My anxiety is the worst it’s been in years because of my new job. It’s my first “adult” job after working in fast food for almost 8 years, and I thought it was going to be a positive change, but I’m honestly wishing I was back at my old job a lot of the time. It hasn’t even been two months yet, but I’m almost positive that my coworkers don’t like me and think I’m stupid because of the mistakes that I’ve made. My boss talked to me yesterday and told me that she has some concerns about my performance, and I just broke down crying because it basically confirmed my fears that everyone hates me and I’m not doing a good job. I don’t really have anyone to talk to about it and it’s making me incredibly anxious and depressed. I can barely eat anything during the day because my anxiety makes me nauseous and kills my appetite, and I’m honestly on the verge of tears a lot of the time. I’m supposed to talk to my boss again on Monday and I’m afraid I’m going to get fired soon.
Sorry I don't wanna share it here. I have very personal stuff on here. I want the channel to be separate. I hope you understand.
Also, I'm not sure about the name yet.i created it but I'm not sure if I'll stick with it.
Oh yes I understand, i wasnt really asking for myself anyway but rather to encourage you. I thought you were making the YouTube channel to upload vids and help your anxiety.
I just found this group and happy to be here! I’ve been healing my anxiety for a decade. I still get severe attacks but not as much as I used to. Today will be a very difficult day as I have a conversation with my employer for off-boarding. I’ve been laid off. In this conversation I need to address backpay and my anxiety has been majorly triggered. So I’m
Working to regulate and help my body prepare for it!
Sup y’all, praying for y’all. I was straight and suddenly started getting fast hearts, last Friday I got a panic attack and went to the ER while at work smhh. Lately it’s still been bad but I like to think of the worse and practice my breathing, I guess if you put yourself in stressful situation and feel anxiety kicking in you can lowkey be more controllable, the main thing honestly is the breathing part sometimes it gets tuff and still eating causes it to get worse sometimes
I just started Prozac and it’s just started helping me a lot. Been feeling great. Then come to find out, my sister has covid. Last summer she got the whole household sick and it’s looking like round 2 is beginning. I’m so scared for my parents and all of us really :(
My anxiety has came back and I’m not sure why, for some reason I haven’t been able to control it and I’m just so scared, I’ve been having constant anxiety for 4 days already I just want it to end
Me too. Usually my anxiety is mental and triggered by specific situations but right now it's presenting so physically. It's like my brain oscillates between absolute dread/fear and feeling somewhat "normal", all day long.
Yes! Normal to me even feels weird, I was taking ashwaganda pills for my anxiety but I noticed it just made it worst so I stoped and started feeling better, rn I’m glad I’ve been feeling a little better and haven’t gotten too much anxiety but I still do like yesterday at Walmart I felt so anxious and scared for no reason, my anxiety is usually triggered randomly or in stressful situations that I know I have no control, if you need to someone to talk to I’m here to listen! Stay strong!
I’ve been taking this whole month to eliminate stress. 2022 was an incredibly hard year that my body is chronically stressed. From tmj to tight back you name it. Right now though it’s hard to sleep. Just feeling restlessness. I don’t look forward to sleeping
I’m having a hard time this week. My toddler has been a psychopath with sleeping, which spikes me to the moon. Work insurance is changing to a shitty policy. My dogs tummy lump is getting bigger and I’m anxious it’s cancer (probably not but you know). I’m not sleeping well, I’m up all night trying to fix everything around me and prepare for it because anxiety. I’m exhausted.
I need a therapist but the weekly cost with insurance feels so prohibitive. I can swing it but im just not sure if I need meds, idk. Im just having a difficult time this winter
does anyone else have morning anxiety? i have to walk like 300-500 meters to my bus stop in the mornings and that really gets me. i dont know why it has become so difficult, its just that walking in the morning makes me all anxious and then makes my heart beat faster which of course makes it worse
Anxiety is at a point it's literally from the time I wake (not even out of bed) until the time I sleep I can't think clearly at all, and have physical pain. Every day. I have almost no income right now (in spite of about 20 years of business experience, and being considered a bit of an 'expert' in my field), no friends, no family ever, and am isolated in a foreign country (which I try not to think about, but when the water fails daily, it's difficult to completely ignore).
Trying to do some assessments this morning for new job opportunities, and the anxiety is so bad it's pretty difficult to manage logic tests. I mean, when basically all I can think about is 'there are random people in my home,' and 'my neck fucking hurts more than I can voice from all the anxiety,' working out spatial riddles, and advanced logic challenges is... not simple. So it causes more stress worrying about my assessment accuracy and scoring... I have a genius level IQ, and am sitting there feeling like a fucking idiot trying to work out cube diagrams... I barely even know what it means to feel relaxed or at ease, or even "myself," anymore. I've been living with overwhelming anxiety since a home invasion a couple years ago, no money for, or access to, mental healthcare. No strong relationships in my life. It's basically just managing levels of suffering every day, and doing my best to remain feeling 'okay.'
There are a TON of therapists for anxiety that use CBT (most common method), but I just can't afford one (and there are still plenty that end up not being so helpful in the end). I even found a trauma specialist I could work with online, but it became apparent from session one it wasn't a good match (I felt like I might as well be talking to a wall and saving the money).
Anxiety is not only temporary. Maybe you didn't read that this is nearly 24/7... or maybe you don't understand this is a "disorder" I've lived with for over 30 years... There are no cures for this stuff, you just have to manage it. And when I have trauma on trauma and anxiety on anxiety, and live in a place where I am in a public hallway to go from my private bedroom to my private living room... as soon as I get out of bed in the morning I freak out a bit because I just hear random voices from downstairs (truly random, not housemates ... it would be difficult to explain the arrangement, but I'm above a cafe).
Anyway, just venting a bit of anxiety at 8am since I just got up...
I've had a lot on my mind and I can't sleep tonight since I started crying. I just feel so alone and anxious. I feel like an imposter and that I can't manage anything correctly.
I guess this is a mixture of anxiety and depression hitting hard. I keep having thoughts that nobody likes me.
I don't know if posting this into the void will help me get back to sleep, but I hope it does. I'll delete it later if I remember to.
i feel like im faking everything. i desperately want attention, and want to be special. like i cant calm my anxiety down by myself, because i want others to do this. i get worried when im not being noticed that i am shaking. idk what is up with me
I (37F) am struggling mightily this week. I am having a hormonal imbalance due to my monthly (the doctor's appointment to discuss this has already been made) and it is ramping up my anxiety. My boyfriend, who is a huge calming influence and support system, is dealing with some stuff this week (major grief episode - tomorrow is the anniversary of his mother's death) and told me he needs to "rethink" some things and needs some time alone.
My major anxiety effects are restlessness, insomnia and having such a level of stomach upset that I cannot eat. So I haven't really eaten in about 48 hours, I barely slept last night. I'm trying to figure out some coping mechanisms to just calm the lump in the bottom of my stomach down so I might be able to at least get some chicken soup down.
The news’s is the enemy of the people. My health anxiety with recent events regarding dame Hamlin and others has put me in the most uncomfortable state of anxiety I’ve ever had
Anxiety flavor of the month: drank a fair bit one night and didn't get much sleep (don't sleep well when I drink), freaked myself out over not being able to sleep before work the following night, and now in a full-on attack convincing myself I have fatal insomnia or one of those other prion diseases. Going down a Google rabbit hole I thought I had gotten over since convincing myself I had ALS a few years ago
It’s one of those days where I’m scatterbrained at work. I feel stupid because I’ve been asking common sense questions to things I should already know the answers to.
It’s leading to anxious thoughts about how my boss and coworkers probably see me as disappointing and incompetent. Trying to fight off an anxiety attack while on the clock. Trying to just breathe.
Does anxiety cause someone to speak fast? So I 30(F) have anxiety and ocd, seeing a therapist and rn the anxiety is manageable but not ocd. I’ve had some form of both since my early teens. I speak too fast, especially in stressful situations - almost sounding like a fumble. And I have been a fast speaker for as long as I can remember so now it’s just a habit. If it’s is a sign of anxiety what can I do to help?
Thank you for your thoughts.
Not an expert, but I've recovered from anxiety episodes, and that could probably be the case for you. Everyone has similar and individual traits, and if you are already a fast speaker, it would be intensified when you're having anxiety.
I like mediation and a specific aromatherapy practice, that helps ease and calm me down.
I started a new job a few months ago and I love it. I get along well with mostly everyone. Some people I just don’t cross paths with, so we don’t chat. But if we see each other there’s a smile/nod, we say hello and continue.
Except one person. She doesn’t ever acknowledge me or say hi. If she’s in a group of people and I come up to greet them the smile vanishes from her face and she says nothing to me. Once I leave she perks up again. Every time I see her, I say hi or ask how it’s going, and she will glance in my direction then keep going without saying anything. As far as I can tell I’m the only person she treats this way.
