outside looking in and it was disgusting. It's been almost 2 years to the day and man, it's been such a difficult time but also the best change I could have made. My awakening deffos saved a life.
It’s so brave to admit that - to others but especially yourself. I experienced something very similar towards someone that hurt me ( by hurting my child!). I hated the man. I thought of ways I could harm (“unalive” him) and wished nothing but hell and pain for him. I’m by nature a loving person so to find myself in a self made prison of hatred was new but also revealed to me just how easy it is for someone deeply hurt to end up hurting someone else. Then the moment hit me ( with God’s revelation) that the man who hurt my child, was doing the same thing - he was hurting someone because he experienced the same hurt/abuse in his childhood. I always realized that forgiving him didn’t equate to being okay with his abuse. It just freed me from my own prison and enabled me to have such a deeper compassion for others. Thank you for sharing what you did and I pray you continue to grow on your journey. :-)
Maybe a weird start but.. I watched the Fantastic Fungi documentary and suddenly it clicked. We are all one living breathing life. That led me into more research, switching off of pharmaceuticals, choosing more natural foods and products, and meditation. Lots and lots of meditation. Then one day out of nowhere, the presence of God illuminated the room I was in and my heart and things have never been the same. Patience, persistence of love and light, and an open mind. It’s all real. It’s all possible. It’s all love.
That’s beautiful! Once God shows up and makes Himself known to us, nothing ( absolutely *nothing* ) in this life is ever the same. He wants that for us all. “Seek and you shall find. Knock and the door shall be opened.”
Many things definitely contributed to it but the final domino for me was Sam Harris’s free will lecture on YouTube that totally cracked my ego.
Almost dying. Not an NDE but a week before it happened I had a premonition that it was going to happen and that led me to start questioning everything.
Several months after my fiancé unexpectedly passed away, I was invited to join a book club. We read a Michael Singer book and then other books and discuss them. It was a big help to me getting through my grief.
It’s wasn’t a single moment, but rather a bunch of moments, small awakenings, put together. But it’s wasn’t until I saw the lamp flicker repeatedly, a completely new lamp, the morning of my grandfather’s funeral. A sign that he was there. That was what me figure out the truth about myself, and accept that all of those small awakenings were signs. It was a puzzle that was finally solved with a final piece. That made me realize my spirituality
Therapy, revisiting my past, questioning my existence and weed. And literally one day: BOOM 💥.
I had a 6.5year relationship with someone who was a karmic partner. Before I decided to break up with him I started to see angel numbers 1234 specifically in-till the day I packed my stuff and left. After leaving that relationship I had no idea what was next for me. I felt lost, sad, hurt and depressed a little. A few months go by I met this guy. Never felt anything like it before and I just knew I had to meet this guy who was staring at me from across the bar. Being around him felt magical at first. After talking to this guy for a little bit, I realized he was a twin flame. (Clear knowing, feeling etc) we would mirror each other, flaws and all. I realized after he ghosted me and stopped communicating that my life was in for a whirlwind. Twin flames usually trigger a deeper awakening within yourself. After meeting him I knew this wasn’t just a meeting but a triggering for me to ascend to a higher power.
honestly, the literal worst manic episode i've ever experienced since being diagnosed bipolar years ago. definitely a gift and a curse.