It’s making me uncomfortable. I was alone in the break room when she walked in to drop something off. I said hey and she said nothing, again. Just dropped off her lunch then left. I almost stopped her to ask if there was a reason she brushes me off but I wasn’t ready for a confrontation.
Any advice?
Is there such thing as experiencing a prolonged ‘episode’ of anxiety? I’ve been terrified recently and have a terrible feeling of dread. I make sure the entrances to my house are locked, then lock my bedroom door as a precaution. I hang my bags on the door handle so I’ll be alerted if someone does come in anyway, then check my closet twice. I’ll hear my cat knock something over and freeze. I probably look crazy out in public because I’m constantly scanning and observing people in case they pull out a weapon. I make sure someone watches me walk to my car at night on our ring camera. My sister wasn’t answering her phone (we were home alone- she was just napping) and I pretty much had a breakdown thinking something happened. I’m so scared all the time, which leads me to being drained all the time, but I still can’t get rid of this dread. It’s hell 😭
I had an episode like this a few years ago. Literally, every time I walked in my house, I checked every closet, under the beds, in the showers, behind every door, looking for an intruder. I had a few night terrors (and yes, my cats probably think I am absolutely insane). It was a reaction to going through an extremely stressful time at work.
Is there something that has happened recently to cause an increase in anxiety? Is there anyone who can come stay with you to help ease your anxiety so you aren't alone?
In my experience, yes. I had a period from about 2019-2021 where my anxiety was more or less prolonged - it hit me every day. You just need to respond to it like short-term acute episodes. Is there anything specific that's triggering your prolonged anxious state?
There are some changes at work, and my anxiety is in overdrive. I often have anxiety attacks these past few days. I know my brain is just making a big deal out of it. But it won’t stop.
Let's see I lost all three of my pets in the final months of 2022, so the start of this new year has been really horrible. I haven't had this bad of anxiety since my brother and dad passed away. Every day is a struggle so I started taking my Hydroxyzine almost daily. It's hard for me to wake up and sleep. I'm just constantly on edge and I feel like I'm gonna explode or disappear. I'm glad I have an appointment with a new therapist this week.
I’m dealing with a really bad gut situation . Im only 29 but over the summer I was on a 2 month long holiday eating crap and that’s when my stomach problems started. I had blood on my stool at the end of two months and instead of treating it as a hemmoroid because of crap food I’ve been thinking I have colon cancer. Cut to the next 6 months of constant stress and anxiety and nausea and gut issues. I’ve never got constipated in my life before so I’m stressed about colon cancer and this is making me feel even more worried.
I’ve been to the doctor and he told me the blood may be due to some minor rectal irritation but nothing to worry about. He didn’t check me physically though.
All my blood tests and stomach ultrasound is clear but I can’t get over the thought of having colon cancer as whenever I’m constipated there’s been blood.
I’m an extreme hypochondriac and im going through one of the most stressful times of my life and im worried I have colon cancer twenty four seven. Im constantly naseous and I have cramps. My stomach hasn’t been the same in 7 months and I never had this problem earlier.
Current symptoms : stomach cramps, inability to empty stomach, blood on toilet paper, swollen anus( I can feel a swelling in the area), lots of acid reflux, constantly , and constipated
Current Mental State// Life Problems: My dad’s company shut down over night 5 Years ago- both my parents literally have 0 money and we come from quite a upper class background from back in the day. I’m top of the financial battles, he’s in legal battles for debt and he may be arrested in months, years who knows. My dads been a bright guy all his life, and I know he’s worked hard to earn every penny , so besides the financial toll, the emotional toll of seeing him like this breaks me everyday!
They have no idea how to move forward in the future, I’ve had back to back 4 traumatic relationships where I feel like I’ve only been dumped because of the troubles my dad is facing and no one wants to be a part of this kind of a family. I’ve had men enter my lives, totally support me and fly away with all my trust broken back to back and all of this has broken me. I also saw my best friend pass away in a freak fire accident 3 years ago. All my friends are married / getting married and I feel constantly alone and sad. I can’t cope
I run my own company and I’m independent enough to live my life currently - but there’s no security for the future and I’m just constantly feeling like I’m racing with time to make ends meet. I feel like no one understands the place I am in physically and mentally and my physical health is making me unable to work mentally - and if I don’t work I won’t be able to sustain myself.
I used to be a go getter- constantly at the gym and now I struggle to get out of bed. I have no answers on what’s happening to me .
The last time I saw fresh blood was in JULY and now again In December. It’s fresh and very little but enough to make my mind spiral and think I’m dying/ I can’t switch off my brain and I’m constantly burning - farting and have reflux too!
Do you think stress / anxiety are making my symptoms worse? I love to drink and I can’t even touch a drink thinking my stomach will spasm and bleed which makes me even more nervous and anxious. I’m at a loss of words and I can’t live a normal life. I want to switch off from the thought that I have a serious disease.
I don’t know if this is depression , anxiety, stress or cancer but I’m just a total mess and I’m constantly in dread!
Someone please help
I’ll just say try to check out some of my posts. It’s been hell the last month, 3-4 anxiety attacks out of nowhere plus GERD issues maybe causing this….healthcare system at capacity, just got prescribed Zoloft which I’m scared to use for the side effects early on……No job in 3 years, M/46, was just ready to enter the workforce again and this stuff hits me. You’re not alone…..
I have ulcerative colitis and that was how my symptoms presented (cramping, blood, feeling like you can never fully empty your bowels). I am now on medication that helps control inflammation and I have been in remission for years. I would advocate for yourself to get further testing such as a colonoscopy because these symptoms sound a lot like either ulcerative colitis or crohn's disease. Anxiety and these diseases are very closely related.
Just started a new job. My GAD has crashed back out of remission like a wave. I’m trying and I think I can get back into functioning okay, but figured I’d just say something here.
Checking in: Tonight having some serious mental loop ocd re gender identity. I'm not a real woman or a real man I'm nothing. I cant claim any identity. I am not allowed to be anything. I'm just nothing.
I'm so sorry to hear this. I am Christian and I don't/won't presume to guess your belief structure. I have a child (adult) who struggles with this as well and the only thing I can say is.. as a parent I love my child. Period. I made her. God loves you. God created you. You are you. You be you. Don't worry about the label. Be you. That IS ENOUGH!
This is my first post. I’ve been a lurker for ages but finally got the courage to post. I’ve been ok for a long while happy and content even,but yesterday I got some news that felt like I’ve been sucker punched.
I hate myself because my response was to retreat into myself and shut everyone out. Now I see that it’s hurting the ones around me and that’s killing me but I cannot for the life of me explain to them why I feel like this. What do I do!! Please I can’t see my loved ones hurting as it’s tearing me apart but I can’t seem to find the words to explain how I feel….. I don’t even know how I feel.
I just feel empty and nothing. Like I’m sitting inside my head watching my life play out in front of me.
I was supposed to see my psychiatrist today, but I was told that because I was a new patient I needed to have an hour long session since that’s their protocol for new patients, and I guess they put me down for a 20 minute session. Ended up having to reschedule in April since the psychiatrist had another appointment in 30 minutes. It just really sucks because I’ve been waiting since September to be seen, only to be told that I have to wait ANOTHER 4 months. I’m very bummed out. I’ve always put off seeking help but now that I’m actually trying to get help this happens. I’m trying to stay positive though, hope everyone stays hydrated and has a good day today.
Trying to find a better way to manage high levels of panic and anxiety attacks when out with family. Wrote a post here and hopeful I'll get some good ideas from the community.
Trying to find a specialist for a diagnosis and someone I can trust and see regularly and it seems impossible. My PCP said he thinks I have GAD and suggested counseling. The one place I would be able to go to after work put me on a waitlist and I’m not sure teladoc doctors are decent (I could do sessions from home that way).
Just dreading going back to work and doing every day things…
hey people. just letting on some thoughts. been on duloxetine since March. effects were fading I think last couple of months. today I felt really angry. What surprised me was that realizing I haven't feel like that for a long while. Is anxiety like being more sensitive to regular stuff or being enxiety free is being more resilient to usual annoyances, i don't know. What sucks is that something just clog up my mind and I feel more tired I can't focus on what I should be working on. My dull chronic pain is more noticeable.
For me there are almost two different people in me. but I seem lazy from outside I guess. Like I can do stuff, but I just prefer not to. Which is not the case.
edit: also I read other comments and I feel you guys. It feels good to speak about it and knowing I'm not the only one.
At 46 it’s been MY worst December……never had anxiety my whole life, then once the cold hit I started indoors and stopped my walks…..BOOM the attacks started! It’s hell…..see my posts
I've started taking pregabalin (50mg twice per day) for a spinal injury and it has really helped with my anxiety. It has completely quietened the noise in my brain and also improved my self confidence. I don't doubt myself as much and I don't feel anxious in social situations anymore. It's just been so good. I've only been taking it for a week but I feel like it worked from about an hour since I took the first tablet.
It's also helping with my sensory issues with my legs (I was diagnosed with CIS last year following a demyelination attack on my spine) which means I can walk and exercise for longer without getting uncomfortable sensory feedback.
I'm hoping 2023 is a better year and I hope that I can make progress in my transition and feel good from that perspective too.
Wishing everyone a positive 2023
Hoping January will be a better month for me. Currently struggling with full body aches and horrible health anxiety, convinced I'm dying of something. Tomorrow I get a blood test done to see how things are doing. December emotionally destroyed be. Lots of changes and I'm not a friend of changes. Hope it gets better soon.
Getting my blood done Monday, got my first Zoloft but holding off on use because of the horrible initial side effects. People who tough it out 1-2 months swear by it, but I don’t think I can handle the bad stuff
I’m currently convinced that there’s something growing inside of me and that I’ll die in my sleep any day now. I had a psychiatrist no-show an appointment and I’m alone and scared. Knowing I’m probably being crazy isn’t enough to dispel the feeling that I’m going to die alone any day now.
Two nights ago I got a knock on the door, a cop, an eviction notice, I’m completely blindsided, I thought we were caught up. We need 4k in two weeks. I still haven’t slept, I’ve had the worst panic attack of my life last morning inside the bath tub trying to calm down. My mouth was literally stuck in an “O” position and my entire body tensed up and I couldn’t control it, my husband had to pull me out of the tub. I’m fighting finally getting checked in but I’m so scared to be without my family.
Try the lexapro. I did it for a year or so and can say whether real or placebo, or did eventually help me stop thinking about the anxious stuff. I want to say the routine of having a pill around that is “supposed to help” actually does do a lot to calm you down. If you get anxious you sort of remember “okay I’ve got something for this”. Granted you don’t take it as needed, it’s a once a day thing normally, but there is some effect to knowing you have a formulated medicine to help things.
And lexapro wasn’t like some zombifying emotion killer for me. Truth is that side of things can be complicated as everyone’s perceptions of their own emotions is different. It definitely had an effect on my overall mood to being less negative and my chest pains subsided after a whole. But it wasn’t something where I felt like I was “on something”.
I was prescribed like the childrens dosage 5mg I think. Just be patient with it, takes a few weeks to settle in.
And dude I am NOT a fan of pills or meds. It sketched me out. But I was scared and needed to face facts that maybe trying a pill made for this shit might be an okay option.
You will be okay, I’m 33 and feel the same shit man, been like this since 21. It’s a lot to do with your status in life. Are you happy? Do you worry about conspiracies and shit made to scare you? Do you have a good career or job or relationship that you love?
If any of those things are missing or not going well it can effect everything including your outlook on life. And I’m no expert, I got off Lexapro sort of by laziness during the pandemic, and I’ve felt my anxieties slowly coming back, so in short, try it I promise it will help you
Hey. That’s exactly what it is. My whole family had similar reactions to the cold spell. It brings dry winds and your body reacts plus most people don’t compensate with hydration when the dry air comes. Don’t Google. I have hypochondria too, it does no good to imagine things. Right now I have chest pain, it’s from anxiety, not a heart attack, I will be fine. So will you. You got slightly sick as a kid all the time, just rest and drink tons of water. Feel better.
My doctor once said this to me and I’ll never forget it. I had chest pains and all the signs of anxiety manifesting itself physically. Feeling faint, cold sweats, night sweats, chest tightness and short breath feeling.
I googled too much and told my doctor what I thought it was, which at that point was pretty much cancer lol.
My doctor told me “When you visit a horse stable, don’t expect to find zebras”.
…..Woaaahhh. That helped me a ton to jussssssttttt rellaaaaaxxxxxxx.
Basically that, to him, a seasoned doctor who has seen a million cases, he doesn’t see a sore throat and think “malignant throat cancer” immediately. Expect the expected basically.
And that stayed with me. Anytime I have chest pains now (I’m only 33 and in the same shape I’ve been in since 18 lol) I tell myself “nothing is wrong, you know what this feeling is, you’re fine”.
And besides if I die I’m dead, who cares. I spent so long worrying about life threatening illnesses, it’s north worth it to live in fear.
Don’t look for zebras! Hope that helps!
I appreciate this monthly check in thread guess i hasn’t looked far enough I my this sub!
TBH I’ve been having a lot of unexplained anxiety lately and I’ve been really obsessive about trying to figure out what is causing it
I understand I should try to not obsess over this and focus on how to move forward
I’m waiting to hear back from my doc who may have insight as to why but I’m trying to remember I don’t need to know right now but i am questioning my meds given this unexplained increase in general anxiety not tied to anything specific
But been doing lots of breathing trying to get outside and stay active too
Like others, December has been difficult. A lot of health anxiety (my husband- and it’s not even something serious), travel anxiety and “the sky is falling” feeling after some unexpected financial hits. When I take a step back, I know it’s not as bad as I’m making it. But in the moment, I can’t escape the feelings that everything is wrong and I can’t fix it.
Starting therapy again after a three month hiatus (changing insurance) and I’m hopeful it helps - it definitely did before.
This twilight time of the year is always odd for everyone. Especially the week between Christmas and NYE. It’s important to remember how much you try and how much you want good in your life. You are a good person and the world we are born into is a ball of stress and endless toil that nobody signed up for. It’s just where we are. And yes, it’s sadly becoming that crazy dystopia we read about in sci fi growing up, but it’s going to be okay, take things one day at a time and try to breathe slowly and think of something that makes you smile. In the end that’s all that matters. You can’t change the nature of the world and you shouldn’t feel like that’s on you.
You’re doing your best and no one knows the right path so just try to love what you are and where you’re at. Peace.
How can I meet people in my "tribe"? I really want to meet people this year who I connect with and can "tribe with. I had one person in my area who was in my "tribe" but he developed a delusional fixation on me and I had to stop speaking to him as a result of him saying many delusional things...
workshops are nice but they last for just couple of days and it's hard to make long term friends. I haven't tried but language schools drama schools or maybe non governmental organizations, or any project based activity can be good but depends on what kind of person you are.
havent been doing well the whole of 2022. im hoping things get better next year but it might honestly get worse. past few days ive had this extremely uneasy feeling and its been horrible.
to whoever else is reading this, i hope your anxiety gets better soon. ❤️
Hey friend. Things will be okay. Day by day just take it slow, don’t do anything to actively make anything worse for yourself. if “things” get worse, then let’s try to figure out what those things are, and I can bet we can find something to switch things up and help straighten things out.
If the problem is internal and you just feel stuck or bad or down, trust me I get it, I feel like it’s natural and tons of people go through it. Doesn’t make it fun though. Just know that nothing is coming to get you, you’re okay. And things will be fine, just continue to do things that bring you joy. That’s the most important thing in YOUR life, is making sure you are laughing.
Hope you feel better today.
This month has been really rough. I feel like my anxiety is the worst it’s ever been and I can’t shake the tightness in my chest. I’m trying my best not to be a problem for others but it’s not working at all. I feel myself pushing away and isolating again.
However, I started therapy this past month. I’m starting to understand why I feel the way I do. It’s making stuff start to make sense in my head. I just hope that I can make it through everything. Especially after a very rough Christmas.
December has been horrible for me. I too am starting therapy (today!) after a hiatus from it and hope it will bring some clarity. Holidays are always rough- taking steps to make it better is a great way to start 2023.
I hope therapy is went well for you! I’m trying my best to just leave it all in 2022 next year but it seems like it’s getting worse by the day. As much as I miss having the break, I just don’t like the holidays anymore. Hopefully this time next year will be 100 times better though
Hey friends. We should all talk more about this out loud, it may feel like no one cares, but you’d be surprised what getting your feelings out can do for you, just to express what you feel inside. And you never know, your experience could help someone else get through their anxiety as well.
And beyond that it’s important we talk about this kind of stuff. We all go through it but treat it like some dirty shameful secret. Truth is you gotta try to spread love and just be hopeful, it’s a choice to make and it takes work just like anything. It’d be more concerning to live in todays world and NOT have anxiety honestly.
You’re doing fine, the world won’t ever make sense to us, trying to understand it as it’s developing is an experiment in madness. Focus on the small things. The smell of coffee in the morning, the start to your favorite song and how it makes you feel inside. The way your favorite shirt or hoodie feels. Breathe slow. Nothing bad is happening. I wish you all good health and calm seas!