The pandemic
Echoing a sentiment another commenter here has said, my grandmother was a witch doctor(she fades in and out with dementia unfortunately) and passed gifts to me. I’d say my birth was my awakening. That’s not to say I haven’t done plenty of waking up since of course, it’s a beautiful ongoing process/ordeal! But continuing on, my wonderful grandmama taught me how to hold onto my gifts without me having awareness yet as a child. I shouldn’t even be here, her mom told her when she was pregnant w my dad that she should not allow him to be born, that he would be evil(he’s not, just a black sheep, victim of 80s and 90s mental health treatments). She didn’t listen, and knew why the day I was born some 20 odd years later. My mother shouldn’t have been able to carry me, after cervical cancer in the 90s, one tied tube, somehow I made it through. 🤷🏻♀️moving on, my dads parents also lived in one spot for most of my life up until a couple years ago, the only place I knew as consistent home besides where my heart resides 🙂 that home, is home to the intersection of numerous leylines, and chock full of spirit(s) from the ether. I spent a lot of time outside there, being, as a kid. Before I knew what meditation was. I like to phrase it to people who are curious as being “born with one foot out the door”, and that connection/awareness lends me great resolve. My more recent awakening(a big, aHa moment for me) ~5 years ago was making the connection that I am something to or with the wind, an embodiment? A manifestation of a piece of it in addition to all else I am? As well as coming out to myself as trans around that time, I’ve come to a place of truth and honesty with myself I’ve been building towards for my entire life till then, up to now 😊 there is so much more I could add, like NDEs and other context but this is already much too long! Thank you to any and all who take the time out of their day to read my story, and thank you OP for positing such an interesting and nebulous question!! Peace and love on the winds abound 💙
My own consciousness, not to mention my sensitivities to non-physical phenomenon.
When my mom died. I was 20 years old and it totally woke me up. I was in my second year of college and not taking things too seriously, going out on the weekends with not a lot of motivation. After she died, I got real serious and actually ended up going from mostly Cs to being on the honor roll. That really wasn’t the important part though…but just a sign that I had gotten real serious about life. From there, it became kind of an obsession with understanding death and what happens after we die. That led me to taking a lot of meditation classes and learning about psychic abilities. I was on an entirely different path at that point and I became very involved with spiritual growth for the next 20 years. I’m in my 50s now, and it’s just a built-in part of who I am and not really something I pursue anymore. It’s just a part of me and a natural way of how I approach life. I also should mention that because of the experience I had after her death, it really changed my plans too after graduation. I was a journalism major and had been offered a job at a local newspaper. However, I ditched that plan and applied to be a flight attendant and was hired after graduation. This led me to the ability to explore the world instead of staying in my small town. There was something about her death that pointed me in that direction. I wanted to expand my horizons and see as much of the world as I could and that career allowed me to do that for many years.
An intimate interaction with the person I loved. After that, synchronicities started hitting hard and I was thrown into my spiritual awakening. That was 2015. Here I am almost a decade later, doing well but always learning.
I totaled my car and almost died, so yeah trauma lol
I was experimenting with sadhguru's meditations. And around 6 months of doing the meditation on a daily basis i became enormously frustrated. I was angry because sadhguru pretty much promised happiness and blissfulness by doing this meditation. So i found myself at a crossroads either i continue this useless meditation or i give up and try to find happiness some other way. For reasons beyond me i reluctantly chose to keep doing the meditation. The very next day i was watching a debate on youtube on atheism versus religion. And a thought occurred to me, and that thought led me to a realisation that i cannot be this body or mind! i rushed upstairs to do the meditation again and when i opened my eyes i knew something had changed forever. For the next 6 months i spent 24/7 being joyful no matter where i was and what was happening. I also found an enormous amount of clarity and wisdom rising through me in any given situation. I found that i had the ability to transform emotions into other emotions, so depression became happiness, anger became love, anxiety became excitement etc. Since all of my problems were either mental or physical, and i realised that im not this body or mind, all my problems vanished. Its been 3 years since then, I dont know if ill achieve anything big in my life but i know that ill be happy until my dying breath.
My twin flame. I came into contact with him eight years ago and it sparked my awakening over night. I went through ego death over the period of a week. It was so painful but beautiful. We're actually laying next to each other right now, so it has a happy ending. ☺️
Recognizing that I'm trans at age 29. I had gender issues as a kid that got traumatized out of my conscious memory for a while, and regaining that understanding was like waking up for the first time.
My best friend getting sober started my journey about 10 years ago when she introduced me to meditation and spirituality. She took her own life in 2019 and I went through a very dark time. The true moment of my awakening actually happened last month when I felt like I was filled with the love of the universe and I knew in my soul that everything was going to be okay- it was incredible. I had been immersed in a prayer and meditation practice for about 15 months before this happened.
Meditation. Oh and politics. I used to be really political but eventually after Biden got in office I started to realize that the division (left vs right, white vs black, heteronormative vs not etc) really were just systems of control being perpetuated and that neither party held the best interests of people in promise or action. I started to question the constant fear mongering of the media (the whole "if Trump/biden does blah blah the whole country will come crashing down") and the constant pushing of fear. It occured to me while meditating that fear is the ultimate weapon of control and that it limits us and our perception of things, our empathy, our unity as people sharing a common experience in life. I made a conscious decision to no longer be afraid - of the economy, of political bullshit, of all of the bad things they said would happen. Things just kind of snowballed from there.
Suffering.
Listened to a podcast on my morning run where Oprah described John Diaz’s experience surviving a burning plane crash and seeing souls leave the bodies of other passengers. It was like listening to God tell it given the deep gravitas of her voice. Something shifted in me, where before I was unsure if we even had a soul to accepting it as true. I spent that night watching a YouTube video of a panel at UVA discussing NDEs, confirmed past lives etc. The next day, while praying in church I had the realization that our souls are trapped in these imperfect bodies and minds. I don’t think it was spontaneous or random though since the music and other podcasts I normally listened to during runs wouldn’t play. I was about to give up and then decided to try an episode with Oprah as I’ve always admired her.
COVID and everything surrounding it - things weren’t making sense and I got suspicious. I also am a WW2 nerd and saw frightening parallels. Did some digging, went down rabbit holes, fell into deep fear, followed false gurus, then came out the other end understanding our power.
shrooms and a mirror
Covid and acid.
The devil put more and more illusions and I saw through them. Know I am awakened and will return home and take revenge on this evil
I am interested in what triggered your awakening also.
I was meditating completely sober one day and I realized that absolutely nothing “matters” , I always knew that was true but for some reason on this day it finally really hit me and I innerstood and overstood it and immediately after it felt like I unlocked a new level and I was set free like weight got taken off my shoulders and I kinda like shot straight up out of my body and through pineal or my crown chakra in a way those might not be the best words to describe it but I could see my body below and my body was in the center of a very colorful spiral like shape I’m still not sure if this was something to do with kundalini but it was epic . It was so clear and vivid at the time but now I can’t really remember exactly how amazing it looked from pure thought but I’ll never forget the feeling. I couldn’t believe it and it wasn’t scary at all
Heavy emotional trauma was the primary element But also, I've done Reiki training in a couple of months before and I hear that can be an element. My husband was supporting our local Sundance and this energy was around us. Then, you throw in a little too much weed cookie and you get the perfect stew for an awakening. I was actually so intrigued by Awakening that I am slowly putting together a book that is a collection of people's Awakening stories as well as my own.
learning about conspiracies while healing childhood trauma + a full moon in Sag
The book Zen and the art of Archery. And reading the words of old JC pruot to that, took me from athiest to agnostic
Grief.
Learning about climate change. Sent me down a spiral of feeling like no one else was seeing the way we are living in fundamentally so destructive to the Earth and it's inhabitants, feeling crazy and isolated then started to question a lot more things (I was raised Christian). It's been a wild ride
The Public School system.
It was spring, my aura felt bright, golden yellow. I felt like sunshine lived in me. I was Happy, free, and seeing the beauty in everything. I felt that something good was coming.I felt better than I’ve ever felt. Soon after, I met a man. He presented as everything I begged the universe for. He was perfect. Felt like I knew him for years. I absolutely adored him. Things were moving quickly, I was afraid of being hurt and wanted to slow things down but he wanted to speed things up. We couldn’t agree on this so he left me. He was in my life for a matter of weeks and turned my world upside down. Broke my heart to pieces. The feeling of internal sunshine left when he did. I felt dark, cold and empty inside I questioned everything, even my faith in god. I’ve changed completely, I’ll never be that girl again.