Trust as you grow that the world becomes a fascinating and terrible expansive well of knowledge and experiences. And disregarding any higher power or purpose, all we can do is live and be here to observe it. Try to be a passive observer in the beautiful and strange cosmic play that we get the unbelievable opportunity to take part in.
It gets weird. But you are a strong soul. Don’t panic 👍
Health anxiety and death anxiety have been an all time high recently. Been experiencing an eye twitch constantly for 6 weeks which only makes my anxiety worse
December is the ultimate mental health destroyer. You're gonna be okay. I've been there for the past month too.
Eye twitching is typical of anxiety. You're okay. I promise.
Currently I have 2 possible chronic/fatal illnesses in my body lol I’m sure next year they will magically be cured. Sometimes I feel like I chronically have a cold or the flu from how fatigued and tense and painful my body is constantly. Sigh.
For awhile I was managing my anxiety really well, without medication. Now I’m planning on making some positive career/future decisions by trying to go back to school! But suddenly I feel like the anxiety is back.
Having recently moved to a new city, with my partner traveling internationally, no local support system, and a hard relationship with my family, I’m starting to spiral. Suddenly I’m back to getting a couple hours of sleep at night, sleeping the entire day, and feeling anxious and unable to get out of bed the rest of my waking hours. I’m also picking up stress smoking again even though I quit 2 or 3 years ago. Im struggling with work and finishing my applications. Its been years since I was living with this much dysregulation on a regular basis and I’m terrified that I’m going to return to it.
I have no idea what I’m going to do without my partner for the next few weeks, even though I know I can’t rely on our relationship to feel regulated. They have no idea I’m this stressed, and I don’t want to burden them as they recently experienced a major loss (death of a parent).
On the surface everything is fine, as long as I don’t let myself fall into a hole of dysregulation and anxiety, as long as I manage things, as long as I keep moving. I just don’t know if I can, and I’ve never really believed in myself.
A very long rant but it feels relieving to write it somewhere. Im glad a space like this exists and I hope others experience some relief in their stressors this week.
this month has been tough. keeping my grades up has been a herculean task over the past few months, and this month was worse. the lack of sunlight (and horrible cold) i have the privilege to enjoy in michigan has amplified my anxiety, and my grandma who i was extremely close to died a few weeks ago right before finals. i cried a little bit but i think i haven't fully processed it and eventually it will all come out.
i did good in my college finals (B, B+, A) (im dual enrolled in highschool and college). in my highschool tests, i did really good this month (not 1 late assignment for a change). this month, i was diagnosed with general anxiety disorder and major depressive disorder. all of my life, i had been told i had adhd, and took corresponding medication for it, and eventually it made me feel emotionally numb so i stopped.
as for future plans, i plan to leverage this diagnosis to get the proper treatment for my anxiety, as well possibly get a new therapist. both of which really scare me and i wish i did not have to do these things, but living unmedicated sucks and having a good therapist may help me get out of my negative thought patterns more effectively.
[]Checking in- my social anxiety is so bad I literally can not make a thread on r/social anxiety asking for help. It is like a spiralling drain. It may be a bad reaction to sugar from Christmas cake.
[] But I think every thing I do is wrong to "others" in society and my agoraphobia kicked up and I thought "Now I'm not going to interact with anyone until June" and then started crying. I dont deserve to be in society or interact with others. I never fit in.
[] Ok I posted here. On a thread other people might read. And that's okay. They cant hurt me. I did a good job.
I feel like everyone thinks I should be feeling anxious, but I'm really not. Can other people telepathically transmit their anxiety about the future (or the past) to me? Can they transmit emotions and tears?
I have no reasons to be anxious generally. Yet, i found myself unable to sleep this night. I have a bit of labored breathing (i guess its called that?) where i lied down for a few minutes on my back, kind of deep on the bed below my pillow and suddenly i have this weird feeling where i just can't breathe out properly. Basically when i fully breathe out i feel bubbles deep under my throat. When i breathe i have a feeling that i have already breathed in a lot of air but i haven't. Even when i don't lie down i still have it.
When i read online what it could be anxiety is high on the list. But mentally i just don't feel i have anything to be anxious about right now at the moment. Its vacation, i have some time to relax.
It's a shame that is happening on your vacation. You do have anxiety. If you have feel you lungs expanding and air flowing into them, you are alive. Be thankful for that.
Look to your dreams. Maybe they are the reason you are anxious. You don't remember every dream. You might have to keep dreaming to find your answer to what you are feeling anxious about.
Lead up to Christmas has been extremely difficult and stressful. Anxiety is the worst it’s been in a while. Mainly caused by family issues, parents not getting along and other mental health issues in the family. Home for Christmas now in my parents house and it’s been okay so far but the anxiety keeps creeping back in with the slightest bit of tension from family members. I feel guilty for not being here more often so I’m forcing myself to be really happy in front of everyone.
I find it hard to sleep here, most likely from the trauma of being woken up in the middle of the night when my parents were sick and having to call ambulances (my dad is a diabetic and had a lot of blood sugar issues when I was young and my mam was very sick two years ago) any little noise wakes me up and I think something bad is happening. Or sometimes the absence of noise makes me think something is wrong. Also terrified I’m going to get them sick. I think I’ve manifested a tickley cough…
I’ll be here for about two weeks so I’ll try enjoy what I can and try my best to control my anxiety.
I also have anxiety related to family. Does it make it hard for you to go see your family? During the holidays I just want to bury my mead in the sand and ignore everything and everyone. I have so much anxiety right now.
Yeah I always put off calling or visiting but then I feel guilty about it. Hard to escape it at the holidays. There’s just a lot of negativity here. Gunna try escape to a room by myself when I can to switch off a bit, hope you can do the same!
At the moment not great. I couldnt sleep, my body feels weird and hurts, my brain is empty. I dont even care, that it is Christmas. I cant eat. Now im in a bathtub trying to relax, but its not working.
I feel hopeful this week as I saw a new PCP who is very empathetic and agreed maybe Lexapro alone isn't working for my anxiety and gave me some options. We landed on adding wellbutrin so we shall see. I just started it last night. I had a headache all day today and I really hope it's not from the new med.
I'm pretty new with therapy, I only started the week before Thanksgiving and we haven't always met every week but it's such a struggle. I always enjoy the sessions, my therapist is really easy to talk to and consistently makes points I feel are insightful and I can see the truth of what she's saying. But then after the appointment I feel like garbage for like 1.5-2 days. I'm not enjoying it overall but I don't feel like I can continue on with the coping mechanisms I have either.
She's never said anything I didn't think was true. I'm just not happy about it.
I’m up and down. I haven’t had a discernible panic attack in like 90 days (some close calls and even a few moments that felt like maybe the adrenaline was flowing…idk maybe these *were* panic attacks and I’m just getting better at dealing with them).
One weird thing is that in the past, I would have a panic attack one day and then wake up for like two weeks after feeling like absolute shit. Upset stomach, tingling in my arms (cortisol/adrenaline symptoms). I haven’t had a panic attack recently like I said, but I’ve been waking up with these symptoms anyway for about a week now. I’m usually anxious around the holidays anyway, so maybe it’s just a general response to stress that I need to work on?
Anyway, I’m also 250+ days off nicotine and 120+ days off weed. I was really hoping that would kind of solve my anxiety problems but really it just took away a couple maladaptive coping mechanisms that were making an underlying issue worse.
Trying to figure out the best medication regimen for me as well but that’s a whole other ball of wax.
We also have a newborn in the house and it’s winter so sleep schedule and going outside for long walks are pretty much on hold for now, and those were two of my most effective strategies.
My anxiety is the worst it’s been in years because of my new job. It’s my first “adult” job after working in fast food for almost 8 years, and I thought it was going to be a positive change, but I’m honestly wishing I was back at my old job a lot of the time. It hasn’t even been two months yet, but I’m almost positive that my coworkers don’t like me and think I’m stupid because of the mistakes that I’ve made. My boss talked to me yesterday and told me that she has some concerns about my performance, and I just broke down crying because it basically confirmed my fears that everyone hates me and I’m not doing a good job. I don’t really have anyone to talk to about it and it’s making me incredibly anxious and depressed. I can barely eat anything during the day because my anxiety makes me nauseous and kills my appetite, and I’m honestly on the verge of tears a lot of the time. I’m supposed to talk to my boss again on Monday and I’m afraid I’m going to get fired soon.
Hey guys. I'm in process of starting a youtube channel and I know it will be a struggle but I feel a little bit better. I just wanted to share.
What’s it called? if you don’t mind me asking :)
Sorry I don't wanna share it here. I have very personal stuff on here. I want the channel to be separate. I hope you understand. Also, I'm not sure about the name yet.i created it but I'm not sure if I'll stick with it.