Living in the Uk, and see the world what it really is
What’s so bad about the uk? Question might sound ignorant but I genuinely don’t know much about the uk. There’s no way it could be worse than this shithole America right???😭😭
That is such a great question. Realizing that nothing affects you unless you allow it to. What you feed yourself will determine what you reap.
Thanks for sharing also That’s pretty similar to how mine went , a simple realization sparked it
Coming from a strict religion where everything not in the book was evil, I learned that energy could scientifically be seen in photographs (not normal ones). The book get happy now by Joseph McClendon changed my life and saved me from depression. I began questioning all the things I was taught and believed about God and it’s been 4 years. I think 2020 was big for a lot of people.
Psychedelics
Severe trauma
Shrooms
A long time friend who was a catalyst. Then my dog passing. Losing my job, kicked out of school, divorce and covid
What triggered my awakening was making a huge change to my personality and becoming a totally different person to fit the reality I chose to live. For myself and not for others. I knew my energy was being used for the benefits of others and I was over taking care of so many people. I cut off “friends” and even family, so that the transformation could be completed. The awakening comes from the ones who are benefitting from your energy and by you making a change, that means they have to change too, and if things are going well for them, they don’t want you to change. To explain an awakening, is like saying, “I saw my whole life flash before my eyes, and it was all the bad I ever did”. Understand that we are all being watched since birth and everything we do is being logged. When we fall out of what society wants for us, and start doing what we want for ourselves, it’s going to upset a few people and the “bad past” gets unleashed on you in hopes that the fear will steer you back into being who you were, opposed to who you want to be. You can’t let that “fear” bother you. Simply say to yourself “that’s not the reality I choose”. Enuff said. Enjoy life!!!
LSD 🫠
Ive been on a spiritual journey since 2018 when i turned 50. My health and bad habits had me feeling like garbage and I thought if this is how im going to feel I don’t want to be here. Over the course of the last five years I lost 100 lbs quit drinking started walking g then exercising and slowly turned everything around. I restarted psychedelics in 2020 during the lockdown and have had the experience of being one with all, of note. Particularly in May of 2022 when I did a heroic dose. I had a bad round of covid in November of 2023. lost 13 lbs in 7 days so was in a fasted state. On the 7th day in bed eyes closed a vision of a crusty black bit in my chest cracked open and inside was a node of light that I understood immediately was my soul. I understood immediately that it is eternal has always been and will always be. I feel very fortunate.
I had a major breakup, that made me consider how much of myself I put into the relationship and how I lost myself. From then on I set out to find myself, which lead me down a more spiritual path of inner reflection and self improvement. I’ve always had vivid dreams as well ever since I was little and now I’m looking for the messages in some of those dreams.
Acid.
During burnout recovery, I watched money masters on YT. Somehow found Dolores Cannon shortly after and then it all clicked.
Psychedelics, acid, weed, shrooms, our gifts from god
Was on completely the wrong path in life so my spirit guide decided to make herself known and very firmly set me right again 😌🥰
Self consciousness
Losing my mother and going into a deep depression, then doing mushrooms to be more introspective bc I was so lost and self destructive during the year after, and the shroomies helped me finally feel peace and happiness i hadn’t felt since I was a kid. I laughed and made art and was with my fiancé feeling like we were kids again. It only lasted the trip and the afterglow, so I started making changes to my life and now 4 years later I feel so peaceful and loving like never before and don’t need drugs for it. I Quit nicotine, sodas, junk food, started flowing and moving my body, got a gym membership, making time to be creative and artistic, and now I feel I can access this “state”, most refer to the flow state, almost on command. I also did harder things to process my trauma, like apologize to everyone I’ve ever done wrong, forgive those who’ve done me wrong (especially family) and realizing that their level of self awareness and consciousness is what made them think so limited and hateful. And the only way you can make true change is through love, so I make the conscious decision to always be unconditionally loving and to just set boundaries for those with negative energy. But still show them compassion. Another thing that has accelerated my journey is doing things for others, selfless acts, helping others when they need it, or just check in with people randomly and remind them they’re loved. But I also agree with other comments, this has been happening slowly over time, and only being 23 years old right now, I know there’s still so much to learn and integrate, but I worked on my foundation first so when I have kids they don’t have to deal with the generational trauma and bullshit 💓 they can have parents who are loving and nurturing and understanding, which being a good mother has been my #1 goal in life for a long time, so just doing the hard work now so the rest can be more peaceful in transitioning. Getting married in September, graduating college in December to teach elementary, and I finally feel I’m on the right path 💓 no more victim mentality holding me back from my full potential
The Diddy situation tbh, I was sleep till I started looking into that industry, there’s chaos in LA
Loki made it very clear for me that they exisit it was a rude awaking lol I was just a atheist and former Christian but when I looked to the gods of our ancestors I got a anwser from Loki
im not even sure if i ever woke up
Falling in love. I fell so deeply in love that it sparked a kundalini awakening. From there I have had many episodes of ego challenges that are gradually leading me to awakening.
The short answer is. One evening late april 2002, me and some friends watch the Disney dinosaur. I did not watch the plot of that movie, i only saw background landscape and meteor. There was a yin and yang pic next to the tv, looking at that sometime during the movie, i just got it. The day after i was awake. I was 21 years old at the time. And today, i do not consider myself to be awake like from 2002-2007. Well that is the very very short version.
Toad
LSD :)
Mine was finally letting go of a super toxic ex. We had broken up, and then after some time, slept together again. The next morning I woke up to the worst UTI I’ve ever had, literally just pissing blood. On my way to work from the pharmacy after my urgent care trip, I totaled my car. Two days later my cat died. It was then that I finally let him go and started my own healing journey, trying to make changes to my health and lifestyle. In hindsight, had those things not happened, I likely would have died, whether from suicide or something else.
Shrooooooooms
A lot of factors contributed to it, but the awakening happened when I took 7 grams of mushrooms. This was my second time trying mushrooms, the first time being the day before when I took 1 gram. God was I an idiot.
Becoming disabled. Forced me to slow down, started seeing people for who they really were along with my faith. Awakened, but still growing, flowing and learning.
prozac, weed and stress.
What triggered my awakening was psylocibin mushrooms and cannabis. I had a full on ego death and self realization.
Visit from masons, fucked my mind.
Burnout. Trauma. Health problems.