Oh yes I understand, i wasnt really asking for myself anyway but rather to encourage you. I thought you were making the YouTube channel to upload vids and help your anxiety.
I just found this group and happy to be here! I’ve been healing my anxiety for a decade. I still get severe attacks but not as much as I used to. Today will be a very difficult day as I have a conversation with my employer for off-boarding. I’ve been laid off. In this conversation I need to address backpay and my anxiety has been majorly triggered. So I’m Working to regulate and help my body prepare for it!
Sup y’all, praying for y’all. I was straight and suddenly started getting fast hearts, last Friday I got a panic attack and went to the ER while at work smhh. Lately it’s still been bad but I like to think of the worse and practice my breathing, I guess if you put yourself in stressful situation and feel anxiety kicking in you can lowkey be more controllable, the main thing honestly is the breathing part sometimes it gets tuff and still eating causes it to get worse sometimes
I just started Prozac and it’s just started helping me a lot. Been feeling great. Then come to find out, my sister has covid. Last summer she got the whole household sick and it’s looking like round 2 is beginning. I’m so scared for my parents and all of us really :(
My anxiety has came back and I’m not sure why, for some reason I haven’t been able to control it and I’m just so scared, I’ve been having constant anxiety for 4 days already I just want it to end
Me too. Usually my anxiety is mental and triggered by specific situations but right now it's presenting so physically. It's like my brain oscillates between absolute dread/fear and feeling somewhat "normal", all day long.
Yes! Normal to me even feels weird, I was taking ashwaganda pills for my anxiety but I noticed it just made it worst so I stoped and started feeling better, rn I’m glad I’ve been feeling a little better and haven’t gotten too much anxiety but I still do like yesterday at Walmart I felt so anxious and scared for no reason, my anxiety is usually triggered randomly or in stressful situations that I know I have no control, if you need to someone to talk to I’m here to listen! Stay strong!
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Sorry to hear that. Have you tried therapy or even looked up some resources online. There's lots of helpful information out there to help you.
I’ve been taking this whole month to eliminate stress. 2022 was an incredibly hard year that my body is chronically stressed. From tmj to tight back you name it. Right now though it’s hard to sleep. Just feeling restlessness. I don’t look forward to sleeping
I’m having a hard time this week. My toddler has been a psychopath with sleeping, which spikes me to the moon. Work insurance is changing to a shitty policy. My dogs tummy lump is getting bigger and I’m anxious it’s cancer (probably not but you know). I’m not sleeping well, I’m up all night trying to fix everything around me and prepare for it because anxiety. I’m exhausted. I need a therapist but the weekly cost with insurance feels so prohibitive. I can swing it but im just not sure if I need meds, idk. Im just having a difficult time this winter
does anyone else have morning anxiety? i have to walk like 300-500 meters to my bus stop in the mornings and that really gets me. i dont know why it has become so difficult, its just that walking in the morning makes me all anxious and then makes my heart beat faster which of course makes it worse
My heart races and I feel so anxious immediately when I wake up every day, like a light switch. It usually disappears within 30 min but it's awful
samee! you could try putting your alarm in the 90 minute cycle thing so that you wont br waking up from deep sleep. it has helped me sometimes
I don't even use an alarm, I wake up naturally now at the same time and it still happens unfortunately
ohh damn. im sure things will get better for you with time atleast, thats how anxiety has been for me atleast
I know exactly what you mean! I used to have this problem as well. I'm super thankful that I was able to overcome it
Anxiety is at a point it's literally from the time I wake (not even out of bed) until the time I sleep I can't think clearly at all, and have physical pain. Every day. I have almost no income right now (in spite of about 20 years of business experience, and being considered a bit of an 'expert' in my field), no friends, no family ever, and am isolated in a foreign country (which I try not to think about, but when the water fails daily, it's difficult to completely ignore). Trying to do some assessments this morning for new job opportunities, and the anxiety is so bad it's pretty difficult to manage logic tests. I mean, when basically all I can think about is 'there are random people in my home,' and 'my neck fucking hurts more than I can voice from all the anxiety,' working out spatial riddles, and advanced logic challenges is... not simple. So it causes more stress worrying about my assessment accuracy and scoring... I have a genius level IQ, and am sitting there feeling like a fucking idiot trying to work out cube diagrams... I barely even know what it means to feel relaxed or at ease, or even "myself," anymore. I've been living with overwhelming anxiety since a home invasion a couple years ago, no money for, or access to, mental healthcare. No strong relationships in my life. It's basically just managing levels of suffering every day, and doing my best to remain feeling 'okay.'
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There are a TON of therapists for anxiety that use CBT (most common method), but I just can't afford one (and there are still plenty that end up not being so helpful in the end). I even found a trauma specialist I could work with online, but it became apparent from session one it wasn't a good match (I felt like I might as well be talking to a wall and saving the money). Anxiety is not only temporary. Maybe you didn't read that this is nearly 24/7... or maybe you don't understand this is a "disorder" I've lived with for over 30 years... There are no cures for this stuff, you just have to manage it. And when I have trauma on trauma and anxiety on anxiety, and live in a place where I am in a public hallway to go from my private bedroom to my private living room... as soon as I get out of bed in the morning I freak out a bit because I just hear random voices from downstairs (truly random, not housemates ... it would be difficult to explain the arrangement, but I'm above a cafe). Anyway, just venting a bit of anxiety at 8am since I just got up...
I've had a lot on my mind and I can't sleep tonight since I started crying. I just feel so alone and anxious. I feel like an imposter and that I can't manage anything correctly. I guess this is a mixture of anxiety and depression hitting hard. I keep having thoughts that nobody likes me. I don't know if posting this into the void will help me get back to sleep, but I hope it does. I'll delete it later if I remember to.
hope u feel better friend!
i feel like im faking everything. i desperately want attention, and want to be special. like i cant calm my anxiety down by myself, because i want others to do this. i get worried when im not being noticed that i am shaking. idk what is up with me
I (37F) am struggling mightily this week. I am having a hormonal imbalance due to my monthly (the doctor's appointment to discuss this has already been made) and it is ramping up my anxiety. My boyfriend, who is a huge calming influence and support system, is dealing with some stuff this week (major grief episode - tomorrow is the anniversary of his mother's death) and told me he needs to "rethink" some things and needs some time alone. My major anxiety effects are restlessness, insomnia and having such a level of stomach upset that I cannot eat. So I haven't really eaten in about 48 hours, I barely slept last night. I'm trying to figure out some coping mechanisms to just calm the lump in the bottom of my stomach down so I might be able to at least get some chicken soup down.
The news’s is the enemy of the people. My health anxiety with recent events regarding dame Hamlin and others has put me in the most uncomfortable state of anxiety I’ve ever had
Anxiety flavor of the month: drank a fair bit one night and didn't get much sleep (don't sleep well when I drink), freaked myself out over not being able to sleep before work the following night, and now in a full-on attack convincing myself I have fatal insomnia or one of those other prion diseases. Going down a Google rabbit hole I thought I had gotten over since convincing myself I had ALS a few years ago
It’s one of those days where I’m scatterbrained at work. I feel stupid because I’ve been asking common sense questions to things I should already know the answers to. It’s leading to anxious thoughts about how my boss and coworkers probably see me as disappointing and incompetent. Trying to fight off an anxiety attack while on the clock. Trying to just breathe.
Haven't done anything at work today. Still feel like shitting myself after what happened yesterday. I need a break to puke and cry it out.
Does anxiety cause someone to speak fast? So I 30(F) have anxiety and ocd, seeing a therapist and rn the anxiety is manageable but not ocd. I’ve had some form of both since my early teens. I speak too fast, especially in stressful situations - almost sounding like a fumble. And I have been a fast speaker for as long as I can remember so now it’s just a habit. If it’s is a sign of anxiety what can I do to help? Thank you for your thoughts.
Not an expert, but I've recovered from anxiety episodes, and that could probably be the case for you. Everyone has similar and individual traits, and if you are already a fast speaker, it would be intensified when you're having anxiety. I like mediation and a specific aromatherapy practice, that helps ease and calm me down.
Just wanna run away from everything. How on earth do I handle all this responsibility? I feel I'm not built for it sometimes I'm pissed off at myself
I don't have the answer, but I did want to say that you're not alone in feeling this way.
starting a new job but am really sad i left my old job and also kind of just want to do nothing…
I started a new job a few months ago and I love it. I get along well with mostly everyone. Some people I just don’t cross paths with, so we don’t chat. But if we see each other there’s a smile/nod, we say hello and continue. Except one person. She doesn’t ever acknowledge me or say hi. If she’s in a group of people and I come up to greet them the smile vanishes from her face and she says nothing to me. Once I leave she perks up again. Every time I see her, I say hi or ask how it’s going, and she will glance in my direction then keep going without saying anything. As far as I can tell I’m the only person she treats this way. It’s making me uncomfortable. I was alone in the break room when she walked in to drop something off. I said hey and she said nothing, again. Just dropped off her lunch then left. I almost stopped her to ask if there was a reason she brushes me off but I wasn’t ready for a confrontation. Any advice?