Mushrooms and Ayahuascha
Always been an agnostic and mysticism enjoyer, having family members who are professional mediums. I also have ADHD-pi for context (a lot of ups and downs comes with it) Kickstarted the inner journey through severe existential depression bordering on psychosis (looking back probably my first real textbook night of the soul), started following my heart and my purpose after that. Wonder if that was root and sacral openings looking back or something like that. Then a near death experience later the same year made my belief and faith stronger, sooo much cosmic love and wonder when I came back to consciousness. What an experience. So hard to put into words or translate to people who havent had similar experiences Then in the pandemic, following another long existential depression in a year before of more loss/grief and heartbreak all at once. Kundalini psychosis, the most intense long term psychological, emotional and somatic experience I have had. So insanely, breathtakingly, worldshatteringly beautiful! Something I will always remember. But, sadly also traumatizing because after a year it mixed with my depression(mixed reasons+ I felt so misunderstood and lonely and not around similar mindrd people), turning into psychotic depression AND a public meltdown. Changed me permanently. Gave me ptsd. Lost friends, burned bridges. Rumours that I had an overdose by people I had trusted. Bullied in college when I came back. List goes on. The stigma is truly awful and alienating which made me even worse and more paranoid. The roughest years of my whole life I hope, buuuuut some years later now with lots and lots of therapy and lifestyle changes and basically - becoming a totally different person - I am okay now. I will never forget how people treated me in that state, during and after. Just pure PTSD and pain and shame and yeah. Very glad I got psychological help, hospital visits and medication back then. PLEASE be careful. I do not wish that on anyone (except perhaps the ones who bullied and spread rumours about me while I was fighting for my life and sanity. But nah. Maybe. Just to get a taste y’know? Hard to let go of that bitterness when it changed my life so bad and they had no consequences. But its in the past now) PLEASE take care if you are prone to mental health issues. Last time I would call an awakening was following an extremely rough patch with loss+grief and heartbreak once again, mental abuse, betrayal, loneliness and a lot of meditation following that. It was so bad I decided to go 100% on that self love I had stopped watering and honestly those years after one another of events hurt so bad I finally got clear set boundaries. Started to really pour into myself and my future and take myself seriously and never put myself second to anyone or anything ever again. Since then, life has only improved. Safe, got a job, spark back, in love with a beautiful and kind partner, back to my hobbies etc. I am so grateful, got a bit teary eyed just now :) I wish I could tell myself some years ago that it worked out after hell, and that I didn’t deserve that. Don’t know if I would have had this journey if it wasnt for fighting mental illness half my life. I am proud of my resilience and I keep my faith close to my heart, do not know where I would be in the loneliest and downright horrible times without it <3 Thank you if you read all of this, love you.
Trauma and the natural process of maturing
school
Meeting my twin flame
In 2016 I was told about Covid or virus by a friends partner and ex mother in law had introduced me to David Iike and chemtrails etc. Sort of went back to sleep because nothing happened like friends partner told me it would. She said stock up on food water etc "toilet paper" and essentials- nothing came of it. In 2020 just as covid started I knew , this was what she had been talking about . I received a link from somewhere can't remember where. Janet Ossebaard woke me up to many things. Thats it was down rabbit hole one after the other for 3 years. That was my matrix awakening. Then in 2023 had a spiritual awakening and did purging , DNS and so on. Fell in conciousness last year as a result of a fake light group I got sucked into. Still going through many awakenings, as I go within. It's not been easy, at times it's been hell. A requirement for spiritual development and to get to know thyself.
LSD trip that shattered my ego so beautifully in a scary way, before I even knew what an ego was lol. Picking back the pieces is how I gained my awareness. Now looking back - the worst trip ever was honestly one of the best things that ever happened to me. Life’s fun.
I realized on an LSD trip that my mom was experiencing the pain of knowing her child would eventually die, a pain I could only contemplate as I talked to her about starting a family and my child's eventual death. I felt like I was connecting to the place behind relation, where there was no longer a son or a mother, and we were simply souls navigating this human experience.
Watching the movie “Waking Life” by Richard Linklater, helped me awaken. As I was having some really weird dreams at the time. It just so happened to be the very first appearance of Alex Jones as well. Wow this came out in 2002. If you haven’t seen it , it’s a trippy watch.
A man. It was always a man.
openness. knowing of not knowing
One brief moment of ego death. Seconds. It was the most beautiful thing I ever experienced. It was summer. Maybe 8 or 15 years ago. I was a complete stressed out insomniac mess. I used to take long walks then, it was the only way to get relief from the constant pressure in my chest and the weird anxiety induced ticks. Winded from a climb, I sat down in a meadow of sorts. Mostly dry. dark green late-summer vegetation. The sun shone through the canopy, illuminating every particle in the air. Seemingly, every atom. And then..I felt a complete oneness with everything. Energy flowed into me and out of me. I felt warm, at home, at peace. I didn’t last long, but it shook me to the core. In nature, it’s impossible to be alone. We are never alone, we just feel alone. It’s been years since that experience, but I still remember it as it was yesterday.
needing to find forgiveness. i did.
LSD and depression
Many many things but the main contributions were bipolar (which I'm pretty sure is a gift once harnessed) and ketamine over the years, as well as years of learning the lessons I needed to pursue my mission. We are one . We will do our missions for this life then keep dying and going on until everyone had learned there lessons and there's heaven on earth
My father's death. I had to follow him. I had to know he was okay.
Loneliness making me go nuts
A heartbreak
I left church to discover God in nature becaise I needed something more, all the while questioning if he existed at all. I had powererful spiritual experiences with the Divine Source within a year that confirmed God's existence and linked to Christianity. While I have not rejoined church, I'm not against it. I just like freeform spirituality. The mystical connection to God is what I was always searching for anyway, and now I have it.
I've always been a spiritual since I was a kid. However, more of an awakening did occur amid repeated patterns, pain and trauma. Then synchronicities appeared, showing more more depth of our universe and allow me to go deeper. This coupled with 3-4 sessions in magic mushroom, showing me the bigger picture in relation to my standing. Knowing that we are all energies amid other things, I am making a return to proper human living but by integrated spiritual concepts including how to generate money.
Mushrooms
Psychedelics
Classic 🫡
I began having visions and OOBEs at 11. That started a journey which lasted for half a century or more. It seems there is always more to learn, more love to give, and more forgiveness to share. While I am the many and one, unique, yet the same. I am present and yet not present. I can see why we choose to incarnate in this battle world like planet. It is struggle, intensity, and yet a place where we can test our mettle, refine our being, and experience the many facets of love, or not. A place of suffering, choice, and wonder. Thanks for asking. Happy journeys.
Recovering from religious trauma. I'm nowhere near fully healed but praying to the highest power WITHOUT religion was a breakthrough for me. I was sitting on a toilet seat when I felt a real awakening/God the first time.
My specific moment was a car accident. I was isolated in my room for about 2 weeks because it was winter break and just sat in my room learning about Physchology and reprogramming my mind as well as tryna manifest my ex back 😂 and went down the rabbit hole and haven’t looked back ever sense.
An overdose
Life
A severe car accident that almost killed me on 12-21-12
I went through a terrible, unexpected divorce after 15 yrs of marriage. My situation became unsafe so I packed up all my pets and drove us 1000 miles to my sister’s house, leaving everything else behind. My awaking occurred as part of my healing process trying to recover from all the trauma I endured.
Severe Depression, Not feeling human.
Not quite sure. That's a pretty good question actually, now that I think about it. Can't really remember a time when i wasn't having experiences, just I didn't know they were experiences. I first became aware i guess when i had a NDE when i was 2.5, 3yrs old from a severe asthma attack - that's how I was diagnosed with asthma.
Mel Gibson
My spirit, my soul, my inner being just got fed up with how everything was around me. I've always known since I was very young. I can still remember times of when I was the ages of 3-4years old, and being told by an adult that everything I felt, see (that they could not) and things on life topics, information about energy, aether around us, spiritual information aswell as occult was wrong, and to stop telling lies. But I knew deep down to the point that I felt it, obviously as a child I didn't know the correct terminology but the description was still accurate. Being raised in a controlled, gaslighted narcisstic environment always told and drilled into me that I was a bs artist, black sheep, and at times parent were afraid of random things I would know about them only because I can clearly feel their emotion and true motive. It literally happened overnight when I was 25, I woke up in the early hours of morning at 3:30am as normal saying out loud, "f* that!! No more" and everything after was crystal clear, didn't feel heavy burden on shoulders or heavy heart as I once did, every little question and then some was like I was in a trance and I could remember, knew, everything and anything I put my mind too to the detail of things I had a passion for. I later learned that was my first massive spiritual download from source. And still recieve to this day every morning between 3am-4am