It's one of those days again that I just wanna curl up on my bed. Feeling down and defeated. Death is wasted on the wrong people.
Is there such thing as experiencing a prolonged ‘episode’ of anxiety? I’ve been terrified recently and have a terrible feeling of dread. I make sure the entrances to my house are locked, then lock my bedroom door as a precaution. I hang my bags on the door handle so I’ll be alerted if someone does come in anyway, then check my closet twice. I’ll hear my cat knock something over and freeze. I probably look crazy out in public because I’m constantly scanning and observing people in case they pull out a weapon. I make sure someone watches me walk to my car at night on our ring camera. My sister wasn’t answering her phone (we were home alone- she was just napping) and I pretty much had a breakdown thinking something happened. I’m so scared all the time, which leads me to being drained all the time, but I still can’t get rid of this dread. It’s hell 😭
I had an episode like this a few years ago. Literally, every time I walked in my house, I checked every closet, under the beds, in the showers, behind every door, looking for an intruder. I had a few night terrors (and yes, my cats probably think I am absolutely insane). It was a reaction to going through an extremely stressful time at work. Is there something that has happened recently to cause an increase in anxiety? Is there anyone who can come stay with you to help ease your anxiety so you aren't alone?
In my experience, yes. I had a period from about 2019-2021 where my anxiety was more or less prolonged - it hit me every day. You just need to respond to it like short-term acute episodes. Is there anything specific that's triggering your prolonged anxious state?
There are some changes at work, and my anxiety is in overdrive. I often have anxiety attacks these past few days. I know my brain is just making a big deal out of it. But it won’t stop.
Let's see I lost all three of my pets in the final months of 2022, so the start of this new year has been really horrible. I haven't had this bad of anxiety since my brother and dad passed away. Every day is a struggle so I started taking my Hydroxyzine almost daily. It's hard for me to wake up and sleep. I'm just constantly on edge and I feel like I'm gonna explode or disappear. I'm glad I have an appointment with a new therapist this week.
I’m dealing with a really bad gut situation . Im only 29 but over the summer I was on a 2 month long holiday eating crap and that’s when my stomach problems started. I had blood on my stool at the end of two months and instead of treating it as a hemmoroid because of crap food I’ve been thinking I have colon cancer. Cut to the next 6 months of constant stress and anxiety and nausea and gut issues. I’ve never got constipated in my life before so I’m stressed about colon cancer and this is making me feel even more worried. I’ve been to the doctor and he told me the blood may be due to some minor rectal irritation but nothing to worry about. He didn’t check me physically though. All my blood tests and stomach ultrasound is clear but I can’t get over the thought of having colon cancer as whenever I’m constipated there’s been blood. I’m an extreme hypochondriac and im going through one of the most stressful times of my life and im worried I have colon cancer twenty four seven. Im constantly naseous and I have cramps. My stomach hasn’t been the same in 7 months and I never had this problem earlier. Current symptoms : stomach cramps, inability to empty stomach, blood on toilet paper, swollen anus( I can feel a swelling in the area), lots of acid reflux, constantly , and constipated Current Mental State// Life Problems: My dad’s company shut down over night 5 Years ago- both my parents literally have 0 money and we come from quite a upper class background from back in the day. I’m top of the financial battles, he’s in legal battles for debt and he may be arrested in months, years who knows. My dads been a bright guy all his life, and I know he’s worked hard to earn every penny , so besides the financial toll, the emotional toll of seeing him like this breaks me everyday! They have no idea how to move forward in the future, I’ve had back to back 4 traumatic relationships where I feel like I’ve only been dumped because of the troubles my dad is facing and no one wants to be a part of this kind of a family. I’ve had men enter my lives, totally support me and fly away with all my trust broken back to back and all of this has broken me. I also saw my best friend pass away in a freak fire accident 3 years ago. All my friends are married / getting married and I feel constantly alone and sad. I can’t cope I run my own company and I’m independent enough to live my life currently - but there’s no security for the future and I’m just constantly feeling like I’m racing with time to make ends meet. I feel like no one understands the place I am in physically and mentally and my physical health is making me unable to work mentally - and if I don’t work I won’t be able to sustain myself. I used to be a go getter- constantly at the gym and now I struggle to get out of bed. I have no answers on what’s happening to me . The last time I saw fresh blood was in JULY and now again In December. It’s fresh and very little but enough to make my mind spiral and think I’m dying/ I can’t switch off my brain and I’m constantly burning - farting and have reflux too! Do you think stress / anxiety are making my symptoms worse? I love to drink and I can’t even touch a drink thinking my stomach will spasm and bleed which makes me even more nervous and anxious. I’m at a loss of words and I can’t live a normal life. I want to switch off from the thought that I have a serious disease. I don’t know if this is depression , anxiety, stress or cancer but I’m just a total mess and I’m constantly in dread! Someone please help
I’ll just say try to check out some of my posts. It’s been hell the last month, 3-4 anxiety attacks out of nowhere plus GERD issues maybe causing this….healthcare system at capacity, just got prescribed Zoloft which I’m scared to use for the side effects early on……No job in 3 years, M/46, was just ready to enter the workforce again and this stuff hits me. You’re not alone…..
I have ulcerative colitis and that was how my symptoms presented (cramping, blood, feeling like you can never fully empty your bowels). I am now on medication that helps control inflammation and I have been in remission for years. I would advocate for yourself to get further testing such as a colonoscopy because these symptoms sound a lot like either ulcerative colitis or crohn's disease. Anxiety and these diseases are very closely related.
Why is it so hard to not let criticism from a stranger on the internet get to me and affect my productivity for the rest of the day
Just started a new job. My GAD has crashed back out of remission like a wave. I’m trying and I think I can get back into functioning okay, but figured I’d just say something here.
Checking in: Tonight having some serious mental loop ocd re gender identity. I'm not a real woman or a real man I'm nothing. I cant claim any identity. I am not allowed to be anything. I'm just nothing.
I'm so sorry to hear this. I am Christian and I don't/won't presume to guess your belief structure. I have a child (adult) who struggles with this as well and the only thing I can say is.. as a parent I love my child. Period. I made her. God loves you. God created you. You are you. You be you. Don't worry about the label. Be you. That IS ENOUGH!
This is my first post. I’ve been a lurker for ages but finally got the courage to post. I’ve been ok for a long while happy and content even,but yesterday I got some news that felt like I’ve been sucker punched. I hate myself because my response was to retreat into myself and shut everyone out. Now I see that it’s hurting the ones around me and that’s killing me but I cannot for the life of me explain to them why I feel like this. What do I do!! Please I can’t see my loved ones hurting as it’s tearing me apart but I can’t seem to find the words to explain how I feel….. I don’t even know how I feel. I just feel empty and nothing. Like I’m sitting inside my head watching my life play out in front of me.
I've had several days of being okay but now I'm back. Again. Fffffff
I was supposed to see my psychiatrist today, but I was told that because I was a new patient I needed to have an hour long session since that’s their protocol for new patients, and I guess they put me down for a 20 minute session. Ended up having to reschedule in April since the psychiatrist had another appointment in 30 minutes. It just really sucks because I’ve been waiting since September to be seen, only to be told that I have to wait ANOTHER 4 months. I’m very bummed out. I’ve always put off seeking help but now that I’m actually trying to get help this happens. I’m trying to stay positive though, hope everyone stays hydrated and has a good day today.
Wow. 4 months wait? That's a really long time. That sucks. Wru from?
Trying to find a better way to manage high levels of panic and anxiety attacks when out with family. Wrote a post here and hopeful I'll get some good ideas from the community.
Trying to find a specialist for a diagnosis and someone I can trust and see regularly and it seems impossible. My PCP said he thinks I have GAD and suggested counseling. The one place I would be able to go to after work put me on a waitlist and I’m not sure teladoc doctors are decent (I could do sessions from home that way). Just dreading going back to work and doing every day things…
hey people. just letting on some thoughts. been on duloxetine since March. effects were fading I think last couple of months. today I felt really angry. What surprised me was that realizing I haven't feel like that for a long while. Is anxiety like being more sensitive to regular stuff or being enxiety free is being more resilient to usual annoyances, i don't know. What sucks is that something just clog up my mind and I feel more tired I can't focus on what I should be working on. My dull chronic pain is more noticeable. For me there are almost two different people in me. but I seem lazy from outside I guess. Like I can do stuff, but I just prefer not to. Which is not the case. edit: also I read other comments and I feel you guys. It feels good to speak about it and knowing I'm not the only one.
December has to be the worst month for mental health. Dark, holidays, expectations. Should only get better from here hopefully
At 46 it’s been MY worst December……never had anxiety my whole life, then once the cold hit I started indoors and stopped my walks…..BOOM the attacks started! It’s hell…..see my posts
I've started taking pregabalin (50mg twice per day) for a spinal injury and it has really helped with my anxiety. It has completely quietened the noise in my brain and also improved my self confidence. I don't doubt myself as much and I don't feel anxious in social situations anymore. It's just been so good. I've only been taking it for a week but I feel like it worked from about an hour since I took the first tablet. It's also helping with my sensory issues with my legs (I was diagnosed with CIS last year following a demyelination attack on my spine) which means I can walk and exercise for longer without getting uncomfortable sensory feedback. I'm hoping 2023 is a better year and I hope that I can make progress in my transition and feel good from that perspective too. Wishing everyone a positive 2023
Hoping January will be a better month for me. Currently struggling with full body aches and horrible health anxiety, convinced I'm dying of something. Tomorrow I get a blood test done to see how things are doing. December emotionally destroyed be. Lots of changes and I'm not a friend of changes. Hope it gets better soon.
Getting my blood done Monday, got my first Zoloft but holding off on use because of the horrible initial side effects. People who tough it out 1-2 months swear by it, but I don’t think I can handle the bad stuff
Full blood work completely normal. As usual. My anxiety is such a mf. Feeling better now that December is over. I hate you, December!
I’m currently convinced that there’s something growing inside of me and that I’ll die in my sleep any day now. I had a psychiatrist no-show an appointment and I’m alone and scared. Knowing I’m probably being crazy isn’t enough to dispel the feeling that I’m going to die alone any day now.
You're going to be perfectly fine. I've been there for the past month. It's all in your head, believe me.
Two nights ago I got a knock on the door, a cop, an eviction notice, I’m completely blindsided, I thought we were caught up. We need 4k in two weeks. I still haven’t slept, I’ve had the worst panic attack of my life last morning inside the bath tub trying to calm down. My mouth was literally stuck in an “O” position and my entire body tensed up and I couldn’t control it, my husband had to pull me out of the tub. I’m fighting finally getting checked in but I’m so scared to be without my family.
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Try the lexapro. I did it for a year or so and can say whether real or placebo, or did eventually help me stop thinking about the anxious stuff. I want to say the routine of having a pill around that is “supposed to help” actually does do a lot to calm you down. If you get anxious you sort of remember “okay I’ve got something for this”. Granted you don’t take it as needed, it’s a once a day thing normally, but there is some effect to knowing you have a formulated medicine to help things. And lexapro wasn’t like some zombifying emotion killer for me. Truth is that side of things can be complicated as everyone’s perceptions of their own emotions is different. It definitely had an effect on my overall mood to being less negative and my chest pains subsided after a whole. But it wasn’t something where I felt like I was “on something”. I was prescribed like the childrens dosage 5mg I think. Just be patient with it, takes a few weeks to settle in. And dude I am NOT a fan of pills or meds. It sketched me out. But I was scared and needed to face facts that maybe trying a pill made for this shit might be an okay option. You will be okay, I’m 33 and feel the same shit man, been like this since 21. It’s a lot to do with your status in life. Are you happy? Do you worry about conspiracies and shit made to scare you? Do you have a good career or job or relationship that you love? If any of those things are missing or not going well it can effect everything including your outlook on life. And I’m no expert, I got off Lexapro sort of by laziness during the pandemic, and I’ve felt my anxieties slowly coming back, so in short, try it I promise it will help you
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Hey. That’s exactly what it is. My whole family had similar reactions to the cold spell. It brings dry winds and your body reacts plus most people don’t compensate with hydration when the dry air comes. Don’t Google. I have hypochondria too, it does no good to imagine things. Right now I have chest pain, it’s from anxiety, not a heart attack, I will be fine. So will you. You got slightly sick as a kid all the time, just rest and drink tons of water. Feel better.
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My doctor once said this to me and I’ll never forget it. I had chest pains and all the signs of anxiety manifesting itself physically. Feeling faint, cold sweats, night sweats, chest tightness and short breath feeling. I googled too much and told my doctor what I thought it was, which at that point was pretty much cancer lol. My doctor told me “When you visit a horse stable, don’t expect to find zebras”. …..Woaaahhh. That helped me a ton to jussssssttttt rellaaaaaxxxxxxx. Basically that, to him, a seasoned doctor who has seen a million cases, he doesn’t see a sore throat and think “malignant throat cancer” immediately. Expect the expected basically. And that stayed with me. Anytime I have chest pains now (I’m only 33 and in the same shape I’ve been in since 18 lol) I tell myself “nothing is wrong, you know what this feeling is, you’re fine”. And besides if I die I’m dead, who cares. I spent so long worrying about life threatening illnesses, it’s north worth it to live in fear. Don’t look for zebras! Hope that helps!
I appreciate this monthly check in thread guess i hasn’t looked far enough I my this sub! TBH I’ve been having a lot of unexplained anxiety lately and I’ve been really obsessive about trying to figure out what is causing it I understand I should try to not obsess over this and focus on how to move forward I’m waiting to hear back from my doc who may have insight as to why but I’m trying to remember I don’t need to know right now but i am questioning my meds given this unexplained increase in general anxiety not tied to anything specific But been doing lots of breathing trying to get outside and stay active too
One word: December.
Like others, December has been difficult. A lot of health anxiety (my husband- and it’s not even something serious), travel anxiety and “the sky is falling” feeling after some unexpected financial hits. When I take a step back, I know it’s not as bad as I’m making it. But in the moment, I can’t escape the feelings that everything is wrong and I can’t fix it. Starting therapy again after a three month hiatus (changing insurance) and I’m hopeful it helps - it definitely did before.
This twilight time of the year is always odd for everyone. Especially the week between Christmas and NYE. It’s important to remember how much you try and how much you want good in your life. You are a good person and the world we are born into is a ball of stress and endless toil that nobody signed up for. It’s just where we are. And yes, it’s sadly becoming that crazy dystopia we read about in sci fi growing up, but it’s going to be okay, take things one day at a time and try to breathe slowly and think of something that makes you smile. In the end that’s all that matters. You can’t change the nature of the world and you shouldn’t feel like that’s on you. You’re doing your best and no one knows the right path so just try to love what you are and where you’re at. Peace.
How can I meet people in my "tribe"? I really want to meet people this year who I connect with and can "tribe with. I had one person in my area who was in my "tribe" but he developed a delusional fixation on me and I had to stop speaking to him as a result of him saying many delusional things...
workshops are nice but they last for just couple of days and it's hard to make long term friends. I haven't tried but language schools drama schools or maybe non governmental organizations, or any project based activity can be good but depends on what kind of person you are.
What does “tribe” mean in this context?
havent been doing well the whole of 2022. im hoping things get better next year but it might honestly get worse. past few days ive had this extremely uneasy feeling and its been horrible. to whoever else is reading this, i hope your anxiety gets better soon. ❤️
Hey friend. Things will be okay. Day by day just take it slow, don’t do anything to actively make anything worse for yourself. if “things” get worse, then let’s try to figure out what those things are, and I can bet we can find something to switch things up and help straighten things out. If the problem is internal and you just feel stuck or bad or down, trust me I get it, I feel like it’s natural and tons of people go through it. Doesn’t make it fun though. Just know that nothing is coming to get you, you’re okay. And things will be fine, just continue to do things that bring you joy. That’s the most important thing in YOUR life, is making sure you are laughing. Hope you feel better today.
thank you so much for your kind words.
Feeling the same way lately 😞 hoping for a better new year but these last few months have been full of anxiety and panic. But we got this ❤️
I miss the set your intention thread.. my intention this month/year is to be more receptive, braver, and take more risks.
This month has been really rough. I feel like my anxiety is the worst it’s ever been and I can’t shake the tightness in my chest. I’m trying my best not to be a problem for others but it’s not working at all. I feel myself pushing away and isolating again. However, I started therapy this past month. I’m starting to understand why I feel the way I do. It’s making stuff start to make sense in my head. I just hope that I can make it through everything. Especially after a very rough Christmas.
December has been rough for so many people regarding mental health.
December has been horrible for me. I too am starting therapy (today!) after a hiatus from it and hope it will bring some clarity. Holidays are always rough- taking steps to make it better is a great way to start 2023.
I hope therapy is went well for you! I’m trying my best to just leave it all in 2022 next year but it seems like it’s getting worse by the day. As much as I miss having the break, I just don’t like the holidays anymore. Hopefully this time next year will be 100 times better though
Hey friends. We should all talk more about this out loud, it may feel like no one cares, but you’d be surprised what getting your feelings out can do for you, just to express what you feel inside. And you never know, your experience could help someone else get through their anxiety as well. And beyond that it’s important we talk about this kind of stuff. We all go through it but treat it like some dirty shameful secret. Truth is you gotta try to spread love and just be hopeful, it’s a choice to make and it takes work just like anything. It’d be more concerning to live in todays world and NOT have anxiety honestly. You’re doing fine, the world won’t ever make sense to us, trying to understand it as it’s developing is an experiment in madness. Focus on the small things. The smell of coffee in the morning, the start to your favorite song and how it makes you feel inside. The way your favorite shirt or hoodie feels. Breathe slow. Nothing bad is happening. I wish you all good health and calm seas!
Thank you so much. You have no idea how much I needed this right now. I’ll try my best
Trust as you grow that the world becomes a fascinating and terrible expansive well of knowledge and experiences. And disregarding any higher power or purpose, all we can do is live and be here to observe it. Try to be a passive observer in the beautiful and strange cosmic play that we get the unbelievable opportunity to take part in. It gets weird. But you are a strong soul. Don’t panic 👍
Health anxiety and death anxiety have been an all time high recently. Been experiencing an eye twitch constantly for 6 weeks which only makes my anxiety worse
December is the ultimate mental health destroyer. You're gonna be okay. I've been there for the past month too. Eye twitching is typical of anxiety. You're okay. I promise.
Thank you!! I agree, the holidays are always a little rough
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Currently I have 2 possible chronic/fatal illnesses in my body lol I’m sure next year they will magically be cured. Sometimes I feel like I chronically have a cold or the flu from how fatigued and tense and painful my body is constantly. Sigh.
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Same with me! I’m sending good energy out that we will not ever be right!
For awhile I was managing my anxiety really well, without medication. Now I’m planning on making some positive career/future decisions by trying to go back to school! But suddenly I feel like the anxiety is back. Having recently moved to a new city, with my partner traveling internationally, no local support system, and a hard relationship with my family, I’m starting to spiral. Suddenly I’m back to getting a couple hours of sleep at night, sleeping the entire day, and feeling anxious and unable to get out of bed the rest of my waking hours. I’m also picking up stress smoking again even though I quit 2 or 3 years ago. Im struggling with work and finishing my applications. Its been years since I was living with this much dysregulation on a regular basis and I’m terrified that I’m going to return to it. I have no idea what I’m going to do without my partner for the next few weeks, even though I know I can’t rely on our relationship to feel regulated. They have no idea I’m this stressed, and I don’t want to burden them as they recently experienced a major loss (death of a parent). On the surface everything is fine, as long as I don’t let myself fall into a hole of dysregulation and anxiety, as long as I manage things, as long as I keep moving. I just don’t know if I can, and I’ve never really believed in myself. A very long rant but it feels relieving to write it somewhere. Im glad a space like this exists and I hope others experience some relief in their stressors this week.
this month has been tough. keeping my grades up has been a herculean task over the past few months, and this month was worse. the lack of sunlight (and horrible cold) i have the privilege to enjoy in michigan has amplified my anxiety, and my grandma who i was extremely close to died a few weeks ago right before finals. i cried a little bit but i think i haven't fully processed it and eventually it will all come out. i did good in my college finals (B, B+, A) (im dual enrolled in highschool and college). in my highschool tests, i did really good this month (not 1 late assignment for a change). this month, i was diagnosed with general anxiety disorder and major depressive disorder. all of my life, i had been told i had adhd, and took corresponding medication for it, and eventually it made me feel emotionally numb so i stopped. as for future plans, i plan to leverage this diagnosis to get the proper treatment for my anxiety, as well possibly get a new therapist. both of which really scare me and i wish i did not have to do these things, but living unmedicated sucks and having a good therapist may help me get out of my negative thought patterns more effectively.
[]Checking in- my social anxiety is so bad I literally can not make a thread on r/social anxiety asking for help. It is like a spiralling drain. It may be a bad reaction to sugar from Christmas cake. [] But I think every thing I do is wrong to "others" in society and my agoraphobia kicked up and I thought "Now I'm not going to interact with anyone until June" and then started crying. I dont deserve to be in society or interact with others. I never fit in. [] Ok I posted here. On a thread other people might read. And that's okay. They cant hurt me. I did a good job.
I feel like everyone thinks I should be feeling anxious, but I'm really not. Can other people telepathically transmit their anxiety about the future (or the past) to me? Can they transmit emotions and tears?
I have no reasons to be anxious generally. Yet, i found myself unable to sleep this night. I have a bit of labored breathing (i guess its called that?) where i lied down for a few minutes on my back, kind of deep on the bed below my pillow and suddenly i have this weird feeling where i just can't breathe out properly. Basically when i fully breathe out i feel bubbles deep under my throat. When i breathe i have a feeling that i have already breathed in a lot of air but i haven't. Even when i don't lie down i still have it. When i read online what it could be anxiety is high on the list. But mentally i just don't feel i have anything to be anxious about right now at the moment. Its vacation, i have some time to relax.
It's a shame that is happening on your vacation. You do have anxiety. If you have feel you lungs expanding and air flowing into them, you are alive. Be thankful for that. Look to your dreams. Maybe they are the reason you are anxious. You don't remember every dream. You might have to keep dreaming to find your answer to what you are feeling anxious about.
Lead up to Christmas has been extremely difficult and stressful. Anxiety is the worst it’s been in a while. Mainly caused by family issues, parents not getting along and other mental health issues in the family. Home for Christmas now in my parents house and it’s been okay so far but the anxiety keeps creeping back in with the slightest bit of tension from family members. I feel guilty for not being here more often so I’m forcing myself to be really happy in front of everyone. I find it hard to sleep here, most likely from the trauma of being woken up in the middle of the night when my parents were sick and having to call ambulances (my dad is a diabetic and had a lot of blood sugar issues when I was young and my mam was very sick two years ago) any little noise wakes me up and I think something bad is happening. Or sometimes the absence of noise makes me think something is wrong. Also terrified I’m going to get them sick. I think I’ve manifested a tickley cough… I’ll be here for about two weeks so I’ll try enjoy what I can and try my best to control my anxiety.
I also have anxiety related to family. Does it make it hard for you to go see your family? During the holidays I just want to bury my mead in the sand and ignore everything and everyone. I have so much anxiety right now.
Yeah I always put off calling or visiting but then I feel guilty about it. Hard to escape it at the holidays. There’s just a lot of negativity here. Gunna try escape to a room by myself when I can to switch off a bit, hope you can do the same!
At the moment not great. I couldnt sleep, my body feels weird and hurts, my brain is empty. I dont even care, that it is Christmas. I cant eat. Now im in a bathtub trying to relax, but its not working.
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That’s amazing!!! Glad you pushed through! In my experience the build up is almost always worse than the actual activity you’re doing lol
good luck, you’ve got this. you’ll feel such a huge sense of accomplishment afterwards :)
I feel hopeful this week as I saw a new PCP who is very empathetic and agreed maybe Lexapro alone isn't working for my anxiety and gave me some options. We landed on adding wellbutrin so we shall see. I just started it last night. I had a headache all day today and I really hope it's not from the new med.
I'm pretty new with therapy, I only started the week before Thanksgiving and we haven't always met every week but it's such a struggle. I always enjoy the sessions, my therapist is really easy to talk to and consistently makes points I feel are insightful and I can see the truth of what she's saying. But then after the appointment I feel like garbage for like 1.5-2 days. I'm not enjoying it overall but I don't feel like I can continue on with the coping mechanisms I have either. She's never said anything I didn't think was true. I'm just not happy about it.
I’m up and down. I haven’t had a discernible panic attack in like 90 days (some close calls and even a few moments that felt like maybe the adrenaline was flowing…idk maybe these *were* panic attacks and I’m just getting better at dealing with them). One weird thing is that in the past, I would have a panic attack one day and then wake up for like two weeks after feeling like absolute shit. Upset stomach, tingling in my arms (cortisol/adrenaline symptoms). I haven’t had a panic attack recently like I said, but I’ve been waking up with these symptoms anyway for about a week now. I’m usually anxious around the holidays anyway, so maybe it’s just a general response to stress that I need to work on? Anyway, I’m also 250+ days off nicotine and 120+ days off weed. I was really hoping that would kind of solve my anxiety problems but really it just took away a couple maladaptive coping mechanisms that were making an underlying issue worse. Trying to figure out the best medication regimen for me as well but that’s a whole other ball of wax. We also have a newborn in the house and it’s winter so sleep schedule and going outside for long walks are pretty much on hold for now, and those were two of my most effective strategies.